I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 529: Rhino in Love

"Boss Yi, do you still remember the lines from the play you said to me in front of the bed when we first met?"

He Wufei raised his head and asked.

"Oh, I remember, it's 'The Rhinoceros in Love'."

Su Chengyi nodded. He was actually not a drama fan, but he watched this play many times in a row.

People usually buy tickets for the last row and watch the actors perform passionately on the stage from afar, while the audience in the front rows are moved and cry.

But Su Chengyi in his previous life was emotionally indifferent, and he really couldn't fit into such a scene, nor could he understand the kind of crazy and desperate love that the script wanted to express.

However, he still bought tickets again and again, and watched the opening and closing of the theater in silence in a corner where the spotlight could not reach.

So, even at this moment, he could still recall many of the passages.

"A rhino in love?"

Chu Qingmian asked with some curiosity.

She had never seen the play, but was quickly intrigued by the title.

"Well, a few simple sentences don't seem to be enough to explain it."

Su Chengyi originally wanted to give her a brief summary of the plot, but after thinking about it, he felt that it was difficult to say.

"The protagonist is a rhino keeper who raises a rhino named Tula. He loves her and she loves him. It may sound cheesy, but it's actually a very poetic story."

"Yes."

He Wufei nodded, smiled, and repeated word for word the lines that Su Chengyi had read to him.

"Forget her, forget her and you won't have to endure it anymore, forget her and you won't have to suffer anymore.

Forget her, forget what you don’t have, forget what others have, forget what you have lost and can’t get in the future, forget hatred, forget humiliation, forget love.

Like a rhinoceros forgetting the grassland, like a water bird forgetting the lake, you who are in hell forgetting heaven, like an amputee forgetting that you used to be fast, like a fallen leaf forgetting the wind, like Tula forgetting the mother rhino.

Forgetting is the only thing most people can do. But I decided not to forget her. "

“After arriving in Beijing, I went to see this play.”

He Wufei sighed and continued:

"To be honest, I didn't feel that much when I watched it for the first time. I think it's probably because I've been numb for too long. The actors' performances were so tense that they became out of reach for me."

"Understandable."

Su Chengyi agreed very much with this. This was exactly how he felt when he watched the drama in his previous life.

“But I think this passage is well written.”

In sharp contrast to the two of them is Miss Chu Qingmian, who has always had a strong ability to empathize. In this short while, she has apparently imagined a poignant love story through this passage - about two real rhinos.

"On the vast African savannah, a silly and clumsy rhino named Tula fell in love with a beautiful female rhino and bravely fought against armed poachers for her."

Chu Qingmian explained her guess seriously.

Su Chengyi and He Wufei, who had watched the drama, both laughed out loud at this speculation.

After laughing, Su Chengyi cleared his throat and said:

“Although it’s abstract, what you said does make sense. “The Rhinoceros in Love”, after all, is just such a story.

I think Tula would say to the beautiful female rhino: Don’t be afraid, I will take you away, over the ponds, over the valleys, over the mountains and forests, over the clouds and the sea, over the sun, over the light clouds, over the boundless limits of the starry world, and above life.

Having said that, Su Chengyi rubbed Chu Qingmian's head and thought her eyes were really beautiful.

He Wufei remembered this line. After the male protagonist finished reading this line, he shot and killed the rhinoceros he had fed with his own hands, his only friend in this world.

Fortunately, Miss Chu Qingmian was not aware of the subsequent plot. She opened her bright eyes and imagined two rhinos running side by side on the endless African grassland. The setting sun hung on the long neck of the giraffe, and everything was full of vitality when the rainy season came.

Let her keep this impression, Su Chengyi thought, and for no reason he thought of the poem the hero wrote to the heroine.

All white things become ashamed of themselves as black ink compared to you, and all ignorant birds and beasts despair because they cannot pronounce your name.

At this moment, he finally understood the male protagonist's feelings a little.

It’s just that the heroine’s charm comes from the hero’s love, but Chu Qingmian is different, she is such a beautiful existence.

"After watching the show that day, I was walking home alone. The theater's sound equipment wasn't very good, and I could still feel a buzzing in my ears, echoing with the lines from the show."

He Wufei continued to say that in order to take time out to watch the drama, he worked overtime to finish his work, but he felt empty when walking on the road.

There was a place in my heart that had always been aching, but that night, the pain that had been bearable suddenly became intense, making me want to lie on the ground and cry.

In fact, he hadn't felt this way for a long time.

He lived his life pretending nothing had happened for so long that even he was fooled into thinking he had recovered.

"At that time, I thought of the lines in the play I just watched. The person who said these words was just a passerby. He said: What is worth living in this world? What answer can make us temporarily forget that this world is nothing but a pile of shit?"

"I couldn't answer this question at first, but later I got it. It was the clear pain every time I thought of Xu Zhihan that made me realize that I was still alive.

If you know that there is someone waiting for you at the end of your life, then what is there to fear about death? "

Having said that, He Wufei sighed softly, and his outline looked a little blurry in the sunlight.

"I think Xu Zhihan may still be alive. She has never really left. It's just that I'm unlucky and always miss the chance with her. Don't look at me with such pity as if I were a psychopath. I'm not suffering from delusional disorder."

Halfway through his speech, he quickly explained.

Although it seemed that there was no point in explaining it, the two people opposite him looked like they were about to make an appointment with a psychologist for him.

"I mean, I think of her when I see the first rays of sunlight in the morning, when I eat a bowl of steaming ramen after working overtime, and even when I catch the last second before the subway closes, I think of her.

The police at all the intersections turned on the green lights to let her pass smoothly, and all the correct compasses showed me where she was. It was as if all the good things in the world were related to her. Is it easy to understand this way? "

He Wufei explained carefully.

Su Chengyi and Chu Qingmian looked at each other and saw the meaning of "it's okay" in each other's eyes.

"So, when I saw the cat encyclopedia, she was the first person I thought of."

He Wufei scratched the back of his head and said a little embarrassedly.

"I'm sorry, I seldom talk about these things with others, so when I do, I tend to get all sentimental."

"You should talk to us more. This way, besides you, there will be a few more people in the world who still remember Xu Zhihan. Isn't that great?"

Su Chengyi thought about it and answered like this.

"Too."

He Wufei smiled with relief. The friends he met through Su Chengyi made him realize that in addition to Xu Zhihan, there were many other beautiful people in the world worth remembering.

"Regarding the cat encyclopedia, I will work hard with Xu Zhihan's copy."

Chu Qingmian said with a smile.

“Although I have never actually met her, I always feel like I have gained a lot of strength from here!”

She then waved her fist with great force, like a soldier waving an attacking flag.

Su Chengyi looked at her and wanted to laugh. In fact, once someone like her decided what to do, the courage and determination that burst out from the bottom of her heart would make the whole world give in to her.

Lunch break.

Su Chengyi and Chu Qingmian were taking a walk in a nearby park.

The boulevard was covered with shades of trees, and the water in the pond was rippling with green waves. Even though the capital city needed a high temperature warning today, it was still relatively cool here.

The ice cream stand at the door was not doing much business today. The vendor was hunched over in a recliner, listening to the radio and feeling drowsy, until he was impatiently woken up by a young lady.

"Oh, oh, how did you come up with the idea of ​​reading that line to He Wufei?"

Chu Qingmian held an ice cream in one hand, fighting the countdown of the melting ice cream while not forgetting to talk to Su Chengyi.

This is a chatterbox who is still alive, Su Cheng thought.

He had finished his own quickly because he was very aware of the dangers and didn't want the melted cream of the ice cream to flow onto his hands.

Chu Qingmian wanted both chocolate flavor and matcha flavor, so she had to buy two at a time.

Su Chengyi finished his strawberry flavor and refused to share it with her, so she could only fight alone.

“I just felt that the scene was very appropriate at that time.”

"What scene?"

"Like he said, after Xu Zhihan got into trouble, everyone advised him to just forget about her and that time would heal all the pain."

Su Chengyi replied.

"But I didn't want to say that, so I read that line and told him not to forget her."

"That's great."

Chu Qingmian curved her eyes and smiled, the ends of her hair forming a gentle arc in the breeze.

"Only you can say such words. If it were me, I would probably just say some unrealistic words of comfort like everyone else."

"Is it."

Su Chengyi responded, looked up, and saw the wind blowing through the treetops.

There was actually another reason why he said that at that time, and that was that he was reborn, and he knew that maybe one day He Wufei would be able to wait for a turning point.

Well, even for such a slim chance, we should try to live on.

The creator of "Rhino in Love" once said that people can be as brave as "rhinos", even if it hurts a lot. It depends on whether you dare to feel the pain again after you have experienced it.

He Wufei is like such a stubborn rhinoceros. The memory of Xu Zhihan is a burning stone, but he insists on moving forward with the stone in his arms, risking being burned.

At this time, Chu Qingmian finally finished eating the chocolate cone. The cone made a crisp "crunching" sound as she chewed it, but there was still one left that she couldn't finish.

Seeing her eyes asking for help, Su Chengyi had no choice but to lower his head and open his mouth to swallow the remaining half of the matcha ice cream cone in her hand.

The cream mixed with the flavor of tea melted in his mouth. Su Chengyi felt his tongue was a little numb from the cold, and it took him a long time to regain consciousness.

"I really like the lines in this play! If we have the chance someday, let's go watch it together!"

Chu Qingmian said happily that the problem with ice cream had been solved.

"You should go to the zoo and watch rhinos rolling in the mud."

In order to avoid ruining her beautiful fantasy, Su Chengyi said this.

Chu Qingmian felt that he was looking down on her and pouted in protest.

"I've watched the play before, too!"

"for example?"

"For example. Thunderstorm, hahahahaha!!"

Chu Qingmian couldn't help laughing when he heard what she said.

"It's you! It's you who led me down a path where I'm neither a mother nor a mistress! It's you who seduced me!"

Chu Qingmian's acting urge came back, and she recited the lines from Thunderstorm in a tragic tone.

"It looks like this young boss of Wake Up Entertainment can make his acting debut."

Su Chengyi reached out and tapped her forehead.

"Humph."

Chu Qingmian clenched his fingers, and the dimples at the corners of her mouth were faintly visible.

"Su Chengyi, I am always so happy when I am with you. It seems that the weather is not so hot anymore and the cicadas are not noisy anymore!"

"Fool."

"certainly not."

Chu Qingmian blinked.

She was telling the truth. To be honest, she hasn't been having a good time recently.

Chu Yuanjiang was so busy that he could only call occasionally. Wei Peilan had been working abroad, but recently returned to China unusually. All signs indicated that something must have gone wrong in the group.

Although no one explained to Chu Qingmian what had happened, the silent and invisible pressure still made her feel a little breathless.

Chu Qingmian's problem of his brain going blank whenever he encountered a difficult problem still occurred from time to time. Everything seemed to him as clear and boring as black and white.

Only when Su Chengyi was around did her world become colorful again.

Of course, Chu Qingmian would not tell Su Chengyi these words, as she did not want to put him in a bad mood.

From childhood to adulthood, Chu Qingmian actually didn’t think of herself as a “little sun” kind of character. She was just good at hiding those pessimistic emotions.

Only when she is with Su Chengyi does she wish that she could always be that carefree, energetic little sun.

So at this moment, she concealed all those troubled and chaotic thoughts, just raised her face and asked with a smile:

"Are there any lines in "Rhinoceros in Love" that you would like to share with me?"

"Lines?"

Su Chengyi listened to the rustling sound of leaves above his head being blown by the wind. The azure blue sky was cut into irregular shapes in the gaps between the intertwined leaves.

The sunlight passes through it in dappled patterns, just like the starry sky in midsummer.

So, there is no need to think hard about it, the line just comes out naturally.

"You are different, unique, soft, clean, like the sky.

You are my warm gloves, my cold beer, my shirt that smells like sunshine, my dream day in and day out."

Su Chengyi lowered his head. Chu Qingmian was listening to him attentively.

Her eyes were clean and clear, like the glacier closest to the pole in the Arctic Ocean, reflecting the transparent color of glass.

“The sunlight passes through you, but changes its direction.”

(End of this chapter)