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Chapter 445 I Don’t Want to Be a Frog

Chang Yan continued to deceive him: "That's called memory distortion. Your brain is afraid that you'll die, so it has found a way to stimulate your desire to survive. It twists and splices things that happened in the past together to make you think they really happened, but they're not. If you don't believe it, think about it carefully and you'll see what's happening. The more you think about it, the more confused you'll be, because these things didn't exist at all. They were all fabricated by your brain using real memories from the past."

Yu Yi was in a headache because of what she said. Was it true? She said it as if it was true. Could it be that she was just imagining it?

Yu Yi still didn't quite believe it, and asked again: "Shang Shang, let me hold your hand, then I'll know if it's true."

Again?

Not only did Chang Yan not refuse, he also took the initiative to extend his hand: "Here is your hand."

Yu Yi blinked and his mind went blank for a moment.

How can it be?

The only few times we held hands were when he forced us to do so, and basically it was after I was beaten.

How could it be so easy?

Yu Yi felt like he was really dreaming. How could something impossible happen?

When it really came to this, he no longer believed it and was afraid to do so.

"Madman, what, did you find yourself dreaming?"

"Well, I must be dreaming."

Yu Yi stretched out his hand hesitantly.

It’s worth dreaming about.

Yu Yi grabbed the hand that was extended to him. His fingers were injured and it hurt when he touched them, but the touch and temperature of his hand made him open his eyes wide: "Really? I'm not dreaming?"

Chang Yan was in a much better mood and said lazily, "I told you that you were crazy, but you refused to accept it and insisted on being a fool."

Yu Yi's face flushed instantly, and he blinked in disbelief: "It feels like a dream. Why is Shang Shang back again?"

Chang Yan spoke the truth: "I didn't expect that you were so grief-stricken. If I hadn't come, you wouldn't have made it to the operating room for rescue."

Yu Yi smiled awkwardly: "It seems that I am not destined to die."

I chose to give up, but things turned around. It was my destiny.

Yu Yi still has a lot of questions. He feels that now is a good opportunity. If he doesn’t figure out why, he will be very passive and don’t know where to start.

"Shang Shang, why is it that after you come back from abroad, you are so determined and become more and more indifferent each time?"

He was very worried that he might not be able to keep her next time.

Kong Ningzhu also listened attentively. She also wanted to know why. Would her son's life be better after solving this problem?

"Because - there is fate but no destiny, there is destiny but no fate. This little bit of fate is what you asked for, and it will eventually run out."

Chang Yan withdrew his hand and said softly.

Yu Yi didn't understand. This was not a reasonable reason. It had no factual basis. His hands felt empty, as if his heart was empty too. "Since I can pray for a shallow fate, why can't I pray for a deep fate? Why can't I have points, and make up for the fate and the points?" "Why are you so stubborn? Why do you have to do this?"

"It has to be this way. You told me to give up, my mother told me to give up, my friends told me to give up, everyone told me to give up. But I don't want to give up. I want to be with you day and night, for a long time. Obviously this process is not easy, but I feel happy. Shang Shang, do you want to travel around the world?"

"Do you want to give up your ideals and ambitions?"

"Feelings are important, and so are ideals. Although I don't know why you want to travel around the world, I really want to drop everything and go with you, but I can't. Mother needs me to live out her days. After this car accident, the risk of having one child is still too great. I have to persuade my mother to adopt two more, preferably a brother and a sister. If I have another accident, at least someone will accompany my mother in her later years. I also have to fulfill my ideal, which is what I decided to do after seeing this story when I was a teenager. I don't ask to surpass Mr. Owen, but to emulate him and gain more breathing space. So, you decided to travel around the world after graduation. I won't go with you now, but I promise you that I will always wait for you to come back."

Maybe this is the best outcome. At least, before they are separated for a long time, including college, he has at least 5 years. He can still see her during these 5 years.

Yu Yi thought a lot, but still couldn't figure out why Chang Yan did this. This reason, Chang Yan always avoided, he knew she wouldn't tell it. This reason was the reason that prompted her to go out all the time.

Today is a confession.

Chang Yan was satisfied with Yu Yi's actions. If he gave up everything and followed her, she would abandon him in a foreign country and cut off all contact.

Since Yu Yi had started it, Chang Yan took over.

"I've told you before that I won't consider further intimacy, so I'll tell you again here. I hope you won't have unnecessary fantasies. You'll waste your time in vain."

Yu Yi coughed twice, "To pursue you, I have to be clear-headed. Although love is not the whole of life, it is a very important part. It would be best if we can be happy and satisfied. If not, it doesn't matter. Regrets are also part of life. I don't go with the flow and let things go. I know what I want and do my best for it. It's not wasting myself, but honing myself. It's just that I didn't live the happy life that everyone thinks, but it's another opportunity."

"So, what's the point of persistence?"

"Shang Shang asked me this because he never viewed me as an equal. Maybe it's because I'm young. Even though I have my own opinions, can analyze rationally, have ideals and plans, and have my own unique insights. Is Shang Shang worried that he won't be able to persist and be impressed by me?"

"What a joke! What are you trying to do to me? I rejected you when I wanted to. You came close to me, can't I just push you away?"

"But you clearly promised me that you would not draw a line between you and me."

"Is this why you offend me?"

"I... I'm too scared. If I don't hold you, you will get further and further away from me. Even the special place I hold in your heart will no longer exist. I'm sorry, Shang Shang, I'm sorry, I was wrong before."

"So, would you still do this?"

"……meeting."

He didn't really want to say it, but when talking frankly, he had to avoid even the slightest bit of dodging and absolutely could not lie.

"Oh, you never change your bad habits."

Chang Yan knew that Yu Yi would definitely admit his mistake and say sorry, but there would be a next time, and he would definitely dare to do it next time.

Yu Yi looked at her intently, not wanting to miss any of her smiles, frowns, or sidelong glances. He recalled the first time they met. He must have seen each other a long time ago, but he never paid attention to her. Until he happened to pass by and saw her alone there, as if she was asleep. Since then, it has been hard not to notice her. Now, as long as she appears, he can't see anyone else. This feeling is very special. Maybe it is the love that everyone longs for.

"Shang Shang, can you tell me what you were thinking about during those eight minutes?"

She softened her heart afterwards and let him do what he wanted. Does this mean that her heart beat faster for him too?

"I don't want to be a frog in boiling water."

When he got off the bus, Chang Yan had already made up his mind. It was only because he showed up that this happened.