Don’t be a licking dog when you are reborn.

Chapter 154 I just don’t want to miss you (2 in 1)

When the monsoon was driving towards home.

Ji Guangxun, who bought a new fishing rod, also returned home at this time, carrying a big carp in his hand.

Judging by the smile on his face, you knew there was no air force today.

When he saw Gu Xueting's shoes at the door, Lao Ji was slightly startled. He didn't notice whether Ji Feng's shoes were there, he just thought it was his son who came with his girlfriend.

The tone is a little more festive:

"Did Xiaofeng bring his girlfriend back?"

No one responded to Lao Ji's question. When he stretched his head to look towards the living room, he almost couldn't hold the fish in his hand.

"Ah? What's the matter..."

Lao Ji didn't say the word "you", but luckily he held it back.

Gu Xueting's appearance is indeed somewhat similar to Li Lingqi's.

Dong Kaihui saw Lao Ji in a daze and thought she was missing someone else, so she immediately gave him a fierce look.

Lao Ji stood there for a while, scratched his head, and put down the fishing rod.

"Tingting is here..."

"Hello, uncle." Gu Xueting also stood up and nodded politely.

After a semester of college life, I saw the monsoon, the warmth, the late autumn, and many, many people who were as good as her, or even better than her.

Today, Gu Xueting is much more restrained, and the squeamishness she once had has long since disappeared.

She was already beautiful, but now that she was less arrogant, she was actually a bit more feminine.

Gu Xueting was also a little embarrassed. She wanted to find something to talk about. When she saw the fish in Lao Ji's hand, she said:

"Where did uncle buy the fish? It's quite fresh."

You bought the fish, right?

good good!

As soon as Gu Xueting opened her mouth, she killed Lao Ji on the spot.

The corner of Lao Ji's mouth twitched, looking at his wife's snickering expression, he held it in for a long time before he said faintly:

"You and your mother are so alike, both are good at talking."

Gu Xueting:? ? ?

Is this a compliment?

"I'll kill the fish first and dry it while we chat first."

"Ok."

Ji Guangxun carried the fish into the kitchen, put on an apron, and knocked the fish unconscious with one knife.

Lao Ji's eyes were cold and his heart was fierce.

"The fish I bought! The fish I bought! The fish I bought..."

Boom boom boom!

The sound of the kitchen knife cutting into the chopping board was heard endlessly, and Gu Xueting outside the door suddenly felt a little frightened.

"Uncle, he..."

"Don't worry about him, he's like this. Come on, eat some melon seeds."

Dong Kaihui pushed the melon seeds in front of her towards Gu Xueting.

Gu Xueting pursed her lips, but still shook her head:

"No, aunt, I just want to watch TV for a while."

"Then I'm going to get some food. Please sit down for a while. Xiaofeng should be back in a while."

"Will he come back?"

"Well, he said it back."

After hearing Dong Kaihui's confirmation that Ji Feng would come back for dinner, Gu Xueting lowered her head silently and couldn't help but feel much warmer.

Although she also knew that she shouldn't be like this, she shouldn't be tempted bit by bit like this.

But she really couldn't help it, she just wanted to see Ji Feng.

My phone was blocked by Monsoon.

She is coming to tell Ji Feng about the class reunion.

But I didn’t have any good ideas, so I told my mother Li Lingqi about it.

Li Lingqi asked her to prepare some cheap cigarettes and alcohol, which were not expensive, just to visit her friends on her behalf. Ji Guangxun and Dong Kaihui were both her friends.

While visiting friends on behalf of my parents, I wanted to tell you about the Monsoon Middle School class reunion.

It makes sense to come here in person, right?

Gu Xueting kept comforting herself, which would make her feel less guilty.

She glanced at the time on her phone.

It's already past 6 o'clock, and I don't know when the monsoon will come back.

Thinking back on it, Ji Feng bought this phone for her.

It’s just that things are different and people are different...

After Ji Guangxun took care of the fish, he was kicked out by Dong Kaihui because he was in the way.

Then Lao Ji, like Dong Kaihui, sat next to Gu Xueting with a stiff expression.

My son had made it clear to them before.

The relationship between him and Gu Xueting has become a thing of the past, and it is an impossible one. His current girlfriend is called Nuan Nuan.

This resulted in the whole family being silent, not knowing what to say.

And Lao Ji is also very worried. What will happen if the monsoon brings warmth back tonight?

In order to avoid chatting, Ji Guangxun deliberately sat far away.

But Gu Xueting was clearly prepared today. She pointed to the cigarettes and wine she had just put aside:

"Uncle, my mother asked me to buy this. She said you liked it before."

"Tingting, you are so polite. Come as soon as you come and bring something with you."

"It's not expensive, it's just a token of appreciation, and it's my mother's wish. Uncle can take a look."

When it comes to Li Lingqi, Lao Ji is a little embarrassed. After all, they had a long relationship before.

Gu Xueting mentioned twice that these were Li Lingqi's wishes.

"Okay, let me take a look."

Lao Ji stood up helplessly, walked to the gift bags brought by Gu Xueting, and slowly opened the red bags.

At first it was red date porridge, bulk wine, some milk, health products and the like.

Seeing these things, Ji Guangxun just smiled indifferently.

He didn't say anything, but when he saw the cigarettes wrapped in yellow leather, the calm old Ji was obviously stunned.

It seemed that the memories pulled his thoughts away and made him fall into the past.

After a while, he calmed down.

Cross the river.

A very old cigarette that has almost been discontinued.

This cigarette has no special features. If I have to say it, it has a soft entrance and the price is cheap. It costs 2 yuan a pack. If you buy it in a stick, a cigarette costs 7-25 yuan.

As Gu Xueting said, they are all very cheap things.

They are all things that seem worth "missing".

But are these things really worth remembering?

"Uncle Ji?"

"Ah, I'm sorry, Tingting, I was distracted."

"these things……"

Ji Guangxun showed a smile that he didn't know how to describe. Although it couldn't be said to be regretful or painful, it definitely wasn't happy either.

Gu Xueting could see this even if her ability to observe words and emotions was not strong at all.

"Well, uncle doesn't like it?"

"Oh, that's not true. Your mother really wanted you to buy these. It's just that some things may not be what she imagined."

Seeing Ji Guangxun say this, Gu Xueting was at a loss.

"What do you mean uncle?"

"Did you know that your mother and I had a history?"

"I know, my mother told me a while ago."

Ji Guangxun touched his pocket and took out his cigarette:

"Do you mind smoking?"

"I don't mind." Gu Xueting shook her head.

Seeing that Gu Xueting agreed, Ji Guangxun slowly lit up the cigarette.

The process of procrastination is like remembering, and also like sorting out your thoughts:

"These things your mother asked you to bring are actually things I ate, smoked, and used when we were together.

That is a very unforgettable relationship, and it may also be a very good memory for your mother, so she will remember these things. "

Gu Xueting opened her mouth. No matter how slow she was, she could tell there was something wrong in Ji Guangxun's words.

"What uncle means is..."

"Actually, these so-called things I 'like' are not things I like.

I smoked because I had no money and was under a lot of pressure when I was with your mother.

The reason for smoking Dujiang is also very simple, because the cigarettes are cheap.

It's not that I like to smoke across the river, I just smoke it because it's cheap. "

Gu Xueting: "Uh..."

It seemed that these delivered things reminded Lao Ji of those long-lost past events.

It also allowed him to let out the words that he had hidden in his heart and wanted to say but had not said out loud.

“I don’t like drinking bulk wine, but it’s cheap and I can fall asleep quickly after drinking it.

As for the red date porridge, it’s because your mother is anemic, so I’ll give her a cup of it to replenish her body. "

"So, is that so..." Gu Xueting tightened her hand unnaturally.

"Yes, that's it. She likes to go to concerts, dance, and I know everything she likes to eat and drink.

But the past that your mother misses is actually just a filter of memories.

She only remembered my good qualities, but never understood what I really liked.

I like fishing, I like collecting fine wine, and I like plating walnuts.

I've been with her for several years and she doesn't know any of these things.

But I have been with your Aunt Dong for half a year, and she knows everything. She can even guess my taste. Can you understand what I mean? "

"Mom didn't mean that, she just..."

"It doesn't matter whether you mean it or not, Tingting, so many years have passed and we have already gotten married and started a business, so we are very old.

No matter how unwilling I feel, it all happened 20 years ago.

Look at you, you are already in college, and we have long since let go of those regrets in the past.

I have let it go a long time ago, and I hope your mother can let it go too. "

"It's mom, can't you let it go..."

"Haha, let me tell you young people, in a relationship, the person being loved is always confident, just like your mother.

But if one day that person lets go, the reason is very simple, that is, he doesn't love you anymore. You should understand what I mean. "

Gu Xueting froze on the spot.

For a moment, she couldn't tell whether the person Ji Guangxun was talking about was her mother or her.

Obviously, this was an awkward conversation.

"I know uncle, I will convey it."

Ji Guangxun smiled and swallowed, unfathomable.

Then hide the expression in smoke.

Yeah, he's just talking about a relationship.

Who knows whether he is talking about Ji Guangxun and Li Lingqi, or Ji Feng and Gu Xueting?

While Gu Xueting was complaining about her autism, Ji Guangxun suddenly changed the subject:

"Ha, I just said this, don't take it seriously, but your mother really shouldn't give these things, it's more or less inappropriate."

"Forehead……"

"Okay, okay, I, an old man, really shouldn't be telling you this, haha, it's embarrassing."

Ji Guangxun laughed and revealed the matter.

Click!

The door lock was opened at this moment. When she heard the sound, Gu Xueting immediately stood up and looked towards the door.

Ji Feng came back carrying some cooked food.

He remembered that his parents liked to eat pork head meat. They didn’t have much time at home, so they spent more time with them when they could.

"I am back."

"Monsoon..."

Gu Xueting wanted to say hello to Ji Feng, but when she saw the strawberry mark on Ji Feng's neck, she was startled.

At this moment, she seemed to see Wen Nuan hugging Ji Feng's neck.

As if seeing Nuan Nuan with a faint smile, he looked back at her and smiled.

That kind of picture is so clear.

While Gu Xueting was still dazed, Ji Feng had already walked to the living room and sat down. He acted very indifferently to Gu Xueting:

"Gu Xueting, you probably just came back today, right?"

"Uh, um, I came back in the morning."

Gu Xueting lowered her head, not knowing how to respond to Ji Feng's eyes.

When Lao Ji saw this scene, he chuckled and shook his head slightly.

"He is indeed my son." Lao Ji felt clear in his heart.

"It's time to eat!"

Dong Kaihui came out with a pot of braised pork, turned around and winked at Lao Ji:

"Lao Ji, bring the dishes."

"Oh, okay."

"Ah, I'm going to help too."

"Alas, Tingting, you are a guest, how can I let you go? Sit down quickly, Xiaofeng, you go."

Ji Feng took off his coat, washed his hands calmly, and took the dishes and chopsticks over.

Four people gathered around the table, a common meal.

However, Ji Feng didn't expect that the girl who came to his home first this year was not Nuan Wen, but Gu Xueting.

He vaguely guessed Gu Xueting's purpose of coming, but he had no intention of speaking to her and just ate in silence.

Ji Feng's family doesn't have any rules about not talking during meals.

But he didn't speak, leaving only Ji Guangxun and Dong Kaihui chatting awkwardly.

But Gu Xueting is here after all, and the atmosphere is somewhat awkward.

Ji Feng has been eating with Nuan Nuan all afternoon. Now he is not hungry at all, so he doesn't eat much.

Gu Xueting wanted to speak several times, but she never met Ji Feng's eyes.

After a few times, her head was almost on the table.

"Tingting, eat more vegetables. Why are you thinner than before after you went to college?" Dong Kaihui advised.

Gu Xueting felt much better after Dong Kaihui said something. She raised her head and showed a generous smile.

"Thank you auntie."

"Ji Feng, Zhang Di and the others have organized a reunion for middle school classmates. It will be on the afternoon of the 28th. Will you go then?"

Gu Xueting was worried that Ji Feng would not agree, so she quickly added:

"Many people went to this class reunion, including classmates who used to play with us, Dou Ding, and..."

Having already promised Wang Jing and Zhu Mingyu before, there is no need to show off at this time.

"Okay, I'll go."

"Uh? Ji Feng, you..."

Gu Xueting was stunned. She originally thought that Ji Feng would reject her invitation, and she had even thought of her words after being rejected.

But he didn't expect Ji Feng to agree so simply and directly.

She hadn't even finished speaking.

"Let's eat." "Ah, yes."

Gu Xueting felt a little bored. She thought she would have a lot to say to Ji Feng about the class reunion, both good and bad.

But I didn't expect it to end in such an ordinary way.

Their current relationship seems to have turned into greed even if they say a few words.

"I'm full." Gu Xueting put down her chopsticks.

Dong Kaihui glanced at Ji Feng, who was pretending to be dead. She was really convinced by this bitch who refused to speak.

If he doesn't speak anymore, then she, the mother, will take action!

"Tingting won't eat more?"

"No, auntie, I have to control my weight."

"Oh, that's what you young people are like, you only want style, not body."

"I practice dancing and need to stay in shape."

"Oh, by the way, I heard from Xiaofeng that he opened a company. What this guy said was quite weird, saying it was an Internet company.

I can’t believe a few words anyway. You and he are in the same school, do you know anything about it? Could he be cheated? "

Phew, cough cough cough!

Ji Feng, who was drinking soup, almost choked.

He rolled his eyes, but felt a little helpless. His own mother really didn't suffer at all.

He understands his mother's thoughts very well, and after all, he still feels sorry for his son. .

Gu Xueting had bullied his son for many years. She saw it in her eyes and felt anxious in her heart.

In the past, Dong Kaihui was beaten and scolded.

Ji Feng is ignorant, and she can't really beat her son to death.

Coupled with the stories between Lao Ji and Li Lingqi, these old and new grudges must be put together.

Now that her son has taken off, she, as a mother, must not show off too much?

However, Ji Feng still felt that Dong Kaihui's pretentiousness was too crude and obvious.

Oh, forget it, who made her the biological mother?

If a son in a village showed promise, his mother would definitely go to the village entrance to tell him about it.

Just let her!

Gu Xueting was also stunned when she was asked, and her expression suddenly became a little strange. She glanced at Dong Kaihui, but she only saw expectation on Dong Kaihui's face.

That is what a mother hopes for her son.

Pretty normal, right?

"Well, Ji Feng and Wen Nuan did open a company called Zhijian Future. This company is very famous in our school.

But he is relatively low-key and not a familiar person. Many people don't know that Ji Feng is the boss of Fingertips. He... is indeed very powerful. "

Gu Xueting didn't brag too much, she just told the truth.

Monsoon is indeed powerful, but none of this belongs to her.

Or even put it another way.

She, Gu Xueting, is stupid and blind.

It was because she was stupid that she did so many stupid things, and it was because she was blind that she missed the monsoon.

"Really? I thought this guy was bragging to me."

Ji Feng:……

Dong Kaihui is very proud.

Ji Guangxun silently poked Dong Kaihui and told her not to go too far. They were all children.

But Dong Kaihui lowered his voice and whispered next to Lao Ji:

"I was eavesdropping on what you just said to her in the kitchen. If your performance is not bad, give me the box of red date porridge. Do you hear that?"

Ji Guangxun finally became silent now, and the corners of his mouth twitched.

"Row……"

It's no wonder that the old couple have resentments in their hearts. In fact, the grievances between the two families have continued from the previous generation to this generation.

If it weren't for Ji Feng's sudden awakening.

It's hard to say what will happen to their family.

Gu Xueting lowered her head and held her hands together, mustering up her courage:

"Uncle, aunt, we've finished our meal and told Ji Feng what I wanted to tell you.

As for the past... what happened in the past was that I was not good, very bad, I'm sorry. "

Seeing Gu Xueting bowing and apologizing, Dong Kaihui was startled, and she glanced at Ji Feng.

Seeing Ji Feng just shaking his head slightly, he sighed:

"Forget it, it's all about children, let's get over it."

Dong Kaihui is like this, she feels sorry for her son.

A mother hates to see her son suffer, but if her son doesn't care, then she has nothing to say.

The mouth is not a knife, but the heart is real.

Ji Guangxun on the other side lit a cigarette for himself, made a farewell gesture to Ji Feng beside him, and then ran to the balcony to smoke alone without saying anything.

Gu Xueting herself seemed to have regained her former courage and pride at this moment. She raised her eyes to look at Ji Feng and asked calmly:

"Ji Feng, can you see me off?"

Ji Feng was stunned for a moment. He originally meant to give it away, but Lao Ji also spoke.

I just didn't expect Gu Xueting to ask this question suddenly.

Seeing that he remained silent, Gu Xueting's bright eyes gradually dimmed.

She turned towards the shoe cabinet and was about to change her shoes and leave when Ji Feng finally spoke:

"Okay, I'll give it to you."

During tonight's meal, Ji Feng ate little, talked little, and looked like he didn't want to pay attention to anyone.

Gu Xueting was already prepared to be rejected. She was almost used to Ji Feng's rejection.

Now that Ji Feng agreed, it became an unexpected surprise for her.

"Thank you."

"You're welcome, you're not safe as a girl at night."

The reasons are familiar, the words are familiar.

Once upon a time, Ji Feng said such words countless times, but Gu Xueting didn't take it to heart at that time.

"sorry."

The "I'm sorry" just now was to Ji Feng's parents, and this sentence is to Ji Feng.

She has said sorry to Ji Feng many times.

But no matter how many times I say it, it makes no sense.

Ji Feng put on his coat again.

Gu Xueting stared at him silently for a few seconds. Unknowingly, Ji Feng had become very handsome.

Looks like an adult...

"Ah."

The two of them went downstairs one after another, Ji Feng always walking in front, while Gu Xueting followed silently behind.

The change of location, time and past are very sad.

"Monsoon." Gu Xueting suddenly called out as she walked to the door of the parking lot.

"Ok?"

Ji Feng turned his head and looked at Gu Xueting standing in the wind with calm eyes.

He felt that Gu Xueting had something to say, but Gu Xueting just pursed her lips:

"First, get in the car."

"it is good."

Although Ji Feng was a little confused, he had no intention of asking. He was not very curious about Gu Xueting's affairs.

Walking to the Audi car, Ji Feng politely opened the back seat door.

But Gu Xueting stopped at this moment:

"Can I sit in the front?"

"?"

"just one time."

Gu Xueting took a step forward, and Ji Feng frowned and took a step back.

He didn't know what Gu Xueting meant, so he could only remain silent.

"..."

"Please, just this once."

Seeing Gu Xueting's pleading look, Ji Feng sighed and finally shook his head:

"It's not like this. There are many people sitting in the passenger seat. Get in the car."

Ji Feng's release made Gu Xueting instantly show off.

But Ji Feng just silently missed Gu Xueting and came to the driver's seat.

Start the car.

The red Audi slowly drove out of the community.

The distance between the two families is not very close, so they have to go through a long section of the city's main highway.

On the busy highway, both of them were silent.

Ji Feng drove the car calmly. He just hoped to get to Gu Xueting's house quickly.

Gu Xueting, on the other hand, was holding a ball of paper in her hand, pulling it off bit by bit, breaking it, and then holding it in her hand again.

Her heart was like this piece of paper, being crushed bit by bit and then clenched together again.

The tense atmosphere lasted for about 5 minutes.

In the end, Gu Xueting reopened the topic:

"Monsoon."

"Ok?"

"Actually, there are things I've always wanted to say to you, but I never had the chance."

She seemed to have made all preparations for today's conversation, and it was rare that Ji Feng didn't get slapped in the face this time.

Now he is already calm:

"Go ahead."

"After you deleted all my contact information, during that time, my friends said that I was finally free and that I finally became the happy and lively person again.

Out of the sea of ​​suffering, everything can start again. "

"Very good." Ji Feng nodded in agreement.

But Gu Xueting shook her head directly:

“It’s not that good, they don’t know that I actually want to be by your side all the time.

But I really have no choice but to keep pestering people who don’t like me.

And I also understand that even if I become what you like, I am not the person you like.

You already have warmth, I can’t remain shameless..."

Ji Feng was stunned for a moment when he heard this. His words seemed much more mature than before.

"It's good that you think so."

The car stopped at a red light.

Gu Xueting hesitated for a few seconds:

"Can you remove me from the blacklist? I won't harass you anymore."

"it is good."

Seeing Ji Feng's promise, Gu Xueting's tear glands suddenly became a little unbearable. She wiped it with the torn paper in her hand and continued to smile:

"I've always felt...

I have missed the spring breeze and the summer breeze, I have missed the autumn fruits and the winter snow. After I miss it, I will still meet again. "

Ji Feng hasn't had a normal chat with Gu Xueting for a long time. Today he gave a rare response:

"Before? What about later?"

Gu Xueting smiled bitterly:

"Later, later I found out...

After meeting, you will still miss it. In the end, you will miss the beauty of spring and autumn, leaving only the summer wind and winter snow.

If you missed it, you really missed it. "

Ji Feng smiled and said nothing.

Originally, Gu Xueting was still silent in her affectionate words, but when she saw Ji Feng's expression, she suddenly became anxious:

"Ji Feng, don't you believe what I said?"

"I believe it, but I still think you don't have to be so affectionate."

"why?"

Ji Feng, who was driving, raised the corners of his mouth slightly, but his smile was not friendly:

“Only after a person has lost something will he remember the good things he once had.

It’s normal for you to miss that past because you feel they were beautiful, but what I saw was different…”

Gu Xueting pursed her lips:

"Ji Feng, what is that past you saw?"

"I only saw your belittlement and contempt when I confessed my love, and your PUA when I was sad. If my attitude towards you never changed, would you still be like this?

No, you will enjoy my pleasure in peace.

You won't take me seriously, you will just treat me like a bull and a clown to tease your new boyfriend.

Take everything from me as it should be.

So for me, it’s good to miss it. "

Ji Feng's words were like knives. Gu Xueting was stunned in her seat, and for a moment she didn't know how to refute.

She suddenly remembered what Ji Guangxun said to her before.

What she thought was beautiful was just beautiful to her.

They had given up long ago, and they were the ones who couldn't let go.

When we arrived at the place, the car stopped at the entrance of the community and did not continue driving inside.

Gu Xueting suddenly woke up and looked at Ji Feng.

What she just said had such a great impact on her that her original thoughts and speaking rhythm were disrupted.

When she saw the door of her house, she started to panic:

"Ji Feng, do you want to come up and sit down? My mother also said that I haven't seen you for a long time."

"No, say hello to Aunt Li for me."

"My dog ​​recently gave birth to puppies..."

"I don't like dogs."

"My cat can dance..."

"I'm allergic to cat hair."

"I……"

"Gu Xueting, you really don't need to be so humble. You have always been outstanding and are like a princess in the class.

Being too humble will make a person lose his bottom line. Please respect me and yourself. "

Gu Xueting lowered her head.

It's like this when you like her to the point of being humble. Even if you care about her, you have to be cautious for fear of being disliked by him.

It's just that the previous roles have changed.

"Sorry……"

Before they could even say "I just don't want to miss you", the beep of their mobile phone interrupted the two of them.

Drip!

Ji Feng picked up the phone.

The top message is obviously warm.

The content of the message is also very simple, with only one picture, which is a piece of paper on a notebook.

It was stuck in the math book I used to make up for classes.

Looks like it's well kept.

Ji Feng suddenly showed a smile, it was the study notes that were torn off by Nuan Nuan:

[I can miss anyone, but I don’t want to miss you, because mistakes can be corrected, but if you miss them, they are really gone. 】

[To put it bluntly, you are worthy and important. I really like you. 】

[I hope we can walk together in the future, whether you like me or not, but I have decided...]

[Ji Feng, I’m going to the Magic City to find you. 】

(End of this chapter)