Don’t be a licking dog when you are reborn.

Chapter 155 All the pain is deserved (2 in 1)

Ji Feng was moved by the sincerity and enthusiasm of the autistic girl.

Yes, she knew what she wanted from the beginning and pursued it consistently, never wavering in her emotions.

In this regard, even Ji Feng himself feels ashamed.

Pick up the phone and reply:

[Even Qingbei has given up. No wonder they are so stunned that they don’t hold an umbrella when it rains. 】

[I scored 705 in the college entrance examination (proud)]

[You don’t know how to hold an umbrella when it rains. 】

【I am the number one in Pearl City!】

[You don’t know how to hold an umbrella when it rains. 】

【(angry)(angry)(angry)】

【Are you free? 】

[No time, I have a work meeting later. 】

[OK, then you go ahead and I’ll drive. 】

While Ji Feng was staring at his phone, Gu Xueting was also staring at his phone screen.

This doesn't seem to be the first time she's done this.

But it seemed like every result made her feel heartbroken.

[That can only be eaten by me], is this a warm new WeChat name?

She knew that Ji Feng had recently changed the online name she had used for many years, from "Summer Wind" to "Buying Too Much Food".

At that time, she thought the online name was quite silly.

But now when she saw Nuan Nuan's name, she realized that the stupidity she felt was just dog food spread by Ji Feng and Nuan Nuan.

Their sweetness has long been spread in places no one knows.

Take root, sprout, blossom and bear fruit.

As for the content of the text message, I just took a glance at it and found it boring.

It's not the monsoon that's boring.

Nor is it a love message sent by Nuan Nuan to Ji Feng.

But herself.

It was what she wanted to say, "I just don't want to miss you."

She didn't want to miss the monsoon because she realized the goodness of the monsoon belatedly.

But just as Ji Feng said.

What if it's not found?

Will I still cherish all of this? Maybe, maybe not.

But the warm attitude was different from hers from beginning to end.

She couldn't be sure when Nuan Nuan wrote these words, but from the last sentence on the piece of paper [Ji Feng, I'm going to the Magic City to find you. 】You can see it.

This piece of paper was written by Nuan Nuan before leaving for the Magic City.

She expressed her love for Ji Feng, with a hint of recklessness in her simplicity.

There is also a firmness that is desperate, and there is purity in the enthusiasm.

When she was not sure whether Ji Feng liked her or not, Nuan Nuan was already sure that she would go on with Ji Feng.

She can't compare to this, far from it.

Not even the monsoon itself can match this blazing heat.

"Lost."

He was convinced and defeated completely.

"Ok?"

Ji Feng, who was looking at his cell phone, didn't hear Gu Xueting's whisper clearly.

When he raised his head to ask, Gu Xueting had already opened the car door.

"Monsoon, I'm leaving."

"Okay, be careful on the road."

Seeing Ji Feng waving towards her, Gu Xueting also smiled generously:

"Go back quickly and don't forget to take me off the blacklist."

"Well, let's go."

Gu Xueting closed the car door and Ji Feng started immediately.

The past with Gu Xueting is in the past, and there is nothing in this past worth his nostalgia.

The right person will be waiting for you on the way forward.

Watching the red Audi leave, the shadow of the car lights gradually lengthened and turned into a diagonal line in Gu Xueting's field of vision.

She took out her phone and took a photo of Ji Feng's taillights.

But when she was taking pictures, her body began to tremble uncontrollably, she gently covered her mouth, and her big tears fell down like strings of beads.

Gu Xueting closed her eyes, opened them again, and walked towards the community.

There were not many pedestrians coming and going, and occasionally when someone passed by her, they would look sideways at the girl who was crying silently.

Gu Xueting didn't dare to make too much noise because she was afraid of attracting too many people's attention.

There will always be someone in the community who knows her, knows her father, knows her mother.

She can be a loser, but she doesn't want her failure to be exposed to more people.

Her parents have always been proud of her.

His body was slightly stooped and his steps were a little staggering.

She doesn't look like the graceful, youthful and beautiful girl she once was. Instead, she now has a bit of a stale air.

Huddled and confused, I moved forward.

She didn't know how long she had walked along this way...

……

Guanghua Community, 901.

Nuan Nuan was supporting his head with one hand and turning the pen in his other hand.

Her technique of turning a pen was even more skillful than turning a lighter. After all, this had been one of the few things she could do to entertain and comfort herself during countless boring moments.

Warmth is conducting a work session on the future of fingertips.

Only a few people attended the meeting.

Ye Yuwei, Lu Quan, Dou Ding, Zhao Lan.

The company hasn't had a holiday yet, but the brothers from Pearl City are basically back.

Except Dou Ding.

There is no way, the company needs to have trustworthy people on site.

So Ji Feng asked Dou Ding to stay for a while on Taoke's side, while Ye Yuwei on the CEO's side kept an eye on Zhao Lan.

Everyone else does their job.

As for Lu Quan, who is engaged in technology, he is the kind of person who doesn't need to worry at all.

I still remember that Ji Feng asked Lu Quan to rush out 30 Taoke software editions a month, but he was ready in 10 days.

And he already said it on the first day he joined the company.

He is a professional with special abilities. This special ability is also very simple, that is, he can work overtime.

In the past, Wen Nuan didn't quite understand why Ji Feng valued Lu Quan so much. She treated him as a treasure when they first met.

Now she gradually understood and valued this person very much.

Lu Quan: "I recognize money but not people. Give me money and I will do things for you."

Lu Quan: "Since you are looking for me, I will give it to you whether I do it or not."

Lu Quan: "Give me the money, and the book will be done for you tonight."

He is a perfect working person, comfortable, does not cause trouble, has no office romance, is full of liver, and has skills.

As long as you give him enough money, he will do the job.

As for why Lu Quan had the skills to be sure of the monsoon at the beginning, Nuan Nuan also asked.

The reason for the monsoon is simple.

Most otakus are social phobic, which means they are weak in most social skills, and it is normal to feel unconfident.

But once he is confident in a certain field, it must be an area in which he is very good.

Lu Quan was very pretentious when talking about technology.

Then he most likely has the capital to pretend.

This kind of talent is a treasure in any company, and now it has become an important technical personnel of the company.

"Lu Quan, you have worked hard during this period. Dou Ding will be back before the end of the month. After that, you, Yu Wei, and Zhao Lan will have to pay more attention."

"no problem."

"clear."

"As for the delivery of New Year's gift boxes, we must hurry up. The express delivery will be on holiday soon, so we must prepare in advance..."

Halfway through her warm words, the door suddenly opened.

"warmth?"

The meeting could only be suspended because Wang Yaqin's voice came from behind:

"When I went upstairs just now, I heard from a neighbor in another building that my daughter had passed the state-owned enterprise entrance examination,"

Hearing the voice of his mother Wang Yaqin, even though he was prepared in his heart, he still felt a little warm.

Even though this is a young company, everything can be young, and she is the president of the company.

She must maintain her posture in front of company members.

Wen Nuan took a shallow breath:

"That's good, Mom, congratulate her for me."

"Then can't you also take the exam in the future? If you have an iron rice bowl in the future, then you will really starve to death, which is better than anything else."

"I'm just a freshman now, so I don't want to think about staffing matters for the time being. Besides, I also have a serious part-time job and the income is pretty good.

You see, I am in a meeting now, my colleagues are all here, Mom, please go out first. "

Warm's voice was quite gentle, but several people in the company no longer dared to speak.

They all know warmth.

Although she is usually polite in doing things, she will not be merciful at all when it comes to layoffs.

Wang Yaqin paused after hearing this, but still retreated.

Just as Nuan Nuan was about to speak, the door was pushed open again:

"I feel that compilation is actually not difficult. Look at those companies that prepare for the public examination. They don't study as well as you. Now they are living a good life."

"Well, they are really nice. Look, something is going on here. I'll tell you later, okay?"

boom!

The door was slammed shut by Wang Yaqin with a loud sound.

An unlocked door is like this. Parents can come in and out at will. This is the power they want to gain.

Nuan Nuan took a deep breath:

"Okay, Dou Ding, keep an eye on the gift box delivery person before you come back..."

boom!

The door was knocked open again.

"Is your job better than staffing? If you want to take the civil service exam in the future, either stop doing your current job."

Her warm gaze gradually changed from soft to sharp. She ignored Wang Yaqin, but turned to give instructions to the people in the video:

"Okay, that's it for today's meeting. If you have any questions about specific work details, please raise them in the work group as soon as possible."

"Yes."

"clear."

"Ok."

Seeing Wen Nuan closing her computer and standing behind Wang Yaqin, the corners of her mouth slightly curved up in an imperceptible way.

But when Nuan Nuan turned around, she had returned to normal.

Innocent, worried, as if I am all for your good.

But the rage and madness that Wang Yaqin expected did not appear. The warmth that turned around was already very calm, and there was even a smile on the corner of his mouth.

"Mom is naughty again! She wants to make me angry again, I know it."

Seeing that the interrupted warmth was no longer as crazy, self-flagellating, and at a loss as before.

Wang Yaqin really felt a little surprised.

When Nuan Nuan was doing homework when she was a child, if she was continuously interrupted, she would even poke her own palm with a pencil.

But now the warmth seems to have no thoughts of self-harm:

"Xiao Nuan, you..."

"Mom, every time you destroyed something I liked when I was little, you would look at me with a joking look in your eyes. Even now, I still remember every look in your eyes."

"If you were disobedient when you were a child, you should be educated." Wen Wen's tone felt wrong, and Wang Yaqin's voice sounded a little strong at the same time.

"Am I really disobedient? Or am I just not doing what you said? So I'm not angry now, but my mother looks disappointed?"

"Xiao Nuan, what did you say?"

Wen Nuan slowly walked to Wang Yaqin, and just like last night, she lay next to Wang Yaqin with a very oppressive feeling.

Touching Wang Yaqin's chest with her fingertips:

"Life is not only about poetry in the distance, but also about the things in front of you. Has mom forgotten where the money for her surgery came from?"

"That was before..."

"Then mom, do you want to go back to your old life? If you do, I can send you back tomorrow. It's okay."

"Nuan Nuan, your wings are hard now, right?"

Nuan Nuan was neither slow nor slow, gently stroking her hair and wrapping it in a bun in front of Wang Yaqin.

"Financial independence can create independent personality. Yes, my wings have become strong, so mom really doesn't want to sleep now?"

"What do you mean?"

"If I don't sleep now, I won't have a chance to sleep..."

Wang Yaqin's hair was lifted by the warmth. She suddenly felt uncomfortable and turned around to leave the room.

Soon, Nuan Nuan heard the sound of Wang Yaqin locking the door.

But Nuan Nuan didn't seem to want to give up. She walked slowly to Wang Yaqin's door and knocked lightly on the door a few times.

Then she pressed her whole body against the door and made a small voice:

"Locking the door is useless, Mom."

On the other side of the door, Wang Yaqin stiffened when he heard the sound and couldn't help but take two steps back.

Nuan Nuan knows she is behind the door!

It's not just this.

Nuan Nuan knew that Wang Yaqin wanted to make her angry and violent, and even guessed that she would eavesdrop on the sounds outside behind the door.

Is it an illusion? Or is it just a coincidence?

Wang Yaqin couldn't help but approach the door again. When she put her ear to the door, the unique warm low-pressure voice came again:

"Lock the door. I will come to check at night. I am doing this for your own good!"

"Uh, don't..."

Wang Yaqin wanted to say something, but the warm footsteps were already far away.

Don't know when it started. Nuan Nuan understands almost all her habits, actions, and even her thoughts.

When did it start?

Wang Yaqin retreated to the bed, her expression a little depressed, and then she began to be in a daze.

"Am I doing this for her own good?"

……

Nuan Nuan returned to his room and sighed slightly.

Perhaps in the eyes of his mother, the victor's posture would be very proud, right?

Control each other and control other people's lives?

In fact, no, she is a normal person now. This kind of winning or losing is completely meaningless to her, and she doesn't like it either.

She only likes to stay with Ji Feng.

Maybe it would be better to buy Wang Yaqin a house and hire a nanny?

Houses in Pearl City are not expensive. With current house prices, you can buy a nice community for about 5000 square meters, and a 100-square-meter finely decorated house costs about 60.

Nuan Nuan thought for a while and finally shook his head.

Her mother's goal was always to control, to control herself.

If she left directly, given her mother Wang Yaqin's character, she would choose to harm herself to coerce her to come back. It is unlikely that a serious nanny would accept such a master.

extreme? More than just extreme...

In fact, when Nuan Nuan's father was still alive, her mother did something similar, using self-mutilation to coerce her father into obeying.

Dad was also unable to accept her control and was eventually forced to die.

Now it's her.

If she really ignored Wang Yaqin, maybe she would really choose to die, thus making Nuan Nuan feel guilty to her for the rest of her life.

Will you feel guilty?

Nuan Nuan himself doesn’t know.

"Forget it, the winter vacation is still for a while, give mom some more time, and give her some more time for herself."

Opening the drawer, Nuan Nuan immediately saw the medicine at hand.

She wanted to throw them away, but she hesitated.

Will you still use it?

After looking at the wallpaper on his mobile phone, his frown suddenly relaxed:

"No, not anymore."

Nuan Nuan threw the medicine directly into the trash can. After a moment of hesitation, he suddenly took it out again.

"I am Ji Feng's lover and a normal person..."

After saying that, Wen Nuan poured out all the pills and capsules, carried them directly to the toilet, threw them into the toilet, pressed the flush button, and finished it in one go.

"Phew, feel good."

Opening the phone with satisfaction, Nuan Nuan rarely took a look at the circle of friends in his spare time.

The first post in the circle of friends made the autistic girl frown.

It's Gu Xueting's circle of friends.

【Image] [image】

The accompanying picture shows the shadow of a car's taillights, and another one shows the back of Monsoon.

The text is: [All pain is deserved. 】

Nuan Nuan narrowed her eyes. Did she go to Ji Feng?

Did something happen between them?

She won't drug Ji Feng! ! !

Nuan Nuan immediately thought of her dream about being overturned by medicine. The protagonist was Gu Xueting...

"No, Ji Feng drove away, so he probably didn't get hit."

Hmm... Do you deserve all the pain?

Well, that makes sense.

Nuan Nuan has never commented on other people's Moments. Even if she liked it, she only liked the one she and Ji Feng officially announced.

But comments can be made in Moments, right?

She clicked on Gu Xueting's post and commented:

【that's right. 】

After commenting and taking screenshots, I carried my phone to the bed and twisted my hair for Ji Feng.

[How to evaluate this woman who commented on my boyfriend in the middle of the night? 】

Monsoon on the other side of the screen:? ? ?

Ji Feng: [She was frightened by your strawberries and love letters. 】

Nuan Nuan: [It seems that I have foresight, but it is not a love letter. 】

Ji Feng: [What is it if it’s not a love letter? 】

Nuan Nuan: [Those are study notes. 】

Ji Feng: [Okay, okay, just study and take notes. But is your comment like this too cruel? 】

Nuan Nuan: [I did it on purpose. 】

Ji Feng: [(!) Wen Xiaonuan, you were not like this before. 】

Nuan Nuan: [It is now. 】

Ji Feng: [I have a class reunion in a few days. Do you want to go with me? 】

Nuan Nuan: [If you write me a love letter, I will do it. 】

Ji Feng: [So the previous one was a love letter to me? 】

Wen Nuan pursed her lips and rubbed her white feet back and forth, trying to find something strong to say to refute Ji Feng, but she couldn't think of anything.

After thinking about it, she chose the most primitive method and began to speak harshly:

[These are study notes. 】

……

The other side of the city.

Gu Xueting didn't even remember how she got home.

I don’t remember how I missed my mother’s questioning eyes and returned to the room.

【All pain is deserved. 】

After posting a self-pitying circle of friends...

She didn't even wash up or change her clothes before she fell straight on the bed.

Those words before the monsoon left were lingering in my mind.

And the piece of paper that Nuan Nuan took the picture.

Her head felt dizzy, she felt like vomiting, and her consciousness gradually became blurred.

The overlapping emotions were like waves, beating her to death on the shore she was about to reach.

But she couldn't get to the shore, she was drowning!

Drowning in a sea of ​​chaotic thoughts.

She is dying!

There seemed to be a person standing on the unreachable shore.

Someone who could save her.

"Is it Monsoon?"

Gu Xueting dragged her body soaked in thoughts and swam towards the shore bit by bit.

She was exhausted, but no longer hesitant.

Because she finally had her own goal, the person on the shore.

But when she arrived at the shore with her body covered with scars and swimming, she was swimming and crawling...

Only then did Gu Xueting realize that the person standing on the shore was not Ji Feng.

But a woman.

A woman in a wedding dress.

Her face was slightly familiar, and she had the same beautiful face as his, but she was thinner than him, and her protruding collarbone was very obvious.

There was regret in the haggard look, and there was only loneliness and regret in his eyes.

This woman looks young, but she looks...

A bit old!

"Are you... me?" Gu Xueting, lying on the beach, was stunned.

But opposite her, wearing a wedding dress, she didn't respond.

puff!

Gu Xueting spit out the sand in her mouth.

He used all his strength to support his bruised body, trying to get up from the beach.

But now she is like a bird with broken wings, unable to stand up again.

After leaving the sea water, the scorching sun scorched her body. Gu Xueting felt hot all over, and the wounds on her body were all dry and cracked.

The searing heat dried her up and she felt like she was dying of dehydration.

From nearly drowning to death from dehydration.

It seemed like it only lasted a few minutes.

But her thoughts were like broken strings, unable to make sense of it all.

It's true, it's false.

Is it a dream or reality.

Now, all she has left is her youth. She is still unwilling to give up as a young person, and she will not give up so easily.

Just as she knew Ji Feng no longer liked her, she would test him again and again.

At this moment, the person in front of her in a wedding dress stretched out her hand to Gu Xueting.

"Forehead?"

Gu Xueting didn't know what this was, but she didn't want to die. She hoped that someone would help her at this time, even if this person was a stranger to herself.

Holding his hands together, his thoughts exploded like meteors falling into the earth.

Some scenes that she either experienced or had not experienced appeared in Gu Xueting's mind.

She trembled and trembled all over, constantly being baptized by these images.

Frame after frame of pictures flashed by, finally settling on a wedding.

Ji Feng, who didn't look very healthy, raised his glass of wine and toasted it to "her" and "her husband".

"Xue Ting, congratulations and wish you happiness."

"Ji Feng, it would be nice if you could be more mature..."

The picture flipped faster and faster, and became increasingly blurry.

What can be seen clearly is that Ji Feng died after the wedding, and she also chose to divorce amid repeated domestic violence.

Throughout her life, she did not find happiness and lost people who loved her.

Gu Xueting suddenly woke up.

She found herself huddled in a corner of the room.

His body and hands were covered with foul-smelling vomit.

Her body was hot but she felt cold.

Feeling the abnormal body temperature and looking at the vomit on the ground and body, Gu Xueting suddenly realized that the feeling of drowning and suffocation just now might not be fake.

That burning sun-like heat is not fake either.

She got up suddenly, rushed to the dressing table, turned on the light, looked at her sick self in the mirror, and suddenly shouted:

"Are those true? Are they true?"

It seemed that Gu Xueting's series of abnormal behaviors had attracted her mother's attention. Li Lingqi knocked on the door outside, her voice slightly worried:

"Tingting, what's wrong with you, Tingting? Open the door, so mom will worry about you."

Gu Xueting held on to the dressing table to prevent herself from falling, and said quietly to the door:

"Mom, I'm fine, I just had a nightmare."

Li Lingqi outside the door felt a little relieved when she heard Gu Xueting's response, but she still couldn't help but feel worried in her tone.

"Tingting, are you really okay? Do you want mom to go in and take a look?"

"No, Mom, I just want to be alone for a while."

"Oh well."

Gu Xueting looked at the door for a while. It wasn't until she heard Li Lingqi's footsteps gradually moving away that she gradually looked away.

She leaned in front of the dressing table and was silent for a while.

Feeling more conscious, he slowly raised his head and looked at himself in the mirror again.

His hair was messy, his eyes were hollow and bloodshot, and there were still traces of vomit on the corners of his mouth and chest.

His face under the light showed a sickly red color.

Gu Xueting stared at herself in the mirror. It was just herself, nothing special or different.

But her eyes became blurred over time again, and she asked the person in the mirror again:

"Is it real?"

But the mirror is a mirror, and the person in the mirror is only herself, and no one will ever answer her.

Gu Xueting shook her head. She felt like she was crazy. How could she have such outrageous thoughts and have such outrageous dreams...

Taking a piece of paper to wipe the stain on her chest, Gu Xueting was about to turn around and leave.

But when she turned her head, she seemed to see the person in the mirror who didn't turn around.

Instead, she stared at herself when her back was turned:

"What's true? What's false?"

Gu Xueting suddenly froze, her body stiffened, and a chill ran down her back.

She turned her head sharply...

His mind also cleared up at this moment.

Gu Xueting woke up again.

"Awake again?"

She was still lying on the bed, and the vomit was not far away from her. It seemed that she had really vomited just now.

My body is also burning hot, and my fever is real.

"So, it was just a dream?

A nightmare within a nightmare? laugh……"

Gu Xueting sneered at herself, glanced at the messy bedroom, and pulled off the sheets.

Go to the bathroom, take off your clothes and start washing your body.

The fingertips lightly brushed the fair skin, washing away the dirt on the body with water.

Her face turned even redder, which was exactly the opposite of her fair body.

Supporting herself in front of the bathroom mirror with her hands, Gu Xueting looked at herself with scrutinizing eyes, with a bit of disgust and contempt in her eyes.

When her red lips parted slightly, her voice was colder than before:

"You are so dirty!"

　Let’s talk briefly about Gu Xueting. This is a character that I feel is a pity, so I want to save this character.

　　[Saving the character is not to whitewash her], it is to make the character more three-dimensional and full, not a paper character. The other female characters in the book are all full.

　　But because I started the book on a whim and there was no outline, Gu Xueting used the very common template of a regretful woman.

　　As I wrote it later, I could feel how thin and superficial this character was. It felt a bit pity to finish writing her in such a thin way.

　　Her current level of three-dimensionality is incomparable to that of Mu Wanqiu and Ye Yuwei.

　　So I wanted to save it, I just wanted to make each character more alive, nothing else.

　　[It’s not to whitewash her] [It won’t be very long] [Readers, please rest assured]

　　

　

(End of this chapter)