Don’t be too poisonous to the concubine of the Wu family who was born in Wu

Chapter 3278 337. Flowers in the Mirror and Moon in the Water (Song Ziyu understood the situation and decided to leave)

As soon as Song Ziyu heard that he was asked to leave this place, he panicked and said casually that he didn't want to leave, which aroused Song Yingzi's anger and loudly rebuked him.

"You are not too young now. Do you know how old I was when I came out of home? At the age of three or four, I was forced to leave my hometown. Do you know how I spent those years? And What about you? You are already very lucky. You have several sisters to pave the way for you. Your life has undergone many changes. You have the opportunity to enjoy the same educational resources as the son of a high-ranking official. Why do you think? Why? If I, as a sister, hadn’t paved the way for you, do you think you would be living the life you have today?”

As soon as these words came out, Song Ziyu's face suddenly turned green, and he felt bad all over. It was the first time that his sister had scolded him so deeply. He felt ashamed and didn't know how to speak.

Song Yingzi vented all the dissatisfaction in her heart at once. She has experienced all the sufferings in the world over the years, especially during the period when she fell from the altar. The people who used to surround her are now all around her. They all avoided him, and he went from being a popular courtesan to a canary who could only be used by others.

But the feeling of being the canary is not very pleasant. After all, men like the new and hate the old, especially the prey that he has successfully hunted. Once he gets it, he will no longer cherish it, let alone spend extra thought on it. on its body.

Song Yingzi's life went from bad to worse. In the past, the man frequently came to meet her at her house, and now she is trying her best to please her, but the prefect also has a cold attitude.

She felt powerless as she got older, and felt the warmth and coldness of being favored and pushed down from a high platform. Her heart also became twisted, but for the sake of her entire family, she had to choose to compromise.

How many times had she made up her mind to leave, but when she thought about her sisters all settling down here, getting married, and having a family, it would be okay for her to leave alone, but what about the lives of her sisters? Woolen cloth?
  That powerful man is a bastard. He can ignore you and ignore you, but he cannot leave or betray him, because if you do this, you will slap him in the face in public, and he will not be able to save his face. When he is angry, he will vent his anger on other people, and these so-called other people are the people who are involved in hurting his self-esteem.

I thought, I was happy, but how should my mother, brothers and sisters deal with it?

For the stability and prosperity of the family, and for the stability of her sisters' lives, she, Song Yingzi, chose to sacrifice herself to help others.

But now the real problem is in front of him. He no longer has the ability to help his younger brother, and if he stays here, he will die. The best way out for him is to leave here.

Just like myself back then——

At this time, Song Yingzi suddenly understood her mother's good intentions. It wasn't that she didn't feel sorry for her child, and it wasn't that she didn't want to sacrifice everything for her. It was just that her abilities were really limited. If she didn't let him go, she would have no choice but to Seeing him being forced by life and having no way out, he could only become the same person as himself, a person with no way out...

At this moment, Song Yingzi realized deeply that life is a cycle of karma and retribution. Only when the same experience happens to you, can you empathize with the other person's helplessness.

After so many years of misunderstanding and hatred, at the moment when she made up her mind, Song Yingzi finally reconciled with her mother.

At this time, she realized what a hateful person she was, actually inflicting all her pain on the poor people who gave birth to her. The misfortune in her life was not caused by her mother. On the contrary, her mother hoped that she could break through the status quo. , that’s why he made this decision. Who doesn’t want to protect their children, who doesn’t want to protect their own hearts and minds? If it wasn't out of necessity, if it wasn't helpless, who would be willing to take this step?

Song Yingzi scolded Song Ziyu, but her heart was filled with guilt and self-blame for her mother.

"At the beginning, if I didn't run away, I couldn't imagine how miserable my life would be... When I think of my mother's humble and pitiful appearance when I was a child, I feel chills running down my spine, and I know very well that if I hadn't left at that time, My life will be no different from my mother's... I am glad that I came out, but I hate that my mother did not give me enough love... In fact, I am also conflicted in my heart. I know very well how difficult it is for my mother, but... But I just forgive I can’t help her..."

As she talked, Song Yingzi's eyes filled with tears and she kept crying.

Seeing his sister crying sadly, Song Ziyu was heartbroken. He took out a handkerchief from his sleeve and stepped forward to wipe her tears.

"Sister...I know...I know everything...Actually, mother knows it too."

"To be honest, I know I am not filial by saying these words, but my energy is so great. For the sake of the stability of my brothers and sisters' lives, I have chosen to compromise with the powerful... My life is not easy, and my life is painful. You know? There is only so much I can do, even if I risk my life, I only have so much energy, what else do you expect from me?"

The more Song Yingzi suffered, the sadder she became, and she vented all her pain.

At this point, Song Ziyu sighed. He knew that his words touched the last bottom line in his sister's heart. Although it was just an unintentional reluctance on his part, it triggered all Song Yingzi's emotions.

"Sister... I listen to you, I... I'm leaving! I'm going to Di Jiuli. After all, I have some knowledge. No matter what happens, when I get there, the worst I can do is to work as a boy in a family. Sis, you can also take care of my food and drink expenses, my clothing, food, housing and transportation... I know... I will be a disaster if I stay here. The prefect will not let me go because of the young master. But if I don't leave, our Song Jia There is no peace inside or outside... My sister has made you worry about it, but my brother is not sensible... I... I am just reluctant to leave for a while, and I have never considered leaving my mother or sisters... But things It has developed to this stage, and if Ziyu does not leave, there will be endless disasters..."

After hearing this, Song Yingzi calmed down a bit. Looking at the sensible Song Ziyu, she felt a little guilty for her patience.

"Ziyu... what I just said is serious... you can understand the situation of the sisters, you are really sensible... but... but you also know that in the current situation, you can't leave! If you don't leave, Not only you, but also our brothers and sisters are not living a good life..."

"This...I understand...Sister, don't say it...I understand everything..."

(End of this chapter)