The European Emperor’s character remains standing

Chapter 180 I wish you never cry (Envelope of longing)
Time was running out, and Lin Shilu logged off before her.

Zhu Qingyou is now more worried about whether Luzi is hiding in the room crying, or has entered a frantic writing mode and wants to distract himself in this way.

Get out of the game cabin and return to reality.

The two people's physical senses are still divided into two, and their vision and hearing are shared.

After Zhu Qingxuan secretly looked at the notes, perhaps out of intuition, she put the notes that recorded her daily life in the drawer of the guest room where she lived at Luzi's place.

The room was close to the one An Zhe'er usually lived in, so when she opened the door and entered the room, An Zhe'er heard some noise and tried to look outside. Unfortunately, the door was closed tightly, and the soundproofing was so good that she didn't hear any noise at all.

The fingerprint unlocked the notebook, and she did not try to stop it. Xi Ling could clearly see the densely packed daily life in the notebook, as well as the voices that were deliberately covered up by others through the shared vision.

Zhu Qingyou has a habit of using the front side to record her daily life, recording her thoughts and ideas of the day; she uses the back side, or pens of different colors, to record her inner thoughts, and she will deliberately erase key content until it is unrecognizable and only she can recognize it.

On the premise that there is a lock, covering it up in this way can prevent peeking even if someone breaks the lock.

It can be said that it was very prescient. Up to now, we still don't know how much Zhu Qingxuan knew about the daily life recorded on the front of the notebook and the secrets that Zhu Qingyou deliberately concealed on the back.

Sitting at the desk, she pulled out the pen clipped to the back of the book, found a blank page, and said, "You say, I write."

The dual vision still brought some obstacles, and Zhu Qingyou tried to write in her notes.

It's a bit crooked, which is a problem caused by vision sharing.

The writing problem can be perfectly solved by simply closing the shared eye, but the shared vision will also be disconnected.

Initially, the shared fields of vision overlap and cannot be completely distinguished, and may even lead to errors in identifying the environment due to the overlap of fields of vision. This is the beginning.

Now with the coming of age trials and increased power, both can briefly move their shared field of view to the side, truly splitting the image in two so that they no longer overlap, much like the terminal projector's mid-air method, except that the other person's field of view takes up a larger portion and cannot be moved or modified.

"If you can't stand the shared vision, then we can temporarily work together to close the vision and only leave the hearing." Zhu Qingyou said lightly. She gradually mastered the skills in the writing just now. She stopped writing and waited for Xi Ling's response.

"No need." Xi Ling shook her head and refused. She didn't want to let go of any...

Using the ground as paper and spiritual energy as a pen, he writes on the ground. The words on the ground carry Xi Ling's endless thoughts and apologies.

Zhu Qingyou used the shared vision to copy the words she wrote on the ground onto a new blank page in her notebook.

The same handwriting, two people who are in a sense the same and opposite, work together and try their best for the same goal.

【To the little deer】：
It's been many years, are you okay? (It shouldn't be considered as many years since I borrowed Zhu Qingyou's body to meet you not long ago.)
I may not be qualified to say this, but I really want to say, I'm sorry.

I made you sad, failed to protect you, and let you get hurt because of my affairs. I am really sorry.

I should not use these two fragments to test your sincerity towards me, to doubt, to guess, to deny your feelings for me.

I know, in fact, I have always known that your feelings for me are always the same. The friendship between us is indestructible. As long as we don't doubt or test each other, we will be the best of friends.

It seems that she is not the best girlfriend, because you have An Zhe'er, Zhu Qingyou, Su Heng, Chen Siyuan, Hu Zifeng, Hu Zishi and Zhu Qingxuan around you.

I'm not as good as you think, especially after not seeing you for many years, my personality may not be the same as before. So I specifically asked Zhu Qingyou to stop me if I try to hurt you, so please don't blame her.

Could you please wait for me for a few more days?
This is really an unreasonable request.

I want you to have me in your heart, and I want you to wait for me a little longer. I also want you to work hard with me to let me go home.

Pretty selfish, right?
But I am such a hopeless person.

I... before I officially went into seclusion, no, it should be the people who helped you who brought me news about you. It was then that I realized that everything related to me was disappearing one after another, which was undoubtedly a huge blow to you.

People will instinctively explain themselves. I am the same. Even if we don't meet, I want to leave you at least a slightly less bad impression. But I also have to respect the facts and let you know the whole truth of the matter.

I really miss you so much. I have been thinking about you all the time for more than ten years. It is because of you and all the memories of us that I can survive in this trial land.

Believe me, I will try my best to fulfill the agreement we made in the secret realm. We agreed to support each other, but you can't deny it just because I left for more than ten years.

Don't worry about me, I'm in the trial land, everything is fine, except that you are not here, which makes me miss you so much. Therefore, my personality has changed a lot, I hope that when I really go home, you can still accept my existence like you did many years ago.

"Anything else?" Zhu Qingyou stopped writing and asked.

The content is quite long and takes up an originally blank page.

In order to reduce errors and allow Zhu Qingyou to see the words more clearly due to the shared vision, she wrote them in larger sizes. Taking another step back, they would reach the edge of the Unnamed Land.

The edge of the Unnamed Land can be said to be a wall, or it can be said to be the edge of an invisible barrier, with no way to retreat.

Lin Shilu is not around, so I regain my sanity.

"Well, there's a lot of content, let's speed up the writing." She nodded calmly, controlling the complex emotions spreading in her heart: "If you can't see clearly or have any questions, just tell me and I will stop writing."

Zhu Qingyou flipped the page and said, "Okay! You change the place and I'll turn the page." She didn't plan to write on both sides, so she turned to a blank page and prepared to continue.

The previous page was written neatly, without any typos or erasures.

The handwriting was exactly the same as the one Xi Ling had written on the ground, just a little smaller.

"Do you have anything to say? You can write it down." Xi Ling moved to a blank space without erasing the words she had written before. She squatted down and looked at the ground, exhaled a breath, and asked.

"Me?" Zhu Qingyou murmured to himself, clearing his mind, "It seems that there is nothing to say, and even if there is, I can't say it out loud."

"I will do what I promised you, and you must protect her." Zhu Qingyou took a deep breath, and the details of their breathing were exactly the same.

Xi Ling: "You don't have to tell me."

Zhu Qingyou: "This is the agreement between you and me."

Two voices sounded at the same time, echoing in my ears.

"Okay!" Xi Ling promised her: "If I fail to do it, you can do whatever you want."

Zhu Qingyou didn't answer, which was also a disguised way of acquiescence.

Xi Ling began to write in the blank space, and Zhu Qingyou copied it in the notebook:

You know, I'm not going to lie.

Believe me, I will try my best to get to you, and I hope you will wait for me for a little longer. Let's work hard together to go home, back to where you are, back to Sister Ci.

I hope that when I come back, everything will be the same as before.

This may sound a bit extravagant, but it is also my delusion.

I was absent from your life for more than ten years, so naturally I have to find a way to make up for it, to make up for those blank years, and to make up for the birthdays we didn't celebrate together in those ten years.

By the way, is it possible that you never celebrated your birthday after I left? That would be bad.

Even if I'm gone, you have to take good care of yourself and work hard with Sister Ci. Don't be petty.

Wait for me to come back, okay?

Let me tell you something interesting. I cannot reveal the names of Sister Ci and the person who helped you. If I reveal their names, the rules will be discovered and this letter may not even reach you. But you should know that he is the one who wants to slack off all day long.

When Sister Ci was trying to register us, it was that person who helped. However, there seemed to be some minor conflicts between the two of them and they didn't have time to clarify, which resulted in the two of us not being in the same household registration book.

You are with Sister Ci, and I am under that name.

You probably don't know this either, so when I come back, the first thing I'm going to do is to find a way to be on the same household registration book with you.

Zhu Qingyou wrote down a new page completely and interrupted, "Is there anything else you want to write?"

"Yes." Xi Ling replied.

"Xiaolu is a very smart child. I have to find a way to divert her attention. I can't let her focus on the Unknown Land, otherwise my lie will be exposed."

"When you show it to her, it's best not to mention anything about my situation." Xi Ling anticipated Zhu Qingyou's question and added, "I have some selfish motives in this."

"Got it." Zhu Qingyou replied with three words and stopped expressing her opinion, tolerating Xi Ling's selfish thoughts in the letter.

When I come back, we will create our own memories together, paint colorful memories, and fill the gap of more than ten years.

We have a deal, pinky promise!

I still want to say sorry to you. I'm sorry for tempting you, but if it happens again, I will still do it, and I don't want to hide my feelings for you.

All emotions are possessive. If we convert possessiveness into something, it means whether you care or not. I am the same...

I never stop thinking about you, and I never stop longing for you.

That's what it was like when we first came to the community.

Watching you quickly become friends with other kids, I feel envious of you, as well as blessings and care for you.

Possessiveness made me hate those kids around you. Because of those kids, sometimes you ignored me, but every time you could detect the bad emotions in my heart and prevent them from spreading.

During the years when you were not around, I had been relying on the memories we shared to stop those negative emotions from spreading.

Useful, but not very useful.

If memories are made up of only a thin barrier, then you yourself are a thick wall, blocking the wind and bringing me endless warmth.

So you are the only pillar in my heart and the most special existence.

But I haven't been by your side for so many years, and I still can't help but have some doubts as to whether my position in your heart has remained the same, hence those temptations.

I know doubt can cause cracks in friendships, but I had to do it. So I said I would do it again.

My apology to you is genuine, and my temptation to you is also genuine. At the same time, I am also delusionally hoping for your forgiveness. I want our relationship to return to the time when there was no cracks at all. Is that okay?
Zhu Qingyou's hand speed was the same as Xi Ling's. She said, "Change the page!"

At the same time, close the pen in your hand and gently shake your wrist to relieve the soreness caused by long-term writing.

After a moment, Xi Ling came to the new blank space, opened her pen, and said, "Continue."

I know, I may be wishful thinking.

After all, I didn't do anything, and I made you cry again. I don't even have the ability to comfort you. I can only convey my thoughts about you through letters, which is the only thing I can do.

My little deer, I'm so sorry.

Your A Ling failed to fulfill the promise, made you cry, hurt you, and even failed to share the pressure with you and go through the past with you. It's all my fault.

Wait until I come back and you can do whatever you want with me.

Tears flowed down her cheeks and fell to the ground. Zhu Qingyou could hear not only the sound of the wind outside the window, but also the sound of Xiling's tears falling to the ground.

The sound was so small, so small that it could be ignored; yet it was also so loud that it sounded like a bell ringing in my heart.

My heartbeat gradually became louder, and my eyes felt inexplicably sour. Before I knew it, tears were sliding down and dripping onto the page that was about to be filled with words.

The paper and the words were soaked.

The same writing content, the same way of crying, is like a letter written on the ground, transmitted through space, and transformed into bits of thoughts written on the notes.

Zhu Qingyou was feeling extremely confused at this moment.

Emotions spread in my heart and tears rolled out of my eyes.

Senses are shared, emotions are intertwined, and longing is transmitted from one person's heart to another's heart, blending beneath the surface of rationality and restraint. Emotions infect each other, and desire and longing merge into one.

Whose emotion is this?

Is it Xi Ling’s or Zhu Qingyou’s?
Zhu Qingyou couldn't tell the difference and didn't want to tell the difference, so she instinctively stopped thinking about it. She pulled out a tissue from the table and slowly wiped away the tears that had fallen on the paper.

As long as Xi Ling is here, she will not be the most special person in the other person's heart. But why should she be obsessed with this?
If you continue to be persistent, you will not get what you want.

Friendship is really a very strange thing! It seems that it is not just friendship, but also family and love.

The boundaries are very fuzzy and ambiguous.

A dull person may not have discovered his true feelings at all. A smart person will still embark on that path even if he knows there is no hope, and will often bet everything on one thing more than a dull and stupid person.

Go all the way to the end!
Even if all my plans are not known, it is enough.

Love is so strange.

Even though I knew who the other person was, I was still curious, so I chose to contact him and then couldn't help myself.

It's so strange to want to be each other's best friend or best girlfriend, and to compare with other friends to satisfy yourself.

(So ​​why does the Friendship Shura Field exist?)

Since that evening, Zhu Qingyou realized that she could not be the best friend in Lin Shilu's heart and occupy the other's heart. On the contrary, she herself...

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In the other person's mind, she is not Xi Ling's memory fragment, and he may have made a mistake, but in Luzai's eyes, she is herself, Zhu Qingyou, and no one else.

Maybe that's the case. Lin Shilu is the most special one in her heart. They are obviously the same person, so she knew from the beginning that she would repeat the same mistakes out of curiosity, but she did not look back.

(By the way, what is the status of the folded ears in the fawn's heart?)
(military adviser?)

With their senses intertwined and their moods highly overlapping, it is inevitable that the two people will be a little confused. Even because of the blending of their emotions, the negative emotions brought about by their perceptions make it difficult for them to deal with the doubled emotional bombs.

Two hoarse voices spoke at the same time:
"Have you finished writing the letter?"

Zhu Qingyou saw her stop and asked.

"The letter is finished."

Xi Ling put down her pen and let out a long sigh.

"Add a few more sentences. There are only a few lines left, and this page will be full." Zhu Qingyou's fingertips brushed over the blank lines at the back and said, "When she sees the letter you wrote for her, she will definitely find it unsatisfying. Write a few more sentences."

The two felt an inexplicable emotion spreading in their hearts, like a knife cutting. Those who didn't know what was going on were confused; those who knew what was going on were on the verge of breaking their rationality, but they had to persevere.

"Write a few words of blessing," she said.

In the last few lines, Xi Ling wrote:

May my little deer have a smooth, happy, peaceful and worry-free life.

Hopefully there won't be a next time.

Because I made you unhappy and made you cry.

As I said, you can do whatever you want with me when I come back. You can punish me as you like in the future. After all, I was the one who left without saying goodbye first.

When I'm not around, you have to take good care of yourself and Sister Ci. I hope Sister Ci and that person won't have any more conflicts.

Zhu Qingyou will protect you for me, she is trustworthy.

I also know that you want to hear more from me, but I find that there is really nothing else I can say.

I want to tell you the rest when I come back, and listen to you face to face about everything that happened when I was away from home. I will also tell you everything that happened during the time you were away.

When I get home, I want to personally accept your judgment and punishment. More importantly, I want to take this opportunity to repair the relationship between us.

One letter is not enough, there is still a long way to go.

May your eyes be as bright as the stars and never shed tears.

Remember that little game we used to play?
At the beginning of the game, you should take a deep breath, then look up at the sky, feel the wind blowing across your cheeks, and slowly exhale.

Repeat this several times without thinking about anything else.

If you really can't control yourself, just think of me staying with you all the time. I will always be with you and watch you grow up.

The wind will take away all the unhappiness and bad emotions. When night falls, the stars will wink at you and quietly enter your dreams to sweep away the remaining negative emotions. When you wake up, all the negative emotions will disappear.

Then on the next day, face it bravely with a good mood!

If that doesn't work, there is a second method.

If you feel hungry, you can go downstairs to eat something, but don't overeat. After eating, go for a walk in the community or to a place where we have shared memories. Those good memories will help you drive away all the bad things.

Use beauty to fight against ugliness!

I am always by your side, don't be afraid. ——Love you, A Ling, the most special partner in your heart

After writing her signature, Zhu Qingyou closed the pen cap, took out a utility knife from the drawer, carefully removed the seams, and cut the paper.

The notebook is very sturdy as a whole. Every ten pages are sewn together individually and finally put together. If you want to take it off, you need to remove the stitches, which may cause the notebook to fall apart. You can also cut the side and leave a piece, but this will cause the cut part of the paper to be incomplete.

Zhu Qingyou didn't care about the integrity of the notebook, she only thought about how to completely cut off the papers filled with words.

She could make some minor repairs afterwards, or extend the cover lock area of ​​the notebook to prevent the paper from falling off. Of course, she didn't have time to think about these things now, let alone use this method.

With the help of tools, she cut carefully.

Finally, the paper was completely removed and folded.

It seemed a little informal to just fold it up and give it to the other person, so she asked Xi Ling: "Can you fold an envelope?"

"..."

Xi Ling was silent for a long time and then replied, "This is my first time writing a letter."

"..."

The same is true for Zhu Qingyou. It is too late to find a terminal to search for tutorials now.

"Go find An Zhe'er. Before you closed the door, I saw her in the room through your vision. She should take those blank papers with her. Don't look for Hu Zifeng, he might get to the bottom of it."

"I know."

Zhu Qingyou and Hu Zifeng have been friends for many years. Zhu Qingyou knows that the other party appears to be serious but is actually very curious about gossip, so she will never go to find Hu Zifeng.

A more important reason is that Hu Zifeng currently has a tendency to stand opposite to them.

Zhu Qingyou put the letter into his pocket, took the blank paper in his hand and walked out of the room. He knocked twice outside the guest room where An Zhe'er lived.

"Is there a problem?"

An Zhe'er had been very concerned about the noise he heard before, and even when Zhu Qingyou and Xi Ling were writing a letter together, he came out to check the corridor on the second floor again.

Zhu Qingyou had not yet cut off the shared channel between her and Xi Ling. She and Xi Ling said at the same time: "Can you do me a favor?"

"Let's talk after we go in."

An Zhe'er leaned against the door to block the gap. After hearing Zhu Qingyou's request, she turned sideways and opened it: "Come in."

She didn't know why, but when she heard the other party's request, she inexplicably thought of Xi Ling, whom Lucu had always missed. She had never seen her, but she just had this feeling, and a sense of discomfort, a feeling of being suppressed and dominated.

How strange.

An Zhe'er's desk was messy and he was working on a draft. When he saw Zhu Qingyou preparing to walk to the desk, he quickly tidied it up.

She felt even more uncomfortable, as if she was a child and was caught by her parents reading comics while doing homework. How weird!

Zhu Qingyou sat down and handed over a blank piece of paper. Their thoughts and consciousness were almost synchronized at this moment: "Can you teach me how to fold an envelope?"

"Yes, yes, please!" An Zhe'er found a chair in the corner, sat down and said stiffly.

She took the paper. Zhu Qingyou sat on the left side of the desk. There was an obvious distance between them. If conditions allowed, An Zhe'er wanted to move to the other side, away from Sister You.

"Do you need me to teach you step by step?" She said nervously, at a loss as to what to do with the blank paper.

I felt inexplicably uncomfortable. The aura of Sister You was like the pressure that a patriarch would unconsciously emit when he was angry, making me feel uneasy.

"No need, just fold it step by step and let me learn by watching."

An Zhe'er moved slowly, explaining as he folded the envelope: "Press down here and fold it inwards... If you want to restore it after everything is folded, you don't need glue. But if you want it to be formal and firm, you can add glue on the inside of the envelope."

"Also, be careful. If the recipient is impatient and doesn't open the envelope according to the procedure, you must pay attention to the size of the envelope and paper, because the recipient may tear it directly from the seal, which may cause the letter inside to be torn together. This happens very often!"

"You can try to fold the paper into a smaller size and stuff it into the envelope. This will make the paper look more bulky and effectively avoid the possibility of it being torn together."

The process went smoothly. After folding the envelope, she took out the almost used glue from the drawer, applied it to the inside, and put it on the table for Zhu Qingyou to take.

An Zhe'er was under a lot of pressure and didn't dare to make any mistakes.

The cat was frightened and raised its ears and tail.

It was like encountering a natural enemy. I didn’t dare to move, I really didn’t dare to move.

After the envelope was made, Zhu Qingyou took out the letter from his pocket and put it into the envelope. The letter was very thick and obvious, so there was no need to worry about the risk of the letter being torn into pieces because it was thin.

"Thank you!"

Zhu Qingyou thanked him and left. An Zhe'er's original curiosity disappeared. He only had one thought: Sister You just now was so scary, as if she was being watched by a god.

It is the feeling of being watched by the gods in the inherited memory.

She didn't dare to explore at all and just sat there quietly.

The cat is furry!

Perhaps soon, Lin Shilu will see this letter, and all the thoughts written by Xi Ling will be successfully conveyed.

The voices of the heart transcend space and the two people communicate across the air.

Xi Ling confessed every one of her thoughts in the letter, so there would be no misunderstanding. As long as they understand each other, their friendship can be restored to normal.

All because she had a mouth!

Therefore, there is no possibility of being misunderstood.

You have to speak up when something happens. If you don't, the other person will never know. This is the consensus between the two. Some people want to hide something, so they never say their true thoughts.

The empathy setting is really cool. But Sister You is still no match for someone who is so ruthless that he dares to cut himself into slices and kill himself, and directly becomes the main body.

There should be no knife, I finished writing and followed the drama.

There is a very crucial factor, Xi Ling and Lu Zi are not in the same household registration book! I just discovered this (crying and laughing)

After Sister Ci brought the two children home, she wanted to register them. However, due to identity issues and the fact that the secret realm was the birthplace of the two, Xi Ling was under Xuan Meng's name, and Lu Zai was with Sister Ci.

This question involved the quarrel between Xuan Meng and Sister Ci at the time. Meng Meng watched Ah Ci carrying the two children to find her, and she felt like a best friend...

How can I transfer these two people’s ID cards to one household registration book? It’s really difficult.

Find a way to make it happen, and then Xi Ling becomes Meng Meng's successor. It is very likely that Meng Meng cannot retire, and no one has ever seen any world consciousness retire.

6600. I thought I could write the story of the deer cub seeing the letter, but it's a bit forced. The letter should be fully presented, not watered down. It's also very important for the story to be connected. If it becomes a hidden story, it will always feel inconsistent if it is not written out. Anyway, the whole text is free.