Is this cartoonist mentally ill?.

Chapter 525: Defective Self (Original)
Then the mass-produced EVA released its own AT force field, forming a simple yet mysterious pattern behind Unit-01 and the giant Rei Ayanami.

"The AT force field of the EVA mass-produced machine resonates!"

"Continuously increasing!"

"Have you started to assimilate with Li?"

……

The remaining personnel at NERV headquarters now acted as commentators, explaining the current situation.

Then Shinji Ikari, who was still in Unit-01, saw it...

The EVA mass-produced machine's body began to distort, and a face appeared...

They are all Rei Ayanami's face!
And they are so crowded together, and are smiling in meaningless ways, it really makes one's scalp tingle!
Trypophobia, terror effect, blood phobia and unknown phobia, the things that most people are afraid of at the moment are all concentrated on them!

The audience felt their hearts stop beating when they saw this, not to mention Shinji Ikari who faced these strange phenomena in the animation!
Shinji Ikari's face seemed to be smiling, but also like he was twitching, and his whole expression was extremely weird.

At this moment, he saw Rei Ayanami's face, which was half weird and half bloody, as if it was very close to him. Her eyes were focused on him and she gave him a meaningless smile.

then……

“Ah ...

He screamed in fear again.

Along with his scream, Unit-01, which had stopped moving, suddenly woke up and opened its mouth to shout! !

The chest of Unit-01 also suddenly opened, as if indicating that at this moment Shinji Ikari had completely let go of the barriers in his heart due to fear.

He tried to brake the controls of Unit-01, trying to get rid of all the fear, but it was all in vain.

At this moment, the audience also denounced Lin Qingshan's inhumanity. This is... really crazy!
"I feel so sorry for Shinji! It's so scary. I feel goosebumps all over my body when I watch the anime. I can't imagine how scared Shinji must be when he sees all this."

"This scene... is too familiar. Aoyama, you are using the same expression you used when you drew Uzumaki to draw EVA, right?"

"As a claustrophobic person, I can't even imagine what Shinji is like right now... Being locked in the plug of Unit-01 and seeing these images, I would be scared to death right there."

"That's right, that's right! How can I say that Evangelion looks so normal to this old thief Qingshan, given his madness?"

"No... man, do you think the previous episodes about bird angels, uterus angels, and the horror angels were normal? And the episode about Kaworu Nagisa... I'm traumatized by it."

"Really? The beginning of EVA was so normal that I thought Qingshan the old villain was really going to turn over a new leaf!"

"This is the right kind of craziness! Hahaha, it's better to be a little crazy, it's better to be a little crazy!"

"It's scary... There aren't many normal people among Qingshan Laozei's fans!"

"People who have watched Edgewalker, Flame Fist, Chainsaw Man, and The Dao of Weird Immortal said... Evangelion is the last time the old thief Qingshan has restrained himself!"

"That's right! Do you know what cyberpsychosis is? Do you know what 'use the flaming fist on him' means? Do you know what 'cold worm climbing the stairs' means? I think Chainsaw Man is quite restrained!"

"Qingshan Laozei: What does it mean to be the freest cartoonist in the world?"

"The old thief Qingshan is too reserved when it comes to making animations, but he's really crazy when it comes to drawing comics. He dares to draw anything for you!"

"The ending of EVA is not very restrained. My scalp is tingling after reading this."

"They just want to trick people into coming in and kill them! I once naively thought that "The Tao of Strange Immortals" was a story about a passionate young man who traveled through another world and embarked on the path of cultivating immortals..."

"Isn't it? (Laughs) Look how passionate Brother Huozi is!"

"Hot Blood refers to using the Great Thousand Records magical power to bleed, right?!"

"I just want to ask you, Brother Huozi, whether your blood is hot enough!"

"It's too hot! So hot that I can't help but do a Cangshen climb the stairs!"

"This is already mental pollution! Watching this episode in bed at night really makes my scalp tingle!"

……

The audience was terrified, and Shinji Ikari was so frightened that his inner defenses broke.

"The psychological curve signal is decreasing!"

"The destructive instinct is gradually becoming more substantial!"

"If this continues, the qualified person will lose himself..."

……

Through the perspective and explanation of the NERV headquarters staff and Fuyutsuki at this moment, we can clearly see that the diagram representing Shinji Ikari's psychological condition is a complete mess!
Shinji Ikari was in a state of complete collapse in Unit-01 at this moment, and the cross necklace that belonged to Misato was hanging in front of him.

It seems like he is praying for the salvation of the Holy Lord, but salvation seems to be both close at hand and far away.

“Hate…hate…”

Ikari Shinji hugged himself weakly and kept talking.

But at this moment...

"Are you ready?"

A familiar male voice appeared.

Shinji Ikari looked up, only to find that the "Ayanami Rei" in front of him had turned into... "Nagisa Kaoru".

Lilith's physical appearance changed.

But the appearance of "Kaoru Nagisa" at this moment seemed to give Shinji Ikari a glimmer of redemption.

"So... you're there, Kaoru."

A smile appeared on Shinji Ikari's face, as if he had seen redemption after going completely crazy and losing his mind, and he said.

"Kaoru Nagisa" stretched out his hand as if to hold her in his arms.

But Ikari Shinji seemed to be relieved. He smiled with tears in his eyes and slowly closed his eyes.

The cross behind Unit-2 disappeared the moment Kaworu Nagisa stretched out his hand, and then only Unit- and the Spear of Longinus hanging on the S mechanism on its chest remained.

"The spiral curve is reversed!"

"My self-awareness is gradually weakening!"

"AT force field! Red pattern!"

……

The commanders at NERV headquarters seemed to be explaining that Shinji Ikari and Unit-01 are now gradually transforming into Angels.

"The fruit of life possessed by the apostles and the fruit of wisdom possessed by mankind..."

Dongyue looked at the scene and explained.

As he explained, the red core of Unit-01's chest was pierced by the Spear of Longinus...

No! Rather, it was integrated into the Spear of Longinus.

"I got EVA Unit-01 from both of them..."

After the Lance of Longinus was integrated into Unit-01's body, it gradually twisted and turned blood red, spiraling into the shape of a root...

"It is equivalent to the existence of God..."

Then countless tiny roots spread out from the trunk, and eventually they really turned into the appearance of the roots of the Tree of Life.

"The Tree of Life, which represents the bud of life, has been restored..."

The roots spread upwards and at the top, they turned into a blood-red cross.

"Will it be the ark that saves humanity from the void of the Third Impact?"

"Or will you become a demon that destroys humanity?"

Dongyue's expression was extremely solemn, and he said, "The future... has been handed over to Ikari Yui's son..."

At this moment, the remaining personnel at NERV headquarters were filled with tension, and they didn't even know if what they were doing was right.

Then, countless eyes suddenly appeared on the cross representing the Tree of Life, which was daunting.

In front of the Tree of Life, Lilith has changed from "Kaoru Nagisa" back to "Rei Ayanami" again.

"The Li now is your own heart."

The screen shows the face of Shinji Ikari, who seems to be sleeping in a sweet dream. Next to his face, his mother Yui Ikari, who has merged with Unit-01, appears again.

It was she who was speaking to Shinji Ikari, "It's your own wish...what do you want to pray for?" Amid the changing special effects of rippling water, the last ripple paused all the music and voices.

And then... the memories of Shinji Ikari appeared.

It is Shinji Ikari's childhood memory, but the picture gives off the feeling of an old-time VCR or VCD player playing images, and the background music even sounds a bit weird.

He was playing on the sand with his childhood playmates. The swing behind him looked a little lonely against the backdrop of the setting sun.

The scene seems joyful, but at the same time it reveals something weird.

For example...the playmate who called Ikari Shinji to play together was actually a doll.

The mother the doll was calling in the distance was actually... Misato.

Suddenly, everything became silent.

The surrounding scene became extremely desolate and quiet, with only the cries of ravens continuing.

Young Ikari Shinji looked like he was about to cry, but he pretended nothing happened and continued to build the sand castle in front of him.

This is the flawed self of Shinji Ikari. He lost his parents and all attention when he was young. He is obviously lonely and unbearable, but he still has to live alone.

Even if he has no one to accompany him, he still has to follow the "orders" of his playmates and build this lonely "castle".

Seeing this, many viewers felt heavy in their hearts.

Shinji Ikari's past is undoubtedly tragic, but his past and his flawed self were artificially created.

He lost his mother when he was young, and his father Gendo Ikari ignored him.

Even... Ikari Yui actually abandoned him.

She did it for her own ideals, to stop the Human Instrumentality Project, and to let Shinji Ikari see the "bright future of mankind."

She chose to have her soul absorbed by Unit-01, so that Shinji Ikari could pilot Unit-01 to fight in the future.

but……

Yui Ikari never thought about it, Shinji Ikari never wanted to pilot Unit-01 into battle, and never wanted to lose his mother.

It's like adults who are always instilling their dreams into their children, but they don't know how unfortunate the children will become as a result.

That's why Shinji Ikari has such huge ego and mental defects.

Just like this desolate memory, everything is desolate and lonely. The playmate is actually a doll, and the playmate's mother in the distance is actually Misato, who is familiar to Shinji Ikari...

Unfortunate people spend their entire lives healing their childhood, but the seeds of all their misfortunes were planted in their childhood.

Finally, the castle in front of Shinji Ikari was completed.

only……

“Ehhhhh!”

Shinji Ikari suddenly kicked the castle he had built with great difficulty.

then……

“Ehhhhh!”

“Ehhhhh!”

“Ehhhhh!”

……

With one kick after another, amid the lonely sound of the swing rocking, Shinji Ikari destroyed the castle that he had built with great difficulty.

But whether he builds or destroys.

There was still silence around Shinji Ikari.

No one praised him, and no one scolded or educated him.

It has always been just Shinji Ikari.

For some reason, when Ke Xinjie saw this scene, she suddenly wanted to cry.

"Shinji... this is too tragic."

Although she did not have such a past, she could imagine how sad it would be to be in such an environment where no one cared about her.

"Ugh……"

Zhou Wenwei didn't know what to say, and said, "So for Shinji, there is no difference between protection and destruction, right? He is so lonely from beginning to end anyway."

Then, the memories and voices of different people appeared.

There are Asuka's, Misato's and Kaji Ryoji's, and even Ayanami Rei appears again.

All those past memories, as well as the plots, scenes and images that appeared in the anime, all appeared.

Even those dirty, excessive and unexpected plots reappeared.

Shinji Ikari felt extremely painful in his heart. He begged, "Please be gentle to me..."

"You've always been so gentle..."

Misato, Ayanami Rei, and Asuka's faces overlapped and they spoke to him.

however……

"Liar!"

Shinji Ikari shouted angrily, "You are just using smiles to fool me, just hoping to continue the ambiguous relationship!"

"Because the truth hurts everyone..."

Rei Ayanami's voice appears, explaining, "This is very, very painful."

"An ambiguous relationship...will only drive me to a dead end."

The smiling faces of Ayanami Rei, Asuka and Misato kept appearing under Shinji Ikari's feet, but he said this in great pain.

For these empty things that did not belong to him at all, he sat on the insertion plug of Unit-01 again and again, suffering inhuman pain and mental blows again and again.

Did he get anything?

Nothing, right?
He never had love, friendship, fame or status.

But he suffered so much pain and endured so much inhuman suffering and blows.

Rei Ayanami's voice was still talking to him -

"You are just being perfunctory for the time being."

"I'm afraid if this continues, I don't know when I will be abandoned again..."

"I am very uneasy. I can't calm down! Come and keep me company! Come and care about me!"

Shinji Ikari shouted, but when he turned around...

But he found that Misato, Asuka and Ayanami Rei were far away from him.

The audience's hearts seemed to be falling at this moment, just like Shinji Ikari's.

But the scene changed again.

Back to the day before Asuka was unwilling to believe that Kaji Ryoji was dead, and Ikari Shinji told her the truth to wake her up, but ended up driving Asuka crazy.

This was a day that Shinji Ikari regretted greatly. He blamed himself for saying those words that day.

As for what happened later, Asuka went completely crazy and ran away from home and disappeared for several days.

So this time... he wanted to make up for something.

"Can I help you with something?"

Shinji Ikari looked at Asuka lying on the table and said enthusiastically, "I hope to be with you forever."

but……

"Then don't do anything."

Asuka said in disgust, "Don't come near me...you'll only hurt me."

(End of this chapter)