I'm dying, my sisters are begging for forgiveness

Chapter 134 Suicide
night.

manor.

Chen Yuwei came back quietly without telling anyone.

Butler Liu heard from a housekeeper that the eldest daughter seemed to be upset by something. He reminded her that the floor had just been mopped, but the eldest daughter did not respond at all and even staggered and almost fell.

Only then did Butler Liu learn that Chen Yuwei had returned.

He looked at the schedule and found that Chen Yuwei had met with Chen Xiangrou many times in recent days.

Combined with the description of the domestic worker.

Butler Liu felt a little uneasy.

He was afraid that Chen Yuwei had been stimulated again, causing her condition to worsen.

"Do you need dinner prepared?"

Butler Liu waited outside the door for a while, then slowly pushed open the bedroom door.

The bedroom is a mess.

There are wine bottles all over the floor.

Chen Yuwei's face was pale and haggard. It was unknown how much alcohol she had drunk in these few hours.

Butler Liu sighed in his heart, then put on gloves and cleaned up the mess.

at this time.

Chen Yuwei's eyes were bloodshot and her voice was trembling and incoherent: "Lao Liu, I did something wrong again."

"It seems like a lot of people have been hurt because of me. But I don't want that."

"I never meant to hurt anyone."

“I don’t eat.”

"My stomach hurts so much, I don't want to eat anything."

"Chen Mo."

But when she regained consciousness at some point and saw this home that had already been shattered.

Chen Yuwei's eyes gradually turned red.

Butler Liu quietly put away the wine.

Chen Yuwei has had stomach problems for several years.

He took Chen Yuwei to check many times.

But every inspection did not find any problems.

Until a few days ago.

He took Chen Yuwei to see a psychiatrist.

Guo Liya also found out the cause of Chen Yuwei's stomachache, which was a psychological dysfunction caused by emotions.

So when I heard Chen Yuwei say her stomach hurt.

Butler Liu has already determined that Chen Yuwei's condition has worsened.

He took out some antidepressants and coaxed Chen Yuwei into taking them.

The haggard Chen Yuwei finally calmed down a little, and she saw the Peking Opera doll placed in the room again.

That day, the Peking Opera doll was smashed by the workers who were moving it.

After crying, Chen Yuwei still unreasonably asked Butler Liu to fix it.

After Butler Liu sorted out the debris on the floor, he even found a restorer with the level of cultural relics.

However, we can still only restore the Peking Opera doll to its approximate shape.

The parts not covered by the costume are full of cracks.

Chen Yuwei suddenly stood up and picked up the Peking Opera doll, muttering to herself: "This is what Chen Mo gave me."

"He gives me gifts very thoughtfully every year."

"Is he coming back soon? My birthday is coming soon!"

"Be sure of him."

But when she looked closely at the Peking Opera doll.

Chen Yuwei's face turned even paler. In his eyes, those cracks looked like scars.

At this moment, her consciousness emerged from her drunken state and became sober again.

Chen Yuwei thought about it.

She hurt Chen Mo too much, and all these scars were caused by her.
Chen Yuwei's tears kept falling, but she didn't wipe them away. She just held the Peking Opera doll with her head down, not moving a muscle.

Butler Liu looked at Chen Yuwei, who looked haggard and seemed to have lost all her pride.

He had mixed feelings for a moment.

It can be said that he watched Chen Yuwei grow up.

At a very young age.

Chen Yuwei used to have a cat.

The cat was very clingy and only stayed close to Chen Yuwei.

Chen Yuwei also liked this cat at first.

But after a while, when the novelty wore off, Chen Yuwei asked him to help drive the cat away, saying that the cat had made her clothes and the room full of fur.

Said not to let the cat near her.

All the cat's behavior became just annoying to her.

After Butler Liu helped to drive the cat away several times, the cat finally stopped sticking to Chen Yuwei.

And when Chen Yuwei approaches, he will reflexively avoid her.

Butler Liu originally thought that Chen Yuwei would be satisfied with this.

But after a few days.

Chen Yuwei actually came to him crying, saying that the cat ignored her and made her feel very sad.

Said she liked the cat very much.

Butler Liu just smiled and shook his head at the time, and he did not explain that this was not actually love.

Chen Yuwei just couldn't accept that the cat that loved her so much suddenly didn't love her anymore.

The emptiness and loss in her heart made her mistakenly believe that she liked the cat very much.

So even though it took a lot of effort, I tried to comfort the cat that was hurt by her.

Then as time goes by.

She would still start to dislike the cat again.

now.

Chen Yuwei looked so regretful and seemed to have suddenly realized that she loved her former brother so much.

Is it just because she can't accept it that Chen Mo has completely stopped loving her as his sister?
Butler Liu thought maybe.

It may be different.

It is also possible that it is in Chen Yuwei's heart.

Chen Mo is the cat.

"Old Liu, will Chen Mo give me one last gift?"

"You must have a way to make Chen Mo call me sister one last time, and make him say those words, happy birthday, sister one last time!"

"Just the last time!"

"I will definitely cherish his gift!"

Chen Yuwei got drunk again.

He looked extremely helpless and his voice was filled with pleading.

Butler Liu didn't want to provoke Chen Yuwei again at this time.

But there are some things.

Butler Liu must make Chen Yuwei realize the truth, otherwise those unrealistic ideas will only hurt her more in the future: "No more."

"Mr. Chen Mo has left this home."

"So there's nothing I can do."

And the funniest thing is.

Chen Mo might not even live to see her birthday.

After Butler Liu finished speaking, he was already prepared to appease them.

But Chen Yuwei's emotions seemed to have calmed down.

Her eyes dimmed: "What about Yiyi? Did she tell you that she would be back?"

Butler Liu shook his head slowly.

Chen Yuwei thought of a lot of things at once.

Those memories are beautiful.

She had always believed that those people would always be there.

But the memory is more beautiful.

The more you are pulled away from your memory and return to reality, the more severe the feeling of collapse will be.

Sometimes she would have hallucinations and see those people right in front of her.

But every time she tried to get closer, he disappeared.
It will only appear in memory.
Is it only after I die that I can truly see the people in my memory in another world?

Wouldn’t those hallucinations no longer be hallucinations and thus never disappear?
With so many people hurt by me, will I stop being so cruel to her?
Can I see my mother and apologize to her?
These thoughts suddenly emerged in Chen Yuwei's mind.

And she took action in an instant, pouring a handful of sleeping pills from the side into her hand.

"Spit it out!!"

Butler Liu shouted at the top of his lungs and grabbed Chen Yuwei's wrist.

But it still didn't completely stop Chen Yuwei.

She still swallowed some of the sleeping pills in her hand.

soon.

The footsteps in the room became more and more frequent and chaotic.

(End of this chapter)