I'm dying, my sisters are begging for forgiveness

Chapter 136 Chen Yuwei's illness is because of you

the other side.

Chen Ying was a little uneasy.

The housekeeping staff made the bedroom quieter and cleaner than usual.

As usual, the gardener carefully trimmed the flowers and plants outside the window.

Keep the indoor lighting dim and soft at night.

these years.

She took the initiative to cut off all information from the outside world.

The biological clock is as punctual as the waxing and waning of the moon in the sky.

It had been a long time since she had such difficulty falling asleep, and she even felt a little nervous in her heart.

Chen Ying put on a coat and sat at the desk.

many years ago.

She took the initiative to break away from the state of tension that she would enter as soon as she opened her eyes every day.

Escape from the urban life where you have to cram all the things you need to do for the day into your brain the moment you wake up.

Chen Ying found herself with a lot of time.

I will also do many things that I would never do in the past.

Just like the desk in front of you.

Sometimes she could spend hours daydreaming and slowly organizing things.

Chen Ying looked out the window after hearing the rustling sound of rain hitting bamboo leaves.

Suddenly she saw a solitary bamboo.

Chen Ying also suddenly discovered that the bamboo had blossomed.

The flowers are very warm, but the bamboo leaves are turning yellow, and the bamboo poles are making sounds as if they are about to break due to the continuous wind and rain.

Chen Ying thought of something her father once said to her.

When bamboo blooms, it either means death or ruin.

She was a little scared at the time.

Only when I grew up did I realize that the somewhat scary meaning behind the flowering of bamboo is that the flowering is a sign that the bamboo is about to wither.

Somehow.

After Chen Ying saw the bamboo, she felt even more anxious.

Even a faint stabbing pain began to appear in my heart.

Is it because I take care of these bamboos so often that I have developed feelings for them?
Or because it looks too lonely in the wind and rain?

When Chen Ying encounters something that makes her uncomfortable, she chooses to escape.

She drew the curtains to stop herself from looking any further.

But the uneasiness did not get relieved.

The flowering bamboo.

It kept appearing in her mind and wouldn't go away.

This made Chen Ying a little dazed, and she subconsciously took out a pen and paper.

There used to be many nights when the moon was on the willow branches.

She just sat at the desk by the window and wrote all those times and emotions in the letter.

No matter how hypocritical or meaningless the words are, once they are written on paper, they will be different.

Chen Ying has only one pen pal.

They can understand each other's feelings between the lines.

Feel the other person's mood when writing this letter.

Listen to each other.

Become each other's confidant.

But at the moment of putting pen to paper.

Chen Ying's eyes were red.

The person who had accompanied her in the past and was willing to write letters to her foolishly in this era was still clearly in her memory, but she could no longer find any trace of him.

Chen Ying finally figured it out at this moment.

Why, after seeing that bamboo, I felt panicky but also had an inexplicable sense of familiarity?

As soon as Yu Mumu received the examination report and was diagnosed, he wrote her a letter.

The content of this letter is no different from the previous ones.

But when she read the letter, she felt anxious.

Her heart ached even more.

Chen Family
Chen Ying didn't know why, but the meaning of bamboo blossoming came to her mind again.
Old house. Chen Xiangrou stood there motionless.

But. Isn't it you who always makes me understand things?
Isn't this the answer you most want to hear?
The next paragraph of the letter mentioned Chen Yuwei.

My mother said that my eldest sister cried very hard.

She said this is how a child should behave.

Chen Xiangrou thought of a lot at this moment.

Ever since she felt her mother's favoritism, she has always wanted to prove to her mother that she is no worse than her older sister.

But her efforts have never been noticed.

This made Chen Xiangrou vent all her dissatisfaction in an essay when she was a child.

She said her grades have always been better than her sister's.

All the aunts who came to visit our house praised her, saying that she was smart and had a good personality. All the compliments were directed at her.

Those people would always tell my mother that they were so envious of having such a precious daughter.

Logically speaking, shouldn't I be the one who gets more care?

I don't need favoritism either. I just want my mother to treat my older sister and me equally.

Instead of just giving your love to that older sister who sometimes has unstable emotions and acts like a psychopath!

After the teacher read this composition.

She contacted the mother and asked her to pay more attention to her child's education and companionship.

Chen Xiangrou still remembers the scene of that day clearly.

After her mother learned the content of the essay, she got angry in front of her for the first time.

Use a strong tone.

He used a commanding tone without any room for leeway, telling her never to say a bad word about her elder sister again.

Chen Xiangrou still thinks back to this incident now.

Her emotions continued to surge.

Although those words are indeed a bit exaggerated.

But aren’t these things true?

When her mother said those words, Chen Xiangrou felt at a certain moment that she was not her mother's daughter.

Chen Xiangrou seemed to understand one thing at that time.

The motherly love that Chen Yuwei can get without doing anything is something that she cannot get even if she tries her best to fight for it.

When did she change when she saw what was written in the letter?
Chen Xiangrou found it a little ridiculous.

After this incident, the little girl still had unrealistic fantasies and tried to fight for equal maternal love by studying harder.

But she had a full stack of award certificates.

She also showed greater talent in jewelry design than her older sister did when she was the same age.

But every time she tried to tell her mother that she was smarter than her older sister and that her future achievements would definitely be higher than her older sister.

Mother will still put more care and love on my eldest sister.

Her efforts were nothing but a joke.

She felt that her childhood expectations were very simple. She just hoped that her mother would be impartial when comparing her with her older sister.

But my mother couldn't do it.

Chen Xiangrou always thought her mother was a very good person.

She is gentle to everyone.

We will do charity with all our heart and ensure that every donation is implemented and truly reaches those in need.

I will visit those children in the welfare home with patience and kindness.

She is also very talented. At the age of eighteen, she entered the world-class jewelry design stage.

In Chen Xiangrou's heart, her mother shines.

That's why she longs for her mother's recognition and hopes that in her mother's heart, she is better than her elder sister.

Chen Xiangrou continued reading.

Followed by.

Her body trembled.

Chen Ying’s sister.