After being thrown into the crazy literature, the author turned over a new leaf

"Aren't you going to talk now that you're here?" She spoke first.

Song Yujun: "I don't know what to say."

They are mother and daughter by blood, but there is not even a trace of family affection between them.

"He's been dead for a few years, right?" Song Lanxin didn't mention his name directly.

"Well, four or five years."

"not married yet?"

"Why do you want to get married?"

"Just for someone who will never come back, Song Yujun, my daughter, would never be so stupid!" said Song Lanxin.

Song Yujun's expression remained unchanged: "Isn't this thanks to you?"

As soon as these words were spoken, there was silence again.

"I'm sorry," she said.

"It's pointless to say this now, Ms. Song. I don't need your apology anymore." Song Yujun still looked calm and composed.

"If I can't be killed, I will become stronger. So, I sent you to jail." At this time, a ghostly smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.

"I am your mother!"

"Have you ever treated me as your own daughter? Let's not talk about the nine-year-old thing. Why did you show up again after I arrived at my adoptive parents' home? Don't you dislike me? Why don't you just let me disappear forever? Why did you recognize me? Why did you take me away?"

"Just for your so-called rights? But why did you hurt my adoptive parents?"

"Can't you see me having a good time?"

"How did I offend you that you had to severely injure my adoptive parents! Why did you want to get involved in what happened back then! You clearly knew that you had a daughter there, and they treated her very well!"

"Song Lanxin, you destroyed all my beauty!" Song Yujun said hysterically.

"I was so close, so close to embracing happiness, but thanks to you, I have nothing now."

"You have framed all the people who loved me, Song Lanxin. If Qin An hadn't wanted me to be a good person, I would never have just sent you to jail!"

"Song Lanxin, you deserve to be cut into pieces! If it weren't for Qin An, I would never just send you to prison. I would torture you and make you watch everything you planned collapse bit by bit!"

"Then, I will send you off in the most painful way possible. I will slit your throat with a dagger, letting you see with your own eyes that you are getting closer and closer to death!"

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Song Yujun didn’t know what kind of mood she was in when she left the prison. She only knew that she was sitting on the side of the road crying.

The weather in early summer is unpredictable, just like now, it is raining heavily.

She didn't want to hide or escape anymore.

Brother, I’m so tired. I feel like I can’t even eat the food you cooked. Yu’an, please hug me. I’m really going to break.

When she got home, she was soaked.

She returned to Jinxiu New City, where she had lived since he left.

There is no one living next to it because the property is in her name. In other words, the house has an owner.

After his death, his brother Li Yang handed me his suicide note and will.

There are twelve suicide notes in total.

I opened it at first, but I quickly closed it again.

As long as you don't see it, it will still exist.

But I've been waiting for so long, why hasn't he come back yet?

It turns out that I was just deceiving myself.

She took a hot bath, took some cold medicine, and then went to the next room.

As usual, she went to his bedroom in a dignified manner and fell asleep hugging the quilt that once had his scent on it.

She lay on his bed, and after three minutes, she got up again.

She sighed.

I forgot to take my medicine. My brother said that I should take good care of myself and take medicine when I am sick. I can’t…

Somehow the water in the cup spilled out, and then there was a loud "bang" and the glass fell to the ground.

Debris flew everywhere.

Song Yujun's body was shaking. She shook her head, but it was too painful. No matter how she rubbed it, her head still hurt.

She fell on the sofa and curled up into a ball.

My head hurts so much, who can help me?

No one can save me.

I am seriously ill.

Even the great immortal can't save me.

Song Yujun's body was covered with scars from old and new illnesses and could no longer bear the negative pressure.

Half an hour later, she finally returned to normal.

She staggered towards the bed, but tripped and fell to the ground.

Tears welled up in my eyes.

The grievances are like the collapse of the sky and the earth.

Brother, it hurts so much, Junjun hurts so much.

Song Yujun tried to pronounce the words clearly, but she couldn't utter a single word and could only sob.

She hated herself so much now - cowardly and incompetent.

Song Yujun, you are an adult, so why are you crying? Does crying mean you won't fall? Does crying mean someone will help you up?
Will he appear after I cry?

Your Yu An is dead, he is dead!

It was you who saw his cold body in the hospital, it was you who could no longer warm up his body no matter how hard you tried, it was you who watched him enter the crematorium, it was you who held his ashes in your own hands and placed them in the cemetery...

Can you accept reality, can you stop imagining "what if" and "maybe"? He is really dead, deader than dead!

Song Yujun, how can you accept the fact that he is dead? !

Five years is a long time. Why are you still not awake?
No, I know he is dead. I know very clearly that he is dead. I just, I just want someone to pull me up.

I just want someone to pull me up, I just want to find someone who can hug and soothe all the depression in my heart, I just want.

I just missed him.

She stood up from the ground, she stood up from the ground dejectedly.

Song Yujun walked like a zombie, dragging her broken body back to his room and closing the door.

She didn't go back to the bed, but went to the nightstand.

I opened the drawer and saw a carefully packed file bag.

After she took it, the medicine underneath immediately caught her eye - sleeping pills.

She had thoughts of committing suicide, but her brother wouldn't let her.

He said I had to be obedient, otherwise he would never come back.

But, brother, Yu'an, I have been very obedient, why don’t you appear in front of me? You have never even been in my dreams!
If you don't come again, I'll go find you.

She had never seen these things before, so she just took a quick look at them at the time. When she fell just now, she suddenly had the urge to take a look.

The will contained all his property, and below it, basically, Song Yujun's name was written.

But one of them is not.

The name he wrote below was the welfare home where Song Yujun used to live.

There were twelve suicide notes in total. She only read the first one and didn't have the courage to open the remaining eleven.

(End of this chapter)