After being thrown into the crazy literature, the author turned over a new leaf

The first suicide note was signed in 2020.

At that time, I was twenty years old and he was twenty-three.

That was a suicide note he wrote after he was with me and then disappeared.

At the beginning, he wrote a thousand words in a fluent and eloquent manner, and then at the end, he got to the point.

他 说:

"Junjun, I know you like me, and coincidentally I like you too, but I'm sorry, please forgive me for disappearing out of thin air."

You despicable man, just leave if you want to, and why are you finding such a plausible excuse for yourself?

"If I can come back alive, I am willing to accept any punishment you want to give me. If I can't come back, you must take good care of yourself. You still have a long life to live, and no one should become an obstacle on your way."

Tsk, you are self-aware and know that you are a roadblock.

The second and third suicide notes were written in 2021.

What he wrote was that he thought he was going to die, but was surprised that he didn't die.

He said the scenery in South Island is beautiful and if he could come back, he would take me to see it.

In the last paragraph, he again said that you should take good care of yourself, no one can become an obstacle in your life, you should be strong and brave, be kind, and be good to others.

This is a world where you have to get along with others. If you have a gentle attitude, you will have fewer troubles. But if someone wants to push your luck, don't give in.

Don't provoke trouble, but don't be afraid of trouble.

There is a small paragraph below: This is a birthday gift prepared for you, I wonder if you like it or not.

I was wondering, why among all my magnificent birthday gifts, there was such a simple thing, it turns out it was given by you.

The last line of small print reads: There is a surprise inside the wooden doll, wait for me to come back, Junjun, wait for me to come back.

Song Yujun didn't rush to read the fourth suicide note. She was thinking about the wooden doll.

It seemed like it was thrown away because it was so ugly. At that time, I thought someone was playing a prank on me.

Now she opened the fourth suicide note, which was dated 2024.

The first sentence above is this:
Junjun, there is a ring inside the wooden doll.

I will be responsible for you because I love you, even earlier than you loved me.

This is my first time carving a wooden doll, and my skills are not very good. However, I believe that in the coming year, I will be able to carve a lifelike doll for you.

Junjun, I will come back, I will definitely come back, I must have the ability to turn danger into safety!
This time, Qin An finally stopped writing assembly-line articles. He kept his writing simple and clear, and he no longer acted as a "brother" to tell me what I could do and what I couldn't do, or what to do when encountering problems.

In 2025, he wrote his fifth, sixth, and seventh suicide notes, and the three letters together contained no more than a hundred words.

Wasn't it quite good to write before? What kind of suicide note is this? Just one sentence to end it? Then you might as well not write it!

There was a different look in her eyes.

Fifth letter:
Best wishes, and I’m sorry.

The sixth letter was blank, with no words written on it.

Seventh letter:
Junjun, I can't come back, or rather, I can't be the bright and beautiful person in your mind.

I'm sorry, I broke my promise once again.

The eighth suicide note consisted of three photos of meteors streaking across the sky.

The ninth suicide note was a poem.

"The drums are beating loudly, and troops are eager to fight. The country is building a city wall, and I am traveling alone to the south.

From Sun Tzu Zhong, Ping Chen and Song.I don't want to go home, I'm worried.

爰居爰处?Yuan mourning his horse?In Yiqiu?Under the forest.

The life and death agreement is broad, and Zicheng said. Hold your hand and grow old together.

Yu Bo is broad, but I am not alive.Yu Wei Xun Xi, I don't believe in Xi.

Bastard Qin An!

When Song Yujun saw this, she couldn't bear it anymore and covered her face with her hands.

In the silent space, only the sound of crying could be heard.

The vernacular translation of the last sentence is as follows:
Sigh, I have been away from you for so long, it is hard to meet you again. Sigh, we are too far apart, it is hard to fulfill my vow.

Bastard Qin Yu'an! Idiot Qin Yu'an!
At that time, Song Yujun just thought he was doing it for "fun". Now, even if the truth is revealed again, it still makes her... want to cry.

There were only three letters left before she finished reading them all. Song Yujun didn't even dare to read them anymore.

Once you finish watching it, it’s really over, and there’s no more of it.

After a while, Song Yujun finally opened the tenth letter. This letter had a lot of words.

This letter was written at the end of 2026.

他 说:

I have a lot of things to say, but when I put pen to paper I don't know where to start, so I can only talk on and on in a diary-like manner.

It's New Year again. We haven't seen each other for several years. Now you should not be the prickly little hedgehog girl who just came to the family. Now you should be a bright and dashing young lady.

You are so serious and stubborn, you will definitely dig deep into the ground after I leave. What's more, you have returned to the Song family, so you can get any news you want to know.

Suddenly I realized that this was not a good thing. You will soon find that the identity of "Qin Yu'an" has been cancelled, and then... you will think I am dead.

In fact, there is really no difference between me being dead and now, because I am just Qin An now, not Qin Yu'an.

……

I have been doing this task for too long, to the point where I have completely forgotten what "Qin Yu'an" looks like, and I almost lost my original intention. Fortunately, I have the necklace you gave me.

Waiting is a long process, extremely painful and boring. Junjun, will you wait for me?
You probably won't wait for me, after all, "Qin Yu'an" is dead.

Junjun, please wait for me a little longer, wait until I come back, okay?

If I could come back safely, the delicate and bright Miss Song Yujun [Junjun] would probably say: "Oh, belated affection, even a dog wouldn't want it!"

Junjun, I'm sorry. If I could come back, I would accept all your punishment.

Junjun, I have been away from you for too long. I almost forgot your voice and your appearance. If I can come back and get your forgiveness, can you appear in front of me 24 hours a day?
Junjun, please forgive my greed. I miss you so much. I am having a hard time here. How are you doing?
I think you should be doing well, except when you think of me.

Junjun, do you miss me to the point of tears? No, you probably hate me to the point of gnashing your teeth for leaving without saying goodbye.

Hey, I don’t know what I’m writing. Forget it, Junjun, just pretend that I didn’t write anything.

Never mind, you know, I have no talent for writing, I'll just continue to think of what I want to say, anyway, you can understand what I mean.

We have dumplings and glutinous rice balls for the New Year. You like those stuffed with vegetables and mushrooms. If I come back, I will give them to you every year. No, as long as you want to eat dumplings, I will make dumplings for you...

The last sentence of the letter is: The darkness will eventually end, and the east will turn white.

(End of this chapter)