Living with a beauty

Xiao Hanyin's words instantly melted my heart into a puddle of blood. I nodded desperately, hugged her tightly, and held her tightly, resisting the soreness of my nose to keep tears from falling.

I know I can't cry. If I cry before she cries, it would be too shameful. She will laugh at me when she thinks of me after many years. At this time, I just want to hug her and hold her tightly with all my strength. Hold her tightly, because I know this may be the last time I hold her, and I know that if she leaves my arms again, we will go our separate ways.

At this time, Xiao Hanyin just let me hold her like this, I could feel her trembling in my arms, she definitely didn't want to keep her tears in my mind, that's why she was so reluctant Own.

But even so, I can still feel all her emotions. This is the first time I feel that I have touched her heart. Her heart is wet, like it is raining heavily.

Inexplicably, I remembered that Zixia Fairy jumped into Zhizunbao's heart in Journey to the West, and shed a tear there, while Xiao Hanyin in her arms left countless tears in her heart in her own way. Originally belongs to my tears.

Thinking of this, I felt sad for a while, and moved my mouth to say something to her, but thousands of words were stuck in my throat, those things I originally wanted to say to her, those things that I could have said for three days and three nights If it is, it becomes unimportant at this moment.

Since you can't stay together forever, you also want to miss each other forever, and don't forget each other forever.

In our life, there are long partings everywhere, I slowly lowered my head, and gently kissed her forehead.

Her forehead is as cold as my heart, and everything is frozen in this picture.

The train whistle blew, and the person in his arms broke free.

I looked at Xiao Hanyin who was walking backward step by step, and all the memories about her in my mind began to flash before my eyes.

She introduced herself to me for the first time in my memory.

For the first time in memory, she smiled at me with a blushing face.

The first time I ran over to hold my hand, and the first time I leaned over to give me a shallow kiss.

Everything is like a heavy old movie, slowly passing by bit by bit.

When I came back to my senses, I saw Xiao Hanyin with a smile on his face, lifting his suitcase and waving at me.

The silence speaks.

There was a pain in my heart, I suppressed a smile, and nodded to her.

Xiao Hanyin stood there in a daze for a while, then turned around and got into the car.

The moment her figure disappeared from the car door, I couldn't hold back anymore and burst into tears.

At that moment, I knew that I had completely lost her.

At that moment, I knew that I would never have her again in my long life.

There will always be such a person in everyone's life, she may not necessarily accompany you to the end, but in the years with her, you will definitely learn something, that is growth.

Growing up is like giving birth. If it doesn't hurt, how can you grow up?

At this time, another long beep sounded, and the train started bit by bit.

With tears on my face, I watched the train start in front of me, and watched it roll out of the platform.

And something in my life was taken away by the train in front of me, it disappeared, and it will never appear again.

I buried my face in my hands, weeping uncontrollably.

Goodbye, my little Hanyin.

Thank you for the youth you gave me.

Please forgive me for saying such cruel words to you at the end, please forgive me for everything I did wrong.

Because I know that no matter what, you, like me, will always keep the time we have with each other in your heart.

Even if you and I never said goodbye in the end, in the next few decades, I hope you are well and see you again.

At this time, the last whistle of the train came from a distance, and the desolate sound echoed in the air, like the mournful sound of this world, which could not be dissipated for a long time.

I was on the way back alone and didn't go back to the company.

I am afraid that others will see my red eyes from crying, and I am afraid that when I sit in my seat, I will think of something vividly.

Right now I just want to go home, even if it's not really home, I just want to go back to that place right now.

Along the way, many people cast doubtful eyes on me, but I didn't feel it at all.

I know that I am definitely not the only frustrated person in this city. Beijing is like a huge city of tears. Sad stories are being staged all the time, earning countless people's tears.

When I walked home in a daze, as soon as I opened the door, I saw Liu Xuezheng sitting on the sofa, turning his head to look at me.

Seeing me coming back, Liu Xue looked very surprised, but she moved her mouth and was about to say something, but she fell silent as if she had thought of something.

I didn't speak either, I forced a smile on her, and walked back to my room.

I don't want Liu Xue to see my sad face now, at least I don't want Liu Xue to see my sad face for another girl.

I have made the same mistake once. I have hurt Xiao Hanyin, so I cannot hurt Liu Xue in the same way.

I only have Liu Xue now, and I only have her left now.

I hid in my room and sat by the bed, not knowing what was going on in my heart.

After a while, Liu Xue pushed open the door and walked in.

I looked at her, and saw her looking at me calmly, without a trace of emotion on her face.

I didn't know what to say, I could only lower my head in a trance.

At this time Liu Xue came over and suddenly stretched out his hand and hugged me into her arms.

My head was pressed against her stomach, and my chin trembled a little bit.

Liu Xue's embrace is very warm, like a safe haven in the sea, and I stayed here with my broken heart, and never wandered again.

I don't know how long it has been like this, Liu Xue slowly let go of me, then she stretched out her hand and squeezed my palm lightly, and walked out the door quietly.

I think she must have a lot of questions to ask me, but she still chose to leave me alone time at this time. Liu Xue must also know that you can see a doctor for illness, but you can only rely on yourself for heart disease.

I looked up at the closed door in a daze for a while, then slowly lay back on the bed.

The moment I closed my eyes, Xiao Hanyin's low and gentle voice seemed to ring in my ears.

"Well, I like you, from the bottom of my heart, I like you."

A hot tear overflowed from the corner of his eye, soaking the whole world.

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In the next few days, I fell seriously ill. Although it was just a simple cold, I had a high fever and I was going to see the Buddha. This made Liu Xue and Xiaoxue very worried, especially Xiaoxue. , She just recovered from a serious illness, and I fell down immediately, which made her think that she might have infected me.

The two girls didn't know where they got me medicines in large and small packages and kept letting me take them, and threatened to take me to the hospital for an injection.

In fact, I know very well that when my heart heals a little bit, the illness should get better, right?Then everything will be fine...

But just when my self-comforting thoughts had just emerged, I received a call from Brother Feng, who asked me out for a get-together on the phone, and told me sadly that he was leaving Beijing.

When I heard the news, my heart skipped a beat, and I agreed with a blank mind.

By the time I went to see Brother Feng, the other two roommates had already arrived.

The moment I saw the three of them, I suddenly realized that I hadn't seen them for a long time.

Although everyone lived not far away, it seemed that I hadn't interacted with them for a long time.

But a few people didn't say anything when they saw me, they all came together to punch and kick.

I was seriously ill and almost died here.

Several people ran away in disgust after learning that I had a bad cold, and signaled that they should not come out to harm others if they had a cold.

I despised them, looked at Brother Feng and asked

"Why are you going home? Won't you come to Beijing again?"

Brother Feng is from the Northeast, so he smiled very honestly.

: "I didn't make any famous things in Beijing. My parents are at home, so I'd better go home and be realistic..."

Brother Feng's words made me feel inexplicably sad. I somehow remembered the bold words we had at the wine table before graduation...I sighed...I don't know what to say right now.

Unexpectedly, Brother Feng smiled at Mimi instead, and approached with an indifferent look and said

: "You kid doesn't know what you're busy with every day. Why did you ask me to sing when you promised? Where did you go?"

As soon as I heard Brother Feng say that, I quickly nodded my head guiltyly and said, "Well, let's do it today, I'll invite you today."

It just so happened that I didn't go to work these two days due to illness, so I have plenty of time.

As soon as several people heard that I wanted to treat guests, they all showed their faces as vampires, and it seemed that they were going to drain my blood in a while.

But I have a little bit of money in my hand now, so it doesn't matter if I have a little extravagance, and at this time... love is priceless.

In fact, the few of us haven’t had such a good gathering since we graduated. What I didn’t expect was that we finally got together once, and the price was that it would be difficult to get together again in the future.

To be honest, my college career was very boring, and a few roommates were my only gain. We spent four years of youth together, and chose to stay in Beijing together after graduation.

At the beginning, we agreed to work hard together, but after all, we chose to compromise in the face of reality.

Several people have each other's work and each other's life.

Those youthful clothes disappeared, replaced by seemingly bright suit shirts.

We're all grown up, those days are in the past..

I don't remember how much the four of us drank that night, I just remember that we kept talking about things in college.

It's a little hypocritical for several men to get together to recall the past, but we all know that this is a very important memory in our lives.

Maybe after a few years we will all be old and out of shape, maybe at that time we have not seen each other for many years.

But I believe that each of us will remember that there were a few 2bs who spent a very happy time with me.

When I was parting, I hugged and hugged Brother Feng well. Although such a move would attract weird eyes from everyone around me in this era of romantic love, I don't need to care about those at this time.

I patted Brother Feng on the shoulder, "I won't send you off tomorrow."

This is what we have agreed upon, the farewell between men.

Brother Feng smiled and punched me: "I will have a chance to play with me in the future."

I looked at Brother Feng, my eyes blushed for no reason.

I must have been drinking too much water recently, that's why I want to shed tears so easily.

I nodded, turned my head and walked back to the neighborhood before shedding tears.

After going upstairs, I opened the door and found that Liu Xue and Xiaoxue were sitting together and chatting about something.

Seeing me coming back, the two people looked at me one after another, and Xiaoxue spoke first.

: "Xiao Zhang, you are back"

I nodded and looked at Liu Xue again.

Liu Xue didn't speak, but looked at me with two big eyes blinking.

I thought about it, signaled myself to go back to the room first, and then walked back to my room.

To be honest, I suddenly have a feeling of uneasiness in my heart, which makes me very uneasy.

And just after a while, the door of the room was pushed open.

I saw Liu Xue walking in with a glass of water and several capsules in his hand.

Liu Xue came in and closed the door, then looked at me and said

: "Little Zhang, you haven't taken your medicine yet, you don't want to get better..."

I looked at Liu Xue, she had already walked in front of me and handed me the water and capsules, while frowning and asking

: "Are you still drinking?"

I took the cup in Liu Xue's hand and drank the medicine, then nodded and said

: "Well..drank some.."

Liu Xue sighed and said sullenly

: "I'm so sick and still drinking, it's really not worrying..."

Although it was a reproachful tone, it made my heart inexplicably warm.

I paused, and suddenly asked

: "Liu Xue, if one day... I also leave Beijing...you...what will you do?"

As soon as the words came out of my mouth, I was shocked, and quickly added with a guilty conscience

: "I.. I just asked on a whim... nothing else.."

When Liu Xue heard me say this, she first showed doubts on her face, but soon she smiled slightly and said

: "Leave, just leave"

After finishing speaking, Liu Xue paused, then moved his face closer to me and said

: "What can I do? Of course I will go wherever you go~"

Liu Xue's words made me blush suddenly, and a warm current flowed into my heart.

I looked at her in front of me with some embarrassment, and stammered:

: "You...you are so close to me, don't be afraid that I will infect you with a cold..."

Liu Xue didn't move, and replied with a smile: "Don't be afraid, I just happen to be in the same boat as you when the time comes..."

I didn't expect Liu Xuexue to say that, so I couldn't help but cast a glance at her.

As a result, the moment I looked at her, my eyes somehow met hers.

The heartbeat slowed down at that moment, and the breathing also became a little short.

I looked at the person in front of me and slowly moved my mouth.

"Really..Aren't you afraid..."

"Well, don't be afraid..."

"Then...can you come a little closer?"