bad youth

"How is it possible..." Su Ze was still full of disbelief, but his feet were slowly moving towards He Juan.

Hearing Su Ze's footsteps, He Juan suddenly turned her head and said fiercely, "Don't come here, I'm not He Juan!"

Su Ze stared at He Juan's face carefully, looked and looked, and after two or three minutes, he suddenly took a long breath: "You are really He Juan... I mean, there was a familiar feeling from the beginning. Feeling, but I didn't think about you at all."

I think this is a bit interesting. The current He Juan has almost no similarities with the past He Juan. How did Su Ze recognize that she is He Juan?Before I knew it, I asked this question: "How did you find out?"

Su Ze pointed to He Juan's eyes and said, "He Juan has a mole under her right eyelid. When we were still together, she once told me that it was called a tear mole, and that people with a tear mole would have water all their lives. Floating for half a lifetime." Speaking of this, I smiled wryly: "I told her at the time, how could it be, at least I will always be by my side..." Seemingly feeling that he had slipped his words, he suddenly stopped and asked, "How could you It became like this?" There was a gentleness in his tone.

This really scared me. I thought that according to Su Ze's personality, after confirming that she was He Juan, she would leave without hesitation. I didn't expect to leave for such a long time, and I said so long if.

He Juan didn't seem to be half moved, but instead asked: "You still ask me? I want to ask you, how did you become like this? I just changed physically. And you, you Even the soul has changed!"

Su Ze was startled, and then smiled wryly: "Yes, even my soul has changed. From the inside to the outside, I am no longer the original me."

"Why? Why did you become like this?" He Juan asked, trying to figure out the answer.

"No reason." Su Ze said: "How can there be so many reasons in this world? In fact, my nature is like this, but I used to pretend well. When I was with you, I was suffocated. I have to pretend to be one every day." The appearance of a good boy, because I know that's what you like. But how can I keep pretending? I can't always hide my true nature for you." Then he shrugged: "That's how it is, after leaving you, I feel like a fish in water , life is very happy.”

He Juan gritted her teeth and said only three words: "Impossible!" In fact, not only He Juan, but even I thought it was impossible.For some reason, I always feel that Su Ze is lying. When he faced He Juan—even the fat He Juan, his eyes and tone softened. This is completely different from the girl before him. , seems an angel, a devil.

"Nothing is impossible." Su Ze said: "You have always liked the wrong person, you should give up now. Goodbye." With that, he turned around and was about to leave.The moment he opened the door, he turned his head and said, "I still like your original appearance, come on and change back, you can do it, you have always been a very persevering person."

"I can't change back." He Juan said: "To tell you the truth, the current appearance is also my nature that I deliberately concealed before. After leaving you, I am also like a fish in water. I can eat as much meat as I want, and my life is extremely happy. .”

Hearing these words, he was competing with what Su Ze said before.Su Ze closed the door again, walked up to He Juan and said, "Is it interesting for you? Is it fun to destroy your own body?" He Juan straightened her back and asked, "Then is it interesting for you to do this? You destroy yourself Is it fun to have a soul?" Su Ze is taller than me, but as thin as me, and looks like a little chicken in front of He Juan.In all honesty, I really enjoyed seeing this scene, it was so fucking fun.

"Don't be angry." Su Ze turned his face away: "This is boring." But he still didn't get angry at He Juan, maybe because he felt ashamed?

"It's your fault." He Juan said, "Why didn't you tell me what happened?"

"What's the use of telling you?" Su Ze shook his head and said, "No one can help me, and I can't go back."

"Even if I can't help you." I interrupted suddenly and said, "You should tell He Juan the truth, because of this incident, she has been in pain until now. If you don't tell her, she will still gain weight. You know How beautiful and charming she was before, do you have the heart to watch her go on like this?" Of course, the tone was very unkind, trying to dig out more shame from Su Ze.

When I said these words, the two boys who took off their pants and peed in the corner suddenly showed shocking eyes. Obviously, they couldn't believe that this fat man with a fat body was a beautiful and charming girl before?This incident should completely overturn their worldview.They remained in the peeing position under my order, and of course they couldn't urinate a drop.

Su Ze looked at He Juan for a long time, then suddenly heaved a long sigh, with a very helpless look on his face.Then he leaned his back against the wall, looked up at the wall lamp on the ceiling, and said quietly, "Want to listen? Then I'll talk."

He Juan and I have expressed our attitude without speaking.As long as you talk, we will listen.He Juan even got a little heavy breathing, the question that has been entangled for three years suddenly wants to get the answer, no matter who it is, it will be very nervous, right?

I looked at Su Ze calmly.Su Ze looked at me, then at He Juan, then looked into the toilet, and suddenly said in surprise, "Who are you two, and why are you here?" Pissing on boys.

Su Ze didn't know them, but they obviously knew Su Ze, and one of them said with a bitter face: "Brother Ze, we...we are here to pee." Su Ze looked at them in surprise: "Then, have you finished peeing?" , let's go when you're done peeing!" As if they were being pardoned, the two boys said again and again: "I'm done peeing, I'm done peeing." Then they put on their pants and left the toilet as if fleeing for their lives.

Now there are only three of us left in this toilet.Su Ze leaned against the wall with his arms crossed in front of his chest: "Where do we start, let's start with the summer vacation when He Juan and I broke up..."

"We were only in the first grade of junior high school at that time. Well, we were only 14 years old at the time." Then he looked at me and said, "I don't know if He Juan told you that we were famous golden boys and girls at the school , Almost everyone knows everyone. He Juan is also a well-known eldest sister in the grade. She knows many people and has a wide network. Because of her, I have more and more friends. Good friends also have bad friends. The so-called bad friends, you know, are the ones who will drag you to smoke, drink, fight and make trouble. There are such students in every school, and I have always kept them at arm’s length.”

"But they invited me to play together again and again, and I was always embarrassed. It's not a problem to always refuse. Just one day during the summer vacation, I went out with them. At that time, I just wanted to play This time, it’s enough to save face. They took me to an underground game hall. You should know this kind of place. It’s a game hall on the surface, but it’s actually doing gambling. They are bastards, and most of them are social bastards."

"They gave me some coins and asked me to play slot machines. They also said that if I lost, it would be theirs, and if I won, it would be my own. The hospitality was hard to bear, so I had no choice but to play like this. The luck is really good, the former A grand slam came in just a few hands!" Su Ze raised his head and smiled wryly, as if recalling the scene at that time, "When those colorful lights came on and the exciting music sounded, it almost alarmed the people in the game hall. They flocked behind me one after another, and watched the slot machine drop coins."

"I don't know if you've ever experienced that feeling..." Su Ze closed his eyes, with a very calm face: "That was the happiest time in my life, even more enjoyable than getting the first grade in the final exam. Ear Surrounded by people's admiration, the sound of coins falling, and the screams of slot machines, my whole body also became excited, and I held those coins with my hands. I couldn't even hold them with two hands. So much so much money, at least three or four hundred coins!"

"I wanted to stop here at the time, but my friends said that my luck was good, so I might as well play two more games, and simply press more, so that I would win more... You should be able to guess what happened later. In half an hour, I lost all the coins in my hands. At that time, I was ashamed and ashamed, and felt very ashamed, as if the first grade in the grade suddenly fell into the sun, and I could even feel the mocking eyes of others. I don’t think it’s possible, I I must win it back, and I want to prove to them that I can still do it."

"After I lost all my money, I went to borrow from those friends. After I borrowed their money, I had already lost 500 yuan at that time. At that time, I was desperate and thought that was it, so I simply gave up. Forget it, just laugh at it. In the end, someone asked me if I wanted to continue playing, and he could help me get money, and of course I agreed without hesitation."

"Thinking about it now, this seems to be a premeditated scam. It's not like, it's definitely." Su Ze said firmly: "Otherwise, how could the boss of the game hall give me a kid who came to the game hall for the first time on credit? The owner of the game hall is called Lao Ma. Lao Ma came over and said to me with a smile, this is the kid who just won the grand slam after playing the slot machine? Not bad, not bad, born with the luck of winning money, borrow the money I don’t worry about giving it to you, just play around, it’s not too late to count the money slowly.”

"With the words of the old horse, my confidence doubled. I ran to the slot machine again with the money he lent me, and those friends stood by and cheered for me. After a while, I lost Last time, generally speaking, I still lost a lot of times. Every time I lost in my hand, the old horse immediately sent money... My brain seemed to be flooded, and I kept playing and playing in a daze... Until dawn, I finished betting the last coin in my hand, as if I woke up suddenly, and suddenly asked: "How much did I lose?" My friends also said they didn't know, so they called the old horse over to ask Ask. Lao Ma looked at the account book and said lightly that it was not much, only 7000 yuan."