bad youth

"At that time, my whole body was like being poured with a basin of cold water. Seven thousand, seven thousand, for a 14-year-old child, it was an astronomical sum! At that time, my whole body trembled with fear, saying that I I don’t have so much money... The old horse who has always been kind and friendly suddenly changed his face and said: "No money? Why do you play slot machines without money? I don’t run a charity business?" Then he grabbed me by the neck , Tell me to pay back the money now, or screw my head off."

"I was terrified, having never experienced such a situation before, and cried out on the spot. Those friends also begged for me one after another, and discussed with Lao Ma how to solve this matter, because I really couldn't get it. Paying so much money... Hey, they just brought me into the pit step by step like this, but they pretended to be righteous. Poor me at the time, I really thought they were thinking of helping me, and they gave up all hope Trust them..."

He Juan asked suddenly: "Who are they? Do I know them?"

Su Ze glanced at He Juan and said, "You know Zhao Bin and the others."

"Zhao Bin..." He Juan clenched her fists, and said helplessly, "Why did you get mixed up with them? They have an affair with the bastards in the society, even us seven dragons and six phoenixes have nothing to do with them." Don't offend the river, and try not to provoke you if you have nothing to do!"

"How do I know? You never told me this! I saw you greet each other warmly when you met, and thought you were very good friends." Su Ze leaned against the wall, feeling extremely helpless.

"They're all messing around in this way, even if they don't feel good in their hearts, they must make it on the face. How can you not understand this truth?"

"I understand now, but I didn't understand then!" Su Ze panted, "I only know how to study hard, and I don't know anything else!"

"Yes, yes..." He Juan scratched her hair and said painfully: "Because you only know how to study hard, and I especially don't want your thoughts to be polluted, so I never tell you about the things between those bastards." It's my fault, it's my fault."

"No, it's not your fault, it's my fault." Su Ze sighed and said, "I blame myself for not being able to concentrate, and I jumped into the trap they dug so easily. At that time, they begged for a long time with the old horse. The old horse thought for a while and asked me: "You really have no money?" I nodded and said, "I really don't have any money." Qian, it is estimated that I will be beaten to the skin. The old horse said: "Then teach you a way, you can slowly pay back my money." I seemed to see a glimmer of light when I was desperate, and immediately did not hesitate. I agreed, let the old horse teach me this method quickly."

"The old horse seems to have prepared it a long time ago. He took out a very small plastic bag from his pocket." Su Ze gestured with his fingers, about an inch in size, "I saw some white bags inside. powder."

Both He Juan and I changed our expressions, and we could probably guess what it was - it was taken out of the old horse's pocket, could it be something good?Su Ze went on to say: "Lao Ma told me that the cost of this item is 1000 yuan. As long as I sell it at the school, I can make 2000 yuan by reselling it. Pay off the debt. Even if I have never eaten pork, I have seen pigs run away. This thing has such a high profit, no matter how stupid people are, they can guess what it is. So I hesitated at the time, old horse He grabbed my collar and said viciously: "If you don't want to do it, you can pay it back quickly. It doesn't matter if you don't come out yet, just use one arm to pay the bill. One arm is worth 7000 yuan. It's still worth it." Then he took a machete and made a gesture to chop my arm."

Su Ze smiled bitterly: "I'm not afraid of your jokes when I say it. I was really scared when I was only 14 years old. What can I do? I had to agree to his request. The old horse gave me the things and asked me to give them to my classmates after school started. They sold me, so they let me go. On the way back, Zhao Bin and the others advised me how to use my influence in school, saying that a student like me with excellent grades and many friends would definitely sell this kind of goods. It's not a problem, it's better to bring my girlfriend in again, with the backing of seven dragons and six phoenixes, everything will be even more worry-free..."

He Juan frowned upon hearing this, as if she understood why Su Ze left her in the first place.

"At that time, I had vaguely guessed that this was a trap set by their alliance. They wanted to sell these shady things in the school, but they were worried about the existence of seven dragons and six phoenixes, so they had to make plans on me. There is a gap here, first pull He Juan in, and then gradually pull in other people...Of course, this is what I figured out later. I suffered together, so I told them that He Juan and I have actually broken up."

He Juan gasped, the flesh on her cheeks trembling slightly, this girl who was famous for her toughness in Beiqi had tears in her eyes.Su Ze leaned against the wall, did not look at He Juan, but lowered his eyes, and said slowly: "Of course they don't believe it, because He Juan and I are golden boys and girls, and in the eyes of others, even if the world falls apart There's no way the two of us will ever be apart. I told them it was true, and that I already had a new girlfriend, and to make the lie more real, I found a new girlfriend the next day— —You know, for boys like me, it's always easy to find a girlfriend."

Su Ze raised his head, looked at the ceiling again, and continued: "The matter quickly reached He Juan's ears. She called to question me. I can only tell her to break up, we are not suitable..."

"Why didn't you tell me the truth?" He Juan asked tremblingly.

"I said I don't want to hurt you..." Su Ze said in an indifferent tone: "One person does things and one person is responsible. What's the skill to involve your girlfriend. And selling this kind of thing is illegal. If you are not careful, you will be caught by the police Uncle take it away?"

"But you were only 14 years old at the time!" He Juan said angrily, "You are only 14 years old, what resistance do you have?!"

"Just use your shoulders." Su Ze yawned: "Later you brought people around looking for me, saying that you were going to drag me out and beat me up. This was pretty good, just enough to make Zhao Bin and the others believe that we really broke up , I also took the opportunity to propose a transfer, and came to Beiyuan No. 800 Middle School to sell these things. Anyway, no one knew me, and no one knew my past. I pretended to be on the road, smoking, drinking, swearing, fighting Friends, sell batch after batch of goods without psychological pressure... The money owed to the old horse? It was paid off [-] years ago. But once you step in this road, you can never go back... "

"But your nature is not like this." He Juan said, "You are obviously tired of this kind of life!"

"Nature?" Su Ze said: "I don't even know what my nature is. Maybe I pretended it at first, but I seem to get used to it after a long time. I'm used to playing the role of this kind of scum. It's cool. It's like being a bully on the stage for a long time, and it's inevitable that you can't tell the difference between the inside and the outside, and you think you are the bully off the stage..."

"I know." He Juan said seriously: "I have been observing you since the first grade of elementary school. I know that your nature is kind. You don't even have the heart to hurt a bird. How could you do other cruel things? thing?"

"But that's the truth." Su Ze said, "I've changed, I've become brutal, cold-blooded and ruthless. You've seen the scene in the classroom before, didn't you even jump out and call me a scumbag? "

"Then change back." He Juan said: "You are just used to playing this role, and many times you subconsciously regard yourself as a scum. Come back, spend more time with your former friends, and you will definitely be able to change back. .”

"I can't go back... I can't go back..." Su Ze shook his head, then looked at He Juan again: "Just like you, no matter how much you lose weight, you won't be able to return to your previous slender appearance, right? You As difficult as it is to lose weight, it will be as difficult for me to regain it."

"Who said that?!" He Juan said, "I will definitely be able to reduce it back!"

"Really?" Su Ze folded his arms and shook his head: "I don't believe it."

"Then we might as well make an agreement." He Juan said seriously: "If I can get back to my original appearance, you have to slowly change your current self!"

"Okay." Su Ze said: "I want to see if a miracle can happen, or else I really have no motivation at all."

"Then it's settled, you can be surprised!" After He Juan finished speaking, she strode towards the door of the toilet, opened the door and walked out. "Hello!" I yelled, but she ignored me completely and left here alone. "It's too much." I shook my head with a wry smile, and said to myself, "At any rate, I brought you here, and now I'm leaving alone..."

"You brought her here?" Su Ze looked at me strangely: "What's your relationship with her, why did you bring her here?"

"I'm friends with her." I said, "I don't want to see her go on like this, so I brought her to see you. The original intention was to make her give up, but now it seems... It doesn't matter, as long as she You can get out of that knot, make up your mind to lose weight, and live a good life, as long as the ultimate goal is achieved, other things don’t matter.”

"Then you are such a good friend..." Su Ze said softly.

"You're not bad either." I said, "You know that you can't change back at all, but you still want to use this to encourage He Juan to lose weight and force her to take the initiative to say the promise. In this way, her motivation will be great. gone."

Su Ze looked at me in surprise: "Did you see it?"

"Only He Juan, who loves you deeply and wants to change you, can't see it." I said, "If you want to return to your original life, you have to quit your current life. But you are selling white fans , how could it be possible to say that if you withdraw, you will withdraw?"