life struggle

Feng Weiwei silently looked at the boy she loved, who was in front of her and her heart was in the sky. She thought a lot, filled with infinite regret and melancholy. [-] It's like knocking over the five-flavored bottle in her heart, she hates that everything is arranged by fate, it is God's injustice to her, and she loses her real power to be a woman.The more Wu Xiaojun rejects him, the more he feels that he is worthy of his love because of his magnanimous heart, the more guilty and uneasy he feels, the more he alienates and avoids himself, the more this heart is held by him and cannot be let go.But these are all unattainable things, and the relationship between himself and him is destined not to blossom and bear fruit.

Thinking that such a good man should have a beautiful world of his own, and that his life cannot be ruined by his own quickness and selfishness, tears flowed down his face uncontrollably.At this moment, she hopes that the man in front of her is no longer an upright, dedicated career man and future model family husband, but an idle, idle, stealthy hooligan, so that she can have no scruples with him, and then There is no need to bear any ethical and moral responsibilities, and enjoy the joy of fish and water, and enjoy the cordial pleasure of being a woman.

Not hiding the secret hidden in his heart from him means that the remaining hope in front of him is completely shattered. If he hides it, he will be condemned by conscience and morality for the rest of his life, and it is even more disrespectful to him.After thinking about it, I still can't let go, so let's not talk about it for the time being.Thinking of this, I couldn't help being physically and mentally exhausted, exhausted, unable to continue sitting alone, quietly pushed him to the side of the bed, turned off the light, and lay beside him with a sweet smile and beautiful fantasies.

I don't know how long it took, Wu Xiaojun felt thirsty for a while, and his throat was irritated and uncomfortable. He turned over and suddenly found a person lying beside him. Where is it?" Hurriedly got up, rubbed her eyes, shook her head a few times, and with the faint light coming in from the window, Feng Weiwei lay beside her peacefully and breathed evenly.His hands touched his legs, and he felt naked without any pants on. He was so frightened that he collapsed on the bed like a pile of mud. The Yellow River can’t even be washed clean.” After a moment of shock, he quietly got out of bed, searched for pants in the house for a long time, but couldn’t find them, and was very anxious, so he knocked the washbasin from Pingdun in a panic. It fell to the ground, awakening Feng Weiwei who was sleeping.

Feng Weiwei reached out and fumbled to turn on the fluorescent light switch on the bedside, and the room was immediately bright as day.Seeing Wu Xiaojun's panicked appearance with bare shoulders, briefs and bare feet, he couldn't help laughing, "How can you find it with the lights off? The pants are hanging on the window sill outside. It's almost time to do it. You go Take it off." Said, sat up from the bed, yawned and stretched.

Embarrassed, Wu Xiaojun pulled his shirt down and down, his heart was beating like a river, he was not in the mood, he didn't dare to look at her, he went to the window with a mournful face, reached out to take it out and put it on.Then she stared at Feng Weiwei with aggressive eyes for a long time, she was shuddering all over, at a loss, and asked tremblingly, "What's the matter with you, did you have some illness and took the wrong medicine, and the cold was blowing your body?" It's like a vicious god, trying to scare me to death."

"Weiwei, what happened last night? Why am I here with you? What did I do to you? You have to tell me clearly."

"Don't be nervous, sit down and listen to me speak to you slowly."

"Stop rambling, speak quickly."

"You act like a criminal interrogator. My heart is in my throat. Even if I want to say it, I can't say it. Don't be nervous like the sky is falling. Relax and sit beside me. Otherwise, I'm not in the mood to tell you that no one can undo the bad things that have been done, so you can just figure it out." He lay down on his back and didn't speak anymore.

Seeing the threatening tone in her words, Wu Xiaojun felt that he had done something wrong, so what if he didn't bow his head and let her down.Sitting next to her in fear, she said in a begging tone, "Weiwei, no matter what, I am the one who is sorry for you. I apologize to you. This is the end of the matter. Please rest assured that I will take the responsibility that should be borne."

Feng Weiwei sat up and put her arms around Wu Xiaojun's waist, she said tenderly with tears, "Xiaojun, you are worthy of being an upright gentleman, good job, I love you very much. Don't you want to know what happened last night?" Is this the case..." Wei Wei recounted the whole process.

Wu Xiaojun said dubiously, "No way, it's true that I didn't do anything to you, I don't know at all."

Feng Weiwei joked, "You're drunk and unconscious, lying on the bed like a dead dog, you can't take care of yourself, how can you have the energy to do something wrong, if you don't believe it, you can check it on the spot, I'm still naked !” Said and moved.

Wu Xiaojun panicked for a while, and stopped him quickly, "Don't tell me, don't tell me, I believe it, I believe it. I'm really sorry, I made a fool of myself, and made you suffer because of me."

Feng Weiwei suddenly sobbed sadly and said, "Xiaojun, it's my fault, I'm sorry, please forgive me for forcing you last time, which made you feel uneasy and guilty. Last night you called Bai Lingyan at one time, and at another at Yingying, You still think of me as Mei Xiang, can you tell me who they are and what is their relationship with you?"

Army Commander Wu Xiao sighed, stroking Feng Weiwei's cheek and said sadly, "Weiwei, it's a long story, since you already know who they are, I won't hide any more, so I'll tell you the truth."

Feng Weiwei was lying in Wu Xiaojun's arms, like a child listening to his parents telling a story, quietly listening happily, excited when he was emotional, sobbing when he was sad, "Xiaojun, I didn't expect you to be so complicated and moving!" It seems that I just saw your appearance and followed my feelings. I still underestimated you. I didn’t get to know your affectionate and dedicated side to your lover, and I didn’t expect you to be so infatuated with Meixiang and Yingying. For Yingying's sake, you spared no effort to move Bai Lingyan to get rid of my illusions about you, it's a good intention, but it's a pity that Yingying doesn't know what's good or bad, and doesn't understand your painstaking efforts."

"Everything is over, it's over, I didn't refuse you on purpose, it's hard for you, my heart has long been broken, I'm tired, I don't dare to get involved in love, I'm trapped in a vortex of emotions that I can't extricate myself from, I just want to stay away from right and wrong alone Be quiet and plan your future campus life and future career development.”

"I understand your mood and current situation very well. Seeing you and Bai Lingyan being so affectionate and affectionate, I feel jealous and envious from the bottom of my heart, but also feel particularly ashamed and guilty. Relationships are very complicated, and I can't explain clearly. I don’t know, only when two hearts are in harmony, can there be true love for each other. You can’t change your sincerity by force. To tell you the truth, the first time I met you, I noticed you and observed you secretly. I want to get close to you, and I can't control it until the design kidnaps you. Thinking about it now, I feel a little stupid."

"I've had this feeling before, and it's also uncomfortable. After Mei Xiang disappeared, there was a time when I didn't think about tea or food. Although I knew it was nothing, I couldn't restrain the enthusiasm from my heart. Fortunately, for you and me, it is just a little childish emotion that has just sprouted, and it is a blessing that we have not fallen in love yet. I think we will stop here and be a bosom friend."

"Well, be a bosom friend and put an end to fruitless love tonight."

Wu Xiaojun stood up slowly, walked to the window, and stared solemnly at the dark night outside the window for a long, long time.Suddenly, Feng Weiwei wrapped him tightly behind her back, and said shyly, "Xiaojun, you are leaving soon, stay with me and hug me, okay?"

"Weiwei, it's not good to make it look like life and death."

"Out of this door, you will fly to her like a bird flying freely in the sky, and you will no longer belong to me. This is an irreversible fact. I want to fully reserve the last moment for myself .”

Wu Xiaojun turned around, gently lifted the loose hair on her forehead, kissed her deeply, and whispered, "Weiwei, don't be pessimistic, don't be disappointed, we can't be lovers and lovers, we are still friends, and there are opportunities to come Let's have a long talk together, why care about every moment, every minute and every second."

"Who can understand what will happen in the future, let me make it clear, I don't want to think about what will happen tomorrow, as long as you and I can spend happy moments carefree and happily." He sticks it together.

The physical contact effectively stimulated Wu Xiaojun's sensitive nerves. He hesitated for a moment, kissed her deeply next to her ear, and suddenly picked her up and spun around the room a few times, teasing her to make silver bell-like ticks Laughter echoed in the room for a long time.

After a burst of joy, she snuggled into his arms tightly, reluctant to lose the carefree moment soon, and murmured, "Every time I'm with you, I feel relaxed and comfortable, but it's a pity that I Without that blessing, I can’t stay with you forever, I don’t know when such a moment will come to me, I feel a little lost when I think about it.”

"Vivi, don't be pessimistic and disappointed, the happy time will come soon, and you won't be alone and lonely."

"Touch me well, let me experience the feeling of being caressed by a man again, please don't refuse me."

Wu Xiaojun looked at her face full of longing and unbearable, unable to resist the violent swelling of passion, he put her on the bed, loosened her clothes, exposed her skin, and admired her jade body under the hot light, Suck her fragrance, touch and smell her intoxicating body.As his greedy eyes shifted to the milky white tent embroidered with mandarin ducks playing in the water under his navel, he quietly put his five fingers deep into the tent, and felt that there was a hard barrier lying on the edge of the lush jungle, which was so clearly defined and smooth from the surroundings. The delicate skin is worlds apart, and Mei Xiang has never felt this way before.Why is there such a scar-like thing, is it injured or operated on?His hand stopped suddenly.

Feng Weiwei closed her eyes, felt the touch of his hand on the scar of her own knife, and panicked in her heart. She was afraid that Wu Xiaojun would see the scar that made her lose her dignity as a woman, so she quickly curled up and said shyly, "Xiaojun, pull your hand out, don't put it down any more, I feel extremely uncomfortable all over." Immediately, he extinguished the light with a "snap".

Wu Xiaojun could see her sensitive expression, and he didn't want to delve into it, so let her keep it as a woman's secret.The outstretched hand was slowly pulled out from under the hood, and the naked body fell on her skin, as if glued together, the two perfect bodies were integrated into one, he said softly, "Weiwei, why did you suddenly turn off the light? I feel like you have something on your mind?"

"No, it just feels very itchy. I don't want you to see my nipples. It's a bit uncomfortable. Let's stand on the ground and hug each other."

"Ah."

Wu Xiaojun watched her swaying waist, the two strange peaks swaying and drooping, which was particularly fascinating. He couldn't hold back the burning desire, and knelt down on the ground with lavender pearls in his mouth, like a newborn baby, sucking and sucking. It made her whole body go limp, and she lifted him up and hugged him wildly.Facing each other like peach blossoms, tender and charming, groaning, the sound is in the ear, the refreshing lamb, the blood is boiling, the red jade pillar unveils the mysterious veil, breaks through the bloody natural barrier with lightning speed, and enters the paradise, With a violent swing, all the jade liquid and fine nectar were poured into the Yaochi, completing the glorious mission.

The two of them had a fierce copulation like glue, their limbs were weak, and they fell limp to the ground in an instant.Wu Xiaojun put his hands on her chest, "Weiwei, are you satisfied?"

Feng Weiwei said lingeringly, "The little guy is a little bit disappointing, almost on fire. Even so, the fiery passion made me appreciate what is the joy of fish and water, what is the taste of love, what is a real woman, and it is not in vain to be with you Getting to know each other once, this life is enough."

"Aren't you afraid that a new life will be born? I'm extremely disturbed."

"You are worrying too much. The union between you and me is just playing a game between men and women. This life will not have the result you want."

"how you said that?"

"This is a secret hidden in my heart. I won't let it see the light of day easily. It's better that you don't know it. Don't ask again, okay?"

"Since it's inconvenient, don't talk about it. Maybe it's better to bury it in my heart. What I'm most worried about is what to do once a new life is born."

"Remember, all worries are unnecessary."

"That's what you said. I'm not responsible for any problems."

"Since I said it, any problems have nothing to do with you. Tonight is not only the sublimation of our previous relationship, but also a perfect ending. I can give you the most precious first night of a woman's life, and I am satisfied to die without regret. .”

"This will make my conscience even more condemned and disturbed. I really don't know what will happen tomorrow!"

"In view of your personal secrets, I am by no means a stumbling block that prevents you from finding a close lover and pursuing a happy life. You are a free body when you go out, so go boldly."