life struggle

"What, you are leaving, where are you going?" Wu Xiaojun asked with his eyes widened in surprise. │| │

"Yes, it's boring to wander around in the unit all day long, and I don't want to waste my good youth here. No, some time ago, my brother-in-law contacted a comrade-in-arms of his in Guangdong and asked me to work as a clerical worker in his company I think that many people have gone to work in the south now. Instead of keeping a half-dead iron job, it is better to go out and make a fortune as soon as possible. This is a good opportunity, so I simply resigned from the public office in the factory. Decided to go there to see if there is room for development. Hey, I’m leaving tomorrow, after all, you are someone I will never forget in this life, after much deliberation, I still want to say hello to you and say goodbye.” She couldn’t stop crying Live down stream.

Wu Xiaojun said with a heavy heart, "That's fine, I heard that many companies went bankrupt, closed down, and employees either quit jobs or were laid off. Maybe you're right, it's better to get out sooner rather than later."

Feng Weiwei wiped away her tears and said with a sob, "Xiaojun, I know you are very honest and a nice person. Since you can treat me as a friend and tell me everything honestly, there is a secret that I can't tell you. , I have always felt uneasy in my heart, and I can no longer hide the secret that has been difficult to tell for many years."

Wu Xiaojun asked in astonishment, "What secret do you have? If it's hard to tell, don't tell it. Maybe it's better to keep it hidden."

Feng Weiwei said resolutely, "Xiaojun, I have to say, otherwise I will always feel guilty and uneasy about you. To tell you the truth, I paid attention to you at the first sight when I met you, secretly observed you, and even I followed you quietly, and then I wanted to get close to you in a ghostly way until I possessed you. This is my particularly selfish side. In fact, five years ago, the cruel and ruthless tumor took away the breeding ground for my life, and took away my life as a wife The right to be a mother made me lose the qualifications and dignity of being a woman for the rest of my life. When I heard the bad news, I was in such agony that I didn’t have any confidence. Later, it was my sister who took a lot of trouble to pull me back from the clutches of death, and gave me family affection and comfort, encouragement and confidence, so that I could regain the hope of life."

Wu Xiaojun said with a heavy heart, "Your misfortune is really regrettable, but this is a natural disaster, and no one can resist it. You don't have any inferiority complex to despise yourself. For a person, the value of existence is not only the continuation of life. , more is the responsibility to others and society, in addition to family, friendship and raising children, there are also work and life, there are many things worth doing alone, there are many meaningful things Waiting to solve and complete. It is indeed not easy for you to get out of the shadows, regain hope for life and the future, and face reality and the future positively. I especially admire your courage and strength."

Feng Weiwei stared at him and said, "Thank you! Seeing the beautiful, gentle and virtuous girl Bai Lingyan, I am happy for you and proud of you from the bottom of my heart. At that time, I was thinking, I am a useless person, what she can give you to me But I can’t, I can’t give you what she can’t give you, I can’t transfer my misfortune and pain to you, and you will bear it for me, and I can’t be a sinner who destroys your future happiness. So I decided to take you as my life. A member of the flower of eternal friendship, turn my love for you into a good memory, and give up the relationship with you."

"Weiwei, thank you for your sincerity and true love for me. I also hope that you can face life positively, be optimistic, and do what you should do. You are a good girl, and your future will definitely be better."

"Okay, I've finished my words, I'm finally relieved, let's not talk about this. I'm leaving early tomorrow morning, please accompany me to have my last dinner here, would you like to?"

"Of course I would."

"Well, I've already bought the dishes, and I'm going to prepare them now. Let's eat hot pot together. I wish you and me a brighter and brighter future, a prosperous career, and a prosperous and happy life."

The two quickly finished washing the dishes, prepared the pot, sat facing each other, chatted while eating the pot, and chatted happily without any worries.In such a relaxed and natural world of two, Feng Weiwei appeared to be a lot more mature on the surface, she seemed to have no worries or worries, and she was smiling and eloquent when talking.Wu Xiaojun saw her fragility, helplessness and uneasiness, all of which were forced laughter in front of him.The more she was like this, the more uneasy and restless she felt, the more she wanted to leave here as soon as possible.

Seeing that she had almost eaten, Feng Weiwei suddenly put down the chopsticks in her hand, stared at Wu Xiaojun with tears in her eyes, and remained silent for a long time.Seeing her expression full of melancholy, dull pain, even though there were thousands of words to comfort her, she didn't know where to start, so she changed the subject casually and said, "After you get there, without the care of your relatives, everything is very strange, you must pay attention to protecting yourself." If you really can't do it, come back."

"Since I have decided to go this way, if I don't look like a man, I will never turn back. Who made me a man."

"Weiwei, don't pay too much attention to these things, let alone take it as a heavy burden on your shoulders. You have a variety of lifestyles to choose from, and you can live happily. Good day, no need to get over it at all.”

"Xiaojun, from now on, I really can't have the right to be a woman anymore, can you give me a little more tenderness, let me taste the taste of love. I know this is a bit too much for you, but for Bai Lingyan It's also very unfair, but I'm really afraid of the future, please don't reject me, promise me!"

Wu Xiaojun looked at her longing eyes with tears in her eyes, hesitated for a long time, and said softly, "Wei Wei, I understand your feelings very well, but I really can't do it. I'm sorry to let you down. Oops, It's already 06:30, we still have class in the evening, so we won't be with you, I wish you the best of luck and take care." After finishing speaking, he got up and walked out.

Feng Weiwei was stunned for a long time, watching his back disappearing quickly, she didn't try to stop him, but covered her face with her hands and started crying.

Wu Xiaojun came out from Feng Weiwei's place, walked downstairs quickly, his heart was beating like a cat scratching, he couldn't calm down, suddenly remembered her frightening eyes, stopped in a hurry, and came back .The door was locked tightly, and there was a whimpering cry from inside. Worried that something might happen if she couldn't figure it out for a while, she hurriedly knocked on the door and shouted, "Weiwei, open the door, Weiwei, open the door quickly."

"No, let's go."

"Open the door and let me in. I have something to tell you."

"I just want to be alone. If you have anything to say, you can talk to others."

"Weiwei, don't be like this, open the door, please, if you don't open it, I will kick the door!"

After a long time, Feng Weiwei slowly opened the door, her face was full of tears, her eyes were red and swollen from crying, and she watched Wu Xiaojun without saying a word.Wu Xiaojun walked into the room, closed the door, gently wiped the tears on her face with both hands, and said in tears, "Weiwei, don't be sad, I know you are very bitter, but you can only face it calmly. It's me No, I made you sad and angry, don't be sad anymore, okay!"

"Xiaojun, I know that you despise me as an incomplete person. I have no right to make excessive demands on you. I really hate myself for not living up to my expectations. I feel uncomfortable. Just cry for a while. Please don't blame yourself. "

"Weiwei, don't feel bad, your request is not too much, I promise to caress you." He hugged her tightly in his arms.

After the two had a heart-to-heart love in Wushan, Feng Weiwei said lazily and coquettishly, "Xiaojun, you have been wronged, please keep it a secret from me, and don't let Bai Lingyan know about the two of us, please. Thank you for everything you have done for me since I met you, we will meet later. I am tired, let's go, don't delay your big event."

"Weiwei, you must take good care of yourself, and don't give up on yourself. If it is useful to me, you must speak up, and I will try my best to help you."

Seeing the smile on Feng Weiwei's face, Wu Xiaojun felt relieved, and reluctantly left her to leave alone.As soon as he arrived downstairs, someone behind him stopped him, "Xiaojun, walk slowly, wait for me."

Wu Xiaojun was taken aback. Could it be that Feng Weiwei followed, it's not good to be seen by others, he didn't dare to turn his head.

"Xiaojun, I'm Bai Lingyan, what are you thinking, didn't you hear me calling you, wait for me."

He hurriedly turned his head and saw Bai Lingyan walking over with a smile, and said embarrassedly, "I just walked with my head down, I didn't hear you, I'm sorry!"

"It's okay, are you here for something?"

Wu Xiaojun didn't know how to answer for a while, he hesitated and said, "I, I, hey, how can I say, a classmate has something at home and asked me to help. I just finished my work and had dinner. I have to attend a training class tonight. I was in a hurry to rush to school, and I was already late for more than half an hour."

Bai Lingyan said, "Oh, that's right, let's go quickly. By the way, are you still teaching? Have you met that Feng again?"

Wu Xiaojun had something on his mind, and pretended to be nonchalant and said, "It's been a long time since you and Feng Weiwei met, and we haven't met again, so I forgot about it."

Bai Lingyan covered her mouth with a smile, and asked intentionally, "Really, dishonesty and dishonesty are not your style. If I'm not mistaken, you two are together tonight, right?"

Wu Xiaojun blushed and said nervously, "You, you, are you kidding, it's nothing."

Bai Lingyan saw that he was really in a hurry, so she quickly changed her words and said, "Okay, the way you hesitated in speaking in a hurry already explained everything. I'm just curious if you two have anything to do with me. I didn't say anything, I didn't say anything."

When the two returned to school, Wu Xiaojun went directly to the conference room on the fourth floor of the student office, opened the door and slipped in quietly, and sat next to Liu Haiyan in the back row.The teacher who gave the lecture was Zhu Zonghui, the director of the student department. This class mainly talked about party discipline.When Director Zhu saw Wu Xiaojun coming in, he gave him a hard look, which made him tremble all over, and quickly lowered his head.

Director Zhu was a little emotional and continued, "Party discipline is the life of the party. Our party has always been a party with strong organizational discipline. Observing party discipline is the duty of every party member. Just imagine , What kind of party would an unorganized and undisciplined party be? Each party member is free and loose, ignoring discipline, and this party is not a strong organization, but a loose gathering group. Then again, we train The first task of the class is to learn the discipline of participating in the training. Judging from the situation in the past few days, everyone abides by it very well. They can participate in the study on time, listen carefully to the lectures, take notes and write their experiences. Discipline has its own way, especially Wu Xiaojun, who was late for nearly an hour today. Students like this do not have the qualifications to join the party. Here, they must be severely criticized, and they must write a profound written inspection and read it to all students before the next class... ..."

When Wu Xiaojun heard this, he immediately panicked and complained secretly. In this special period of study, he was caught as a model by the school.He sat there expressionless, anxious, and didn't listen to a word of what Chief Zhu said next.

Seeing him fidgeting and restless, Liu Haiyan said quietly, "Before the class, Director Zhu has already made a big fuss. You too, for such an important training class, even if there is a big thing, let it go for a while, even if it is It’s not too late to ask the teacher for a leave of absence after arriving. Why do you have to hit the gun and wait to be criticized? It’s useless to feel uncomfortable when things are already like this. I want you to write an inspection to give you a Opportunity, you have to have a correct attitude, work overtime and stay up late to prepare seriously!"

"I hit the muzzle of the gun, and I was the one who was brushed off. It seems that there is really no hope. What's the use of writing or not? I might as well go back and sleep!" Wu Xiaojun said with a dejected face.

"You must not act emotionally and get emotional. It is your problem. As long as you face it honestly and clarify the problem, maybe nothing will happen. What's more, whether you can join the party depends on your usual performance. The school does not A person's political life will be categorically rejected just because of some accident or trivial matter. You should think about it carefully!" Liu Haiyan comforted.

People are obsessed with things, Wu Xiaojun was distracted and at a loss for a while, and said a complaint casually, after Liu Haiyan's explanation and analysis, he calmed down and thought about it.He secretly complained to himself, "Xiaojun, Xiaojun, you are too careless. When Feng Weiwei sheds tears in front of you, you will feel weak, and you will put everything on the back of your mind, and you will miss things by being in the limelight."How can you blame her? It's not that you yourself are weak and weak, and you fell under her pomegranate skirt, hiding in the land of tenderness, enjoying the momentary pleasure, and the retribution you deserve for the momentary entertainment. You deserve it. Let's see what happens next, kid end.