life struggle

In the first few days when Shao Yingying left school, Wu Xiaojun didn't take it seriously. He couldn't see her for a long time, and gradually became uneasy.It is self-evident that her elder sister Luo Xiao suffered a catastrophe, and she suffered this kind of misfortune again.It is a pity that the fear and shadow in her heart will always linger, and she will have the idea of ​​giving up her studies.I and their family are full of love and hatred, and the relationship is already extraordinary. How can I stand idly by and let go of her affairs, and I must bear my own obligations and responsibilities no matter what.

Shao Yingying was severely frightened, and her psychological trauma could not be subsided for a long time. She stayed at home for more than 20 days before returning to school.

Wu Xiaojun saw Shao Yingying suddenly appearing in front of him like a ghost, his whole body seemed to be hit by a strong electric current. After trembling slightly, he just stared at her depressed and haggard face dully. not come out.

Shao Yingying's heart felt numb from his caring eyes, she turned her face aside and looked into the distance quietly, and it took a long time before she heard him ask herself eagerly, "Yingzi, what's the matter with you after you've been back for so long?" , if you don’t come back, I will go to see you at home.”

Shao Yingying said lightly, "Thank you for your concern! There is something at home, so I will stay for a few more days."

Wu Xiaojun said dumbfounded, "It's good to be back, it's good to be back! You can study with peace of mind when you come back. As long as you are safe and sound, I will be at ease."

Shao Yingying hesitated for a while, then turned her face and stared at Wu Xiaojun with pleading eyes, "I'm a little confused, can you walk with me?"

Wu Xiaojun said sincerely, "Of course, let's go to the bank of the Green River!"

Shao Yingying blinked her eyes a few times, and said flatly, "You can go wherever you want!"

In November in Pingxi, there is no breath of early winter. The tall sycamore trees standing tall on both sides of the road are still green, showing vigorous vitality. People walking are wearing various autumn clothes, without any chill.On the bank of the green river, weeping willows are hanging, and casual people in twos and threes shuttle back and forth, with joyful smiles on their faces, very comfortable.

The two walked side by side, although their hearts were filled with oppression and gloom, in order to alleviate the dull atmosphere, they did not know how to put too much psychological pressure on each other, so they both showed slight smiles when they spoke.

Wu Xiaojun didn't mention the trauma of the past to her, and tried to bring the topic to a happy place, and said happily, "Yingzi, it's just that hard work pays off. Helping Director Jiang review manuscripts really opened my eyes. learned a lot of new knowledge.”

Shao Yingying smiled and said, "Looking at how happy you are, don't you have a sense of accomplishment? Is Director Jiang very satisfied?"

Wu Xiaojun said excitedly, "What's so satisfying, it's very, very satisfying, it's a great compliment to me, I'm a little ashamed, let me hide under the covers and have fun secretly for three days."

"Great, congratulations!"

"Congratulations! I didn't expect that she would push forward and assign me a new task, which is even more difficult than reviewing manuscripts. Guess what she asked me to do?"

Shao Yingying thought for a while and said, "It's really hard to guess. Let you write the medical records. It's normal. You don't need to ask. I want you to help her move. There are many moving companies on the street, so there is no need. By the way, I must let you Go on a business trip with her to participate in an academic exchange meeting, and serve as his secretary!"

Wu Xiaojun shook his head like a rattle, "My smart lady is neither."

Shao Yingying asked eagerly, "What the hell is that?"

Wu Xiaojun said solemnly, "Let me help her sell the book, which is "Clinical Chronic Diseases" written by her."

Shao Yingying breathed a sigh of relief, "Looking at how you sold it, it just whetted my appetite. I thought it was something. It's nothing difficult. As soon as I introduced it to my classmates, it sold out."

"It's not as easy as you think. Foreign monks like to recite scriptures. Psychologically, everyone always thinks that the books compiled by professors from medical universities in Beijing and Shanghai are the most valuable. Few students are willing to buy books published by teachers in our schools. Let her My son got me more than 300 copies. Although each copy was priced at 28 yuan, I sold it for [-] yuan. I went to many dormitories and asked many students. So far, less than [-] copies have been sold. Hurry up. I'm so worried, I don't even know how to deal with her."

"You won't just do things that don't thank you for your effort, just sell it for ten yuan!"

"Of course, I sell each copy for 20 yuan."

"You're really ruthless, five yuan is enough for a book, and you're earning 100% of the profit. You won't be able to deal with it anytime soon!"

Wu Xiaojun suddenly burst out laughing, "It's still up to you, I'll sell it for 15 yuan."

Shao Yingying asked puzzledly, "Then why did you say it would sell for twenty?"

Wu Xiaojun bent over and made a face, "Just kidding!"

"Hey, I was fooled by you. I'm a little tired, let's find a place to rest!"

"Okay, you see there is a pavilion ahead, let's go there!"

Holding on to the railing of the pavilion, Wu Xiaojun looked at the faint green hills under the setting sun in the distance, and said happily, "Yingzi, come here quickly, and see the sunset glowing red in half the sky, and then reflected in the water, like red lotus blooming in the water." , It's spectacular!"

Shao Yingying walked a few steps quickly, stood beside him, and said with a sigh, "After a period of confusion, how can it not be refreshing to see such a colorful and fairyland-like sunset. It seems to be in another world. The complicated mood calmed down in an instant."

Wu Xiaojun turned his face to look at her peaceful face, and said with a smile, "Don't go out in the morning glow, and the sunset glow travels thousands of miles. It can be seen that tomorrow will be a good weather. After the storm, there will be a rainbow. Good mood, good weather, and you will be fine in the future." It’s going well, the road is getting easier as we go.”

Shao Yingying said lightly, "The setting sun is infinitely good, but it's just near dusk. The sunset glow in the setting sun ruthlessly took away all the splendor and hope, embroidered a faint lace for the sky around the twilight, and was finally swallowed by the night. I really feel sorry for the future." worry."

Wu Xiaojun said disdainfully, "The boat is naturally straight when it reaches the bridge, and there is no Huoyan Mountain that cannot be crossed. I have encountered many more things than you. At first, it felt like the sky was about to fall. As time went by, I found nothing. It's not as serious as I imagined. I think your biggest shortcoming is that you are too suspicious all day long. Be more cheerful and open-minded, and your life will be a new world. Let the past go, don't let it go In my heart."

Shao Yingying said calmly, "You're right, I still can't change myself, let alone convince myself, do you think I'm too indifferent?"

Wu Xiaojun hurriedly said, "No! No! I just feel that you are introverted, have a heavy inferiority complex, and are not good at interacting with others!"

Shao Yingying said sincerely, "My character has indeed hurt many people, including you. In the past, you have done so much for me and my family. I have never felt grateful. You are always in my heart. An unreliable and insecure person, the more you help me and my family, the more afraid, fearful and uneasy I feel, the more indifferent I am to you, and even avoid you like a mouse hiding from a cat. I really answered that sentence, Lu Yao knows that Ma Li has seen people's hearts for a long time, now that I think about it, I really feel very regretful and ashamed, I shouldn't have hurt your heart and self-esteem."

Wu Xiaojun said a little embarrassedly, "I'm also selfish about what I'm talking about. At that time, in order to make up for a regret hidden in my heart and realize the wish of the year, I only wanted to get close to you and always thought of what I could do for you. No I used to think that there would be so many ridiculous ups and downs, maybe this is destined to be with your family. Since I met you, my life is no longer boring and dull, but has become colorful, which made me understand a lot of truths , let me gradually mature from a kid, it is you who have enriched my life and opened up a shortcut for me to go forward."

A smile flashed across Shao Yingying's face, "I didn't mean it, just say something nice to make me happy. Now I want to open up, let go of everything, let nature take its course and go my own way."

Wu Xiaojun said happily, "Do what you should do happily, that's right!"

Shao Yingying asked suddenly, "Do you have time recently?"

Wu Xiaojun asked back with a smile, "What do you mean?"

Shao Yingying said very seriously, "My mother thinks that your saving me this time is a bit different from helping my family before, so I want you to come over and talk to her."

Wu Xiaojun said without hesitation, "There is plenty of time, any time is fine."

Shao Yingying showed joy on her face, "Okay, I'll call you then. It's getting dark, let's go back!"

The two of them revised the manuscript together, which greatly touched Bai Lingyan's innocent heart. It was time to consider personal issues.Thinking over Niu Shuxian's words over and over again, she felt conflicted. It would be a perfect candidate to be a close friend with him, but from the perspective of choosing love and choosing a life partner, she did have a strange feeling.After dating for such a long time, although I have had that idea many times, God is not strong enough, and I am always inexplicably stranded by some unexpected things, and I have not been able to develop in depth.Thinking of these, she hesitated instead, asking herself silently, should she move forward with him?Once you go deep with him, is it right or wrong?

The accident that night made her see Wu Xiaojun's chivalrous feat of saving his life for his friend. When she calmed down, she felt that she was deeply hidden, respectful and afraid, and dared not get close to him.She had to think about their previous relationship.Although time has changed and the situation has changed dramatically, after all he is a 10-minute lover, and Shao Yingying is the object he has been pursuing hard. After a series of events and so many emotions, it is not easy to completely forget , It is hard to say whether the old dream will be revived.There is no turning back when you open the bow. Once you pull the trigger, it is impossible to go back to the past, so you must be cautious.

When Bai Lingyan thought of this, Wu Xiaojun was like a goal and a target, pulling her heart involuntarily. Looking at him and Shao Yingying from a distance, walking along the river in a leisurely way, she suddenly felt like Worried as if pierced by a knife.