life struggle

Wu Xiaosen was stunned for a long time before he squeezed out a sentence, "Xiaomei, is there anyone who speaks so harshly like you!"

As soon as Wu Xiaomei quit, she strode up to Wu Xiaosen and said even more sharply, "I just can't understand you and Xiaofu. You are not a thing, but you say others are not good. If you have the ability, you beat me." , I don't even blink my eyes."

Wu Xiao was stupefied angrily, unable to speak in a hurry, Xiao Jun's mother saw that the two of them were not congenial and would fight immediately, and sternly scolded Wu Xiaomei, "Xiaomei, you can still abuse you by saying a few words." Xiaosen, you are an older brother. Listen to your younger sister. Remember to change everything next time. Why are you as knowledgeable as her? I don’t think you have a fuel-efficient lamp. It’s not reassuring.”

Wu Pingshun was so angry that his lungs were about to explode when he heard them making noise, he suddenly yelled, "Get out, get out of here, I don't need you to come and see me even if I die." After speaking, he returned to the house and fell asleep straight away. Two days later, after waking up, I said to Mrs. Xiaojun, "I really can't stay in this house anymore. If this continues, a coffin will be placed in front of the house in less than a month."

My father has always been a very strong and kind-hearted person. All the pain and injuries he suffered physically and mentally were all caused by himself. Parents will be even more sad when they see themselves alone and desperately outside.What's more terrible is that, depending on the dispositions of the two elder brothers, handing over all the land to them, in addition to reducing the physical toil of the parents, may not be able to bring relaxation and comfort to the spirit.At that time, when there is no income, relying on the face of the children, letting the children eat and spend money, will be more uncomfortable for the father's temper and character than killing him.Wu Xiaojun thought about it carefully, and it was better not to say this.

After listening to his father's sad and disappointed talk about what happened at home, Wu Xiaojun felt as if he had knocked over a five-flavored bottle, and said very annoyed, "It's fine if Xiaofu doesn't do it, and it's embarrassing for the villagers to help them with their shit." They asked for it. Xiaosen is also very indiscriminate, black and white, talking east and west, without any opinion. At this time, I feel embarrassed. Why did you go? Everything you and my mother did It's all for me. In the past three years since I left home, they all don't think about the brotherhood of their parents. Apart from looking for things every few days to find that thing, have they done something that makes others look down upon them? It’s not as good as letting me respect and respect them in the future, and how to get along and work with them.”

Wu Pingshun sighed for a while, and said in a very disappointed mood, "You are not young anymore, I can only do my best to give you up to where this old bone can go, and there will be a day when I can't do it anymore, and I have a clear conscience. What you do in the future depends on your own conscience!"

Wu Xiaojun said sincerely, "Father, don't worry, even if none of them care about you and my mother in the future, I will never let them go, let alone let you and my mother suffer any grievances from me."

Wu Pingshun said worriedly, "As the saying goes, a good son is not as good as a good daughter-in-law, and a good girl is not as good as a good son-in-law. Today's young people's thinking has changed too much, and there are no rules at all. Who knows what kind of person you will meet in the future." No matter what, your mother and I don't want to see you quarrel for three days because of us. In the future, as long as you live your own life well, it's better to let us worry less than anything else."

Wu Xiaojun said, "Even if I can't find a daughter-in-law in the future, I will definitely not want those dubious people. This has always been my bottom line. In this regard, please rest assured that you and my mother will not be like the three of us back then. Just like my brother, because of their marriage, you can't think of tea or food all day long, can't sleep at night, and worry about breaking your legs, I will definitely find a satisfactory daughter-in-law for you."

Wu Pingshun said with a depressed face, "Man's fate is preordained, let's hope so!"

My father stayed in Pingxi for seven days, and Wu Xiaojun accompanied him around the places he was familiar with in the urban area, to trace the track of his own life back then, to feel the great changes that have never been before, to forget the worries and troubles at home, and to feel no longer. As heavy as when I first arrived, my spirit has improved a lot.Before leaving, he told Wu Xiaojun again and again, "You must be extra careful when you are outside, study hard, get along well with teachers and classmates, be tolerant of others, and always remember one sentence: If you can't walk while leaning on the wall, how can you take a dangerous step. You have to be calm about things, bear it if you can, and don’t act recklessly in your head. In the end, you will be the one who suffers. Tell your family in time if you have something to do, and don’t hold on to it yourself.”

After his father left, Wu Xiaojun suddenly felt a sense of loss, and his heart was always empty, as if something was missing, and he couldn't cheer up.The words my father said before leaving still linger in my mind, especially "how can I take a dangerous step if I can't walk while leaning on the wall". Looking back on the past three years, I have often been extremely restless and almost caused unmanageable disasters several times. Especially scared.

The mother who traveled thousands of miles was worried that something happened to her, which was more tolerable than cutting the flesh of her parents.

I remember that the third brother Xiaosen’s summer vacation was postponed for a few days that year. An uncle in the village who was in the logistics of the county high school heard that a student who went to college in Yang’an jumped into the water and drowned. He returned to the village and didn’t know. His uncle Wu Pingming took the opportunity to add fuel to the flames and fanned the flames everywhere, spreading rumors from ten miles and eight villages, and soon all relatives and friends knew that Xiaosen jumped into the water and drowned.

This was undoubtedly a blockbuster, which hit my father deeply. My father put down his work and walked for more than 50 miles overnight to the home of a classmate who was in the same school as Wu Xiaosen. I returned disappointed, and went to the county high school to contact the school. The school said that there was no holiday yet, so I relaxed a little.

Unexpectedly, as soon as I entered the house and told the people who were squatting in front of the door to inquire about the news, everyone shook their heads. Uncle Wu Pingming even put on a posture of a big brother, pointed to his father's nose and said, "You don't have to think about it. , The school will tell you if this kind of thing is not finished, I don’t know how to worry if I was deceived, I really haven’t seen the world.”

A few words aroused his father's uneasy heart again. He and his uncle Wu Pingchun went to the county seat to board the long-distance bus heading west. Thoughts, it took a whole day and night to rush to the Wu Xiaosen dormitory of Pingxi Medical College.Under the leadership of his classmates, he went directly to the auditorium of the school cafeteria. Wu Xiaosen had just sat down. Before the movie started, his father and uncle appeared in front of him.

As soon as his father saw that Xiaosen was fine, it turned out to be a false alarm. A stone finally fell to the ground. Without saying a word, he urged him to go back to the dormitory to pack his things and go home. Seeing his father's anxious look, Xiaosen didn't dare to ask any more questions. , just said, "Father, uncle rarely goes out once, so stay here for a day and have fun before leaving!"

The father's face sank, and he said heavily, "What are you playing for? You are here as if nothing happened. Don't you know that the family has already exploded. How did you get through these few days? It's almost worrying me to death. Don't say anything. , I can’t stay for a moment, and leave immediately.” At that time, the father and uncle were in the school for less than 10 minutes, and they left in a hurry, and went home to make an explanation to the folks.

The three of my father and his party arrived home in the evening. At that time, there were thirty or forty people squatting and standing outside the house, making irresponsible remarks. Everyone was guessing and talking about Xiaosen and his father's departure, except for a very few waiting Apart from the spectators, most of the villagers are eager to see that the matter is not true, and they can see the third brother appearing in front of them in the first place.

At that time, my mother was sitting on the ground in front of the door with her arms around herself and her two older sisters, crying like tears.When the father, uncle and third brother appeared in front of everyone, the noisy scene suddenly fell silent, as if a needle could be heard when it fell to the ground.

My mother, I, and my two elder sisters froze for a moment, and after a long silence in horror, they suddenly cried out in unison and rushed towards the third brother frantically.The young and old in the village seemed to wake up from a dream, and rushed to the third brother at once, and several grandmas and aunts were filled with sorrow and joy, and burst into violent cries.That scene is still vivid in my mind, just like what happened just yesterday, quite miserable and sad.

The worries of others are only in the normal communication and feelings of the villagers in the village, and the most painful and sad ones are the parents.After a false alarm, my father didn't recover for more than two months, and lost more than ten catties of flesh. Since then, no matter what he ate, he didn't gain any flesh, which is evident from the mental stimulation he received at that time.

Thinking of this, Wu Xiaojun became even more timid and uneasy. He didn't want similar things to happen to him, he didn't want his elderly parents to worry about him all day long, and he didn't want to increase their psychological burden and bear the mental burden. Destroying and torturing, no matter what others do, he believes he can do it.

During this period of time, Shao Yingying gradually forgot the past, completely walked out of the shadow of confusion and depression, and was obviously much happier than before.After a series of events, her attitude towards Wu Xiaojun has undergone a significant change, from the previous vigilance and avoidance to recognition, gratitude and concern.

It's been a while since I saw him, and I feel sore and weird in my heart. The last time I told him about my mother wanting to see him, it hasn't been fulfilled for so long. It's time to go back with him.

This morning, Shao Yingying came out of the department ahead of schedule and came to the Department of Hematology where Wu Xiaojun was. He hurried out with a book between his hands.

Shao Yingying hurried up to meet her, and said with a smile, "Xiaojun, you are really dedicated to your work, and you only get off work so late!"

Wu Xiaojun was taken aback for a moment, then smiled and said, "Our director Yuan is like this. He stays in the department all day long and gives us classes every two days until we are about to get off work, making it impossible for us elementary school students to slip away. How could you Suddenly here, is there something wrong?"

Shao Yingying nodded lightly, "Yes!"

Wu Xiaojun said, "We were talking while walking, we haven't seen each other for a long time, what can I do for you?"

Shao Yingying said a little embarrassedly, "Do you still remember the last time I talked to you, my mother wanted you to come to my house to see her?"

When Wu Xiaojun heard this, his heart skipped a beat, he immediately stopped, and pondered for a long time.