life struggle

Wu Xiaojun finished his work, walked out of the hospital gate with several other students, and saw Shao Yingying wandering slowly along the roadside alone from a distance, so he took a few steps, chased after him, and shouted, "Yingzi!"

Shao Yingying was lowering her head and feeling depressed about what had happened all afternoon, when she heard someone calling behind her, she turned her head slightly, and seeing that it was Wu Xiaojun, she stopped in her tracks and asked listlessly, "You just got off work?"

Wu Xiaojun nodded and said, "En!", and took a closer look at her. Her sad face was neither happy nor energetic, as if she had suffered a great grievance, so she couldn't help asking doubtfully, "Yingzi, are you frowning?" Exhibit, what happened?"

When Shao Yingying saw Wu Xiaojun, it was as if she had seen a savior, and the grievances in her stomach immediately turned into tears from the corners of her eyes, streaming down her cheeks.

"Yingzi, what happened, tell me quickly, are you going to kill me?" Wu Xiaojun asked eagerly, staring at her tearful face.

Shao Yingying cried for a while, wiped the tears from her face, and said angrily, "My teacher is a pervert. She had a quarrel with the head of the department because of the evaluation, and was called by the hospital to criticize her." Pause. She was unlucky and in a bad mood, so she vented her anger on us students."

Wu Xiaojun heard that the teacher must have troubled her, and now asking questions is undoubtedly worse, making her feel even more uncomfortable, and comforted her with a light smile, "This kind of thing is normal, we students are the punching bag of the superior doctor, don't take it seriously. Eat and eat It's time to drink, let's go, I invite you to eat some food in front to calm your nerves!" Shao Yingying didn't refuse, and nodded slightly.

After the two of them had dinner, Wu Xiaojun said guiltily, "I'm busy these days, so I didn't bother to see you, and I'm fine at night, just take a walk and relax, okay?"

Shao Yingying has always been in conflict with Wu Xiaojun, and feels that he is no longer as simple as before, and what he hides is getting deeper and deeper, and his words are vague and ambiguous, making it difficult to understand.Said that he pursued himself as always, but he had never taken the initiative to find himself once in such a long time.Said that he had already changed his mind, and what he said was so sincere, there was no reason not to believe it.

How many secrets does he hide in his heart?What is the relationship between him and Bai Lingyan?Does he know Qin Meixiang's whereabouts, and will the two still be disconnected?Was he still as obsessed with himself as before? ...A series of questions kept lingering in her mind, but she couldn't get a clear answer.Cutting and breaking, I always feel uneasy when the answer to the mystery will be solved.

Shao Yingying tried to persuade herself to ask Wu Xiaojun for clarification, but she was suspicious by nature, but her introverted and sensitive personality made her unable to muster up the courage.Boys are different from girls. They love to move and meddle in their own business. Maybe he has too many things to do and is too busy to spare time for himself.Maybe he hasn't come out of the shadow of Qin Meixiang and Luo Xiao's vigorous love between the two cities, and he is not used to the ambiguous way of being in love with each other day and night.As long as he has himself in his heart, he doesn't care about a moment, and he will return to himself sooner or later.Apart from looking for a reason for him to open up, she didn't have any complaints in her heart. Thinking of this, she gave up the idea of ​​taking the initiative to find Wu Xiaojun.

Shao Yingying was not unhappy when Wu Xiaojun offered to go for a walk, but secretly delighted in his heart. It seems that he really didn't have himself in his heart, but just didn't have time, so he smiled at him, "Okay! Where are you going?" Woolen cloth?"

Wu Xiaojun said bluntly, "I haven't been to Chrysanthemum Square for a long time. It's neither hot nor cold. It's the season of warm spring and flowers blooming. It's quiet and lively. Let's go there!"

A few days ago, there was a continuous drizzle, which washed away the filth in the air. The light moon cage gauze, graceful and graceful, and the spring breeze blew across the cheeks, bringing a little bit of coolness.

There are a lot of people strolling back and forth on the street in twos and threes, enjoying the comfort of spring night in a relaxing way.

The two walked slowly along Beijing Road side by side, the sound of footsteps mixed with a series of sweet laughter filled Shao Yingying with a warm feeling.

The two walked around the Chrysanthemum Square twice, and came to a gazebo. Seeing that no one was sitting, they sat down next to each other.

Wu Xiaojun suddenly asked with a smile, "Yingzi, I was heartbroken just now to see you being wronged and uncomfortable. I can't ask you what happened to your teacher, which made you feel so uncomfortable?"

Shao Yingying has long since lost her depression and troubles, and said disdainfully, "My teacher is a hermaphrodite, and to be more serious, he is a pervert. Although he is nearly 40 years old, he still gives people a coquettish feeling. No girl is pleasing to the eye. Well, boys always look happy. An upright obstetrician in a large hospital has such qualities and virtues, which makes people feel very disgusted."

Wu Xiaojun laughed and said, "Obstetricians spend all day in the crowd of women, and deal with women giving birth every day. They are so annoying. How can they be in a good mood to chat with you girls. Occasionally, a boy will appear. The department is still not like a baby, and some lonely and boring doctors and nurses still take the opportunity to joke, tease, and liven up the dull atmosphere."

Shao Yingying said in a low voice, "It's normal to joke around, but you can't go too far, especially when the little nurses and the girls in the talent class said something so unbearable, they didn't even feel ashamed and blushed. Our teacher is no exception. Talking about everything and not paying attention to us girls at all, I really can't stand them."

Wu Xiaojun said with a chuckle, "It's no wonder that it's not surprising that people who work as doctors must live in this environment. After a long time, they don't take it seriously."

Shao Yingying said angrily and with a smile, "A new woman came in this afternoon, and she was going to have a cesarean section. My perverted teacher insisted that the boys prepare the skin for the parturient. The boys were too embarrassed to do it, and the patient's family members refused. She had no choice but to do it." Let me handle it, but before I could get ready, she hurriedly rushed the patient to the operating room."

Wu Xiaojun asked curiously, "What happened next?"

"When she saw that she was not ready, she was very annoyed. She scolded me in front of a dozen people, and let out all the embarrassing words. It was as ugly as it was. At that time, I was so angry that I only wanted to be with her. Let’s do it. Unexpectedly, the patient suddenly reacted very strongly, showing shock symptoms, and it took a long time to rescue the child. Unfortunately, the child was not saved, and the patient’s family members were unwilling, so they quarreled with her at that time. Forget about the responsibility of the patient, saying that I did not prepare the patient's skin to make her angry, and the adverse consequences caused by delaying the operation time. Do you think she is absurd, is she provoking hatred, and is she lacking morality?"

Wu Xiaojun covered his mouth with a smile and said, "I thought it was a big deal? So it is! You are just a small intern, and you don't have any right to deal with patients. Naturally, you don't have any responsibility to bear. It's her responsibility, and she can't push it away even if she wants to." Go out, you don't have to worry about being afraid."

Shao Yingying pursed her lips and smiled, "I thought so too, but I just felt wronged. But it's pointless to argue with someone like her, so I feel at ease."

Wu Xiaojun said, "You will be transferred soon, and you are about to get out of the bitterness. It will only be a few days. I will help you arrange the next subject, and I will ensure that a better teacher will take you."

Shao Yingying said excitedly, "Really, that's great!"

Wu Xiaojun said seriously, "Really. However, I will go to the obstetrics department for the next subject, and maybe I will really have to deal with your teacher. See if I don't tidy her up!"

"I can kill you!"

"You still don't believe me?"

"Believe it, believe it, believe it a hundred times. Xiaojun, why haven't you come to me for so long, do you have opinions on me or don't like me?"

"Why do you ask such a heavy topic? I've always liked you, but I'm too busy and don't have time. Besides, wouldn't it be great to come together after a while to chat and exchange ideas!"

"I'm very uneasy. I always feel that you no longer have me in your heart like before. It's also strange. At that time, you wanted to chase me, but I didn't dare to approach you for fear of being hurt by you. Now I suddenly changed my attitude towards you. In my opinion, you are indifferent to me, and you are so indifferent to me. I feel so uncomfortable. I hate myself for being so indifferent to you before, I hate myself for being cowardly and let down your sincerity, and I hate that there is always a time difference between us. A suitable combination point, why do you say these things?"

"Actually, you are right. You don't understand me. Observe my words and deeds, observe my actions, understand my character and character, be confidant, and don't do things that you are not sure of. Responsibility is also a good performance of being responsible to me. It is your prudence and self-control that makes me admire and appreciate it. For me, it is not like you. Everything follows the feeling and sinks into it unconsciously. , In the end, they often did not follow their wishes, and did a lot of ridiculous things, shooting themselves in the foot."

"Are you talking about Mei Xiang and my sister?"

"What do you say?"

"I think I'm stupid. I shouldn't have given you up to my sister. Maybe..." Shao Yingying hesitated, "You will save a lot of trouble and pain, and we will be together happily like other students." Said He then gently tilted his head onto Wu Xiaojun's shoulder.

Wu Xiaojun slowly stretched out his hand to support Shao Yingying's arm, and said thoughtfully, "Yingzi, what is lost can never come back, and the detours I have taken cannot be straightened out. I am very contradictory, and I have no direction even in myself. Let's not talk about Luo Xiao. You also know that Qin Meixiang's whereabouts have always been a mystery. I didn't feel it in the past two years. During the class reunion during the Spring Festival, I suddenly knew that she hadn't given up her studies. My heart was like a knife. She is a very strong and stubborn girl, she doesn't want to add burdens and troubles to anyone, she carries everything alone, maybe she disappears from my sight to make me let go of all the burdens in my heart, and feel at ease Finish your studies. I've already felt sorry for her once, and I can't make her sad again, are you right?"

Shao Yingying listened quietly, and suddenly asked, "If she hadn't been like what you thought, she would have completely forgotten you and started a new life. Are you still waiting?"

Wu Xiaojun stroked Shao Yingying's arm lightly, but remained silent for a long time...