The wealthy bride of the cold CEO

Chapter 98 Mother's Letter ([-])

AD [-], early February, cloudy.

It's strange that my aunt, who has always been very accurate, hasn't come for more than a month. I often think back to the time when Jim and I were together, and we took contraceptive measures, so I didn't pay attention.

Abnormal nausea, as uncomfortable as if my stomach had been emptied, I secretly bought a pregnancy test stick, I was really pregnant, what shocked me was that I was pregnant, I went to a private clinic to check, and it was already For more than a month, it should be that time, he came to me on his own initiative, in that hotel, we were in the hotel that time, he couldn't wait to ask me, I was a little flustered, I haven't had sex with Tianxiong for a while Yes, this child came too suddenly, unexpectedly.

The last time I saw Jim, I lied and didn't tell him that I was pregnant and it was his child. I didn't want to break the agreement between us because of the arrival of this child, and the breakdown of our two families was at that At that time, he drew a calla lily for me. He said that I should like it, and we were about to announce the end of our relationship.

The last time we fell for the last time, the child was so strong, his father had such a strong desire, he was safe and sound.

Then jim disappeared from my life, like an eraser, nothing happened.

Although I'm pregnant for more than two months, I'm thin and can't tell it at all. I grew up in a wealthy family and naturally know how to gain a foothold in a wealthy family.

The first time I cooked, for Leng Tianxiong, my husband, he was shaken at that moment. I seduced him. I felt that I was getting worse and worse. I was the bad woman in the TV series. I carefully planned this scene. Dinner, then engineered to have my husband climb into my bed, and it all fell into place.

AD [-], March [-]th, sunny day.

I say goodbye to jim.

I told Tianxiong that I was pregnant. Naturally, my father-in-law and mother-in-law were very happy, but he didn't have any big reaction. He said that he hoped to have a son.Then I told myself, it had to be a son.

When my father found out, he called and told me that it must be a son. When I was pregnant, my sister called and told me that she was also pregnant. We agreed to have a baby together.

My stomach is protruding like this. I am sleepy and love to eat, but it is to maintain my figure. I try my best to restrain myself. Since I was pregnant, Tianxiong has basically returned home, and I have returned to my original track , bringing my world back to black and white.

I didn't delete jim's contact information. Sometimes I look at the string of phone numbers and miss him inexplicably. I am more and more sure that my love for him has long surpassed my love for my husband. Wrong, I There is no love between Tianxiong and him, he never said love, and I never have.

I was so stupid, I foolishly thought that I had met love.

But love does not belong to me after all.

…………

AD [-], November [-]th, rainy day.

Pregnant in October, when Tianxiong happened to be on a business trip to France, I had a hard time giving birth to a son. It was a son, and my sister held it for me to see. She happened to be back from archaeology, and I had already been pushed into the delivery room, and she told me: , her baby was lost, she wants to see my baby.

When I saw my child, I was very excited, but also very scared. I was afraid that his eyebrows and eyes looked too much like Jim. My mother-in-law also looked at the child in surprise. She said that he didn’t look like Tianxiong, but my father-in-law said I was too young to see that I escaped the birth of my child so vaguely. I often pray to God that I have worked so hard to bring this child into this world. You must protect my child.

When I saw my son for the first time, I touched his mouth, his eyes, and the bridge of his nose, and the monstrous cheek appeared in my mind. When Tianxiong came back, he knew it was a son. I am very happy, I have never seen him so happy, he told me that the Leng Group will belong to him in the future, I named my son Leng Lie, I hope he can be as dazzling as a fire, and as addicted as a strong wine .

I always have a lot of thoughts, Tianxiong's attitude towards me has improved a lot since I gave birth to Ariel, he seems to be a husband who cares about me, but I no longer want to be his wife properly.

I look at Ali, and I look forward to him growing up.

AD 23, April [-], sunny day.

Ariel grew up slowly, and I seldom attended the group after giving birth. Recently, I often suffered from insomnia, dreamy dreams, and blood disorders. I went to see a psychiatrist.

The psychiatrist told me that postpartum depression is consistent with me. I often hear people say that after a child is born, they will suffer from postpartum depression more or less, and I am no exception. I have discovered my abnormality. Suspicion is mine. I started to be suspicious of Tianxiong, and my temper became more and more violent. I often wanted to hit him as soon as I raised my hand. When he couldn't stand me, he ran outside, and then it was reported in the newspaper ###. Originally, we went our separate ways. Lu, no one pays attention to anyone, but after having Ariel, I somehow want to tie up this man who doesn't love me at all.

I want my son to know, does he have a healthy home?

I do think, I don't want him to know that he has a deformed family, and even that my cheating is a secret forever, a secret that will be buried forever, but I admit that I am a coward, a bitch at worst , I wanted to have a complete family, but I recalled those times with jim.

AD [-], May [-]rd, cloudy.

Unexpectedly, I received a call from Jim. He usually asked me about my recent situation, and I could hear that his recent situation was not good, and I wanted to help him.

It’s been almost a year and a half since I saw Jim. We made an appointment at twelve o’clock in the middle of the night. Is the child's mother.

How should I deal with it?

I wandered.

He said that I had changed and became more feminine. He said ambiguously that I had become plump, and he bit my ear directly next to my ear. I was bitten, and my heart was itchy. I love him. Just being tempted by him a little bit, I can't stand it anymore.

I think about lying next to my husband, but I think about another man.

Let's get back together, mandy, he told me that I saw helplessness and helplessness in his eyes.

I couldn't say no to him, so I accepted.

So I fell, deeply fallen again.

AD [-], December [-]th, a rainy day.

Every day when I met him was a rainy day, and Jim and I returned to our previous relationship. I fell in love with him like crazy, fell in love with his heart, his body, and I often thought that if there is really heaven and hell, what would I do? Definitely a woman in hell.

If a woman is going to hell, she must be condemned. I think if my private life is exposed, then I will definitely die. Before, he always said that I was like an angel, and I thought I was Satan.

If life gives me a multiple choice question.

If jim says he loves me and is willing to give up his wife, then I am willing to go to hell, and I will go with him, but after all, I can't wait for this day, he still loves his wife the same, his cheating is not because of His wife, but the pressure given by his wife's family.

I don't want to force him, and I never ask him whether he loves me or not. Since I already know the answer, why bother, isn't it good to keep such a relationship?

AD 22, January [-], sunny day.

Jim proposed to break up, this time it was him, last time it was me.

The reason is simple, his wife found out the clue, and at this time, his wife was pregnant, so he gave up his private life and decided to start with his wife again. If he could really start over, he would not choose to cheat. I told him, well, just one word.

He hugged me and told me: "If it wasn't for Xiaoyun, I would have fallen in love with you, but it's because we met too late and in the wrong place, and then we are doomed to never love each other in this life!"

But I didn't tell him that I have loved him for nearly two years, but he couldn't tolerate me in his heart after all. I am a self-aware woman, so I let go.

It's like having two dreams, a daydream?It's a night dream.

I completely gave up on him, and it was only at this time that I discovered his true identity, Xiang Zhentian, he told me his name, I told him that I was Murong Feng, he said he knew, but I didn't know him.

I think I will probably never see him again in this life.

Because I don't intend to let Ariel know who his biological father is?

…………

AD [-], February [-]st, cloudy.

I got sicker and sicker. I knew that Tianxiong had a family outside and a son. He became more and more indifferent to Ariel. Ariel was a good boy. He was my good son. The more I looked at him, the more It's like him, the him in my dream, even though it's been ten years, I can no longer outline his eyebrows and eyes. Since then, I don't want to know what he is doing, and I have completely deleted the phone number.

But the root of the quilt that fell after giving birth has not improved. I know that my deadline is approaching. Ariel is very good. Since elementary school, he has always won the first place. He can't laugh, he is just a person who can't laugh, and a ten-year-old child doesn't have any smiles on him. I don't know how he spends his time with children at school.

He said that his father didn't like him, so he had to do better to make him like him. In his eyes, his father was so important to him. Since Tianxiong had a son outside, he became more and more indifferent to Leng Leng.

I quarreled with him, and he said, I won't break my promise to you, so don't worry.

But I want my son to be loved more by his father.He doesn't understand.

My illness is dragging me more and more, I am going to the end of my life, there is no darkness in this end, only light, there is no pressure, I want to live my own life, I want to meet someone like jim, Then do an angelic love instead of a satanic love that goes to hell.

The footsteps of spring are getting farther and farther away. I don’t know if I can understand it. This year’s calla lilies are blooming. I’m afraid I can’t wait any longer. I’m leaving. I want my son to be well. I’m the only dearest in this world. Son, you must be well.

…………

AD [-], March [-]st, rainy day.

I know, I'm going to die, I'm going to hell.

I know, I'm going to go to Jim, because Jim died a few years ago, maybe it's just to pester so much time, am I just waiting for time to pass?

My son is ten years old, he is very precocious, he can take care of himself, as long as he never knows this secret, this secret will not exist when I leave, I still don’t want to burn this manuscript, This is my life, a short life, and I'm going with the wind.

My son, he loves his father, Tianxiong. I know Tianxiong is proud of him. I don’t know if he will be like me or jim or something like Tianxiong when he grows up. I would rather He is like Tianxiong. I know that Tianxiong has a son outside. That son is a few years younger. I know that he is waiting for me to leave. After I leave, his son can go to Leng's house.

In fact, he thinks too badly of me, I am a bad woman, but I will not hurt his child, the child is innocent, I have not done or missed anything in my life, including my decision, because you all help me decide I just made a wrong step, and a wrong step is a wrong life.

I pray for the last time that my son, and my husband will never know this fact.

I……