After I touched the computer of the beautiful boss

Chapter 114: Stay with me

"That's right, if it's so easy to forget, it's not love, are you right? But I don't want to cause you pain because of me, I don't want to see you like that, if Because I have caused you too much pain, I want you to stay away from me!"

I said: "I won't, I will never leave you, no matter if I can give you happiness or not, I will never leave you, baby, I love you!"

She hugged me, kissed me, then left me and looked at me and said: "I love you too, if I live for my father for the first half of my life, then for the rest of my life, I will live for you, for you I am willing to give everything. When I had an accident, you were so anxious for me. Afterwards, I know that in this world, only you are good to me. No matter you scold me or beat me, I will never leave you. I know It is difficult for me to wash away my past, but I am willing to be by your side like a dispensable person, a maid, and a beggar. I will use the rest of my life to ask for your forgiveness, until one day, we, us--"

I said, "You really want to be with me, don't you?"

Bai Ling nodded and said: "Of course I hope, I really hope, but I also know that it is very unrealistic and impossible. I understand everything, I know that it is unrealistic, very unrealistic, and I will not go too far If you think about it, you don’t need to be pressured, don’t think about anything, we can go wherever we can, many things are not up to us, what should happen will always happen, no one can control it, what do you think? "

I said: "Well, yes, take it one step at a time, don't put so much pressure on yourself, it's best to take it easy, I love you!"

She was happy, happy, and she leaned in my arms and said softly and obediently: "I love you too, I hope there will be a day, just like our short month, we live together, like husband and wife !"

I said: "Do you want to marry me the most and be a husband and wife with me?"

She nodded and said: "I have always wanted that kind of happiness, but I know that in this world, there is only one man who can give me that kind of happiness. I know who that man is, it is you, and that will be my whole life." dreams, and I will never stop my pursuit of my happiness, forever!"

I was moved by her words, especially the sentence that she will never stop her pursuit of happiness, I think so, no matter how much she has experienced, how many marriages, how many failures, but happiness will always be in her heart She will never lose, she will never stop pursuing that happiness, I think this is the woman I want to see, a woman who has experienced many setbacks and failures, but will never be knocked down by life, this is Bai Ling is the Bai Ling I saw before.

I said: "Well, okay, I hope you do that, only then can you live happily!"

"But that man is you. If one day I am happy, then you will be happy too, baby, if one day I stand in front of you and tell you, I want you to take me to Xiliang, you Do you still want to? I really hope that it will be a lifetime. These days, I don’t even dare to hope, I don’t dare to do anything, I don’t dare to think, I don’t dare to do anything, I even think I have nothing at all That right, you know?"

I said: "Why don't I know? I know everything, I see everything, I understand everything, I know what's going on, I know all the changes in you, every look you look at me, dear , we are all fine, if one day God allows us to be together, I believe we will be together!" I kissed her forehead again, she nodded, she looked at me, I knew I gave her that day If she does, she will be more sure of where her happiness lies in her heart, and she will understand who can give her that kind of happiness, and that person is me.

Later, whenever I think about these things, I will blame myself in my heart. Why did I care so much at the beginning? In fact, I cared about it in my heart, but I didn’t tell her. The more I grow up, the more I care about her past, no, it's not her past, but what happened after me, I find it hard to accept this in my heart, it's hard to accept, sometimes when I think about it, I'm going to die of pain, I dare not think about anything.

But you know, how I regretted it later, I always blamed myself so much these years, I felt like an asshole, I was an out-and-out asshole, I loved her, but I also hurt her, I was too Too selfish, too willful, it is difficult for her to give me what I want, because she can't go back to the past, and I care so much, I always think that she has experienced too much in the past, and her personality is difficult to change , I even think she will be the same as before, she will not change, whenever I think of her sleeping with those men, being together, then getting married, many things, I am going crazy, I always keep asking myself in my heart , how could she do this, how could she, how could she?In the end, I can only torture myself, unable to solve any problems. I have been tortured for many years, until one day, I don’t need to be tortured anymore. I thought I could be freed, but I couldn’t be freed after all. It just hurts more, hurts more than ever, the pain almost kills me.

After dinner, I drove Bai Ling with me, and then I went back to her and Liu Qian's residence with her.

I smoked a cigarette and said, "Honey, I was wrong yesterday, I shouldn't have done that, I hope you understand me!" After hearing this, Bai Ling shook her head and said, "I don't blame you, I really don't blame you, don't blame me." In this way, other people in this world don't understand you, don't I understand you yet? You are still a child, or a child who has not grown up, this stage must go through, one day you pass this stage, and then go to see When these things happen, you will understand that everything is nothing, don’t hold back anything in your heart in the future, just treat me if you want to send it out, I will treat you as my own child!"

I said: "No, I want you to treat me as a man. By the way, there is one thing. When I was with that woman, I left her later. She said that she would retaliate against you, and it might be your father's matter." Let me start, I wanted to tell you at the beginning, but I was afraid that you would know about me, now that you know everything, I will tell you this, pay attention!"

In fact, Bai Ling has not changed. When she heard this, she looked a little cold. She looked at a place and said, "I know, in fact, I can think of it a long time ago, but Xiao Lin, don't worry, I have After planning, my sister is not the kind of person who is easily knocked down by others. I will take care of my father's affairs. She didn't bully me that easily. I saw her a few days ago. She was in front of me. Put on the show, I ignored her, and that Li Chunmei, they—actually, they are also conflicts between women, don't think too much, she is not all because of you, there is one thing, you may not know—"

I said: "I know, it's about Li Chunmei, she told me everything, about what happened to your father back then—"

Bai Ling smiled, she looked at me with a smile and said: "This is one of the things. I can think about anything now. My father is indeed a very handsome man who is very attractive to girls. Back then , I offended Li Chunmei about this matter, but as any daughter, she would not feel comfortable facing this matter. Li Chunmei is a much, much stronger woman than me. You have to admit that she is indeed capable. Less suffering, coming to Bincheng from a very poor place in Nanming, no matter whether she relies on her own ability or other abilities, it is not easy for her to be what she is today. In fact, I also know later that she treats me My father is also because a woman is really good. After all, I can understand that she is a woman. Recently, she visited my father. My father told me that she was still crying, and that Yang Hongling said that she would The matter of attacking him, but there is another thing, you must not know, Xiao Lin, you are more mature than before, not a child, I want to tell you all these things, do you know how Yang Hongling got to where she is today? ?”

I said, "I'm not sure about the specifics, and she didn't say anything about it, but she seems to know a high-ranking official in the province, so she might be someone's ###!"

"Actually, she was able to have today because of my father's old boss. It was because of that person that my father went to prison. The person I told you about, she fell in love with that person when she first started working. , became someone's lover, and later she always thought that it was because of my father, my father's incompetence, that he killed the immediate boss. In fact, you know, these things are difficult to explain clearly. In this society, if a woman If you want to be able to do something and achieve something, you have to pay everyone in many cases. This kind of price is simple and simple. For a beautiful woman, that is the same. With some ability, it is easy for women to get along here , I know you listened, you will hate and dislike such a fact, but this circle is like this, your character is not suitable to be close to this circle, the officialdom and shopping malls are too mixed, Xiao Lin, I hope you will never come here Come in two circles!"

I said, "Are you afraid that I will learn from others?"

Bai Ling said: "I'm not afraid of you being bad, I'm afraid that you will be hurt by others, how can you be bad, it's nothing more than seeing a beautiful little girl and wanting to be together, but I'm actually very confident, no matter what, In your heart, you will only love one woman forever, and that woman, I understand very well, I know who that woman is, you say I am confident?"

It turned out that she was really not stupid, I smiled and said: "You are so smart, yes, that woman is you, baby, I know I can't forget you, I have hatred in my heart, but I can't forget it, no matter what I do I wanted to forget how, but in the end, I found that I couldn't forget at all.

"That's right, if it's so easy to forget, it's not love, are you right? But I don't want to cause you pain because of me, I don't want to see you like that, if Because I have caused you too much pain, I want you to stay away from me!"

I said: "I won't, I will never leave you, no matter if I can give you happiness or not, I will never leave you, baby, I love you!"

She hugged me, kissed me, then left me and looked at me and said: "I love you too, if I live for my father for the first half of my life, then for the rest of my life, I will live for you, for you I am willing to give everything. When I had an accident, you were so anxious for me. Afterwards, I know that in this world, only you are good to me. No matter you scold me or beat me, I will never leave you. I know It is difficult for me to wash away my past, but I am willing to be by your side like a dispensable person, a maid, and a beggar. I will use the rest of my life to ask for your forgiveness, until one day, we, us--"

I said, "You really want to be with me, don't you?"