bad love

"Don't touch me, I can walk by myself." I leaned back slightly, avoiding Chu Peiran's hand that wanted to touch my shoulder in disgust, and finished speaking in a cold voice, before Chu Peiran could answer, I He opened the car door and went out.

Chu Peiran did not catch up, which made me feel more at ease.I stood by the side of the road and hailed a taxi. I was planning to go back to school, but now that the school was closed, I had no choice but to go back to Wen Jichen's apartment.

I paused before opening the door.

He should be asleep, it's almost one o'clock.I relaxed a little and opened the door with my key card.As I expected, the living room was pitch black, and I didn't turn on the light, so I went upstairs in the dark to go back to my room to make do with the night.

I already have mild night blindness.Stumbles and bumps are inevitable on this journey, I try to walk lightly, for fear of waking Wen Jichen up.He has to study and work every day, and his stepdad's company in Beijing was actually handed over to him to take care of it alone. When we were doing well before, he was very tired every day.

Apart from being afraid of affecting his sleep, I actually knew in my heart that I dare not face him.Especially after this happened tonight, I went outside my room door.

I hardly ever lived in my room, so the door was always locked.

I frowned and opened the bag, fumbling for the room card.

Suddenly, I felt someone standing behind me.

Immediately afterwards, before I could speak, the man hugged me from behind me.I panicked and wanted to escape, but I smelled a faint scent of wine mixed with a familiar scent.

"You're back..." Wen Jichen seemed to be drinking, and his voice was like velvet.

You're back.

This warm voice shook my heart. It was the first time he talked to me like this since I broke up last time.

"It's so late, where have you been? Didn't go back to school." Before I could answer, he asked again.

Only then did I realize that I was so greedy for his smell and his embrace.Thinking of what happened not long ago, I suddenly felt a pain in my heart, and my nose was a little pantothenic.

I frowned slightly, "I went out to play, the school is closed." I remembered the situation with Chu Peiran in the car just now, and made up a lie.

"Hmm..." Wen Jichen didn't ask any further questions. In fact, he didn't believe it. He knew me so well. How could he not know that I lied?

But I myself was still foolish, thinking that he believed it.

Before I could break free from him, Wen Jichen had already let go of me.When he lifted his slender fingers, the room instantly lit up.The light was a bit dazzling, and Wen Jichen could vaguely see the red circles under his eyes.

"What are you...drinking for?" I want to ask, are you crying?

Wen Jichen's fair face was slightly flushed, and his eyes were blurred by the alcohol.But I know that he is still awake, "You can sleep in my room at night, I will sleep in the study. Your room has hardly been touched, and there is some dust."

I looked at the door of my room and couldn't help but wryly smiled.

We used to be so close that we even slept in the same bed.Before I knew it, I didn't realize that since I lived in this apartment, I haven't slept in my own room once.

I deliberately lowered my head not to look at Wen Jichen's face, and nodded.

"I'll have someone tidy up your room tomorrow, you really don't have to... avoid me. I said that to you... It's my fault. But you really don't have to come back for the weekend, you It doesn't matter if you don't want to see me or touch you. I just don't want to touch you. Can you...can you come back and live?" Wen Jichen lowered his eyes and said softly.

I looked up at his good-looking eyebrows and eyes, and heard him speaking intermittently and earnestly.The sore nose is getting worse...

I'm such a jerk...

Wen Jichen has never said such a word...

Seeing that I hadn't spoken for a long time, Wen Jichen thought that I was still angry with him, and sighed softly: "It's okay... I won't force you, come back when you want to come back."

I still didn't speak, I bowed my head and said nothing.

"Doudou, good night." Wen Jichen said in a low voice, and turned to go to the study.

My tears finally broke when he called me "Doudou".I reached out and grabbed the corner of Wen Jichen's clothes, and lowered my head not to let him go.

Wen Jichen turned around: "What's wrong?"

I threw myself into his arms, tears kept dripping on his clothes, and cried, "Wen Jichen...I was wrong...it's my fault..."

I'm sorry for myself and Wen Jichen for the stupid things I did these days.

Because I didn't trust him, I went to Chu Peiran.I was stupid, and I was violated by Chu Peiran's tricks.I thought I was the one suffering the most, but I forgot Wen Jichen's feelings.

At the end of the day, I'm just a selfish person who only cares about my own ideas.

Seeing me crying, Wen Jichen's eye circles became more and more red.He hugged me tightly, and said with a trembling voice: "What you said that day, I thought we were really over...you are still willing to come back, luckily." In the end, he laughed.

I bit my lip tightly, weeping in his arms.

"You don't want to say who that person is, of course you have your reasons. Doudou, I won't force you... You come back... No matter what happens, let me take care of it for you, okay?" Wen Jichen said to me. whispered.

I cried and broke away from his arms, patted his chest weakly, raised my head and said loudly to him: "Are you a fool! How can you be so good... Can't you be mean to me? Why don't you Why didn't you scold me when you hit me? I'm sorry for you, why do you still treat me so well..."

Wen Jichen didn't wait for me to finish speaking, and hugged me tightly again. "Do you think I don't want to beat you? When I saw those things on you that day, did you think I was not in pain or anger? But what can I do? Ever since you separated from me that day, I found that I have no way to give up on you , because I love you, Doudou...no matter what you do, I will accept it." His voice was still trembling.

His words made my heart prick like a needle.

Such a person shouldn't bother with me.

People like Wen Jichen shouldn't love me.

He should find a clean, sunny and kind girl, a girl who loves him to the extreme.

How can my dilapidated life be worthy of his love?

My heart sank, my face turned cold, and my body gradually became stiff in his arms.Be ruthless, be nice to everyone... I was greedy for the last taste of his arms, and broke away from his arms like a knife in my heart.

"That's enough Wen Jichen, I can't deserve you anymore... From now on... find a good girl and be with me." I looked straight at the tears in his eyes and said tremblingly.