bad love

In this way, after a night passed, I was really not in pain and unbearable for Chu Peiran's matter.

Wei Jingran always looked at me with doting eyes, which made me hot and uncomfortable, because at this time he looked very much like Chu Peiran.The desire to do that kind of thing is getting stronger and stronger, and Wei Jingran also understands what I want to do now.

But he didn't take me to the hotel or other places, he asked me for my address and sent me home, and then took a taxi back by himself.

When I got home, I was sober.

But I feel dull, lazy and clumsy.I don't want to think about anything, and I don't want to do it.I even saw Wen Jichen and went straight into the room without saying hello.

I fell on the bed all of a sudden, very tired, as if I had been drained of all my energy.

Sleepless all night, crazy all night, my spirit was in a state of madness last night and that night, I needed to vent, as long as I sweated, I felt extremely comfortable in my body.

However, now that he is awake, he feels haggard as if he has lost his vitality.

I was lying on the bed and could barely move. Wen Jichen knocked on the door, but I didn't even have the strength to answer him.As soon as I turned over, I wrapped up a thin cup and wanted to fall asleep.

At this time, Wen Jichen saw that I didn't respond and had already opened the door and came in. "Where did you go last night? You were not with Andy, nor with Chu Peiran." His tone was a little excited, and I closed my eyes without seeing his expression.

I am very tired and want to sleep.

Seeing that I didn't answer, Wen Jichen's expression became extremely cold. He picked me up from the bed and forced me to face him.I frowned impatiently, half-closed my eyes drowsily and shook my head trying to shake off his hand.

When Wen Jichen saw me looking like I was dying, my originally handsome face turned a little sharp at this moment. "Who the hell were you with last night? Look at your ugly face!" He pinched my chin and forced my head to be fixed in front of him.

He was so hard, I felt my jaw was almost crushed by him.

I squeezed out tears from the pain, "Brother...I'm in pain..." I struggled to utter these three words from my mouth, with a soft voice.

Wen Jichen was taken aback for a moment, and his hands relaxed slightly.But he still looked at me sullenly, staring at me with worried and complicated eyes, trying to get some information from my eyes.

However, apart from decadence and indulgence, I have no other emotions and emotions.

Wen Jichen frowned slightly, looking at my pale and bloodless face, she was not angry at all.The thick dark circles and bags under the eyes took away the splendor of my eyes, and he was very helpless and angry. "You should rest at home today, I will ask for leave for you, and you are not allowed to go out at night."

Seeing that I didn't mean to tell him, he sighed and covered me with a quilt, closed the door and went out.

I lay in bed, feeling very tired, but not sleepy at all.

After the madness, the rest is emotional hurt again.

I thought of Chu Peiran again, and a sour feeling surged in my heart, hitting me hard.

I thought about a lot of questions.

Does he still love me?

did he love me

Does he like An Ruoyi now?

……

I also thought of those romantic and happy days when we were together. Many things cannot be recalled. Once recalled, the pain will only increase.

I thought of the warmth I used to have, and even thought that he really loved me.

Don't be silly Liu Xiangsi.

But I'm cheap, I just can't help but want to think about him.

Only by torturing yourself can you not feel so uncomfortable in your heart.

Before Wen Jichen left, he told me to eat, but I didn't have any appetite.In the afternoon, I was still lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

Chu Peiran, if you want me not to love you, that's fine.

Then I will torture myself desperately.

At the end of the day, I didn't touch a drop of water, and I didn't think about food or tea.Until Wen Jichen came back, I looked up blankly and thought about the past.

After Wen Jichen came back, he made a meal for me, but I still refused to eat it when it was brought to my room.

I want to find some reason to keep me alive.

But I can't find it, because there is no him.

Wen Jichen is busy reviewing before the college entrance examination, no matter how much he wants to control me, he can't keep an eye on me all the time.

My stepfather and mother came back and brought me many, many presents.But I didn't have any thoughts at all, and I lived in a daze all day long.However, I realized something very serious.

All I miss every day is Chu Peiran.

And meth.

There were many times when I couldn't bear it anymore and ran out to find Wei Jingran. Every time, he would come to me on time and put the thing I dreamed of in front of me.

Such days lasted for more than a month.

Seeing that my complexion has been very bad, my mother thought that Wen Jichen didn't take good care of me.In fact, before I changed my job, I should be very happy when my stepfather and mother came back. The thing I hope most in my life is family reunion.

But now I have no interest at all, and my heart is full of Chu Peiran and methamphetamine.

When I was awake, I thought about them extraordinarily.

"Doudou, haven't you slept well recently? Why is your face so ugly?" Mom looked at me and asked with concern while eating.

Such a gentle tone is really not her style.

I nodded and looked at her with a dry smile: "It's true that I didn't sleep well, I always have nightmares."

My mother immediately picked up a piece of yam for me: "I can see that you have not eaten well. You are such a big person and you don't know how to take care of yourself. Ah Chen, Auntie and Dad will go on a business trip in a few days. You must take care of yourself." I'll take care of Doudou." She turned her head and said softly to Wen Jichen.

Wen Jichen nodded in agreement.

Mom then continued to eat with confidence.

The stepdad also jokingly said: "If you don't take good care of Doudou, I will take you to Africa when I come back, so that you can suffer too." He looked at me with a smile and said: "The girl is still rosy. Okay, I know you little girls are pursuing a kind of sick beauty recently, but stepfather, I think you are more cute if you are ruddy."

I smiled and said: "Okay, when you come back next time, I will promise to be fat in vain."

Stepfather and mother looked at each other and smiled.

Seeing the family having fun at the dinner table, I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, and I regretted taking drugs... I felt so sorry for my mother.

I lowered my head and frowned, picking up the rice in the bowl.My stepfather and mother would bring me gifts every time they came back, but this time they brought me a blue glass bottle, which is a handicraft from a famous artist.

It's a pity that I don't know how to appreciate it. My first reaction when I saw the blue bottle was to skate.This glass bottle looks finely crafted, which is very different from curling.

Suddenly, a strange feeling flashed across my heart, and the feeling of longing to be ecstasy came again.

I hurriedly fled back to my bedroom with the bottle in my arms, and the voices of my stepfather and mother calling my name echoed in the huge house.And my mind is like a muddy mess.