bad love

I held the glass bottle in my arms tightly, under the yellowish light, it looked even more translucent.I pursed my lips tightly, feeling itchy in my heart.

I sat by the bed, my hands were trembling, I took out my mobile phone and dialed Wei Jingran's number.

"Hey, I can't take it anymore..." My voice was unassuming, trembling.

The voice on the other end of the phone paused and said, "You're addicted." He told me without a trace of emotion.I froze, and while I was still sane, I fully understood the concept of drug addiction.

Such a life would be ruined.

I looked at the glass bottle in my arms, swallowed hard and continued: "Just the last time, the last time... There is no next time, so I will smoke it for the last time." I feel that I am very cheap at the moment, that is, The kind of guy I've always looked down on.

I thought Wei Jing would agree straight away, but he said, "No, you will ruin yourself if you continue like this."

After hearing what he said, I couldn't help laughing: "Brother, you brought me to smoke this thing. Is it too fake what you say to ruin me now? I can give you money, as long as you put the thing Here it is." I couldn't believe the words were coming out of me.

"That's because it was too painful to see you at that time, and I wanted to distract you." He said calmly.

A high-sounding lie, I sneered in my heart. "Now my only pain is that I can't see that thing." I said coldly to the phone.

After a long time, Wei Jingran finally said: "Okay...but this is the last time."

I was ecstatic: "Good!"

I just hung up the phone when the room door was pushed open.

"Who are you talking on the phone with?" Wen Jichen asked indifferently, standing not far away.

I pretended to be nonchalant and placed the glass bottle in the most conspicuous place in the bedroom, and said lightly, "A friend."

"Which friend?"

"You don't know." I answered with my head down.

Wen Jichen's fair face was a little red with anger, he walked up to me quickly and grabbed my shoulder tightly, his face was cold and gloomy: "Did you touch something you shouldn't touch?"

I was startled, my heart was beating fast, and I shook my head guiltily.

"What should I not touch?" I still asked confidently, pretending that nothing happened.

Wen Jichen frowned tightly, and almost bit out those two words: "Don't be stupid, you know what I'm talking about is methamphetamine." His pretty face at the moment made me feel terrified.

I stared at him blankly, trembling slightly with fright, but still shook my head stiffly: "I don't know anything..."

Wen Jichen let go of my shoulders, reached for a mirror on my desk, put the mirror in front of me, and said angrily, "See for yourself what you look like!"

I trembled and raised my head.

As soon as I came into contact with the familiar face in the mirror, I was frightened.I haven't looked in the mirror for a long time, and I don't even know that I have turned into such a ghost...

The originally clear pupils were dull, with thick dark circles and bags under the eyes.His eyes were even sunken due to drug use, his face was pale, his lips were a little purple, like a bloodless corpse.

My appearance at the moment is surprisingly similar to that of Wei Jing.

"What else are you trying to hide from me? You think I'm blind and can't see what you've been doing recently!" Wen Jichen threw the mirror on the bed, pinched my chin, his voice was so cold that I felt the chill approaching.

I'm scared.

I thought that no one would know what I did, I just wanted to find a way to make me less sad and make me forget about Chu Peiran...

It never occurred to me that things would turn out this way.

What if Wen Jichen tells his mother...

Thinking of this, I looked at Wen Jichen with fear on my face. "I...what should I do..." There was an uncontrollable emptiness in my eyes, and I just looked at Wen Jichen in front of me.

"Who? Who told you to touch these things!" Wen Jichen asked through gritted teeth.

The hand pinching my chin was a little harder, and I grinned in pain, wanting to shake off his hand.

No way...it can't be called Wei Jingran, otherwise I won't even have the last chance.To this day, I still can't help but think about that thing.

Am I ruined like this?

Can I go back?

I bit my lip tightly, and grabbed Wen Jichen's sleeve: "Brother...I know I was wrong, don't tell my mother, I beg you..." I looked at him beggingly with tears in my voice.

Wen Jichen looked at me like this, and his body trembled with anger. He didn't speak, but just stared down at me.

I had no choice but to tell him everything: "I... I broke up with Chu Peiran. I was so sad, I just wanted to find some way to forget him... Smoking and drinking didn't work, so I tried That... I really know I was wrong, brother, I beg you, please help me."

I don't want to go on like this anymore, the feeling of not being able to get what I want is too uncomfortable.I would rather self-mutilate, and would rather be physically tortured than drugged like this again.

I hope someone can pull me out of this cage.

Every time I become a drug addict, my whole body feels like thousands of bugs are biting me.

Without saying a word, Wen Jichen threw me on the bed forcefully, turned around and ran away from the door.

I looked at his leaving figure angrily with tears in my eyes, and wept silently.I took the mirror on the bed and looked in the mirror.This almost withered face is terrifying.

I'm sorry for myself.

But my heart began to itch again, and I began to miss the beautiful feeling of being at ease like a fairy.

……

Wei disappeared neatly, and within a month after that.I frantically called him and searched all the people who could contact him, but I couldn't find him.

I endured the itching and unbearable torture of drug addiction every day, and sometimes I even rolled on the floor.

Wen Jichen would lock the door of my room every night and would not let me go out, especially after my stepfather and mother were on a business trip.He disciplined me more severely, and I looked in the mirror every day, and I became thinner and thinner.

When I arrived at school, I didn't talk very much, and I almost didn't talk to Wang Yanxi.She tells me many things every time, but I don't pay attention to it, my mind is full of methamphetamine and Chu Peiran.

"Xiangsi, what's the matter with you recently? What's wrong with your face?" She frowned and asked me with concern.

I didn't listen carefully to what she said, I just rested my chin in a daze.After a long time, I asked, "Do you know what kind of feeling is the best?"

"What?" She looked at me puzzled.

I glanced at her, and the empty eyes were imprinted in her pupils. "You won't understand." After finishing speaking, I fell asleep on the desk.

I can occasionally see Chu Peiran at school. When he saw me, he reacted a little more than before.Probably because my face was too terrifying, which surprised him a little.I still endured the pain in my heart and pretended not to know him, but every time he would look at me for a long time until I disappeared from his sight.