Xia You Arbor: Looking to Heaven

Chapter 156 The old things hurt the most (1)
(One)

When the lights came on, the night market on the side of the road was bustling, but she didn't know where to go, she just walked along the street foolishly, the summer evening wind blew on her face a bit sultry, drying her tears, leaving behind a tear Road tears.When I was young, I heard from the older generation that some people have bad birth dates and are destined to be lonely for the rest of their lives. They don’t know what their birth dates are?Did it just happen to be that unlucky fate?

Shan Shan stopped, looked up at the sky, tears rolled down his cheeks, and his heart was cold.Shan Shan suddenly thought of her mother, and when she was abandoned by her father, when she was dying, he warned her over and over again not to fall in love with the person she belonged to, because this kind of feeling of not being able to love was really terrible.

Mother, she hasn't thought of that poor woman for a long time. When she was only a handful of bones, she still fantasized about that man coming to see her. She must have felt a million times more sad than she is now, right?Is the person she couldn't love more than her father?Thoughts were chaotic, and before he knew it, he came to the Shan family's villa.

Just looking at the villa, there are lights on inside, like the lights of every ordinary family, it looks so warm, but like every family, it has nothing to do with her...

Shan Shan turned around and wanted to leave, but suddenly remembered that her mother had a diary, which had been hidden in the books in the study room of the villa. She remembered that when she was a child, her mother would always write the diary in the study room every morning after her father went to work. He always looks sad and in pain. After finishing writing, he hides the diary in the highest and most secret compartment of the bookshelf in the house.

Shan Shan lowered his head, hesitated at the door for a while, walked over, rang the doorbell, and a middle-aged woman opened the door. She asked rudely, "Who are you looking for?"

Shan Shan looked at her arrogantly and said, "This is my home, who do you think I am looking for?"

Shan Dan didn't wait for her to react, turned around and entered the house without slippers. The middle-aged woman stopped her behind and said, "Hey! Hey! You can't go in! What's wrong with you!"

Just like that, Shan Shan has already entered the entrance. Behind the entrance is the open dining room and living room. In the dining room, Shan's family of three are having dinner. It seems that no one expected such an unexpected visitor to come in. Said: "Mr. Shan, this girl is too strong to stop..."

Shan Tianqi waved her hand and asked her to go down, and went straight to the study without even looking at them. None of the three people stopped her, pretending that she didn't show up, and continued eating, Shan Yian raised her eyebrows, and the corners of her mouth twitched. With a sneer, Shan Tianqi frowned sullenly, Shan Yi'an's mother looked at her son and then at her husband with some anxiety, and said softly: "Why don't I go in and see what she is doing?"

Shan Tianqi frowned and said, "Don't worry about her."

Shan Yi'an's mother picked up the bowl again, counting the rice grains anxiously, Shan Yi'an smiled and brought some food for her, after a while, Shan Shan took out two books from the study and walked out, still not looking at them After one glance, he walked out, Shan Tianqi finally couldn't help but dropped the bowl and chopsticks and said, "You're getting worse! If you want to get something from me, you don't even say hello!"

Shan Shan rolled her eyelids, turned around, and opened the first page of the notebook, on which her mother's name was written, Shan Shan pointed to the place where the name was, and said coldly: "Look clearly, it has my mother's name on it, it belongs to my mother, Oh, you probably don't even remember who my mother is."

Shan Tianqi stared angrily at her sarcasm, but didn't say a word.

But Shan Yi'an stood up, and said with his arrogant expression, "Oh, your mother's name is written on it? But it was taken from my house anyway, and I have to give it to you." Let me check to see if there is any entrainment."

Shan Shan counterattacked forcefully: "I want to get involved, but my mother never taught me such sneaky things, unlike some people, despicable, shameless, ungrateful, wolfish ambition, this disgusting world has no words to describe it. "

"Then please be honest and honest, Miss Shan, give me the things for a look." Shan Yi'an stretched out his hand.

Shan Shan raised her head and stared at him bitterly, unwilling to let him touch her mother's diary, but as soon as Shan Yi'an approached Shan Shan, she found the tear stains on her face and the red eyes from crying, as if she had caught Shan Shan She approached her with a nasty smile, and asked softly, "Ah, little sister, have you been crying, who bullied you?"

Shan Shan turned his head in denial: "I didn't cry!"

"The little eyes are swollen from crying, and he said he didn't cry." Shan Yi'an approached her relentlessly, raised his hand to break her face, and asked frivolously, "Come on, tell brother, who bullied you, I will help you." You take revenge."

"Crazy. I want you to take care of it!" Shan Jian couldn't deny it, so he opened his hand angrily, slapped the diary on his hand and said, "If you want to check, hurry up! After checking, I'm leaving."

Shan Yi'an took the diary, and smiled lightly. The smile was obviously beautiful, but for some reason, Shan Shan shuddered, and Shan Shan seemed to see the pair of black wings behind him, growing with age. It became incomparably huge, like a pair of scythes flailing, cutting her into thousands of pieces in an instant.

Shan Yi'an stretched out his beautiful fingers and opened the diary. He seemed to flip a page casually and erected the book, just like a noble boy in medieval Europe, pacing gracefully in the morning sun, loudly Recited a poem as if reading aloud: "God, please forgive my sins, I fell in love with a married woman, I knew he had children, but I couldn't help but want to love him, want to have him, so The urgency almost grinds me to pieces! God, I want to get him, I must! Even if I am condemned by my own conscience in life, even if I will fall into hell and suffer forever after death, I still can’t let go.”

Shan Shan opened his eyes wide and stared at Shan Yi'an in disbelief, Shan Yi'an's face was full of contemptuous smiles: "Hmm, your mother didn't teach you how to sneak around, didn't she teach you how to break up other people's families? "

"You're talking nonsense!" Shan Dan stared at Shan Yi'an, at Shan Tianqi, and at the woman whose mother had hated him all his life: "You are talking nonsense! You must be reading nonsense! This woman is the shameless mistress! She's a slut who breaks up other people's families!"

"You're ready to scold, every sentence you scold is scolding your own mother." Shan Yi'an pulled Dan Dan, forced the words on the diary in front of her and said, "You know? I've been waiting for you for a long time. I am waiting for this day, and I am waiting to let you know that I am the real victim! All the grievances and pains you have suffered are less than one ten-thousandth of mine!"

"Yi'an, that's enough." Shan Tianqi frowned and said, "After all, she is also your sister."

Shan Yi'an smiled coldly, looked at Shan Shan with hatred in his eyes and said: "My sister died long ago, she fell into the well and drowned in the third year after you abandoned your mother."

Frightened by the hatred in his eyes, she took two steps back, lowered her head, and looked at the familiar font on the diary stupidly. It was really her mother's words, really written by her mother!Really are!It's all like this!She shook her head vigorously in disbelief, covered her ears, and shouted in a broken voice: "No! It's not like this! I don't believe it! I don't believe it! You are the bad guys! You are!"

That night, Shan Shan didn’t remember how he spent it. He only remembered that his father pulled her into the study, talked to her for a long time, and told many stories about him and his mother when they were young. Shan Shan couldn’t listen to it at all. It made her ears almost deaf, and there was a buzzing sound in her ears. She could only see her father's mouth opening and closing from time to time, saying that his mother was dead and begged him not to tell the truth, and not to let her go back to the country, because he was afraid of his stepmother. He Shan Yi'an bullied her, and was also afraid that his daughter would look down on her, saying that he had secretly visited her a few times before, and was relieved to see that she was fine, and it happened that his ex-wife and Shan Yi'an didn't want her to come back either.

No matter what he said, he had countless guilt in his heart, for her, his ex-wife, and his son, but he didn't say sorry to her mother.Perhaps, in his heart, what kind of fate his mother deserved.

That night, her father, who never spoke softly to her in memory, actually patted her on the shoulder lightly and said, "I know you have already returned to China, so you can live at home from now on."

This is what Shan Shan has been looking forward to for more than ten years, but unexpectedly, when he really said it, Shan Shan just hugged his mother's diary collapsed, sitting on the sofa like a beautiful doll , not even a little reaction.

(two)

For several days in a row, Shan Shan sat on the solid wood floor of the study like that, leaning against the floor-to-ceiling windows, curled up with himself, hugged his mother's diary, read two pages when his mind was clear, and stared blankly when his mind was blurred. Sitting, she was like this, accepting her mother's love affair little by little, from the first time she saw her father in the grandfather's company, to the inextricable deep love, to knowing that he had a family and a son, after struggling and enduring, she still Obsessed with obsession, with the help of her grandfather, she snatched her father away and conceived herself before she got married...

In the diary, she saw the origin of her name. It was not that she wanted her to live a simple life, as her mother said, but that her father was unwilling to name her, so she had no name, only surname.

In the diary, she saw her mother's anger, sadness, repentance, repentance, despair, hatred, and the hopeless deep love behind the hatred...

Just closing the diary, she can't say a word, because of what happened when she was a child, so the person she hates most in this world is the person who destroys other people's families, and the woman she despises the most is the woman who hurts others in the name of love .

(End of this chapter)