Xia You Arbor: Looking to Heaven

Chapter 178 The order of appearance in life is so important (2)
Hearing his voice, the man raised his head slowly. Shan Yi'an's beautiful face, which was always invincible, actually showed a hint of distress. He squatted down slowly, and put his hand on her shoulder. He said in a gentle voice, "little sister, go home with brother."

When Shan Shan, who had been waiting on the side of the road for a long time, heard this sentence, he held his lips in grievance, and couldn't help crying loudly anymore.

"Okay, stop crying." Shan Yi'an stretched out his hands, trying to pull her up, but Shan Shan suddenly beat his chest with both hands, crying and said, "Shan Yi'an, why didn't you pick me up sooner?" Go home! You clearly knew that I was your own sister, so you didn’t pick me up early! You let me go because of someone else’s kindness! Because someone invited me to a hot pot meal and went to an amusement park with me! Because someone else Love me like a brother! I lost my heart!"

"Shan Yi'an! It's all your fault! Why didn't you pick me up earlier, why couldn't you pick me up earlier! I've really had a hard time, I'm really tired!"

Shan Shan was talking, crying on his chest, Shan Yi'an frowned, hugged her who was cold all over in distress, and coaxed in a low voice: "I'm sorry, I will take you home now."

Shan Shan pulled the clothes on his chest, sobbing and crying, Shan Yi'an half-supported and half-carried her to the side of the car, Li Chuyao indifferently opened the rear door for them, Shan Yi'an helped Shan Shan in, and After sitting in the car, Li Chuyao closed the door, walked around to the driver's seat, and started the car.

The car whizzed by on the road, and a man slowly walked out of the shadow not far from the road, looking at the direction where the car disappeared with painful eyes.

The whole journey was silent, the lights outside the car were brightly lit, the inside of the car was pitch black, Shan Shan's alcohol had already come up, and she had been crying for too long just now, she had already fallen asleep leaning on Shan Yi'an's shoulder, Shan Yi'an raised his hand to gently stroke Her soft hair, he lowered his eyes, and suddenly said softly: "When I was young, I hated her very much, so much that I wished she would die."

Not surprisingly, the person in the driver's seat didn't make a sound at all, which is why Shan Yi'an likes to bring her by his side. This woman is calm and intelligent, taciturn and capable, just like a robot. You and her When she said anything, she didn't seem to respond, nor did she seem to hear, let alone tell anyone.

Talking to her made him feel safe.

Shan Yi'an half hugged Shan Dan, and patted her on the shoulder every now and then, like coaxing her sister to sleep when she was a child, gently coaxing her to sleep.

Shan Yi'an lowered his head, looked at the girl who was only half blood with him, and continued: "But she is as old as my sister, and like my sister, she lives so helplessly, so painfully, and yearns for family affection and care so much."

"But it's the same as my sister. I didn't get anything. Back then, I took revenge on everyone who hurt me, but I couldn't take revenge on her."

Shan Yi'an took Shan Dan's white hand and held it tightly: "Because she is like me, like my sister, we have all tasted the pain she has suffered, and we have all longed for what she desires."

"So sometimes I feel that letting go of her is like letting go of myself." When Shan Yi'an said this, he was always calm and gentle. Tonight, he seemed to be stimulated by Shan Shan's tearful accusation He was a little sentimental and said a lot of nonsense, but fortunately, the person who listened to his nonsense didn't respond at all.

(three)

In the middle of the night, Tang Xiaotian came to a place called Xinghua Park alone. Over the years, he often came here to see the flowers, trees, gazebos, and lakes here.

Every time he came here and closed his eyes, he seemed to be able to clearly remember every word that girl whispered in his ear.

It's been ten years, just like I said, she hasn't been able to impress him in ten years, and he hasn't been able to forget the other person in ten years.

Ten years seems to be just a flick of a finger, and ten years seems to be endless.

During these ten years of silence, there seemed to be no voice beside him except Shan Shan, but today, that voice also announced to him that she was leaving.

I thought I would be a little more relaxed, but suddenly felt quiet and scary.

Tang Xiaotian walked slowly in Xinghua Park, stopped at the edge of an octagonal pavilion, looked up at the pavilion, and wrote "Xia Youqiaomu Yawang Paradise" in black cursive on the plaque, which has not moved for a long time.

Every time I see this plaque, I think of what Shu Yawang once said with a blushing smile in his ear: Heaven is where you are.

Every time he thinks of this, his heart still throbs.

But every time, because of this inscription, he would instantly think of Xia Mu, the real owner of this park.

Tang Xiaotian walked into the gazebo, closed his eyes gently, and the events of these years kept flashing through his mind, everything, everything, played back in his mind like a movie, about Xia Mu, about Shu Yawang, and Yes, about Qu Weiran, those people have disappeared from his life for ten years, but everything still seems to happen yesterday, his time seems to have stopped with the departure of those people, and his The people around me are getting old and growing up day by day.

My father has retired from the army, and every day he takes the birdcage to the river to play chess with people, arguing endlessly with people over a chess piece.

My mother's hair is already gray, and she still goes out to buy vegetables on time every day, but every time she sees an old lady passing by her with her grandchildren in her arms, she always walks around the road with joy and envy.

Zhang Jingyu's son was already in elementary school, and his mischief made him worry about it every day. When he was drinking, he seemed to have nothing else to talk about except his son.

The girl with the doll head and big eyes has long lost her youthful vigor, and the color of her clothes has gradually changed from pink to simple and elegant, and her bright smile has also softened, and she stomps her feet and pouts when she loses her temper It's been a long time since I saw such a small move.

They're all changing and he's not, they're all moving forward and he's not.

He has been standing still, not moving a step.

He clearly remembered that on the day of Xia Mu's funeral, he said to Shu Yawang, "I won't wait for you."

However, he didn't do it.Oh, it can't be said that he didn't do it, it's just that he didn't have a place he wanted to go, so he stayed where he was, in this park.

Tang Xiaotian thought of Dan Dan again, that girl, who cried so sadly tonight, made his heart ache.In fact, he really wanted to cry a lot, and then imitate her and let go of a relationship that he couldn't ask for.

But he couldn't do it. The most painful days have long passed. Now he is just a frog boiled in warm water. I feel that he has not breathed freely for many years, and he always feels dull, pressed on his chest, unable to cry out, unable to press down.

Tang Xiaotian took a deep breath, and then let it out, looking at the earrings and the little angel that Shan Shan returned to him in his hand, thinking of what she said when she returned these to him, did she think about him every night and every morning? ?Thinking about her and his possibilities?

In fact, it would be a lie to say that he hadn't thought about it.How many times, when his colleagues persuaded him, when his mother scolded him angrily, when his father hinted at something while drinking, and when he watched others procrastinate at a class reunion, he thought about it, forget it , Just like this, let's be with her, such a good girl, a girl who loves him so much, what is he not satisfied with?
But every time, there is another voice in his mind asking him: If you are with her, you must love her wholeheartedly, take care of her, and prevent her from being hurt a little bit. The first thing you have to do is to completely forget the other Can you do it alone?

Every time, the voice he answered in his heart was negative.

But today, that negative voice seemed to be no longer firm, and another voice was clamoring for him, asking him anxiously, why not try?Try to forget her, try to be a fickle, forgetful man, try to accept, a girl who has loved you for so long...

Tang Xiaotian sat quietly all night with his eyes open in the dark gazebo, but under this quiet expression, he was fighting fiercely in his heart.

I don't know how long it took, the sky was bright, the birds were chirping on the branches, there were more people doing morning exercises in the park, and groups of old men and women were doing Tai Chi. A couple came with a baby. The baby seemed to be only about 1 year old and could not walk yet. The baby's father bent over and held his hand, and walked forward step by step. The baby was extremely excited and laughed. , the mother of the baby walked to the front quickly, holding the mobile phone and calling softly to the father and son: "Baby, look here, look at mom, look at mom."

(End of this chapter)