Xia You Arbor: Looking to Heaven

Chapter 187 Please Remember Someone Once Loved You Like Life (4)
The numbers are all from the same mobile phone. He has been calling since one o'clock in the morning yesterday. Just as he was about to call back, the phone rang again. Tang Xiaotian answered the phone: "Hello."

"Tang Xiaotian! Is Shan Shan on your side?" On the phone, Shan Yi'an's voice was so anxious that he was going crazy.

Tang Xiaotian hurriedly bent down to look under the bed, opened the closet, pushed aside the clothes, searched, and searched all the places where people could hide in his dormitory before replying: "No, she's not here with me, why? gone?"

"She's gone! She disappeared from the hospital last night! I can't find her anywhere!" Shan Yi'an said anxiously and irritablely.

"Don't worry, I'll go out and find her right away." Tang Xiaotian hung up the phone and drove out in a hurry. Because it was snowing and it was early in the morning, there were almost no people on the road. Tang Xiaotian looked around anxiously. In such a cold day, she Where are you going?Tang Xiaotian thought hard, thinking about everything about Shan Shan, but couldn't think of any of Shan Shan's hobbies. Where does she usually like to go to play?What does she like to eat?It seems that her hot pot restaurant has long been closed. What is she doing now?
He doesn't know all of this.

Yes, all these years, she was the only one who revolved around him, but he didn't even pay any attention to her.

Tang Xiaotian stopped the car, wiped his face with his hands guiltily, then he suddenly thought of something, started the car immediately, and drove to the playground in the city!
His jeep was driving fast in the snow, and he arrived at the entrance of the amusement park in a short while. He parked the car casually on the side of the road, got out of the car and rushed inside.

The snow kept falling, and Tang Xiaotian was running back and forth in every corner of the amusement park in the white snow. He was circling around like a headless fly, fearing that he would miss a spot. He raised his head, and the corners of his eyes From the corner of his eye, he saw the tallest ferris wheel in the amusement park, and he suddenly remembered what he said to him just under the ferris wheel that year.

She said: "Tang Xiaotian, no matter how long you are in the Ferris wheel, I will wait for you below, as long as you are willing to come out, you will definitely be able to see me."

Tang Xiaotian seemed to have been guided, and ran towards the Ferris wheel with all his strength, but the Ferris wheel stood there quietly, and there was no one below. Tang Xiaotian looked around for a while, and his shoulders collapsed in frustration.

she's not here...

Tang Xiaotian turned around and walked forward slowly. After walking for a while, he saw a little snowman on the lounge chair not far from the Ferris wheel.

The little snowman, all white and white, if it wasn't for the red scarf, it would have almost merged with the white snow. She curled up on the chair, raised her head silly, and looked at the Ferris wheel in the distance ...

Tang Xiaotian had a sore nose, and walked quickly over while taking off his coat. He walked up to her and patted off the snow on her head, shoulders, and arms. He sniffed and put his coat on her .

The girl who seemed to be sealed in ice and snow looked at him slowly, showing a smile that was still pure like an angel, and she said in a voice that seemed to be talking in her sleep: "Brother Xiaotian, you are here!" , I knew you would come, you are my Snow White, as soon as it snows, you will appear."

"Yes, I am your Snow White, and I will definitely come." Tang Xiaotian said softly in a gentle voice that he had never heard before.He wrapped her tightly with his coat, then took off his scarf, carefully put it on for her who was cold, and let him carry it for him, still looking at the Ferris wheel foolishly and said: "Brother Xiaotian, I What a fool, I thought that as long as I kept waiting, the spinning Ferris wheel would stop one day and bring you to me one day, but I was wrong, the Ferris wheel you were sitting on broke down long ago, you have been On top, always on top, no matter how I wait, you won’t come down.”

"I'm down, I'm jumping off." Tang Xiaotian hugged Shan Shan horizontally, his voice choked up: "Shan Shan, it's too cold here, I'll take you back, we'll come back another day, another day to ride the Ferris wheel, let's sit together, okay? good?"

"Brother Xiaotian..." Shan Shan's voice became softer, and she looked at Tang Xiaotian affectionately with her beautiful eyes: "If I die like Xia Mu, will you remember him as hard as Shu Ya? Remember me all my life?"

"What nonsense are you talking about!" Tang Xiaotian shouted in a low voice: "No nonsense!"

Shan Shan didn't stop, she leaned on Tang Xiaotian's chest, and said angrily: "I heard that Shu Yawang promised Xia Mu the next life, I really want to do that too."

Shan Shan took a deep breath, raised his hand, and lovingly stroked Tang Xiaotian's handsome cheek: "But, my luck is too bad, I don't know if I will meet you again in the next life, that's why I will work so hard in this life , working so hard, I want to give you the best love."

"Do you remember me, do you remember that there was once a person who loved you so hard?"

It wasn't until this moment that Tang Xiaocai realized that there were cuts of different shades on her wrists, and the pure white snow was sprinkled with bright red, like plum blossoms blooming in the snow.

"Shan Shan, Shan Shan, stop talking, don't talk!" Tang Xiaotian was startled, and ran forward with all his strength holding Shan Shan. He had never felt that the road was so long and he was so tired from running. He was getting weaker and weaker, he was afraid and anxious, he felt that he was about to collapse, he couldn't watch this girl die in his hands like this.

"Shan Dan, Shan Shan." Tang Xiaotian finally ran to his car, opened the door and put Shan Shan in, pulled a piece of clothes to wrap her wrist, then turned on the air conditioner to the maximum, started the car, and called the notification Yi An applauded the doctor and galloped to the hospital.

As soon as his car stopped at the entrance of the hospital, Shan Yi'an opened the door, took Shan Shan off with a careful look, and put him on the stretcher. The nurse hurriedly pushed him into the emergency room. An stopped, looked at him with cold eyes and said, "So? Do you feel guilty now? Do you want to make up for Shan Shan, or do you want to start over with her?"

"I tell you, no matter how many times you start again, you will return to the original point, and your ending will always be the same." Shan Yi'an looked at Tang Xiaotian warningly and said: "If you get closer to her again and give her hope, If it makes her sad, I will kill Shu Yawang."

"I will do what I say." After Shan Yi'an finished speaking, he took a last look at Tang Xiaotian and turned to leave.

Tang Xiaotian stood at the entrance of the hospital, and he didn't leave for a long time, nor did he take a step forward...

He couldn't deny Shan Yi'an's words.

No matter how many times they start over, the ending is the same.

Because even at this point, he still has no confidence and has already forgotten about Shu Yawang.

The love that has been engraved in his bones and blood since he became sensible has become a habit that he cannot change and cannot reverse. He is an incompetent person, and he cannot promise any happiness to me.

And she is no longer as strong and bright as before.

All her enthusiasm, all her love and even her life were exhausted in this love.

What qualifications does he have to say again: How about starting from the beginning?

No... not at all.

When he got this answer, Tang Xiaotian tightly closed his eyes, so sad that he could hardly breathe.

Just, maybe, the only thing I can do for you, from beginning to end, is to leave you and not give you any hope...

Tang Xiaotian turned around slowly, taking heavy steps, step by step, away from his only possibility of happiness...

When Shan Shan woke up again, and it was a week later, she looked at the melted snow outside the house without saying a word, Shan Yi'an walked in, touched her hair gently, and said softly: "Shan Shan, I Lost one sister, don't let me lose another."

"You are my only relative, don't leave me." Shan Yi'an held her hand tightly, looked into her eyes and said: "Depression is not terrible at all, I will definitely find a doctor to cure you .”

Shan Shan came back to his senses and looked at Shan Yi'an gently. Now he seems to be just like when he was a child, he was always worried that his mother would jump off the roof of the hospital. Every day, he was terrified of his only relative. leave yourself.

She shouldn't be like this, she shouldn't be depressed like this, even for Shan Yi'an, she has to work hard, just like her mother did for her, to overcome the serious illness and the endless world-weary impulse.

Shan Shan took a deep breath, smiled forcefully, and said softly: "I will work hard. I will work hard to never allow anyone to live on the tip of my heart, even if it is empty, I don't want to let it hurt like this again. "

Shan Yi'an said: "You are stubborn, there is always someone living in your heart."

"No, I won't live in the future. I want to forget him, forever."

This time, she really gave up.

That period of unrequited love that lasted ten years, that period of unrequited love that was about to kill her, she would use the rest of the time, work hard, to forget him a little bit.

Half a year later, Shan Shan recovered well and returned to the United States again. After that, she never came back, and never saw Tang Xiaotian again.

During the day, she always dresses up beautifully and goes out, with a smile on her face every day, she seems to be the happiest girl in the world.But in the middle of the night, she always thought of him and wanted to die, but she still gritted her teeth, shed tears, cut herself with a knife, and forced herself over and over again, forget him, forget him, don't think about it, don't think about it , don't think about it...

Repeatedly, every day.

She thought that loving him was an incurable disease, a drug addiction that could not be quit.

(End of this chapter)