Xia You Arbor: Looking to Heaven

Chapter 60 Extra Story: A Man's Endless Life

It took me ten years to forget someone, only to make her outline more vivid in my mind.

I remember that year, Zhang Jingyu called me in a panic and told me that Xia Mu had died.

I held the phone in silence for a long time, my heart was full of sadness, my nose was slightly sour, and tears almost fell out.

The scene when I saw Xia Mu for the first time suddenly appeared in front of my eyes.That child had a pair of indifferent eyes that were somewhat gloomy, and a delicate and perfect face.

That child seemed not to be favored by the heavens. His life was so short, so rough, but so gorgeous, like a firework, blooming beautifully in the dark night sky, before people had time to marvel , In an instant, he disappeared again.

He left and took her with him.

When I saw her kneeling in front of the tombstone in the cemetery, her slender fingers gently stroked his photo, every inch, every strand, tears kept rolling down her cheeks, she said: "Xia Mu, in the next life, we must be together .”

She said: "I will wait for you in the next life."

I stood silently behind her, clasping my hands slightly.I don't know when, the sky suddenly began to drizzle, and I held up an umbrella to cover her.So, is that all I can do for her?
She raised her head and looked at me. The familiar face made me feel distressed. I really wanted to hug her and hold her tightly like before.

I stretched out my hand, but only gently rubbed the top of her head, I said: "Yawang, okay, be strong."

She nodded.

I said, "Then... I'll go first."

She said, "Yeah."

This time, I didn't look back, I told myself, don't look back, don't keep her, don't make things difficult for her, don't make her more painful.

Maybe, one day, she will forget the pain.

Maybe, one day, she will come back.

maybe one day……

There will never be such a day, I know, there will never be such a day.

So I told her, I won't wait for you.

I said, I won't wait.

Something slipped quietly from the corner of my eye.

Why, why can't she be happy?

Why, Xia Mu will die?

why?
Xia Mu, you despicable boy!You win, you win this life, you win the afterlife!You have won my reputation!
But why don't you treat her well?

You bad boy!

Why can't she be happy?
On the way down the mountain, I squatted down slowly, clutching my hair tightly in pain.

Yawang...

Yawang...

I turned my head and looked at the figure kneeling in the rain on the top of the mountain from a distance, my heart was so painful that I was about to collapse.

Over the next few years, I started to go my own way.Going to school, working, coping with all kinds of pressure, leaving home to a faraway place.

I said to myself, even the most perfect love will fade with time, I can forget her, I want to forget her, but, ten years...

Why does her figure always appear so clearly in my dreams?Why, I always dream that she is holding the little Xia Mu and walking towards me with a smile?

That day, I went to Xinghua Park designed by her, saw the plaque, I turned my head and smiled, turned around and walked across the square, the white pigeons in the square were flying around and dropped their feathers like angels.

I suddenly remembered her dream.She wants to build a park like paradise.She said that heaven is where I am.

I lowered my head and laughed, why do her words and her smile still appear in my mind so clearly after so many years?

With the blue sky and white clouds in June above my head and the sunshine in my heart that is too enthusiastic, I sat on a bench in the park and bet myself how many years it would take me to forget her.

Maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow's tomorrow, maybe longer.

Maybe it was the moment I left this world.

(End of this chapter)