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Chapter 20 The Bodhisattva Does Not Know How Sad I Are

After returning to school together that night, the relationship between Su Yunjin and Shen Juan has undergone subtle changes, and there seems to be a silent but intimate tacit understanding between the two.When he was alone in the library, he would smile at her knowingly, and every time the tutoring ended, he would "just happen" to appear at the entrance of the alley.But he didn't express his heart, and Su Yunjin was not in a hurry to get closer to the relationship between the two. She was satisfied with this feeling, but sometimes she would secretly think in her heart, what does she mean to Shen Ju'an?As the saying goes, lovers are not full, but they are more than friendship.

Since Shen Juan was about to go to the contract unit for an internship, his work in the library was about to end, and he was busy with some handovers before leaving in those few days.After six o'clock in the afternoon, during dinner time, there were still some finishing chores that were not finished, someone came in and called Shen Ju'an: "Brother, someone is looking downstairs."

Shen Ju'an froze for a moment, Su Yunjin who was standing beside him and sorting out the index cards looked up, just in time to see his frown inadvertently, but soon returned to normal.

"Okay, thank you." He responded to the classmate who reported the letter, but he didn't stop working immediately.

Su Yunjin said: "Go ahead, there's nothing else going on here, I'm enough alone."

He nodded, "That troubles you."

"Why are you being so polite?"

He smiled at her and walked out.In fact, the whole afternoon was already busy, and indeed there was not much work left. After Shen Juan left, Su Yunjin tidied up alone for more than half an hour and she was done. Fearing that she would miss the meal in the cafeteria, she quickly packed up her things and left the library.

As soon as she walked down the steps of the library gate, Su Yunjin saw Shen Juan, who had obviously been away for a while, walking over by herself from the side path.

"Ju An?" Su Yunjin called out to him in surprise.

Shen Juan turned his head to look over, as if he was a little surprised.He walked to Su Yunjin's side step by step.

"Didn't you leave early, I thought..."

The second half of Su Yunjin's words were swallowed back into her stomach, and she took a few more foolish steps before she dared to raise her head to look beside the two of them, where her hands were tightly held by another pair of warm and dry hands , this is the first time he held her hand.She moved her fingers, but she didn't struggle, and her heartbeat suddenly accelerated.It's not that he hasn't fantasized about this moment, but the intimate contact that announced to the world came so suddenly, and it seemed natural for him to do it.Su Yunjin pretended to look aside to hide her shyness.

However, just when she turned her eyes to the right rear, she happened to see a radiant young girl standing on the tree-lined path behind her, and the other party's eyes seemed to be looking directly at them.Su Yunjin's heart suddenly flashed a strange feeling, the girl's location was exactly where Shen Juan came out in a hurry.

"Ju An..." Su Yunjin called his name again, but this time with a hint of uncertainty.

Shen Ju'an slowed down, and said softly: "What's the matter, you don't like it?" He said so, but he didn't intend to let go of his hand.

If Su Yunjin still had doubts just now, but now she completely melted away under his smiling and focused gaze, she must have thought too much, isn't this what she has been looking forward to?Putting her hand on Shen Juan's, her heart seemed to have a place to rest.

Even if there is no deliberate publicity, the relationship between Su Yunjin and Shen Ju'an will soon be known, but most people are envious and blessed for this pair of Bi people. "The luckiest one."

Sometimes Su Yunjin felt that she couldn't find a more suitable lover than Shen Juan.They have similar personalities and are very harmonious. He seems to have a pair of eyes that can see through her, and he can always do what she likes most at the most appropriate time. Moreover, he respects her, tolerates her, and takes care of her. Speaking, there is also the joy of quietness.

When you feel happy, time always speeds up deliberately, and May Day comes in a blink of an eye.According to the original plan, Su Yunjin should give her students good tutoring during the long vacation, but before the holiday, the parents of the students informed her that the three of them would go on a long-distance trip, and the tutoring was cancelled.That's good, Su Yunjin also heaved a sigh of relief, she has seven days of leisure, anyway, Shen Juan is about to graduate, she wants to grasp the last time of the two of them in school together, and enjoy the happiness of being alone.

On the first day of the long vacation, Shen Juan asked Su Yunjin to go to the Dabei Temple to relax.Early in the morning, as soon as Su Yunjin came back from the bathroom, she heard her roommate tell her, "Your boyfriend said to wait for you downstairs."

Su Yunjin's face became hot, although she hadn't been together for a day or two, she was still not used to being called Shen Ju'an by this title.Didn't you say 09:30?Su Yunjin looked at the time, it was just after nine o'clock.Shen Juan is a punctual person, it is rare to see him so impatient, is it because this is the first time the two dated outside of school?She secretly pursed her lips and smiled, tidied her hair a little and went downstairs, not noticing the puzzled expression on her roommate's face.

When she got downstairs, Su Yunjin looked around and couldn't see Shen Ju'an. While she was wondering, she inadvertently glanced at the sidewalk opposite the building. She looked away, then turned back suddenly, and shook her head blankly.Last night, she received that silent phone call again. Her dreams were too chaotic and she couldn't sleep well. Could it be that she had hallucinations because of this?But hallucinations can be so real, this "illusion" is even higher than the real person I saw last time.

After going to college, Su Yunjin also grew two centimeters taller, and she has never grown taller since then. She is already considered taller among the petite girls around her, but now, even if she stands on tiptoe, she is afraid Also... No, he should be in Beijing now, or by his parents' side... He can appear anywhere, but he shouldn't be standing downstairs in her university dormitory at this time.

But who could that person be if it wasn't Cheng Zheng?He was wearing a simple T-shirt and jeans, and the backpack slung across his shoulders was probably luggage. His eyes were already looking at Su Yunjin's position. Apart from the tiredness, there was a familiar look on his brows.

Seeing Su Yunjin's unbelievable expression, Cheng Zheng walked towards her in no hurry. The two just looked at each other for more than ten seconds across a not-so-spacious campus passageway. In the end, she had to react first, forcefully Walked over with a scalp.

"Uh...well, why are you here?" Su Yunjin asked awkwardly.

Cheng Zheng raised his chin lightly, still looking unreasonable, "This school belongs to you, so others can't come?"

Su Yunjin wasn't in the mood to argue with him, and hesitated: "The call my roommate received just now was from you?"

"Yes." He said confidently, "What's the problem...... Who do you think?"

"Can you stop talking nonsense in front of other people?"

"I don't know what you're talking about. I only found out where you live after asking several people. Why do the girls here act like they haven't seen a man before?"

"You still haven't said what you're doing here?" Su Yunjin lowered her head distractedly.

Cheng Zheng folded his arms around his chest, and said, "Su Yunjin, I found that you always look like a serious sinner in front of me. You don't have a guilty conscience, do you?"

"A joke!" Although Su Yunjin said so, Cheng Zheng's words really hit her weak spot.She was also confused, why as long as the two of them face each other, the long-lost inferiority complex, cowardice, and panic all returned to her, and there was also an inexplicable nervousness, as if there was something he said "guilty of being a thief" Feel.She obviously didn't owe him anything.

"At last you still know that you are too mean to me." Cheng Zheng deliberately bent over as if reading his mind, put his face close to her, and spoke slowly, she could feel his hot breath.

A trace of annoyance appeared in Su Yunjin's heart, and she pushed him bitterly, causing him to smile maliciously.Obviously, when he met her at the class reunion last time, he still regarded her as a scourge. He didn't expect to turn her face as fast as turning a book.

"Didn't you say that you used to pity me? I don't need you to pity me. You go to give to the beggars on the street. Why do you come to me?" She clearly just stated a fact, but no matter how she said it, she felt angry smell.

Cheng Zheng sneered again like he was looking at a fool: "Su Yunjin, did I say I came to see you?"

"Then get out." She was ashamed and angry.

"I don't want to roll. The road is facing the sky, each side. Am I in your way?"

"Okay, if you don't go, I'll go!"

As soon as Su Yunjin took a step, he was pulled back by him.

"Pay attention to what it looks like." She was in a hurry, not far away, Shen Ju'an, who had made an appointment to meet downstairs, was walking towards them.

Cheng Zheng also glanced in the direction she was looking at, and still kept his hand, but lowered his voice with ulterior motives, "Don't worry, I haven't finished talking yet. I said I was sorry for you, since you are now It's no longer necessary, so let's change, how about you pity me when it's your turn?"

"What crazy talk?"

When Shen Juan stopped, Su Yunjin was also able to get rid of her. Sensitively, she stepped back from Cheng Zheng's side, but she didn't notice that the sidewalk she was standing on was a bit higher than the sidewalk behind her, and she stepped back and stepped into the air. Losing her center of gravity, two forces stabilized her simultaneously from both sides of her body.

"You don't look at the road again." Shen Ju'an said with a smile, and let go of her when she saw that she was safe.

Su Yunjin shook off the other ignorant hand, trying her best to calm down her rapid heartbeat and make herself look the same as usual. "Are you here?" she said to Shen Ju'an.

Shen Juan's smile was the same as usual, and there was no wave in his eyes, "I guessed that you would be earlier, so you arrived earlier. Do you have friends?"

Cheng Zheng straightened up slowly, and unscrupulously looked at the boy with outstanding appearance and temperament in front of him. He was on guard, but not surprised.

"Su Yunjin, don't you want to introduce me?" He said coldly.

"I don't think it's necessary." Su Yunjin was a little annoyed by his defiant and aggressive look, and planned to ignore him and leave with Shen Ju'an.

Cheng Zheng said, "It's impolite for you to act like this, as if other people don't exist." The "others" he said didn't refer to himself.

Su Yunjin heard the voice, she had never seen anyone with a thicker skin than him, she was so angry that she couldn't speak.Shen Juan's hand gently pressed on her shoulder, as if silently comforting her.

That's right, the angrier she gets, the more she falls into his hands.Su Yunjin endured, and simply let his mind go, introducing: "This is Shen Juan...Ju An, this is Cheng Zheng, my high school classmate, studying in Beijing."

Everyone could tell that she called Shen Ju'an so affectionately, and she clearly separated her relationship with Cheng Zheng.

Cheng Zheng actually swallowed this breath, but looked at Shen Ju'an and let out a long cry: "Oh..."

What does this mean, Su Yunjin frowned.Shen Juan's demeanor was much better than Cheng Zheng's, he nodded with a smile, and asked, "Come here for a trip?"

"That's right. Did I bother you?" That's what he said, but there was no apology in his voice.

"We are preparing to go out." Su Yunjin planned to end her "encounter" with him by this.

"Where are you going?" Cheng Zheng carried his ignorance to the end.

"It's none of your business..."

"We plan to go to the Dabei Temple on the outskirts of the city." Shen Ju'an stated calmly.

Cheng Zheng raised his eyebrows, and he seemed very interested, "Dabei Temple, I've heard of it."

"If you're interested, you can..."

"Ju An!" Su Yunjin looked at the person beside him in puzzlement. With his mind, how could he not see that Cheng Zheng was making trouble on purpose.

When Cheng Zheng heard it, he was immediately invigorated. Regardless of Su Yunjin's disgust, he actually laughed, "Since I'm here for 'tourism', it's not bad to go for a stroll."

This trip became the strangest experience Su Yunjin felt. Traveling with two outstanding boys, she felt like a light on her back.On the one hand, she didn't know what Shen Juan was thinking, but she tolerated Cheng Zheng's appearance calmly;In the end, she was the only one who was confused and uncomfortable.She had something on her mind, and she probably made many mistakes, so the journey was always dull.Shen Juan dealt with it tactfully, and maintained an neither humble nor overbearing friendliness to Cheng Zheng along the way.Cheng Zheng didn't continue to mess around, but only looked at Su Yunjin meaningfully from time to time, which seemed to be both provocative and mocking.

Dabei Temple is located in the eastern suburbs about an hour's drive from the city. Although it is the first day of the long holiday, the incense in the temple is not very prosperous. As soon as you enter the gate of the temple, you can see the ancient temple with dense forests and solemn treasures. It also settled down.The three of them walked and looked at each other with their own thoughts. Of course, the place with the most incense in the temple was in front of the Avalokitesvara statue.Shen Juan went to the countryside and bought incense candles like other pilgrims, and handed them to Su Yunjin and Cheng Zheng respectively.

"No matter how the times change, people in the world always have so many unsatisfied desires, and there is nothing they can do about it, so they can only pin their hopes on the gods and Buddhas who are nothingness." He said.

Cheng Zheng didn't answer, but shook his head and said, "I don't believe that."

Shen Ju'an smiled, "Since you're here, let's light a candle. I heard that the Guanyin Bodhisattva here is very effective, and it may really fulfill your wish. Everyone has the pain of not getting what you want. If you believe it, it will make you happier. Why? Do not believe?"

Cheng Zheng was silent. Su Yunjin knew that he had always been rebellious, but he did not expect that he would not persist any longer. He lit the joss stick a little clumsily, and solemnly kowtowed in front of the Buddha like the other two. People routinely write what they want on it.Shen Juan wrote first, followed by Su Yunjin.

Shen Ju'an saw that Su Yunjin was covered with a thin layer of sweat from the high temperature beside the incense burner, so he offered to buy water at the gate of the temple.
Su Yunjin wanted to go with him, but he smiled and said no.After he left, only Cheng Zheng and Su Yunjin were left in the Guanyin Hall.

When she was alone, Su Yunjin's embarrassment reappeared, she didn't know what to say.It always felt strange to be polite to him, but I didn't know where to start the conversation, so I pretended to concentrate on looking at the surrounding environment.

Cheng Zheng was still kneeling on the futon at this time, just after closing the merit book, he didn't know what was written, and then threw incense money into the merit box.Su Yunjin saw that he stuffed a few hundred yuan bills in without blinking, and couldn't help but said, "Just a little expression of my heart will be fine."

"Since it's your wish, why don't you allow me to have more?"

Su Yunjin criticized in a low voice, "You are really interesting. Just now you said you didn't believe in these things, but now you are more devout than anyone else."

Cheng Zheng retorted, "I'm different from you. When I do something, I either don't do it, or I do it to the end."

After he finished speaking, he clasped his hands together for a long time before standing up and patting the dust off his jeans.

Maybe it was because he felt oppressed by him in this space where there were only two people, time passed very slowly, Su Yunjin muttered: "Why did it take so long to buy water in Ju'an?"

Cheng Zheng sneered, "Ju An Ju An, that's really kind. Is he your so-called boyfriend?"

"So what?" It was too easy for his arrogant appearance to annoy her, at this moment Su Yunjin was not afraid to admit in front of him that she had nothing to do with him.

"I don't think he cares much about you." Cheng Zheng said something, "Is this the kind of person you like? Sooner or later you will realize how ridiculous you are."

"Yes, we are all ridiculous, only you are the most amazing." Su Yunjin said bitterly, wondering why he said such things.

Cheng Zheng's face was against the light, and he couldn't see the expression clearly, "I'm more ridiculous than you. I lied to myself before that you just haven't learned to love someone, so you just don't love me."

"What are you talking about?" Su Yunjin's heart trembled, feeling a sense of powerlessness.

Cheng Zheng took a step forward and stood right behind her. He suddenly stretched out his hands to wrap around her waist, and said without hesitation, "Su Yunjin, I thought about never talking to you again, but I can't. At least tell me, I What's not good enough? You really don't like me at all? Why did you kiss me and then throw me away?"

This is the first time Su Yunjin has seen Cheng Zheng, who has always been tough, show weakness in front of her. She has always thought that his thoughts about her are just childish, and if he doesn't get it, he wants it more. Maybe he will forget it after a while. , who knows that after such a long time, he still found it.She patted his hand on her waist in a panic. "Let go, let go!"

"Tell me first why you don't want me!" Cheng Zheng hugged her even tighter, bent down and took her completely into his arms.

"Don't be like this...what do you look like! Ju An will be back soon, let him see that there must be a misunderstanding."

When Cheng Zheng heard this, he turned her body around with all his strength, and said loudly, "Then don't let him 'misunderstand', I want him to believe what he sees." He bowed his head and kissed carelessly.

Su Yunjin tried her best to dodge, and said in a trembling voice, "Don't be like this, Cheng Zheng, you... Bodhisattvas are watching."

"Does the Bodhisattva know how sad I am? Can it see it!" His strength was always ruthless and heavy, especially when he was in a hurry. Su Yunjin only felt that his hands were tightened, and she couldn't even breathe. Difficulty, his breath was all over his head and face, he couldn't speak, it seemed that all souls and six souls had been sucked away by him, and he also tried his best in the dark, caught whatever he caught, and Cheng Zheng said "huh" She let go of her hand with a sound, and she tasted the sweetness of blood on the tip of her tongue. For a moment, she didn't know whether it was she or him who hurt her, so she wiped her face with her sleeve vigorously.

Cheng Zheng pressed the sore spot on his lips with his knuckles, and said pantingly, "Hide, even the gods can see that we have an affair. When you said that day, 'This is what I pay you back', I tell you, you opened it." It's not over yet!"

This is the Cheng Zheng she is familiar with. What she hates the most is his domineering, unreasonable, thinking that everything she gets is taken for granted.She thought he was somewhat different from before, but in fact he hadn't changed at all.

"You are still so annoying, it's unreasonable." Su Yunjin passed him and walked out of the Guanyin Hall, just in time to see Shen Ju'an walking towards this side with a few bottles of mineral water. Seeing his appearance, she saw it like a drowning person shore.

"What's the matter with you, your eyes are so red?" In fact, Shen Ju'an said it too implicitly, it's not just her eyes that are red and strange.Of course, there was nowhere to hide the scar on the corner of Cheng Zheng's mouth.

Shen Juan silently handed them the water, Su Yunjin shook her head and refused, Cheng Zheng took it unceremoniously, as if she had been thirsty for a long time, unscrewed it and drank it, the mouth of the bottle touched the wound with burning pain.

(End of this chapter)