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Chapter 19 Emotion and Reason (2)
"It doesn't matter, I'm used to it." Su Yunjin said.Rather than not having to work, she is happier that her mother has finally taken a step forward and is no longer immersed in sad memories all day long.Shen Juan is in his senior year, and he will leave school in a few months. At this time, there have been news that the graduates have found the contracting unit. Some time ago, there was news that the department head appointed him to stay in school, but the news spread After a while, there was no more text.Su Yunjin really wants to know Shen Juan's whereabouts. In her heart, she hopes that he can stay in school. If one day he completely disappears from her sight, she will be very uncomfortable.

"Why don't you ask him yourself?" Mo Yuhua encouraged Su Yunjin.

Su Yunjin didn't want to know Shen Juan's whereabouts from her own mouth, but she always didn't know what position she should use to ask.She was just a companion of his who worked in the library, she was just an acquaintance, not even a friend.

This afternoon, the two of them were on duty again, and neither of them had any classes. It was just past three o'clock in the afternoon, and there were very few people borrowing and returning books in the library.Su Yunjin followed the instructions of the administrator teacher to label a batch of books. It happened that one of the catalogs was not very clear, so she wanted to ask Shen Juan, but found him lying on the long table of the borrowing desk, with a book half covering his face. , It seems to be asleep.

Su Yunjin thought it was a little funny, this was the first time she saw him like this, usually Shen Juan was able to do everything with ease, why did he ever show fatigue in front of others?The movements of her hands softened inadvertently, there was nothing wrong anyway, so why bother him.After finishing her own work, she tiptoed to sit beside him in her own vacant seat.The wind in the afternoon of April passes through the half-open shutters of the reading room, and it is easy to produce a feeling of intoxication when it blows on people. This is indeed a suitable time for snoozing.Su Yunjin gently removed the book that Shen Juan was covering her face, if it weren't for the blue eye sockets, that clean and soft face would be more heart-warming and serene.The wind stirred his hair slightly, and with a thought in her mind, she slowly stretched out her hand to brush away those annoying hairs, but before touching his face, the owner of the hairs had already opened their eyes.

"Su Yunjin?"

Su Yunjin seemed to have done something shady and was caught halfway, panicked, and blurted out the hidden question inexplicably: "Will you...will you stay in school?"

Shen Juan was still leaning on his arms. He was a little surprised when he heard this, and after a while he smiled and said, "You want me to stay in school?"

Su Yunjin bowed her head and flipped his book back and forth unconsciously, and said "um" almost inaudibly.

Shen Ju'an sat up straight, laughed and said, "How could I fall asleep?"

Su Yunjin was going to be a tutor that night, and she was still regretting her impulsiveness in the afternoon. Maybe she shouldn't ask more questions, after all, it was someone else's business.But she still couldn't help being disappointed that he avoided her question. It seemed that she was overthinking it. In his eyes, she was just an insignificant bystander. Why did she reveal the undecided matter to her?

The location of the tutoring has not changed. Although it is still only two roads away from the school, one of the roads is closed for construction, and pedestrians must take a detour through the alley on one side.That alley was very remote and the street lights were dim, Su Yunjin was a little nervous every time she went back and forth.

It was okay when I went there, it was not completely dark yet, and when I returned to school, standing in front of the dark intersection, she felt a little apprehensive, and tried every means to bolster her courage.At this time, footsteps suddenly came from the dark place, and someone came out from under the backlit wall, Su Yunjin couldn't help shivering.

"It's me." Su Yunjin was extremely surprised by this voice, Shen Juan walked to her side, and said with a smile: "I should have called you earlier, so that I won't scare you."

"Why are you here?" Su Yunjin was still in shock.

"This road is too dark, let's go." He walked forward side by side with her naturally, as if he had walked this road with her thousands of times
A cramped and deserted old alley.Su Yunjin's heart was pounding non-stop, and the two of them were speechless for a while.Could it be that he gave her a special gift?She dare not think.

She had never felt that the alley was so short, as if it came to an end in the blink of an eye, and she could already see the lights on the road ahead.

Su Yunjin had doubts in her heart, she secretly looked up at him, just in time to see the red silk thread hanging around his neck, showing a dark red like bleeding under the dim light.

This red thread seemed to be hanging around his neck all the time, but Su Yunjin didn't know what the pendant hidden in his clothes would be?Just as he was lost in thought, he protected her shoulders and dodged to the side, avoiding a motorcycle on the way.

"What are you thinking about so preoccupied?" He calmly withdrew his hand when he walked to a safe place, neither too intimate nor abrupt, "Are you watching this?"

His tone made it difficult to lie, Su Yunjin nodded.

Shen Ju'an tugged on the silk thread, and at the bottom was a very ordinary gold ring. The style of the ring was very earthy, but when he hung it around his neck, he didn't think it was ugly, it was just special.

"Now you don't have to be so curious that you don't even look at the road." He let her see clearly, and put the ring back inside his clothes.

"This ring must be very important to you." Curiosity overwhelmed reserve, Su Yunjin asked.

Shen Juan thought for a while: "It can be said so."

This is simply taken for granted. If it is not something very important, why is it worth keeping him close?
"I guess it must be related to a very good memory." Su Yunjin whispered.

"Beautiful?" Shen Ju'an repeated the word, and said lightly, "It's related to memories, but it's not beautiful. It's left to me by a girl I once liked."

She could feel that he was looking at her when he spoke.

"I...do I look like her?" Su Yunjin almost bit off her tongue. She has been in the library for more than a year, did nothing else, and read a lot of idle books. This question is too ridiculous.

Sure enough, Shen Ju'an laughed out loud: "It's not like." As if he was afraid that she would not give up, he emphasized again, "It's not like at all."

Su Yunjin felt so ashamed, she lowered her head and couldn't speak anymore.

"You're like yourself, what's wrong with that?" His voice was still smiling, making it hard to be resentful.

After walking in silence for a while, Shen Ju'an asked without any warning: "Su Yunjin, which do you think is more important, dignity or ideal? Will you give up your dignity for what you desire?"

Su Yunjin didn't have any mental preparations for this question, hesitated for a long time, and replied: "I haven't encountered anything I want too much, so until now I think dignity is very important."

"You're right, if you don't want to be strong." Shen Ju'an said to himself, for a moment, he was a bit confused, as if he was no longer the smart, clear-headed and determined person in Su Yunjin's impression.

"I refused to stay in school."

"Ah?" Su Yunjin's tone of voice couldn't tell whether it was surprise or regret. For an ordinary student, even if he was excellent, staying in school was still an excellent way. How many people worked hard but couldn't get that spot.

"I signed 'Heng Kai'."

It turned out to be like this.The reputation of Hengkai Group is no stranger to Su Yunjin, even in this city where there are many foreign companies and large state-owned enterprises, it is very famous.It is said that the recruitment conditions are quite harsh, and the remuneration is quite good, but I have never heard that there is an enrollment plan in their school. I don’t know how he was hired by this company. In this way, it makes sense to give up the good opportunity to stay in school .

"Su Yunjin, you look surprised."

Of course, Su Yunjin can't say that she is disappointed, because it will be difficult for her to see the person who makes her feel at ease in the library in the future.

"No, it's just that in my imagination, staying in a university is more in line with how you make me feel."

"Believe me, I know exactly what I am suitable for." Shen Juan had a smile that Su Yunjin was not familiar with, "Whether it is work or people."

"Yu Hua, I can't tell. He seems to be here to pick me up and go back to school. The way he looked at me when he spoke... Could it be that I'm dreaming?" In the evening, Su Yunjin talked to Mo Yuhua on the phone about what happened just now. There are still ripples in my heart.

"Maybe he's really interested in you. I thought so a long time ago." Mo Yuhua's voice revealed a smile, "Looks like I'm going to say congratulations."

"What, maybe he just has good intentions, or he just passed by. I'm just thinking about it myself." Su Yunjin whispered, afraid of being overheard.

"Just think about it, as long as you feel happy."

"Happy?" Su Yunjin was startled.is she happyIsn't happiness supposed to be like this, full of heart, plain and peaceful?
But why, she felt that something was missing.

Just as he hung up Mo Yuhua's phone and climbed into bed, the dormitory phone rang again.The roommate on the lower bunk picked it up and shouted, "Yunjin, it's yours again."

Su Yunjin got out of bed in a hurry, took the receiver and said "Hello", but there was no response for a long time, she thought the phone connection was bad, so she dialed the phone line, but the other end was still silent.Since the beginning of this semester, she has received such calls more than once. Every time, the roommate said they were looking for her and it was a boy, but when she answered, they were silent.There was no caller ID on the phone, so I didn't know where the call came from, so it was a bit weird after all.The roommates also joked that she would not provoke any pervert.She was puzzled, and wanted to hang up, but something seemed to be sensed in her mind, and the hand holding the microphone was also quietly tense.

"...Cheng Zheng? Is that you?" She asked in disbelief. She hadn't said the name for a long time, and there was a faint sense of strangeness in her heart when she said it.

no answer.

Su Yunjin just kept holding the receiver, and stayed silent with the other party. After a long time, she seemed to hear the other party's inaudible sigh, and then there was a beeping sound of disconnection.

"Why didn't you say a word?" the roommate asked.

"The other party didn't say anything."

"How is it possible, I clearly heard that it was a boy, and the voice was very nice." The roommate said again in a flash, "No, Yunjin, the other party didn't say anything, you have been on the phone for so long, are you making me happy again? "

The reason why she didn't hang up was because she thought of him.But how could he think of contacting her?His expression was so cold that day.

is it him?not him?
Su Yunjin fell asleep amidst such chaotic thoughts. Before she fell into a dream, she didn't realize that the person who appeared in the dream at such a night should not be Shen Juan who disturbed her heart?

(End of this chapter)