Bamboo Horse Pianist

Chapter 4

Mu Liunian is no longer her only brother Liunian.And these years, she was not in his world, what did she miss?How many people stood beside him in turn?
At that time, he only gave her a chance, but now, he gave everyone the same chance, and she was no longer the only one in his heart.

Part1
Although I have been mentally prepared at the beginning and end, I was still shocked when I saw the magnificent scene of the entire music hall being surrounded by three floors inside and three floors outside.The senior sisters who were in charge of this speech complained over there: "There are not enough places for students in our music department, but there are so many students from other departments coming here. It's really annoying! This group of nympho! Usually there are no open classes. See them so active!"

"Isn't that because of Senior Brother Mu? This should be his first performance in school, right? How many people want to see his demeanor, if I were from another department, I wouldn't miss this great opportunity .”

Sitting on the side, Chu Mo felt her heart was beating so fast that she thought that her cultivation in the past few years would be enough for her to be calm about everything, but she didn't think that the things she was afraid of by nature could not be pretended no matter how much she tried from.

When she was about to go on stage, she closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and told herself in her heart: Yang Chumo, you have to calm down, you must not embarrass Mu Liunian!
The big talk was released, but when he really came on stage, besides Chu Mo's heart started beating fast again, even his throat seemed to be blocked by something, let alone a speech, even speaking normally.

According to the procedure, she should finish reading her manuscript first, followed by Mu Liunian's piano pieces.But at this moment, Chu Mo was standing on the stage where the lights gathered, unable to speak at all.It was a kind of childhood nightmare, just like every nightmare, the head was clearly awake, but the body seemed to be crushed by something, and he couldn't wake up no matter what.

There was a dark crowd in front of her. From the silence when she came out to the various doubtful discussions behind her, she felt dizzy at the beginning and end of the day, and the feeling of darkness in front of her eyes returned.

Countless times when she was at a loss and helpless, she would feel this way, as if she had fallen into a huge black vortex, and there was no reed around her that could save her, so she could only let her sink deeper and deeper.

Just when she felt all kinds of self-blame for being too useless in her heart, a familiar melody suddenly came to her ears, and each note was like countless claws, hiding her deepest memories in her heart. , evoked one by one.

The boy in the white shirt sat beside the black piano, and the melodious notes of fleeting years poured out from his fingertips.The whole hall fell silent for a moment, and then burst into warm applause, as if the one sitting in the corner playing the piano was Prince Richard?Clayderman.

But in Chu Mo's eyes, it was a different scene. The familiar melody seemed to bring her back to the piano in the living room of Mu's house many years ago. She was fiddling with something on the table by herself. He came over and asked what she was doing.

"I'm recording!" She triumphantly held up the recording pen in her hand.

He raised his eyebrows in surprise: "What are you recording for?"

"Record this song, when you are not by my side in the future, as long as I hear it, I will be so motivated and not afraid of any difficulties!"

That day, everyone saw the girl standing on the stage, reading out the speech slowly with the accompaniment of the piano. Her voice was very nice, especially when she was speaking English, her words were clear and British. It is freely interchangeable with American style, and introduces piano knowledge to everyone's ears in different ways.

However, they also knew that the unforgettable melody that day was "Flowing Years", which Mu Liunian had never played in public.

Part2
When Chu Mo came down from the stage and entered the backstage, he was about to open the door and enter the lounge when he heard a faint discussion coming from inside. "Senior Sister Ruan, you almost killed me. How did you find that little girl surnamed Yang! You don't even know how anxious I was when she stood silent on the stage. You have to know that there are people sitting under the stage. Dean of Changhe Department. That little girl, hey! Really!"

Then came a familiar indifferent voice: "Isn't everything all right later? What are you afraid of?"

"That's not because Senior Mu came to the stage to save the scene and played a song first, so that the situation was not so embarrassing. But the name of the piano piece printed on our manuscript is not the one played by Senior Mu, and from the beginning to the end he I didn’t play according to the pre-arranged arrangement.” She paused, and then said: “I heard that it was the first piece created by Senior Mu, called “Fleeing Years”. It’s so strange, others said that this piece is his own. Wouldn't it be easy to play..."

Ruan Duhuan chuckled: "It's true that it's not easy for others to play, but who said that the person on stage is Yang Chumo?"

"Huh? Senior sister, what does this mean?"

"..."

Chu Mo didn't finish listening to the following words, the hand that originally pushed the door was gradually withdrawn, she turned around and left quietly.

The music hall has just ended, so it is inevitable to meet students who have just come out of the music hall on the way.

Basically, the comments that can be heard at the beginning and end of the journey are, for example: "What a wonderful performance by Brother Mu just now", "That song "Fleeing Years" is really good", etc., or "The little girl who gave the speech was invited here temporarily, right? ? I was so nervous that I couldn't even speak, but luckily Senior Brother Mu is here, otherwise I don't know what will happen."

Chumo lowered her small head, and the shade of the trees covered her thin figure. No one recognized her as the girl who stood on the stage speechless just now.

At this moment, Chumo was in a very depressed mood. He had summoned up the courage to help Fleeting Nian, but he didn't know how it would end up like this.Only then did she know that there are really different types of people in this world. Mu Liunian has always been the kind of person who shines wherever he stands, and she is the kind of person who will be shone even if she stands beside him. The light emanating from his body obscures people who cannot be seen.

I can't help laughing at myself, Yang Chumo also said that he would work hard to become excellent, but after so many years, why is it that he still can't match even one of his fingers?

And... as she grows older, she seems to be more and more useless. She doesn't even have the courage to step down and say "goodbye" to Fleeting Nian. She obviously wants to say a word to him, but she has no courage.

In these years, he seems to have changed a lot. The fleeting brother who doted on her and loved her in the past can no longer be found in him. All she can see is his boundless indifference and repulsion.

Fleeting Nian once said that he liked her smile, and hoped that she would keep smiling so happily, but now every time she wanted to smile at him, but saw his alienated face, that smile couldn't be raised no matter what. .

Just when she was depressed, a black BMW suddenly stopped beside her, as if telepathic, she raised her head, and saw the handsome side face with the window rolled down, black eyes, faint Said to her in a calm tone, "Get in the car."

Part3
These years, although Chu Mo had no contact with Mu Liunian at all, she knew what he was doing and what happened around him.She is like an underground worker, hiding in a place where he can't see, silently watching everything about him.For example, in the first year of entering the school, he became the favorite student of the old professor, and won an award in medical research with his team in the second year.For example, in school, many rich young masters drive famous cars to show off, but even if he has this car as a 20th birthday gift from his father, he doesn't often drive it in school.

He is obviously such an excellent person, but he is low-key and casual.Maybe that's one of the things that makes him so attractive?Thinking of this, I feel very depressed at the beginning and end of the year, and feel that I am getting farther and farther away from my childhood dream.

And Mu Liunian was the dream she had wanted to get close to but out of reach since she was a child.

At the end of the day, he never expected that the place Mu Liunian took her to was his former home. Regarding the surprised expression on her face, he just said lightly: "Get out of the car."

Chumo looked at his slender figure who got out of the car first, struggled in the car for a while, and finally had to obediently get out of the car.

Five years, whether it is long or short, the surroundings of the old old house have undergone some changes, but only the two independent houses that are next to each other are still the same as they were five years ago, and there is no change because no one is there. living without showing any trace of dilapidation.Chumo's clear eyes gradually gave birth to a trace of curiosity, and Fleeting Years could be seen in his eyes.

Stepping up and walking inside, Chu Mo hurriedly followed, he went to his "hometown", the old peach tree at the door of the "hometown" did not wither but grew more lush, almost made Chumo shed tears.She stopped there involuntarily, staring blankly at the tree. The red kit was still tied to the top of the branch. Five years of wind and rain did not show any signs of loss to it, as if It seems that someone... has been protecting it.

"What are you doing standing there?" A cold voice suddenly reached his ears, Chu Mo turned his head blankly, and saw Fleeting Year not far away, with a very ugly expression on his face.

She thought he was angry because she didn't keep up with him, so she ran over quickly, but he had already turned and walked into the house.

If the "familiarity" I saw outside just now was enough to surprise Chu Mo, then after entering the house now, the interior is exactly the same as it was five years ago, even the familiar grand piano is still in the same position, really It made Chu Mo seem to have fallen into a dream.

It was as if she had come to Mu's house five years ago, nothing had changed, he was still doting on her and loving her fleeting brother, and she was Yang Chumo who could act like a baby with him.

But in the past few years, although she has not been back, she has long heard that the Mu family moved out five years ago.And the house next door to her has also been confiscated by the government, so it probably belongs to another owner now.

It was so shocking that Chu Mo couldn't help asking: "Liu...Mu...uh...have you always lived here?" Seeing his suspicious glance, she said, "Nothing has changed here. .”

Fleeting Nian snorted coldly, "It's hard for you to remember everything here."

Chu Mo blinked her eyes, pretending not to hear his sarcasm, pretending that his words didn't hurt her at all.

At this moment, the sound of a suitcase rolling could be heard in her ear. She looked over, but saw Mu Liunian dragged a suitcase out of it, put it in front of her, and opened it: "I brought you here to return these things to you." .”

Chu Mo opened her eyes and saw a whole box full of toys she played with when she was a child.

One of the giant teddy bears stung her eye, and she crouched down to stroke the fluff.I still remember that when I was young, I desperately wanted this teddy bear, but my parents refused to buy it for her.In the end, she ran away from home angrily, and the whole family was going crazy. Later, people from the small town found Mu's family and asked, "Did your family lose a baby girl?"

Mu's father and Mu's mother were taken aback for a moment, they couldn't remember when they had an extra baby girl, or Mu Liunian said, "Yes, where is she?"

It turned out that the beginning and end of "running away from home" were caught by the leaders of the small town.

When the two families rushed to the police station in the small town, what they saw was the indecent scene of Xiao Chumo sitting at the dining table and eating with his hands. When they saw Mu Liunian, they cried "wow" and got up from the table. to hug.Fortunately, Fleeting Nian reacted quickly and hugged her little body firmly.

Later, in case she "run away from home" again, Mu Liunian used his pocket money from that year to help her buy that teddy bear.

Pulling myself back from the memories, Chu Mo stared blankly at the things in the box, besides the teddy bear, there were also Totoro, toy candy, etc., these were all her precious treasures back then.But they were lost in a sudden accident five years ago.

Chu Mo stood up, looked at Fleeting Years in front of her and asked, "Have you kept these for me?"

Part4
When Chu Mo finally pulled out the huge box, Liu Nian didn't send her out.

It's far away from the school, and she had to take a taxi because she brought such a big suitcase.

When the taxi driver saw the big box at her feet, he couldn't help asking, "Is this box full of money?"

Chumo was taken aback by his question, and said, "Do I still need to take a taxi here if I have so much money?"

So one helped to carry the boxes, and the other stood by and thought about things.

When I got into the car, Chu Mo didn't notice that a black BMW followed quietly behind.

The clear blue sky is so pure that there is no trace of impurities.

When the driver drove the car halfway, he suddenly stopped and turned to her and said, "Student, can I go down and buy a box lunch? Look, I haven't eaten yet."

Chumo glanced at him faintly and said, "Okay, I haven't eaten either, can you bring me one?"

"..." The driver looked at her for a while, and finally asked, "There are poached eggs and chicken legs, which one do you want?"

"drumstick."

So the driver opened the door and went down to buy.

Sitting in the car, Chu Mo looked at the driver's back, and remembered what he said to Fleeting Nian in the old house: "I'm going back."

He was silent, turned and walked outside.

But she stopped him: "I want to go back alone..."

She was really timid to stay in the same space with him again, she was afraid that she would not be able to hold back the tears in front of him, and turn back to the cowardly and looked down upon Yang Chumo when she was a child.However, such a thing is not what she wants to happen.No matter how hard and tiring her previous life was, she never shed a single tear. She didn't want to lose the strength she had maintained for so long in front of the most important person in her heart.

However, Fleeting Years misunderstood her meaning.

He thought she didn't want him to send her away, but in an instant, his face became extremely ugly.

She knew he had misunderstood, because he looked at her so coldly and gloomyly that he wanted to strangle her to death with one hand.

She opened her mouth to say something, but bit her lip and said nothing.

That's all.So what if he misunderstood, anyway, he returned all these things to her, which meant that he didn't want to have anything to do with her at all, so what's the point of her explanation to him?

In the end, his bone-chilling voice sounded next to his ear—"Yang Chumo, is it because I'm so kind to you that you can trample on me so reassuringly?"

She thought she could be strong, but when she met his resentful eyes, she felt her whole heart hurt, as if a hand was tearing her heart apart piece by piece. Can't breathe.

However, he returned the whole box of things he gave her to her. How could she pretend not to understand such an obvious meaning?
Recalling that day in medical school, he said, "Don't come here from now on."

The soul seems to have lost the body that can hide, and becomes dazed and helpless.

Fleeting time, you know?Maybe there are some words that you said casually, but I am seriously sad.

His mouth was flattened, his nose was sore from beginning to end, and the tears in his eyes just wanted to flow out.

When the driver managed to grab two boxes of lunch and ran over happily, what he saw was Chu Mo's wrinkled face, about to cry.He was startled, and quickly handed her the lunch box and said, "Don't cry? If I knew you were so hungry, I would have bought you food when I got in the car. Hey, hey...why do you talk more about you?" The more you cry?... If you want to cry, at least you have to eat before you cry..."

So that day, Chumo met a kind driver who thought she was starving and crying, and persuaded her to eat the chicken drumstick rice while handing her a tissue.

The thin lips of the man with the black BMW sitting not far away had drawn into a line at some point, and his black eyes were like cold waves and smoke.

Promises that are too beautiful are never suitable for promises, once they are promised, they cannot be forgotten.

I never thought that the saddest period of time was that she was not around. When he came back with his promise to her, he saw the empty house, and no one knew how he felt.

Over the years, I have always remembered her appearance as a baby, as a child, and as a girl.But it was also the memory that was too full and the heart-wrenching longing that gradually sublimated a deep hatred in his heart, which had been quietly buried in his heart for so many years.

Now, how could he let her go so easily?

Part5
At the end of the month, I suddenly wanted to go home, to go home and see my mother.She sniffed and said, "Master, take me to the train station."

Five years later, she and her mother had already left that town and lived in a small county on the outskirts of City B.

When we arrived at the train station, we lined up to buy tickets, and found a seat at the beginning and end of the month to sit down.Because it is not the peak time of passenger transport, there are not many people in the train station. Chu Mo sat there holding the ticket, watching the time pass by every second. After finally waiting for the time, he heard the radio saying: "by The train from city G to the county seat of city B is temporarily broken down, and the train is expected to be delayed by three hours..."

Immediately, the voices of other people squeaked, and Chu Mo pursed her lips, thinking how unlucky she was, the first time she wanted to go home so eagerly, but the train was delayed for so long.

Maybe it's because I cried just now, but I only feel my eyes are sore from beginning to end, and I'm so sleepy.She adjusted her posture, moved the box to her side, lay down on her stomach, and wanted to take a little sleep.

In her life, sleeping is a very luxurious thing, but because today is too sad, she just wants to indulge herself, but she doesn't want this indulgence to fall into a deep sleep.

When I woke up, I felt people moving in front of me, but I didn't realize where I was.Chu Mo blinked, and it took a long time to realize that she was at the train station, remembering the time of the train... She quickly stood up and looked in the direction of the platform, only to breathe a sigh of relief, there was still an hour...

Then, she felt as if something was wrong...

box!Where's her suitcase?

Chu Mo's mind went blank for an instant when he saw the empty space around him and the box was nowhere to be found.First, she anxiously asked a few people around her, and all she got was shaking her head. She was completely anxious, with an expression on her face as if she had lost an extremely important treasure, and then, like a headless fly, she caught People asked: "Have you seen my suitcase? A big, blue-striped suitcase..."

All the people had nothing to do with themselves or shook their heads strangely, as if the box had never appeared beside her, and everything was just her hallucination.

Finally a well-meaning man couldn't stand it anymore, stepped forward and said, "Little girl, is there a guard standing over there, do you want to ask?"

Chu Mo kept saying thank you, annoyed in his heart why the more anxious he was, the more stupid he would be!
When the guard asked her about the shape of the box and what was in it, Chumo said naturally: "It's blue and white with stripes, and it's full of dolls, including teddy bears, small ones, big ones, There are three medium ones, and there are chinchillas, small ones, big ones, medium ones..."

Before she could finish her sentence, the kind-hearted man who brought her here just now stared at her eyes and said incredulously, "Little girl, did I think you had so much money in your box...why are they all dolls... Since they are all dolls, why are you so anxious..."

"..." Chumo looked at the uncle who was full of "what" without words, the anxiety on his face still did not recede, but the guard said kindly: "Student, don't worry, if there is any news about the box, we will I will notify you as soon as possible, you fill in your information here first."

After filling out the information, Chu Mo walked in the crowd at a loss, suddenly felt powerless, and wanted to cry. She kept asking herself in her heart, how could she throw away such an important box to her? ?

The voice on the broadcast sounded in my ears: "The train from G city to B city and county seat is now starting to check tickets. The train from G city to B city and county seat will stop at platform X. Passengers with train tickets should go to X Passenger check-in in waiting room No. [-]..."

Chu Mo glanced at the unfamiliar crowd, and finally turned around and walked towards the ticket gate.It's not that she doesn't want to stay until she hears about the box before leaving, but over the years, she no longer has the right to be willful.Even her sudden decision to go home and have a look at this moment is extravagant and capricious.

Sitting on the train heading home, for the first time in the first and last days, I was not as full of expectations as usual, as if something was missing in my heart.Sitting beside her was a woman and a little boy, who was reading a children's book: "Lang rides a bamboo horse, grows greengage around the bed, lives together for thousands of miles, the two little ones have no suspicions."

The little boy suddenly blinked and raised his head to ask his mother: "Su Xiaowei, is this about you and Mo Shen's father! Xiao Xiaobei told me before that you and Mo Shen's father have known each other since childhood!"

Chu Mo looked at the woman beside her, and saw her long hair lazily tied behind her head, her palm-sized face with a pair of eyes with a gentle smile, "Well, Zong Zong is very smart."

The little boy named Zong Zong blinked his eyes again, tilted his head and thought for a while and said, "Then I also want to find a childhood sweetheart girlfriend, so I can marry her when I grow up."

"..."

The people sitting next to him couldn't help laughing when they heard the child's words, they just thought the little boy was so cute.

I don't know why, but I just want to cry at the beginning and end of the day.

She suddenly remembered that when she was a child, although Mu Liunian was outstanding, he liked to be quiet. Even though many girls at school liked him, he still only went to and from school with Chu Mo every day, and only Chu Mo could always be by his side.One day, Chumo pointed domineeringly at the place next to him and said, "In the future, only I can stand next to you, not other girls!" It was so domineering, but he still responded pamperingly.

Later Zhu Xiaopeng said to her, "Mu Liunian is so good, there must be many girls like him in the future, can you handle it?" At that time, she said triumphantly, "Why can't I handle it? Can have me!"

But she never thought that in the five years since she left, many things were different from what she had expected.

Mu Liunian is no longer her only brother Liunian.And these years, she was not in his world, what did she miss?How many people stood beside him in turn?
At that time, he only gave her a chance, but now, he gives everyone the same chance, and she is no longer the only and special one in his heart.

Close your eyes, clutching the [-]-year-old lock on your heart at the beginning and the end, you just feel your heart hurts so badly.She always thought that life was unfair to her, but at least she never lost anything with Mu Liunian, but on that train home from City B, she finally knew what she had lost.

(End of this chapter)