Bamboo Horse Pianist

Chapter 5 Memories, Sometimes It's a Grieving Thing

Standing opposite you, I didn't intend to meet you, but I didn't want to pass you by.

But sometimes I may never see you again if you pass by once, so even if you pass by, I will turn around and chase you.

Part1
The train from city B to the county takes four to 10 minutes.Chumo got off the bus and got on the bus directly outside the train station. It was already ten o'clock in the evening, and there were not many people on the bus. She bought a ticket and found a seat to sit down.

Apart from her, the driver and the conductor on the bus, there were only two girls in school uniforms, and one of them was complaining about her boyfriend: "He is really annoying, he calls me every morning, and I'm sleepy." Dead, every time he hangs up a few times, but he still insists on beating every day."

Another girl asked, "Then you didn't ask him why?"

"No, you know I don't like him that much..."

"..."

Chu Mo looked at the stars in the dark night outside, and suddenly remembered a summer vacation in junior high school.

At that time, it was hard not to get up early to go to school at the beginning and end of the year, and she liked to stay in bed until late.But at six o'clock on time, she can always receive a call from Mu Liunian. Although she likes to sleep in, she will be very happy to receive his call.Later, she got up very early every day and waited for his call stupidly. After a long time, he stopped calling.Later, when she asked the reason, he said: "Before, I wanted to hear your voice, especially the feeling of laziness. Then you got up so early every day, so you stopped playing."

How annoyed she was at that time, she took his hand and said, "Then I'll sleep late in the future, and you can call me every day as before, okay..."

Memories, sometimes really are very tormenting things.

Only two bus stops away, Chu Mo got off the car quickly, crossed the main road, and walked through a small alley to his home.There was still a faint light in the room, and she knew that her mother must be staying up all night doing things again.She took out her key and opened the door.

With simple furniture and simple decorations, she saw her mother sitting under the desk lamp wearing glasses and sewing something, and when she heard the voice raised her head, she was a little surprised: "Mo, why are you back?"

"Mom." Chu Mo yelled, showing a smile: "Tomorrow is the weekend, the school is on holiday, and the proprietress of Houhai will go home in these two days, so I'm here." Over the years, she has become used to sarcasm. Some "white lies".

She walked to the table and poured herself a glass of water, but her eyes were on her mother, but she hadn't seen her for half a month, and her mother was thinner than the last time she saw her, with her chin sticking out and her back hunched a bit , Under the yellow-orange light, you can still see calluses on her palms.

"Mom, didn't I tell you that you don't need to work so hard? My scholarship is enough to pay tuition fees, and I also have some money from part-time jobs outside. In addition to living expenses, I can also save some money to send home." He took out a stack of money in his pocket: "Here is my salary for this month, you take it first, and go buy better clothes and supplements for yourself."

Mother Yang took the money in an envelope, then got up and staggered into the house.When she came out, she held a small box in her hand, smoothed out the money given by Chu and Mo one by one, and put it into it.Looking inside, there is already a lot of money in it.There was a look of surprise on Chumo Qingmei's small face: "Mom...you are..."

"Although I'm old, I'm not at the point where I need supplements, and I'm not like you young people, I still have to wear good clothes. I will save all this money for you, and I will make you a dowry in the future. Our family It's not as good as before, it doesn't matter if I live poorly by myself, but in the future I will marry you in a prosperous manner, which is also your father's wish."

Chumo watched her mother put the money in preciously, her nose was sore, she turned her head away, and turned back after a long time, and said, "Okay, Mom. I just went to college, and you are thinking about whether the dowry is too much?" A bit earlier? And if the person I'm going to marry in the future cares about this dowry, it's impossible for me to marry him, don't you think?"

"Hey, you are still young, I don't know, people in society are realistic now. Others are still picking on our family background!"

"Then I won't get married at the worst." Chu Mo said with a smile: "Mom, don't think so much." Then he took out a few hundred yuan from the box: "Since you have saved the rest, I can't say What. But you have to spend these well, no matter how you spend them, as long as you spend them all, you won't be ashamed of my hard-earned salary this month!"

Mother Yang glanced at her, and finally smiled: "Silly boy." After putting away all the money, she asked, "Have you eaten yet?"

Chumo was playing with the sweater Yang's mother knit for others, and when she heard her question, she held her stomach and said, "I'm really hungry...I want to eat clear soup noodles cooked by my mother."

Mother Yang touched her little head amusedly, "Then you wait here."

After speaking, he entered the kitchen.

Chumo looked at her back, the smile disappeared from the corner of her mouth, and she sat down on the chair, thinking that her mother would still sell things outside during the day, and take on private jobs at night, her heart ached.

The house is not big, and the living room is connected to the kitchen, so she can see her mother standing in the kitchen cooking noodles. The light is the kind of light bulb that only costs two yuan on the market a long time ago. The light is very weak and dizzy. It was yellow and yellow, and at the end of the month, I suddenly felt that the white hair on my mother's head was so dazzling.You must know that when she was a child, her mother was also a woman who was at the forefront of fashion and loved to dress herself up beautifully.

But now, for her, for her life, she has become a frugal old woman.

Part2
When Mother Yang brought a bowl of hot noodles to Chumo, she sighed a little: "I didn't know you would come today, if I had known, I would have prepared some pork."

Chumo smiled and said, "Clear soup vermicelli is clear soup plus vermicelli. If you add meat, you will be sorry for its name, right? What's more, the clear soup vermicelli made by my mother is much more delicious than those cooked in the store!"

Mother Yang was in a good mood after being coaxed by her, and patted her on the head: "You are the only one who talks too much! Eat quickly!"

In fact, Chumo doesn’t like eating noodles very much. When she was a child, the family conditions were good. Every night when she was hungry, she would mumble whether to eat this or not. Her father told her that eating noodles is good for her stomach. How could she be self-willed at that time? Nor listen.Thinking about it now, I feel ashamed, and I just feel that the bowl of noodles in front of me is even worse than the full banquet of Man and Han.

It really confirms that sentence, many people and things can only be cherished after they are lost.

Chumo took a bite and praised: "It's so delicious. If one day I lose sight, I can still eat the noodles made by my mother. Only my mother can make this kind of taste."

"What nonsense!" Mother Yang suddenly became angry, "What do you mean you won't see one day?"

Chu Mo was taken aback for a moment, only to realize that his unintentional joke made Yang's mother worried, and hurriedly said: "Mom, I was just joking... I said the wrong thing, so just pretend you didn't hear anything, okay?"

Mother Yang sighed, a little choked up: "Mo...Mom has lost your father, you must not have anything happen..."

"Mom..." Chu Mo didn't expect her joking words to touch her mother's sensitive heart, and she felt extremely guilty: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't make such a joke, don't worry, I'm in good health, It will be fine. But you, I only have you as a family member, I am not at home usually, you have to take good care of yourself. If you go out to sell things during the day, don't do them at night." She pointed to the sweater beside her.

Mother Yang took the half-knitted sweater, "Actually, knitting these things is very simple, but it's not good for eyes. In fact, they didn't stipulate a time to hand in, but I hope to make more and earn a few more dollars. Then you can rest easy."

But Chu Mo said: "Where is there a mother who can make her daughter feel at ease? Mom...Since you have said it all, and they didn't ask you to hand it in any time, it doesn't matter if you take it easy. Don't work so hard! I'm in school Classes over there are usually not busy, and you don’t need to be late to play the piano at night, and the proprietress is easy to talk to, so you don’t have to worry about me getting tired there.”

"It's good not to be tired. Hurry up and eat while it's hot, wash up early and go to bed after eating."

"Uh-huh."

Chu Mo took a big mouthful and sucked it into her mouth, her cheeks were stuffed to the brim, bulging like a big frog.She has always known that this family will only have a little popularity when she is there.

At this moment, there was a knock on the door. Their door didn't have a bell, so everyone was used to knocking on the door. "Who is it so late..." Mother Yang got up and was about to open the door, but Chu Mo took a step ahead : "Mom, sit down, I'll open the door."

After opening the door, the outside was empty, and there was no one in the dark corridor.Chu Mo was a little surprised and wanted to take a few steps outside to have a look, but he didn't want to kick something under his feet. He looked down and saw a blue and white striped box.

Something flashed through her mind, she eagerly opened the box, and even accidentally scratched her finger while pulling the zipper, but she couldn't care less, when she opened the box and saw the doll she was familiar with lying inside, she couldn't tell. How does it feel, happy or relieved?She didn't know, she only knew that she was so happy that she wanted to cry.

"Mo, who is it?" Mother Yang's voice came from inside, and Chu Mo hurriedly pulled up the box and dragged it inside.

When Mother Yang saw her big box, she was a little surprised: "This is...?"

"It was sent by Luo Xi. I forgot the box at school today." She lied again. In fact, she didn't know which kind-hearted person sent the box, but her mood finally changed from the afternoon The sadness pulled back a little bit, and at this time she looked like a simple girl, with happiness written all over her face, but when she saw her dragging her luggage and walking into the room, "Mom, let me pack my things first." , come out to eat noodles later."

Chumo's room was very small. After dragging the box in, it was next to the small bed, so I couldn't walk at all.She counted the dolls in the box one by one, and none was bad.She finally took out the big teddy bear and laid it out on the bed, and put the rest back in the box, zipped it tight, and stuffed it carefully under the bed.

After leaving the room, he quickly cleaned up the noodles and washed the dishes. Mother Yang had already boiled the water for her to take a bath.When she came out of the bathroom, Yang's mother was still knitting on the chair, Chu Mo stepped forward, snatched back what Yang's mother was holding, and pretended to be angry: "Mom! Didn't I tell you to stop knitting? "

Mother Yang smiled: "Isn't it waiting for you to wash?"

"Well...then I'll wash it now, don't knit." Chu Mo sat down beside Yang's mother: "Mom, shall I sleep with you tonight?"

"Didn't you like to sleep with me before? You said the bed was too small and it would be crowded." In addition to liking to sleep with Mu Liunian when I was a child, even my parents' huge bed was too crowded. Now it's in Mother Yang's room. The bed is really small, but Chu Mo suddenly wants to squeeze with her mother.

"Anyway, it's getting colder, it's warmer if you squeeze together..."

Chumo smiled and found a good excuse, and hugged Yang's mother's arm affectionately, only to feel that her mother seemed to have lost some weight.

Part3
At twelve o'clock in the morning, Chu Mo quietly opened her eyes, got out of bed lightly, came to her room, and took out a small box that was not very delicate from the bed cabinet.It was made by herself when she was 13 years old. When she opened it, it was full of gifts... Then, she put a new gift in it, and after a long time, she said softly. : "Brother Fleeting Years, happy birthday."

That's right, today is August 8th, Mu Liunian's birthday.

In her memory, there are only three days that she remembers most, one is the anniversary of her father's death, one is her mother's birthday, and the other is today.That's why she wanted to hide beside her mother, to find a safe haven where she could receive her blessings, even though the birthday person couldn't hear them every year.

After posting in a daze for a while, Chumo's eyes touched the box, and she saw a stack of her final exam papers for each semester hidden in it. The bright red word "excellent" on it proved that she was indeed realizing what she said step by step. if.

Thinking of the reason for "collecting test papers", the corners of her lips can't help curling up at the beginning and end of the year. Back then, she always failed a subject in her final report card. Mathematics was her flaw. Whenever she went home and was reprimanded by her father, she would cry. He ran to Mu's house and knocked on the door.

As soon as Liu Nian saw her weeping face holding the report card, he knew what had happened. He always touched her head gently, led her into the room, wiped away her tears, and asked her symbolically : "Mo Bao failed math again?"

These words touched the edge of her sadness, and the tears fell even more fiercely: "Wings didn't pass either, and Shuishui next door didn't pass either. Only ten people in the whole grade passed..."

"Yes, yes, there are more than 100 students in the whole grade, and only ten of them passed, so it's only natural that Mo Bao failed. It's all the teacher's fault. What's the problem? Mo Bao stopped crying, not because he likes the new gangster in the street shop Rabbit? Let me take you to buy it, okay?"

"it is good!"

So, at that time, she always felt that even if she failed the exam, it was not a shameful thing, because Mu Liunian would always buy good dolls to coax her.

But later, after Mu Liunian was gone, and her father was gone, when she failed the last exam, she realized that it was such a shame that she didn't have her closest relatives by her side to comfort her.Since then, she has worked hard to study, and gradually moved closer to being excellent from the edge of passing at the beginning.

Before Luo Xi went home to sleep, he liked to squeeze into the same bed with Chu Mo, and occasionally asked Luo Xi: "Chu Mo, you study so hard, do you have a big wish to come true?"

She shook her head, wish?She really didn't think about it, she just hoped that she could become better.

Later, she discovered that her wish was the person she often thought of when lying in bed before going to bed.

On weekends, it is rare to work and eat with Yang's mother at the beginning and end of the year, and spend a peaceful time that I haven't spent in a long time, so that I am a little reluctant to go back to school early on Monday morning.

After getting off the bus, I was walking back to the dormitory, but at around [-]:[-] in the morning, someone was already walking towards the study room with books.When Chu Mo returned to the dormitory, the room was quiet, Luo Xi was not there, and the other two were still sleeping.

She walked in lightly, and as soon as she closed the door, she saw Ai Shuangshuang, one of the twins with a sleepy face, coming out of the toilet at the corner, which shocked her a lot.Shuang Shuang didn't feel anything at all, and said in a daze, "It seems that someone was looking for you yesterday..." Then she climbed onto the bed, fell down, and snored.

Chu Mo laughed and took her words as "dream talk".

There was no class this morning, so she took a few textbooks in the dormitory and ran to the library.A new little chinchilla was hung on her bag. It was found in the box yesterday. Looking left and right, she didn't know where to put it, so she hung it on the bag with an idea.

Chu Mo took the door lightly and went out, just after closing the door, Shuangshuang muttered again in her dream: "It seems to be Mu Liunian from the medical department..."

Part4
This day is Tanabata, but it doesn't have any special meaning for the beginning and end of every Tanabata spent in the library.

Read books and memorize words as usual.

Luo Xi often said that her life was too monotonous, and she herself sometimes felt that, but no matter how rich life was without fleeting years by her side, it would still be fresh and monotonous to her.

"Student, do you mind if I sit here?"

A deep voice came from next to her ear, turning Chu Mo's thoughts back, she hastily moved her position, and asked the man to sit down.

When I lowered my head, I felt something was wrong, but when I looked up, I realized that the boy with eyes looked familiar.At this moment, there are already many eyes looking at this side, and some people are even whispering to each other, discussing excitedly.

Chumo had a flash of inspiration: "Are you Xiaoxi's brother, Luo Zijia?"

Hearing her words, a smile rose on Luo Zijia's handsome face, and he said gently, "I didn't expect you to remember me."

"How can I not remember, Xiaoxi often mentions you in my ear."

With a gentle smile on the corner of her mouth, Luo Zijia sat down on the chair beside her. Chu Mo saw that he was holding a medical book on cardiology in his hand, and remembered the last time I heard that he was going to do a medical research... Could it be Is it about the heart?
Seeing that her eyes were on the book, Luo Zijia explained: "The school library has always been full of books. I came to look for it with the mentality of trying, and I found this one. This book has a bit of history, and many bookstores are gone. "

Looking at the book at the end of the month, it is a bit old, probably borrowed for many years, only the book cover is well preserved, and some corners are missing inside.Chu Mo took it over and looked at it. It was densely packed with nouns related to the heart. She couldn't understand any of it. In case she was made fun of for being uneducated, she hurriedly returned it.

She didn't talk much, and she didn't know how to find topics, so she lowered her head and read the book in silence.

For some reason, the library, which was supposed to be quiet, was very noisy today.Chu Mo looked up, those voices came from all around, and it seemed that the people they were discussing were all from her side?

Chumo glanced at Luo Zijia cautiously. The sunlight outside the window passed through the big tree and passed through the glass, pouring a little bit on his shoulders, outlining every small detail on his face. He seemed to be another man favored by God, exquisite No blemishes could be found in his facial features.This can't help but remind Chumo of another man God favors. Compared with Mu Liunian, Luo Zijia's face is a little more gentle, but it doesn't make her feel more distressed than Mu Liunian's indifference.

Luo Zijia is wearing casual attire today, coupled with his usual calm and calm, it is indeed very seductive to analyze from an objective point of view.

That's why those people are so nervous and loudly discussing him, right?Chu Mo thought about it from the bottom of her heart, and felt the voice in her ears getting louder, as if they had seen some incredible surprise.Then he heard Luo Zijia's voice saying: "Liu Nian, you are here."

Chu Mo's heart tightened, her head went blank at that moment, and there seemed to be a shadow covering her eyes, so tall that she had nowhere to hide.

"This is Xiaoxi's friend. I met him last time when I was in Houhai." Luo Zijia's voice came from a distance, and Chu Mo raised his head abruptly, and smiled at Mu Liunian: "Hello, Senior Brother Mu!"

"Why are Chumo and Zijia together?" With a familiar female voice, Chumo only felt a flash in front of Chumo's eyes, and Ruan Duhuan stood in front of her, holding her affectionately like a younger sister: "Today is Qixi Festival, Could it be that there is something hidden?"

Chu Mo just wanted to explain something, but seeing Mu Liunian's expressionless face, the words were hidden in his mouth and he couldn't say anything.A mocking voice rose from the bottom of my heart, Yang Chumo, you are in a hurry to explain but others don't care, why are you in a hurry to explain something?What's more... She looked at Mu Liunian and Ruan Duhuan, and thought sourly, today is Qixi Festival, and they are still sticking together, so they should be the ones who have something to hide, right?

Pouring her lips, she didn't know whether she was angry with herself or what, she pulled Ruan Duhuan's hand away without a trace.Ruan Duhuan was taken aback, he didn't expect her to have such a reaction, and was a little embarrassed for a while.

Luo Zijia was talking to Mu Liunian, and didn't feel the situation here. After hearing Ruan Duhuan's words, he just smiled and said, "We also happened to meet in the library." Then he raised the book in his hand: "I've found the book, now To the lab?"

"Yeah." Fleeting Nian's expression was very calm from the beginning to the end, even when he saw Chu Mo appearing here, there was no surprise in his eyes, as if her appearance here was a matter of course.

Ruan Duhuan looked at Fleeting Years with a calm face in surprise, and after a while, he said to Luo Zijia, "Zijia, do you mind inviting a guest?"

Luo Zijia raised his eyebrows.

But Ruan Duhuan made an invitation to Chumo: "Chumo, are you interested in admiring how handsome guys look in white coats? Let me tell you secretly, they are much more handsome than usual."

In the past, Chumo might have refused, but when he saw Liu Nian's turbulent face, he raised his face and showed a provocative smile: "Okay."

Standing opposite you, I didn't intend to meet you, but I didn't want to pass you by.

But sometimes I may never see you again if you pass by once, so even if you pass by, I will turn around and chase you.

Fleeting years, I heard that there are no unchanging feelings in this world, some become more and more profound, and some disappear suddenly. Which kind do you belong to me?

(End of this chapter)