Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

35 Confession
Her beating heart slowly calmed down, and the midnight chill made her teeth chatter.The street lamp slanted at the end with false orange sunlight, driving Luo Zhi's shadow in front of him, dragging it very long, stretching across the narrow path, and gently covering Sheng Huainan's body.

They started looking at each other cluelessly again, just like that rainy day.

In memory, Ye Zhanyan's gaze at that moment was full of unwillingness and resentment, Luo Zhi didn't understand.

But at this moment, Sheng Huainan's eyes were full of tender pity and sorrow.

Luo Zhi suddenly wanted to rush over and cover his eyes—don't look at me so pitifully.

Since she was a child, she was afraid of being pitied, let alone him.

"Why?" she asked.

"I came out very late for dinner with a few seniors from the student union. I accidentally saw you. I was afraid that it would be unsafe for you to come back alone as a girl, so I followed you quietly."

I am not asking this.She shook her head, but she didn't want to ask any more questions. Seeing Sheng Huainan's appearance, even if she made the point clearly, the answer must be a knowing question, "Why?"

"Thank you so much." Luo Zhi felt cold and tired, her forehead was hot, and she didn't want to pester her anymore.

"Can I ask you a question?" Sheng Huainan's tone could not be refused.

"Go ahead."

"You like me, don't you?"

Luo Zhi raised her head and looked at the person opposite in disbelief.

"You'd better not lie."

"What do you mean?" she asked in a low voice.

"Nothing interesting. You've always got the truth, haven't you?"

Luo Zhi didn't know whether it was the cold wind or anger that made her tremble.

But she has no confidence.She did tell a lot of lies, but she didn't know how he would find out.

The fat meat placed on the rung of the stool, the three chopsticks, and all the careful planning.

"what do you want to say in the end?"

"Actually, we shouldn't be around the corner. If you don't like me, and you don't have any hope or interest in me, then you shouldn't be so wary of my attitude. Just speak the truth."

Luo Zhi straightened her back: "So you don't need to listen to me, you have already deduced it. Although the answer may not be what you want."

"you……"

"I," Luo Zhi took a deep breath, "I like you, indeed."

She finally confessed, the phrase "I like you" that has been in her mind for many years was pressed out by the person concerned with impatient cold eyes in the middle of the night in early winter in Beijing.

When these words were spoken, Sheng Huainan's eyes were full of disappointment and unbearable.

"You should have guessed it," Luo Zhi sneered, "If I didn't like you, I would have slapped you when you took my hand, why didn't I?"

After a long silence, Sheng Huainan asked with a complicated expression: "You... want to be my girlfriend?"

Luo Zhi didn't show the expression that Sheng Huainan imagined, not any kind of expression - no surprise, no anger, no puzzlement, no even joy.

She frowned slightly, her eyes filled with sadness.

What kind of shit question?He played her, he played her like this.

She tried to raise her face and smiled sweetly.

"Do you want to marry me?" she asked.

Sheng Huainan obviously didn't react: "Why should I..."

He blurted out, stopped in mid-air and collected himself: "Why do you ask this?"

"Want to, or not?"

"The future is too far away. It's impossible to tell." He didn't look at her.

"I asked you if you 'wanted' to marry me. I didn't ask if you would be able to marry me. The future is too far away, no one can say for sure, what matters is whether you have the heart. Your subtext is, since I like you, so try dating me first, and then consider whether to sign a contract as a regular?"

Her smiling attitude seemed to anger Sheng Huainan, he waved his hand coldly: "OK, I don't want to marry you, how about it?"

Luo Zhi was still laughing, it was the first time since Sheng Huainan knew her that she laughed so recklessly.

"Sheng Huainan, do you know that the great leader Chairman Mao once said that all love not for the purpose of marriage is hooliganism."

Stinking rogue.

After she finished speaking, she staggered and turned to leave.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Belle was startled and sat up.The soft light from the corridor hit Luo Zhi's face, her face was covered with tears, and she happened to meet Belle's eyes who were also full of tears.

Belle opened her mouth wide in surprise, Luo Zhi rarely came home late, let alone cry—but she didn't say anything, lay down, and continued to cry while trying to fall asleep, only to hear the rustling sound next to her, which gradually became blurred.

Luo Zhi fell seriously ill at the right time.

She recalled that there was always a lot of noise in the dead of night. Originally, she had a cold and a fever because of the cold that night, but at the same time she began to suffer from insomnia.

Luo Zhi cut her work and rest time into fragments. When she couldn't fall asleep in the middle of the night, she simply got up to study and read books and listen to CDs. During the day, she went to class as usual.

Belle tried to persuade her not to study so hard, but she could only smile and say, "I've slept through the day, have you ever seen anyone who can stay up at night? I really slept through."

"But you still go to class during the day, when will you go to bed?"

"Sleep when you have free time, sleep when you're sleepy, and don't sleep when you're not sleepy."

"Luo Zhi...are you unhappy?"

"Yes. I'm very unhappy."

She answered bluntly, but the indifference on her face made Belle dare not ask anything.

After a few days, he fell ill.Luo Zhi was lying on the bed in a dazed state, her whole body was sore and limp, her voice was so hoarse that she couldn't speak, she was lying on her left side and her right side was lying on her back and lying on her stomach, all of which had difficulty breathing.

She always dreamed about high school.When I wake up, the pillow cover is always wet with tears.

It turns out that people really cry in their dreams, crying until the pillow is dry.

Originally, she meant originally, that period of time should be refined into a beautiful story, submerged in the Huanggang test bank and piles of trivial fragments of school simulation papers, just waiting for her old age to calmly piece together the comb many years ago. A pale girl with a ponytail.Her forbearable secret love is half out of inferiority complex and half out of pride.Those silently following the boys, passing through the vast expanse of time-interlaced morning light in the corridor - she could have had such a beautifully edited and complete youth.

Although her story is not as beautiful and simple as it seems on the surface, at least she is worthy of herself.It's not happy, but it's absolutely pure one's love, at least you can take it out and hold it in your arms when you dream back at midnight, and use your strong imagination and memory to burn it into color and warm yourself.

But now, that persistent and harmless secret love seems to be continued by the insatiable director and producer, making her unable to bear to think about what happened in less than three months.There is no reason, no result, a relationship is trampled to tatters like this.

Just thinking about it makes my heart ache.

How nice, she finally confessed.

It wasn't the girl Luo Zhi who climbed up to the sixth floor and stood at the door of the third class, panting and flushed.

She just stood in the cold wind, faced the impatient eyes of the other party, admitted a little tragically and namelessly, yes, I really like you.

That's not a confession, it's a confession.

She woke up in the middle of the night and coughed until she was about to suffocate. She struggled to get up to drink water, but her wrist went limp and she fell to the ground, making a mess.

The so-called overwhelmed water is hard to recover.

(End of this chapter)