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Chapter 36 I'm Sorry

After skipping classes for three consecutive days, she finally woke up one day, and the snow outside the window was dazzling, as if it had been a lifetime ago.

The phone on the bed vibrated suddenly, it was my mother calling.

"Lolo, how have you been these two days? I saw on TV that it was snowing in Beijing. Is it cold?"

"not cold."

In fact, Luo Zhi didn't know if it was cold outside, because she never went out.Zhang Mingrui sent a text message asking her why she didn't go to the law class. She joked that she was dying of illness, but he actually said that he would come to see her in the dormitory, but she finally gave up after all kinds of excuses.At night, he called and said that he had gone to Jiahe Yipin to buy porridge and wanted to deliver it.Luo Zhi was taken aback, so she could only turn to Belle for help. As a result, Jiang Baili, who went downstairs to respond, laughed gossipingly and asked her to confess when she got the chance.

It's been like this for the past few days.

"What's wrong with your throat? It's so dumb, you have a cold?"

"A little bit. It's okay, not serious, no fever, just a cough. Don't worry, I've taken medicine."

"It's strange that you can take medicine well. No wonder, I dreamed last night that you dyed your hair and caused allergies, and your mouth was swollen like Zhou Xingchi in "Kung Fu", and you couldn't speak. The more I thought about it, the more I felt. Something is wrong, I called to ask you how you are, it really is sick."

"Mother and daughter are connected," Luo Zhi grinned, her voice was as ugly as a duck's quacking, "You always miss me too much, and then you have strange dreams. Don't be superstitious, you can't believe this thing. But I would rather The mouth is swollen, so I don't have to speak."

"what happened?"

"No. It's just a sore throat."

"Is it very tiring to teach those two children?"

"Not tired, just coaxing the children. It's very simple. The two children are quite sensible."

She asked Zhu Yan for leave, and the other party directly sent a driver to bring her donkey-hide gelatin and bird's nest in a thermos.

"How can you not be tired, you are just fooling me!"

Luo Zhi suddenly wanted to cough, so she quickly shut up and suppressed it, giving up arguing.

"One of our colleagues here is the Aunt Fu you met during the holidays. She is going to Beijing to send her son off - she asked someone to find a job for the child in a hotel. I just asked her to bring you some food, and A down vest, you can wear it in the dormitory. I wanted you to pick her up at the train station, send them to the subway, and just take the things back. You are so sick, I don’t think so.”

"It's okay, tell me the time of the train. Just send me a text message, lest I forget. Is it okay to go to work?"

Her mother used to stand at the counter all day long. Last year, she was diagnosed with mild varicose veins. After someone introduced her, she went to the cafeteria of the plastic mold factory to cook for the workers.Luo Zhi listened to her mother telling her about the personnel disputes in the cafeteria, right and wrong, and would also express a few opinions, sometimes persuading, sometimes teasing.

Speaking of the unit, my mother opened up the conversation box, and talked for a long time before hanging up.

Luo Zhi still remembers that when she was five years old, her mother carried her around to petition everywhere, and after being threatened, she was still so stubborn that it was reassuring. The director said, I carry it to work every day, and I can carry it all the time until you kill me.

Time flies.She grew up, and her mother was old, and she also started talking to her about miscellaneous trivial matters on the phone.She knows that her mother is too lonely. A woman in her 40s doesn't have a good friend who can be with her every day without taboo or against her will, and she doesn't have a husband.

No matter how many troubles Luo Zhi faces, after all, she still has a future to pin on. Most of her loneliness comes from narcissism and pride, and of course there is also hypocrisy.She can change her mentality to get rid of loneliness easily, and she can also look forward to a certain person in the future who can help her get rid of it—but her mother's loneliness is real, and it is when life is nearing the end and when it comes to a conclusion, when she returns home to face the simple and empty When the wall was closed, endless desolation lingered in my breath.

The weekly phone calls gradually changed from her reporting her daily life to her mother talking about her life like a primary school student, while she responded on the other side: um, um, yes, what's going on, why is this person like this, Don't get acquainted with him...

Luo Zhi squeezed the phone, her smile gradually changed from sweet to bitter.

She raised her head, holding back her tears.Recently, her tear index has been approaching that of Jiang Baili.

Suddenly the phone vibrated again.

"Lolo, after thinking about it, I still feel that something is wrong. That dream keeps lingering in front of my eyes. Are you okay? Don't keep things in your heart, just say it."

Luo Zhi's suffocated tears finally hit the skirt of her clothes.

"Mom, it's really all right."

Mom, it turns out that there really is such a thing as a mother-daughter bond in the world.

"How are you preparing for IELTS?

"no problem."

"Oh...it's really all right, then I'll hang up."

"Mom, you have something to do." Luo Zhi said easily, and laughed out loud.

"I dreamed about your father."

She heard the sound of the wind blowing outside the window. Although the few dry leaves on the branches trembled violently, they still didn't fall off—what's the use of lingering until now?

"Mom," Luo Zhi heard her voice trembling, "Did you ever regret marrying Dad?"

"No." The voice on the other side of the phone was much calmer after hearing this question.

"But……"

"In the first few years, the family of three was so happy. Although your father was gone later, we survived hard times until today... Of course, our life now is not comparable to others, but I will always remember the good days at the beginning. Clearly, no matter how much I hate those people, they are two different things. Besides, without these, there would be no you. Maybe, your father and I have spent our entire lives just to welcome you. "

Luo Zhi was holding the phone, her tears were like broken beads, she covered the receiver, not daring to make a sound.

"Lolo, to be honest, I feel distressed and proud that you can support yourself at such a young age. Your parents are not capable people, and their lives are bad, but God gave you to me, so I have no reason to complain But, there are some things I haven't told you all the time. I don't want you to burden my life, and you don't want to feel that you owe me anything. Your life is your life, and I know it's impossible for you not to miss me, but don't Too tired. Sometimes I blame myself. I patronize and educate you to be sensible and uplifting, but in the end I make you too sensible and cautious. Mom misses you not just because you are afraid of accidents, but also because you are not afraid of getting sick. I always wonder if Luo Luo is unhappy, stressed, or worried? But I know, you won't tell me a word."

She squeezed the phone tightly and buried her head deeply in the pillow.

Finally struggled to get up and sat on the chair, she put her hands on her greasy hair and stared blankly out of the window.It was already mid-December, and the land was completely white.In four days, she will go to Beijing Language and Culture University to take the IELTS test.Accidentally, a few tears were dripped on the real Cambridge paper in my hand, and after drying, it protruded wrinkledly.Luo Zhi stared at the tear stains, smiled inexplicably, then pouted again.

Her illness was just because she held her breath in her chest and couldn't get it out.

I am sorry.

She said to the mirror on the wall.The short three months passed in a flash in my mind.

I am sorry.

I used your treasured memories to pretend, to act, to reveal, to please.

When Belle entered the door, she happened to see Luo Zhi leaning over to answer the question with a blank expression.

"It's snowing outside," Belle said.

Luo Zhi didn't reply.

Belle was a little embarrassed, and said, "IELTS in a few days?"

Luo Zhi still didn't speak.

Belle looked at Luo Zhi carefully, and found a headphone cable hidden in her loose long hair.She walked over and grabbed it, and pulled it off: "Miss, go downstairs and have a look, it's snowing!"

Luo Zhi raised her head, a big smile appeared on her pale face.

Jiang Baili took half a step back in astonishment. Could this guy be crazy?

Under the nose, Luo Zhi's calculus paper spread on the table is densely packed in Chinese.

"Aren't you listening?"

"Listen to the song and practice calligraphy." Luo Zhi stretched her arms around Belle's waist, "Jiang Baili, I really like you."

Sure enough, crazy.Belle slapped Luo Zhi on the forehead.

(End of this chapter)