If you can love like this

Chapter 1

From this moment on, my life has been rewritten. The life of a person who has been destroyed is destined not to be a good start...

I've been thinking about how to start this story.

At that time, the night in Seattle was thick, and the harbor of lights was twinkling at the foot of the mountain. Looking out through the window, except for the dark sky, only dense forests could be seen, and an orange halo was faintly seen from the other side of the forest.I knew that it was because the dense sea of ​​lights on both sides of the lake area was too bright, so the stars in the sky were also dimmed.

That's where Sleepless in Seattle comes from.

I close my eyes, and many past events are in front of my eyes, which somehow become blurred.Many faces appeared in my mind, living, dead, loved, hated... Too many faces sank and then came up again, "they" watched me silently through the mottled light and shadow of time and space, His eyes are as sad as the night wind outside the window.

Many people always know that they should not know each other until they get to know each other. Many things always know that they are wrong after they have happened. Many times, they always know that they are wrong and continue to be wrong.

However, I still have no regrets.

Time goes back to July 7th five years ago. That day was actually a very ordinary day, but the more ordinary it is, the more likely it is that something extraordinary will happen, and there will be no sign for you.what was i doing that dayI was enjoying a delicious meal after shopping with two old classmates, Milan and Li Yingzhi, at a western restaurant in Star City.

The environment of that restaurant is very elegant, the air is filled with the smell of steak, coffee, red wine and various perfumes, it is cloudy, and it feels that the lights are a bit deceptive.A girl with a pretty face sat in front of a black piano and played it intently. The tune was very familiar. It was Carpenter's "Yesterday Again", and she played it well, with a touch of nostalgia.I had a good conversation that day, and I talked about all kinds of interesting things that I had against the professor in college, which made Milan and Sakura laugh out loud, but when this song sounded, I felt a certain nerve in my body twitch faintly Once, it was very slight, and the pain disappeared without feeling it.

If it wasn't for what happened later, I wouldn't have thought of this specious touch at all. If I had to say a premonition, this might be the only strange thing I felt that day, but I didn't realize it at the time, and I was stunned for a while. , talking and laughing again, completely unaware that disasters are quietly coming in another adjacent city——

Just seconds!My husband, Qi Shujie, drove a white Honda into the lake without hesitation, so determined, so sad, without any hesitation, as if it was an inevitable thing that no one could stop.This is really an exception. He usually likes to procrastinate when doing things, and sometimes he changes his mind when he encounters a situation.It seems that he has never been very determined to do something. He has been hesitant throughout his life. If you have to compare it, there are only two times that are relatively determined. The first time is when you married four years ago. For me, one time is to die resolutely today, four years later.

Regarding his death, there were many versions later. Some people said that he was hijacked for money and killed him. ...Anyway, there are all kinds of things to say, and new rumors come out every day. Qi Shujie has "died" countless times in the spittle of those people.I'm afraid this is what he didn't expect. He has always been a low-key person, and he doesn't like to be gossip, and he doesn't like to be at the forefront of the storm. As long as he has a choice, he will always choose to retreat behind the scenes.I really didn't expect that such a low-key person like him died so vigorously, even I, who was used to being in the limelight since childhood, couldn't compare to him.However, the real circumstances of his death were later provided by the police.

According to their investigation, the white Honda had been parked under the shade of the trees by the lake for a whole afternoon, without moving a muscle. Somehow in the evening, the street lights had been turned on, and when people went for a walk by the lake to cool off, the car suddenly roared like a raging lion. It soared up with full horsepower, and after drawing a graceful arc in the air, it plunged into the lake with a muffled sound.That picture must be very spectacular, just like many car advertisements, speeding fast, chasing the wind and the moon, and showing perfection like flowing clouds and flowing water. Every time I see such a car advertisement on TV, I will imagine the scene of Qi Shujie's death, So I don't know how many times Qi Shujie "died" in my imagination.

Pulling away, let's go back to the day when the incident happened.Immediately after the car rushed into the lake, there was a burst of screams. Onlookers rushed from all directions, and ambulances and police cars also arrived one after another.But they were helpless, because the car had sunk to the bottom of the lake, and the lake was quiet.The lake is still rippling with charming waves, the night breeze is blowing, and the stars are dotted, as if nothing has happened.

Then the police began to block the scene, a crane came in, and several divers dived into the lake to salvage.For a while, the shore was brightly lit and full of voices.At around four o'clock in the morning, the Honda that rushed into the lake finally surfaced.The crane carefully hoisted it to the shore, the door opened, and the people inside were lifted out. Qi Shujie and a woman hugged each other tightly with wetness.a woman!That's right, it's a woman!
The whole city was buzzing.

Everyone is talking.

A man and a woman drove into the beautiful South Lake, and when they were caught, they were still holding hands.A suicide note was left at the scene, which was sealed with plastic tape. Obviously, the deceased had carefully prepared it before his death.There was only one sentence in the suicide note: I'm sorry for everyone, but I have no choice, because we have nothing to love...

Fuck life without love!For a while my anger overwhelmed the grief of losing my husband!What is life without love?How could he be so loveless?He has a house, a car, a company, a friend’s house, a loving mother, and a beautiful wife beside him. He doesn’t have to worry about food, clothing, health, and a bright future. The only small worry is that the relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law is a little tense, but this makes him seek death. ?It is me who should seek death, it is me!Every time I was pointed at and scolded by his mother, I was so angry that I wanted to die, but I didn't die, did I last until now?

"Sooner or later, I will die for you!" I yell at him every time I get angry in front of the old woman.

But God, he died before I died, and he always lags behind in everything he does. Why did he take the lead this time?Which nerve was wrong, and finally he died for me?
I racked my brains and couldn't figure out how my "happy" marriage came to this point. Even if I'm sitting at the airport, it's been a few months, and I still can't figure out how Qi Shujie, who has always been obedient, dared to drive me like this Big joke.I always thought he was joking, knowing that he was deceiving himself and believing it.

It was only at this time that I "respected" the husband I had always looked down upon, and made me a widow at the age of 26. This bastard was much more ruthless than me, and I didn't even have a chance to question him!Do you think he is ruthless?
However, Qi Shujie obviously underestimated me. Even if he died for me, my life would still go on. I didn’t want to be a chaste woman for him because he couldn’t survive. He wasn’t worth it. I wouldn't do that either.You see, this world is so cruel, the earth will never stop turning because of who is missing, who can say otherwise?
In a blink of an eye, it is the end of the year, December 12st.

I remember it was raining and cold that day.This bad weather has been going on for several days. The weather forecast says that the cold air from Siberia is going south, and there will be sleet.Sure enough, when I went out to the airport, there were sporadic snowflakes in the sky, and the wind blew on my face like a knife, but this did not affect people's enthusiasm for travel. People coming and going at Xingcheng International Airport are rushing to New Year's Day Those who go out to visit relatives and friends and travel during the holidays are bustling like a vegetable market.Due to the bad weather, flights were delayed or canceled constantly, and angry passengers surrounded the ground staff making noise. I sat on a chair at the boarding gate with my ticket in hand, wondering if my flight would also be cancelled.

I admit that I have a little hope that my flight will not fly, so that a lost young woman will be saved from an unpredictable abyss.I lost my husband and eloped with other men within a few months. If this news gets out, I will probably be ruined again.But the matter has come to this point, I have no way out, I have already promised him, and I have arrived at the airport, it is not in my character to run away.

The snow outside was falling harder and harder, and the sky was terribly gloomy. I looked at the snow-covered world outside the floor-to-ceiling windows of the terminal hall anxiously, and my heart was even more lost.Why is it at the airport?It seems that many stories start and end at the airport, amidst the noise and indifference of coming and going, the tragedies and comedies of life are staged here one after another.I suddenly felt very dazed. I felt like those planes that take off and land at times. If no one controls them, they will never know where the next stop will be. I also wonder where my end is?Now I am free, no one controls me, everything depends on my own judgment, whether the next stop is heaven or hell...

Time passed by, the plane was about to take off, and Geng Mochi was still missing, whether I could wait for him, I actually had no idea.He won't slip up, will he?Still timid?If that's the case, the flight doesn't have to be cancelled, and I don't have to take the risk. Such a result is not bad.But I thought about it again, I was so expecting him to miss the appointment or the flight was cancelled, in fact, it was me who was really timid. I was not as brave as I thought, or shameless, and I didn’t care that I was already bad. What am I doing here? Am I crazy?

I was thinking wildly, but that guy showed up, I looked at him in surprise, this guy was leaning against the door of the terminal and smiling at me.He was wearing a navy blue long windbreaker, with a light gray loose sweater underneath and trousers of the same color underneath. He had a strong aura, but there was cold melancholy in his brows, and he looked a little careless, but even so, in At the airport where people come and go, this man stands out from the crowd, and the overused words like Yushu Linfeng couldn't be more appropriate for him.

"Your eyesight doesn't seem to be very good. I smiled at you for a long time and didn't respond at all." He walked over with a suitcase in a cool and calm manner, and complained from a distance.

"You just know, I'm highly myopic." I stood up and prepared to pick up my suitcase.Geng Mochi picked it up for me very gracefully, it was probably heavy, he pretended to be surprised and said: "What are you doing with so many things, are you planning to marry to Shanghai?"

"I'm prepared," I smiled and nodded, "I heard that Shanghai men are the most suitable husbands in China. I'll go over and see if there is any suitable one..."

"Definitely not."

“How come you see?”

"The best man in Shanghai is right in front of you." Geng Mochi said brazenly.

Half an hour later the plane soared into the sky.

"To tell the truth, I waited for you for a long time, thinking that you would not come."

"I'm not planning to come," I asked the stewardess for a cup of coffee, and glanced at him, "But I thought again, tomorrow is the New Year, and I have no reason to save this year's chastity until next year."

"Well, it makes sense." Geng Mochi agreed.

Just talking and laughing, the plane seemed to be violently bumped by the airflow.I instinctively grabbed Geng Mochi's hand, and the broadcast reminded the passengers not to panic, saying that the turbulence would pass soon, but the plane became more turbulent, and the atmosphere immediately became tense.I closed my eyes, thinking that it was over, it was over before it even started, retribution.But the man next to me held my hand majesticly, and put his arms around my shoulders, not forgetting to sigh gloatingly, "We are really destined, I didn't expect to die together."

At this time, he is still in the mood to joke!

I was dizzy from the turbulence of the plane, and my stomach was churning.I leaned weakly on his shoulder and prayed sadly that the plane would not fall. My past life was already a mess, and I didn’t want to die without leaving any bones.

But Geng Mochi didn't stop the fire, and continued to add oil and vinegar, "Oh, there is the Pacific Ocean below. I heard that there are many sharks in it. They can't find food in winter. They are probably hungry. They are just waiting for the plane to drop from the sky."

He was obviously talking nonsense, there were obviously rolling green hills under the plane, and he hadn’t left the country, so where did the Pacific Ocean come from?I was dizzy for a while and didn't come back to my senses, so I asked tremblingly, "Can you swim?"

"Sorry, no."

"What if the shark eats you?"

"I guess the shark will eat you first."

"why?"

"Because most of the sharks that come out to look for food in winter are males."

I was taken aback for a moment, then laughed, and grabbed his thigh so hard that he couldn't dodge with an "ouch" in pain.This is my habit, every time I get so excited that I lose track of myself, I will twist the other party's arms and legs. Qi Shujie suffered from it during his lifetime, especially when he was in love, his body was always bruised and purple, which made him big I dare not wear short sleeves in hot weather. He often said that I have violent tendencies.

(End of this chapter)