If you can love like this

Chapter 2

But after a few years of marriage, I seldom behaved like this towards Qi Shujie, maybe it was because he was too busy, the two of us got together less often, maybe I became numb to the unchanging married life, and I had long since lost my closeness to him impulse.I know I shouldn't think of him at this time, but isn't it because of him that I'm here today?

Who would have thought that he said so many words of loving me, and took the trouble to prove his love in various ways. The most extreme way was to lay the dead body with another woman in the morgue. The reason was to atone for the sin of the cheating body. His spirit and emotion will always be loyal to me. Even if he is in bed with that woman, or dies with that woman, he still thinks of me in his heart, and his love for me is "until death"...

Yesha!

That woman's name is Yesha!
When I was identifying Qi Shujie's body, I passed out on the spot, and in a daze, I heard someone next to me mention the woman's name.I had never heard of such a man before, thanks to my dear husband's success in concealing the evidence.The two years of his affair with that woman made me unable to find even a single hair. Is it because I am too stupid or he did it too cleanly? No one can tell now, because he has taken the woman with him. He sank to the bottom of the lake without explaining to anyone, and cut off the possibility of anyone questioning him.This couple of dogs and men did a great job!

I will never forget the appearance of that woman when I saw her in the mortuary: Although the face was swollen after being soaked in water, the contours were still there, and the facial features were well-developed, and the closed eyes and eyeliner were very long. The nose is high, the lips are pale, and the corners of the mouth are slightly upturned. It can be imagined that she should have been beautiful when she smiled.

Her hair is brown, messily hanging down her smooth cheeks to her chest, and a heart-shaped sapphire necklace hangs around her neck, which should be of great value. Under the reflection of the light, it emits a mysterious and noble light, just like this Even though the woman is dead, the nobility that comes out of her bones is still active under the blazing light.This woman is very noble.

I'm just going crazy.I have never been afraid of living people fighting against me, but I cannot face the silent fighting between two dead people. In fact, they must have fought against me for a long time, and now they mock my numbness and ignorance with death!
For many days after that, my mind was not very clear, either I was in a daze and didn't say a word, or I roared like thunder and scolded everyone when I saw it, but I just didn't cry, and I didn't shed a tear from the beginning to the end.

Nobody knows what's on my mind, maybe I don't either.

Now snuggled up beside Geng Mochi, I am still at a loss.I don't understand why I chose this man, is it because he is Yesha's husband?
No, it shouldn't be all. There seems to be some kind of wonderful fate between me and this man. On the day of the funeral, when I staggered out of the funeral home with Qi Shujie's urn in my arms, I happened to meet Geng Mochi walking in with his wife's portrait in his arms. door.The portrait was particularly dazzling in the sun, and it caught my gaze immediately. Isn't that Yesha?

I stared at Geng Mochi, for a while, I was speechless as if my soul had come out of my body, the man standing in front of me was so dazzling, dressed in a black suit, tall and straight, with a dignified appearance.But his face, I am amazed at his face!Indifferent and tough, arrogant and rude, he did not show the sadness that should be shown in common sense at all, which made people wonder whether he was related to the deceased.

I heard that he is a famous pianist, he often performs outside, and he can often be seen playing on TV.He and his wife Yesha co-wrote and performed a series of music that won international awards. The two played harmoniously, and their marriage was more touching than their music.It is indeed very "happy", the wife died, and the husband's face was as cold as ice.

But my gut told me there was a reason for his indifference.He may have hidden both his love and his hate out of his aversion to showing off his sadness and pretending to be painful. Others can't see it, but I can see it, because I do the same.I didn't bother to look sad on the surface. When I saw the corpses of my husband and that woman lying in front of me in the morgue, I lost the strength of grief as if someone had cut off my neck.Now everything is a foregone conclusion, my husband's ashes are in my arms, all love and sorrow have been wiped out, and my heart suddenly presents an unprecedented peace.

At that time, I was standing on the stone steps at the entrance of the funeral hall, and Geng Mochi was about to go up the steps. He obviously recognized Qi Shujie's portrait and cast a long glance at me.

In an instant, there seemed to be sparks flying...

He stared at me, and I stared at him, with inexplicable emotions stirring in each other's eyes.

At that moment, I can't remember what I was thinking.

And I really want to know what he was thinking at that moment.

In fact, it didn't matter what we were thinking, because we got together a few months later and flew to Shanghai together for the New Year's Day holiday.We were each widowed, talked and laughed, and had our own concerns, but it felt really good.Thinking about it makes me happy, Qi Shujie probably didn't think that his bones were still cold, his beloved wife cheated on the husband of the woman who made him cheat physically, and the clouds flew by the window one by one, maybe he is sitting on the clouds at this moment Watch it all.

What would he see? Seeing us flirting in full view, Geng Mochi and I whispering in whispers for a while, laughing wildly for a while, as if we had been dating for years.

In fact, for God's sake, we were strangers a few months ago.

"I think we seem a little shameless." I leaned on Geng Mochi's shoulder and said suddenly.

Geng Mochi smiled and replied, "It's shameless."

"Then why are we still together?"

"How can we look shameless if we are not together?"

"Hehe," I laughed so hard that I twisted Geng Mochi's thigh, "You shameless bastard!"

Grinning his teeth in pain, Geng Mochi threw his arms around my neck as if trying to strangle me, and whispered in my ear, "If I'm not shameless, how can I show off your shamelessness? We're all the same thing!"

At that moment, a strange light flashed across Geng Mochi's eyes, and there was ruthlessness in his gaze, but the ruthlessness was fleeting, replaced by a gentle gaze like rain with deep love, covering me like a net.

I reached out to caress his face, "I like your shamelessness!"

Geng Mochi: "Me too."

I laughed out loud, and he laughed too.The tenderness and tenderness at this moment is really dizzying, just looking at his smile, I somehow thought of the ugly words "smile on the skin but not on the flesh".

Trust him too.

The plane finally landed safely at Shanghai Hongqiao Airport.

After leaving the airport, Geng Mochi hailed a car.It was already nightfall, and the prosperity of Greater Shanghai could be seen from the car window.Geng Mochi first took me to a restaurant for dinner, then took a taxi and went straight to his residence.

"Do you have a house in Shanghai?" I asked in the car.

"My real home is actually in Shanghai, of course I have a house."

"Then why do you keep running to Star City?"

"Xingcheng has you." Geng Mochi coaxed me clearly.After a while he said again: "Yesa is from Hunan. She has never liked Shanghai. She spent most of her time in Star City. There is no other way. If you want to run away, it seems that Hunan and I are really destined..."

I smiled and didn't answer.

"But my life circle is all in Shanghai," Geng Mochi added. He looked out the car window, his face flickering under the reflection of the light, "I arranged my studio in Star City for Yesha's sake." , but I still feel like a passer-by. After running for so many years, I still don’t feel like home. It’s different in Shanghai, where the air is warm.”

"A strong dragon can't beat a local snake, it seems that I don't dare to offend you." I pretended to sigh.

"It's good that you understand, it's my territory now, how dare you offend me!" Geng Mochi smiled and hugged me tightly.

His residence was a bit far from the city center, but the environment was quite good. As soon as the car drove into the community, everything around him became quiet, surrounded by green trees, and brightly lit residential buildings were hidden among the green trees.The car finally stopped in front of a row of townhouses with red exterior walls, and I could see a large balcony and large floor-to-ceiling windows on the entire wall. Qian Sa, live in such a nice house."

Geng Mochi laughed out loud when he heard the words, and led me through the entrance garden, "So you don't have to worry that I'll sell you out because I don't have money." He said it in Xingcheng dialect, which was ugly.I laughed again.

When he arrived at the door, he took out the key to open the door, and made a "please" gesture very gentlemanly.I pretended to be generous and entered the door, but when I went in, the guy hugged me from behind, turned around, and kissed me hard against the cold wall, "I'll wait!" It's been a long time since this moment, I'm so glad that you can come to Shanghai with me...I think..." Before he finished speaking, he couldn't wait to undress me, whispering in a low voice, fascinated.

"I can't help it, my chastity is lost anyway." I bit his ear and laughed.

The two quickly lost control.

……

When everything calmed down, we hugged in the dark for a while and went into the bathroom to take a shower. When we came out of the bathroom, the two of them put on their pajamas and got into the warm bed. Geng Mochi leaned against the bedside and smoked.

"Why are you so preoccupied?" He looked thoughtfully at me, who was silent, "Actually, since you have already taken this step, there is no need for you to still carry the burden, why make it difficult for yourself, relax a little, and be good to yourself One point, love doesn’t need to care about what other people say.”

"you love Me?"

"What do you think?"

I laughed at myself, "It feels so luxurious."

"Together is together, don't talk about these hypocritical reasons, that's what I think." He said it very bluntly.My self-esteem couldn't take it anymore, and I said coldly: "Yes, how can people like us deserve to have love!"

"As long as you know."

I don't give any affection.

At that moment I felt like I was falling, falling, falling into a bottomless abyss.Just now I was lingering to death, but in an instant, I turned my face and refused to recognize anyone. This man is really cruel, but I don't want to show my cowardice at this time, let him think that I am in love with him, and want to extravagantly want him. What about love?

I took a deep breath, pretended to be calm and sneered, "Don't worry, I won't fall in love with you. It's not easy for me to fall in love with someone."

He squinted at me and nodded seriously, "This is the best."

I turned my face away from him.

The atmosphere became stagnant, and there was a suffocating silence.

"Are you angry with me?" Seeing my cold face, he began to ask for peace, reaching out and stroking the long hair on the back of my neck, "We can't predict the future, who knows what the future will be like, if this is the case, why not enjoy it Right now, let’s talk about the future, right?”

Obviously, he wanted to ease the atmosphere, and pulled back what he had said.

Of course, I also know that it is not wise to tear my face at this time, so I cooperated with him to step down and save myself some face by the way, "The future is unpredictable, maybe you will fall in love with me."

"Oh?" He raised his brows with such a frivolous expression, as if this was an impossible thing.

"If you fall in love with me, I will reject you mercilessly."

"why?"

"In my emotional world, I have always been in charge of everything. For example, my husband Qi Shujie, who has been married for four years, has never heard me say that I love him. That's why he died to show me that he hates me." I looked at Geng Mochi, and I was surprised why I said such words so calmly, "I admit that my life has been ruined, and since it has been ruined, it makes me feel that nothing matters, but it doesn't mean I will Accept love from unknown sources, although you may not know what love is."

Geng Mochi stared at me with probing eyes, "Thank you for reminding me."

"You're welcome."

"Bai Kao'er, I like your arrogance and shamelessness."

"Huh?" Before I could react, he threw me on the bed and kissed me, "You make me want to conquer, I really want to know how you make me fall in love with you!"

"You'll know when you fall in love with me, although I'm not rare at all!"

These words stung Lou Zi, Geng Mochi bit my neck viciously, like a vampire, I screamed out in pain, but he didn't intend to let go at all, his savage breath rushed into my ears, "Then try it!"

I still sighed in my heart, God, who can tell me why, why this man in front of me is so exciting, although I still can't get rid of the feeling of guilt, although the two are naked to each other at this moment, although I still can't see him clearly What is behind the flickering eyes, but there is no way, since it has been destroyed, it should be completely destroyed, it is best that there is no scum left!But tears still flowed down the corners of my eyes, and an inexplicable sadness overwhelmed me like the dark night outside the window.Because I know very well that from this moment on, my life has been rewritten. The life of a person who has been destroyed is destined not to be a good start. As for the result, it is even more boundless and dark...

(End of this chapter)