If you can love like this

Chapter 15

I noticed that this store is very large, with two floors, and the bottom is probably a showroom, where all kinds of expensive imported pianos and exquisite sofas are arranged in a patchwork order for guests to rest. There are fragrant lilies on the coffee table, and the fragrance of flowers is refreshing.

The sun shines in through the floor-to-ceiling windows, stretching my shadow very long, and the sound of the piano lingers in the quiet store like running water. I feel like I am wandering in a dream, and everything in front of me is so unreal.

After the song was played, the two clerks realized my existence, and immediately smiled professionally at me, "Welcome."

The girl playing the piano turned to me, so I saw a beautiful face, no makeup, transparent skin, pointed chin, like Zhou Xun in "Daming Palace Ci".But she is obviously more friendly than Zhou Xun. I noticed that her eyes were very clear, so I smiled at me and nodded as a greeting.

I was a little puzzled for a moment, she should not be a clerk, because she didn't wear a uniform like the two girls next to her, but if she was a customer, why did she play the piano in the store so comfortably and know the clerk so well?
"Miss, is there anything I can help you with?" A round-faced clerk walked up to me, probably treating me as a customer.

"Oh, I'll take a look." I kept staring at the girl playing the piano when I said this.She is not amazingly beautiful, but she has an aura that ordinary people don't have, especially her big eyes, which seem to overflow with water. I have never seen a girl with such clear eyes. "Excuse me, is the piece you played just now called 'Heartstrings'?" I asked abruptly.

The girl showed a surprised expression, her big eyes flickered, "How do you know this song?"

"I have heard."

"This...Is this impossible? Did you remember wrongly?" Although the girl was surprised, she kept smiling. Her smile was very peaceful, and her eyebrows and eyes were curved, which made people feel very comfortable.

I also smiled, "I remember correctly, I have heard it, and I have often listened to it for a while."

The girl looked me up and down, and was about to say something, when footsteps and voices came from the stairs not far away, "Jinyi, why don't you play the piano, I haven't heard you play the piano for a long time."

There was more than one person walking down the spiral staircase in the center of the store while talking. The one who spoke was a man in a plaid suit, wearing glasses, in his early 30s, gentle and refined, followed by a man of about the same age. , because of his condescending height, from my point of view, I think he is extraordinarily tall, wearing a light beige pullover sweater, white casual trousers, the overused word Yushu Linfeng is most appropriate for him.

The moment he saw me, he stopped in his tracks.

For a moment, I felt that he was smiling, but in fact he just twitched the corner of his mouth, and his eyes flicked across my face like clouds, looking me up and down.

I feel like I'm shaking and my eyes are spinning.

"Darwin, are you done chatting?" The girl named Jin Yi seemed to know them very well, and greeted them with a smile, "Mo Chi, why don't you go to my house for dinner tonight, and I'll make delicious lion heads for you. Julien said he hadn't seen you for a long time."

"That's good. I'm free today. I'm going back to Japan with Sam in two days. I don't know how long I'll be back next time." The man in a suit obviously regarded me as an ordinary customer and glanced at me. He didn't look at me anymore, but said to Jin Yi, "I haven't heard you play this piece for many years, why are you in such a good mood today?"

"Oh, this lady said she's heard this song before." Jin Yi remembered me at the side, pointed at me and said to the man in a suit, "I was just about to ask her where she heard it."

Only then did the man in the suit turn his attention back to me, "Miss, have you heard this 'Heartstrings'? Where did you hear it? This song has never been published..."

"Of course she has heard of it." Geng Mochi said as he came down the stairs and stared at me.This time I saw clearly that there was indeed a smile on the corner of his mouth, "Long time no see, Kao'er."

The man in the suit looked at me, then at him, and suddenly realized, "Oh, you guys know each other. Let me tell you, no one can play this song except you and Jinyi, and no one else should have heard it."

Jin Yi also laughed, "I find it strange, so you know each other."

I just felt in a trance, I was clearly in the bright store, but it seemed like I was standing under the dark night sky, and the boundless dark sea overflowed, making me breathless and cold all over.Countless times I have imagined the scene of meeting him again, in any occasion, bar, tea house, shopping mall, on the plane, on the street... No matter where I meet him, I always imagine that I must look glamorous and energetic, When I saw him, I must have held my head high, like a proud peacock waiting for him to be amazed and regretful because I lived so well, but in the end, I met him in such an embarrassing and embarrassing scene.It's really embarrassing, because my eyes are full of tears...

At this time, Geng Mochi had already stood beside me, staring straight at me, as if trying to penetrate my chest.He probably enjoyed watching me lose my composure, and the smile on his lips deepened, "Don't you recognize me?"

I wanted to run away, but I couldn't.Even though I have been cowardly all my life, I cannot be timid at this moment.Moreover, I must not shed tears in front of him, absolutely not...

"What a coincidence." I twitched the corners of my mouth, trying to squeeze out a smile, but ultimately failed.

"Yeah, what a coincidence." He nodded, his eyes condensed into sparks, chasing my face up and down, left and right, "When did you come to Shanghai?"

"Hey, Mochi, why don't you introduce me?" The man in the suit smiled and looked at us from the side.

"My girlfriend Bai Kaoer." Geng Mochi pointed at me generously, and then pointed at the man in the suit and Jinyi, "This is my manager Wei Minglun, and this is He Jinyi."

"Girlfriend?" Wei Minglun's eyes widened immediately, "Hey, Mochi, today is not the most surprising, but even more surprising. You are finally willing to admit that you have a girlfriend."

"We broke up." It's not that I haven't seen the world. At this time, my rationality has returned and my breathing is easier, but I'm afraid that the truth will be revealed in the next second, and I will soon be unable to hold on.I didn't look at him, but just smiled at Jinyi and Wei Minglun, "Sorry, I still have something to do, let's go first."

As he spoke, he walked out the door.

"I'll see you off." He followed me out.

The wind on the side of the street was a bit strong, I was wearing very thin clothes, and I shivered as soon as I came out, or maybe I was shaking all the time, so dizzy that I seemed to fall down at any time.

"When did you come to Shanghai?" He stood next to me on the side of the street, not shy at all that we were strangers, and shook my hand, "You are very cold."

I shook him off, "Don't move your hands."

He snorted and laughed out loud, "You are still the same, you haven't changed at all, when you see me, you put up thorns all over your body. It's not necessary, we are still friends, right?"

"I'm leaving." I held out my hand to hail a taxi.

But the taxis coming and going seemed to be negotiated, and they were all full.

"Where do you live, I'll take you off. My car is over there." He pointed to an intersection not far from the piano store.

I refused: "No, you are quite busy, I will stop the car myself."

But still no car stopped.

"You don't look very good, you seem to be sick. I'll see you off." He insisted.I turned around and ignored him, because I really didn't want to see his face.So he went around from the left to the right again, he wanted to face my face, lit a cigarette, and slowly puffed out the smoke. Feeling far away under the shroud of smoke.

"You don't seem to be doing well, so haggard, like a patient who has just been discharged from the hospital." He looked at me expressionlessly.

"Then you should be very happy."

"Yeah, it's not."

He took a long puff of the smoke ring, held the cigarette in one hand, rested his chin in the other, and his eyes were extraordinarily sharp and bright.I have to admit that he is a very aura man, the dreamlike light instantly enveloped me, leaving me nowhere to hide.

"How could this be? You should live well without me." He said lightly.

I avoided his gaze, and the uncontrollable sadness overflowed in my heart, "What are you laughing at, how I live has nothing to do with you."

"You are still so stubborn, you haven't changed at all." He shook his head, reached out to flick the ash, and the deeper smoke enveloped his face.I feel that he is thinner than two years ago, but his eyes are resolute, and his energy is enough to compare the half-dead woman in front of him to hell.

Undoubtedly, he is no longer the sullen and gloomy Geng Mochi two years ago. He has successfully got rid of the past, or the past has not affected him at all. He is alive and well, and he is living in the present.I don't understand how he has such a great ability to keep himself intact until now.As for me, I live like a ghost. I dare not face the established reality. I can only rely on the fragmented memory of the past to barely maintain my weak breathing. I still stay in the past.

He is a famous pianist now, he was two years ago, and he is even more famous now.I saw news about him in the newspaper a while ago. He was invited to Beijing to be a judge for a certain piano competition. The organizing committee is doing a lot of publicity in the media to invite such a big-name figure.He is really a successful man, he enjoys it all, so many people admire him, so many people surround him and cheer for him.But I have nothing and nothing, standing on this crowded street, I feel like a desperate beggar...

How can I bear to be compared with this man!It's incomparable, I can't bear it, if I knew this, I really shouldn't come to Shanghai, even if I was tied up with a rope, I wouldn't come!I'd rather dig a hole in the ground and find a dark corner to hide myself in so I won't see him.I have nothing left, and I must not lose the last sliver of my poor self-respect.

Thinking of this, my mind suddenly calmed down. A taxi stopped right in front of me. I opened the door and got in without hesitation. When I closed the door, he suddenly asked, "Do you still love me?"

I looked back at him and replied coldly: "I have long forgotten what love is."

The car quickly drove into the turbulent traffic, and I saw from the rear view mirror of the front seat that he was standing against the wind at the door of the piano store and watched me leave.On the streets where people come and go, the lonely figure seems to be the ending scene in the movie, getting smaller and blurred, and disappearing in the vast crowd.

At this point, I finally burst into tears.I didn't know why I was crying, what was there for me to cry, but the tears seemed to burst out of the embankment in an instant.The driver was an uncle in his 40s, obviously not surprised, he looked back at me, did not speak, but took a box of tissues from the front and handed it to me.At first I was able to control my sitting posture, but then I cried so hard that I curled up into a ball and bent over my knees.Two years, even when Qi Shujie died, even when I broke up with him, I have never cried so desperately...

(End of this chapter)