If you can love like this

Chapter 30

At noon, I received a call from Lao Cui, saying that the suspension has ended and I can go back to work at the radio station.On the phone, Lao Cui didn't say a word about the report, but just said "Pay attention to the impact".I asked Lao Cui, "Why didn't you fire me?"

Old Cui chuckled, "You've been expelled for this matter, and you don't know how many times you have been expelled."

This old Cui speaks really harshly, he is not inferior to Geng Mochi at all.

I called Geng Mochi, trying to tell him that I was going to work, but the phone didn't work.So he called his studio and was told that they held a grand celebration banquet today, Geng Mochi got drunk at the banquet, and is now resting at home.What?He drank again?I was in a hurry, the staff said that I just drank some red wine, Mr. Geng was mainly too tired, and now he is not seeing anyone.

But I was still worried, so I decided to go and see for myself.

When I arrived at the hotel, I had the key card of his room, so I swiped the card and pushed the door in. I found the room was very quiet, but my intuition told me that there were people inside.I walked to the bedroom, step by step, very lightly, so as not to wake him up.

When I pushed the door open, I still hesitated. I jokingly thought, there must not be a woman inside, but this thought just passed by, and the door opened as soon as the thought flashed through, and I was stupid, the whole stupid up...

Geng Mochi!The man I love so much, the gamble of my life, is hugging and lying with a short-haired woman. That woman is his assistant Xiao Lin. Shen... If it wasn't against the door frame, I think I would fall.I burst into tears, I couldn't cry out, I didn't know how I got out of the room, my whole body was numb, just like Qi Shujie's feeling when he died in the morgue, as if his neck was broken Lost strength to grieve.

I no longer remember how I got downstairs, and how I got back to the busy street. My eyes were full of strangers, and the warm winter sun was bright and warm, but I felt like I was in a dark night, with feet like Step on the cotton, wobble.It took me a lot of effort to figure out where I was. It was just beside the road at the gate of the community. I seemed to have to cross the road to get to the nearest subway station.I walked towards the road in a daze, and the screeching brakes sounded one after another. I was soon trapped in the middle of the road and couldn't move. It was a dead end to go forward or back. I couldn't live anymore. I felt like I really couldn't live.

"Kaoer! Bai Kaoer! Come back!" I heard someone calling my name on the noisy street.

I turned my head to look at the sound in a daze, and suddenly saw a vague figure on the side of the road, like Milan, waving at me.Later, I found out that Milan was going to interview Geng Mochi, and as soon as I walked to the gate of the community, I found me standing in the middle of the road in a daze, not knowing what I was doing, and in her words afterwards, "It was like sleepwalking, and I didn't respond to how I called it. "

I looked at Milan blankly, subconsciously wanting to go back, but just as I turned around, a white van braked straight in front of me with the screeching sound of brakes accompanied by Milan's scream.I estimated that the front of the car should be no more than ten centimeters away from me. I saw the driver through the windshield and was shocked, and I was also dumbfounded.Time seemed to freeze at that moment, my eyes went dark, and I fell to the ground suddenly.

I had no memory of the situation after that. When I felt it, there was only the sound of cold metal utensils in my ears, as if something had been stripped from my stomach, and the severe pain drawn from the depths of my body quickly woke me up.

I weakly opened my eyes, only to see the shadowless lamp in the operating room above my head, I was clearly lying on the operating table, surrounded by several doctors, I seemed to hear the leading doctor saying: "Okay, take it out, Now start cleaning the palace."

So I knew that the child was gone.

I don't know how long it took when I woke up again. I was lying on the hospital bed, not the operating table.The first face I saw was Geng Mochi, standing by the bed, his face was horribly pale, and his eyes were bloodshot.

"Why didn't you tell me, why?" He even asked why.

I was trembling, and pronounced each word clearly: "Geng Mochi, please disappear from my sight, immediately, immediately!"

Geng Mochi seemed to be crazy, and suddenly raised his voice, "Why didn't you tell me? Why did you decide to kill my child! Bai Kaoer, what did I do wrong, you want to treat me like this!"

What did he say, I killed the child on my own initiative?

Tears rolled down my face in an instant, I could no longer utter a complete sentence, and I was cursing myself why I didn't die on the operating table, everything would be over when I died, and I didn't have to face such an ending!I never wanted that child. Since I knew the existence of the child, I have never thought of giving it up. It is my flesh and blood, connected with my blood. Losing him (her) hurts me more than cutting out my heart. Why did he say that I took away the child, why!
I burst into tears and yelled at him hysterically.I was crazy, I thought I was crazy, rolling on the bed, straight to the floor.Milan and Yingzhi rushed in upon hearing the sound, and Geng Mochi was dragged out of the ward by Milan in the confusion.

"Kao'er! Kao'er, don't do this!" Yingzhi tried to control me, and two nurses also rushed in, and together they lifted me to the bed.Later, there were more and more people in the ward, my emotions were completely out of control, and my mind was also confused. With so many people surrounding me, I was convulsed from crying and my voice became hoarse.I couldn't see Geng Mochi, so I yelled his name and cursed him with the most vicious words, I want to fight him hard, he is the executioner who killed the child, I can't forgive him, I will never forgive him in this life!
I can’t remember what happened next. I only know that a doctor rushed in and gave me an injection. Everyone held me down. I was like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered. I quickly lost consciousness and fell into a long deep sleep.

It’s been so long for a century. I don’t think I should wake up at all. The doctor’s injection should have killed me. The news often reports that people died of medical accidents caused by infusion. I just hate why such things don’t happen. Happened to me.But I didn't cry anymore, there was no more tears, and I stared at the ceiling every day, as if I couldn't feel the existence of life anymore.The cursed love turned out to be so tragic, and my flying moths to the flames just proved that I would not have a good result with him.

There are many people who come to see me, including colleagues and friends, Yingzhi comes almost every day, but it is strange that I only met Milan once, but Qi Shuli comes every day, sometimes he will talk to me for a while, sometimes just silently He looked at me for a while, then turned and left.

He came again that day, seeing that I was awake, he did not leave immediately.

"I didn't tell your parents, for fear that the elders would worry." He looked at me and said.

No wonder I didn't meet my parents.I was relieved, they didn't know it was the best, which made me very grateful to Qi Shuli.I turned my eyes to look at him dully, and he looked at me too, his eyes full of pity.

"Kao'er, I know nothing I can say now will comfort you. I just want to say that although I said that, from the bottom of my heart, I don't want to see you hurt like this. No matter what you think of me, At least I treat you like a family member. I feel sorry for you and want to protect you. Unfortunately, I didn’t see that guy, otherwise I would really kill him! Kao’er, let it go, this is the way it is, you have to live Okay, think about your parents, they are so old, do you have the heart to let them worry about you?"

Saying this, Qi Shuli held my hand, because my hand was cold due to the long-term infusion, and the back of my hand and wrist were also swollen. The ruthless and ruthless look I usually see is like two different people.

I heard myself say in a hoarse voice, "I'm going home."

"Okay, I'll take you home." Qi Shuli's warm palm made my numb hands feel slowly, and he stretched out his hand to stroke my messy hair again, and said in a trembling voice, "Kao'er, please don't hurt yourself like this again , I said that that person will only bring you bad luck, leave him, you must leave him, take good care of yourself!"

Two days later, I was discharged from the hospital and immediately sent back to northern Hunan by Qi Shuli.From the beginning to the end, I didn't see Geng Mochi, nor did I see Milan. According to Yingzhi, she went to Shanghai on a business trip.I told Yingzhi that when I met Milan, I thanked her for me. She was the one who saved me that day.Sakura's expression at that time was very complicated. He looked at me and hesitated to speak, but he didn't say anything, and only asked me to take good care of my body.

When I got home, my emaciated appearance made my mother feel distressed. She is someone who has been there, and she probably understands everything in her heart, but she doesn't ask.On New Year’s Eve, the house was very lively, because the mobile phone was turned off all the time, I used the landline at home to send New Year’s greetings to my colleagues one by one, when Ah Qing received my call, he exclaimed repeatedly: "Oh my God, Kaoer, why did you call, Geng Mochi quickly sent us Taiwan's phone number has been turned into a hotline, he has been looking for you everywhere, what's wrong with you?"

After thinking about it for a long time, I still felt that I should give him an explanation, so I reinstalled the battery on my phone and sent him a text message: "You don't need to look for me, I don't want to see you again. Since I saw him in the hotel room that day You slept with Xiao Lin in your arms, and I knew I was wrong again. I was really a pig brain, and I was easily deceived by you. In fact, I wanted to tell you that day that I was pregnant with your child, and now the child is gone. You should Thank you. Goodbye."

After sending this text message, I removed the battery and threw the three-year-old phone card into the stove.Later, I re-applied for the card, re-registered, and then called and texted my friends one by one to inform them of my new number.I was very calm while doing all this, and I never thought about how that person would feel after receiving that text message, because what he thinks has nothing to do with me.

During this period, I had little contact with Li Yingzhi and Milan. Yingzhi was still fighting a protracted battle with Zhang Qianshan for the custody of his son. At the same time, he was also looking for a job.Coincidentally, Milan suddenly resigned from the magazine after returning from Shanghai, and is now looking for a job, saying that he wants to change his life.Before the Spring Festival, she called me and said that she had given up because she didn't want to hang herself from a tree.She didn't say what to give up, but I knew what she was going to give up, and I was glad she finally turned the corner and asked her, "So you have a new goal now?"

Milan laughed loudly on the phone, "Kaoer, you still understand me."

"who is it?"

"I can't talk about the goal, but I won't give up the whole forest for a single tree. You know, I have always had many choices, but you, how are you with Geng Mochi?"

"Sorry, don't mention this person to me in the future."

"Okay, don't mention it." Milan seemed to be in a good mood on the phone, as if we had returned to the good old days when we talked about everything, she kept a secret on the phone, "Kaoer, I think I know who my target is, thank you you."

"Thank me? Thank me for what?"

"I won't tell you, hahaha..."

"soy Mujer!"

(End of this chapter)