If you can love like this

Chapter 41

My face was full of tears, I breathed out, and I only hoped that he would strangle me to death, preferably strangled to death, so that I would not have to suffer such pain and torture again, I had enough, I really had enough.

"Say! Are you going to tell me or not!" He was actually more excited than me, and the hand holding my neck was trembling violently, "Do you believe it or not? I'll crush your neck! Say!"

At this time, I calmed down instead. Even though it was difficult to breathe, I was conscious.I should have been so awake a long time ago, I feel sorry for myself why I am not sober until now, and I am even more pitiful for the person in front of me who is still not sober.I couldn't help laughing, tears rolling down my face, "I...I don't love you anymore, it doesn't matter if the child is yours, you're not even sure about that...you really failed..."

"I failed?" The muscles on his face twitched.

"Yes, you are a failure. You are the most failed man I have ever seen. You are not even as good as Qi Shujie. He still has Ye Sha who is willing to die with him. What about you? Don't say that Milan will not die for you, it is you Dead, I can guarantee that she will jump at you without hesitation, not at your people, but at your property, hahaha..."

These words greatly stimulated him, he let go of his hand, and then grabbed my collar suddenly, throwing me far away.I coughed violently, leaning against the cold marble wall of the aisle, coughing, laughing, and pointing at him, "Look at you, why don't you fail, you always want someone to love you, but you don't know how to love at all , you will only trample on love, so you are doomed to die alone in this life... Geng Mochi, you'd better kill me today, let me walk out of this door alive, and I will never look at you again from now on! I'm fed up You! You thought that if you dumped me, no one would want me, right? Now as long as I make a phone call, Qi Shuli will marry me immediately. You were very stimulated just now, right? Look at how much he loves me Me, even the license plate is declaring that he loves me, but what about you? What have you done for me, what have you given me over the years except for hurting again and again..."

"You... you..."

Geng Mochi pointed at me, his face turned ashen in an instant, his jaw was shaking uncontrollably, I could almost hear the sound of his teeth chattering.He stared at me with a look that wanted to eat me alive.

But he stood still and didn't rush over again. He just clutched his chest tightly with his hands, as if something was poking his heart inside, with a painful expression on his face.It turns out that he also knows pain!
I cried and said, "You said you were still a human being, yet you doubted that child. In the past few years after Qi Shujie's death, I gave you my body and mind, and I had no contact with any other man, yet you doubted me! What's wrong with Qi Shuli, will you still be bullied like this? I didn't kill that child at all. I aborted it after seeing you sharing the bed with Xiao Lin and being stimulated that day. I was almost killed by a car , it was Milan who sent me to the hospital, and she also lied, saying that I killed the child myself! You actually believed her nonsense, but you didn't believe me! Geng Mochi, what am I in your eyes! "

"What did you say, you didn't kill the child?" Geng Mochi stared at me in disbelief, his expression becoming more painful.

I laughed, but tears fell down, "You know now? Do you regret it? I'm just waiting for this day, I want to see how regretful you are! You married a woman who became a liar, it was you Putting the ring on her finger yourself, you planted all the evil results yourself! I'm so glad you made such a wise choice, because you don't deserve my love at all! I tell you, tomorrow I will Just call Qi Shuli, I want to marry him, I want him to hold a bigger wedding for me, I want him to declare to the whole world that he loves me. He will fulfill the promise you can’t keep, the happiness you can’t give , he will give..."

I said this hysterically, and cried helplessly against the wall. If I had a knife now, I would definitely kill myself in front of him. I just fell in love with the wrong person and fell into this situation.The hateful thing is that even though I know I was wrong, I still love this hateful man, even if his betrayal makes me heartbroken, even if he destroys my trust and longing for the whole world, and makes me a helpless man. The poor guy, the poor guy who can be trampled by anyone, but I still love him, otherwise I wouldn't be so heartbroken like now.This is what makes me most desperate, more desperate than letting me die...

"I, I'm just... I..." Geng Mochi gasped for breath, his face was shockingly pale.He wanted to say something, but couldn't say it, and stood there staggering.

I stopped crying and looked at him in horror.

Geng Mochi pointed at me, "Bai...Kao'er, I'm still dead...by your hands..."

His appearance was so frightening, I suddenly remembered his heart attack, and was frightened, "You, what's wrong with you?" I stepped forward to help him, "Hey, Geng Mochi, Geng Mochi..."

He shook even more, like a poor drowning man on the verge of death, clutching his chest in despair, "Quick, call for an ambulance..." Before he could finish speaking, he fell headlong to the ground, curled up in pain lump.

"Ink Pond!"

In the evening, when Sakura heard the news and came to see me, she was shocked when she saw me.

"Kao'er, what's wrong with you?" She pulled me under the lamp, carefully examined the scars on my face, and exclaimed loudly, "God, who made you like this?"

Who else but Milan.

Not long after I sent Geng Mochi to the hospital, Milan rushed over and beat me up and down.The nurse on duty tried to dissuade me, but she dragged me to the smoking area by my hair, slapped me, and kicked me to the ground.I didn't fight back from the beginning to the end. If it wasn't for the two well-meaning men who were smoking next to me, I might have been kicked to death by Milan's stiletto heels.

In fact, at that time I had already given up the desire to live and only wished to die.During the long minutes waiting for the ambulance, I wanted to die. Geng Mochi was lying quietly in my arms. The face distorted by pain suddenly became so peaceful and serene. I cried and kissed His face, but I couldn't feel his heartbeat. At that moment, I didn't want to live.When I got to the hospital, when Milan kicked me, I curled up on the cold floor, and there was only one thought in my mind, die, let me die like this, if I die, there will be no more pain, and I will wait there He, I will never leave him again.

After Milan was pulled away by the onlookers, he walked away. It happened that among those people, some neighbors from the community recognized me and sent me back home.I don't know how Yingzhi knew about this, she hugged me and cried when she entered the door, "How did you make yourself like this, Kao'er, you will die if you go on like this!"

"I did it to myself, didn't I?" I said this vaguely, feeling that I couldn't open my mouth, because the corners of my mouth and even my whole face were swollen, and there was a bloody smell in my mouth.

"You said you, can't you live a good life, you have to screw yourself to death..." Yingzhi cried, while wringing out a hot towel for me to wipe and apply to my face, "Boss Qi told me before he left, If you want me to take good care of you, how do you ask me to explain to him that you are in such a state? Did Milan call? You should stay away from them. You should think about your parents, not for yourself. They are all so old, should they have white hair and black hair?"

Sakurazhi helped me into the bathroom to bathe me, she cried more and more when she saw the scars all over my body.Because she was afraid that the wound would become inflamed if it got wet, she could only wipe it slowly with a wet towel, and then found iodine to disinfect the wound.Later, my consciousness was not very clear. It seemed that Sakura had fed me some porridge, put me on the bed, and turned the light to very dim.I vaguely heard her crying and calling from the side: "Mr. Qi, come back quickly, something happened to Kao'er..."

I don't know how many days I lay at home, feeling groggy all the time. According to Yingzhi, I had a fever and was sent to the hospital for an IV.Yingzhi didn't go to work for a few days, and took care of me by his side, which should be instructed by Qi Shuli.Even though my wound had healed a lot when Qi Shuli saw me, and the swelling on my face had subsided, but he was still furious and scolded Yingzhi severely.I told Qi Shuli that it had nothing to do with Yingzhi, I asked for it, Qi Shuli was still angry.

"Kao'er, what are you going to do to let yourself go!" Qi Shuli was very excited. He was in my bedroom at the time. He stood by the bed and looked at me, not knowing what to do. He asked me heartbroken, "Can you Can’t leave Geng Mochi and keep yourself away from harm? Even if I’m not as good as him in everything, there’s one thing I’m better than him. I won’t let the woman I love get hurt. I will treat you as my treasure, love you, love you You, will not allow anyone to hurt a hair of your hair!"

Qi Shuli sat on the chair beside the bed, looked at me, and was in so much pain that he couldn't restrain himself, "Kao'er, do you know how much my heart aches for you, you would rather be bullied by that person than look at me more , I just make it difficult for you to accept it? Although there is nothing wrong with loving someone, but he is married, why do you still have to get entangled with him and force yourself to die..."

I looked at him weakly, exhausted, "Don't say anything, can you leave me alone? I need to think about it. I'm sorry to make you worry about me so much."

Qi Shuli's eyes were flushed, as if he had finally made up his mind, he held my hand and said, "Kaoer, listen to me, don't think about anything, go to America with me. Get out of here, and let these right and wrong Forget it all, start over and live a normal life. The sunshine in California is very suitable for you to take care of your body. Don’t worry, I will not force you. I am different from Geng Mochi. I think loving someone is not possession, but giving She is happy, I love you and I hope you will be happy, even if you never accept me, as long as you can live happily and let me see your smiling face by my side, I will be satisfied, do you understand?"

"Loving someone is not possessive?" I repeated his words, and burst into tears instantly.

"Yes, it's not possession, but giving, giving without reservation." Qi Shuli held my hand tightly, and said every word on my heart, "Please believe me once, go to America with me, I will definitely Let you get better slowly. If you don’t want to stay in California, I also have a villa in Seattle’s Lake District, where the environment is better, and you will live carefree. At that time, you will understand what I have given you Love is far more beautiful than what you imagine and what you have experienced, at least there is no pain, no harm..."

(End of this chapter)