If you can love like this

Chapter 52

In fact, love does not necessarily have results, it just proves that you have met someone in a certain time and space, and that is enough.

Regarding Geng Mochi, I really don't know what to say. In fact, ever since I fell in love with this person, I have foreseen the possibility of eternal doom. I am not irrational. The moths flew straight to him, wanting to love regardless of indiscriminate death.I should have thought of it, he came to Xingcheng suddenly, it would definitely not be to renew our old relationship with me, he hesitated to speak in front of me, he said sorry to the left, and could do nothing to the right, so obvious implying that I seemed to be blind He couldn't see anything, so he kicked him into the abyss again, and his body was smashed to pieces.

I never dreamed that he was planning to break up with me when he accompanied me to Xinjiang this time.He must have been brewing for a long time, so when he brought it up, he was as calm as talking about the weather with me.

That was on the third day when we returned to Star City, he told me face to face.

"Break up? You, you broke up with me again?" I was helping him clean up the house at the time, busy upstairs and downstairs, and he followed up and down like a shadow, and he had a showdown when he finally caught me stopping.

Fortunately, I was still smiling at the time, so I said to him, "Are you kidding me?"

"I'm sorry, I'm talking about a formal...breakup." He stood in front of me and looked at me seriously.I just felt weak, and asked, as if instinctively, "Why?"

"Because..." he sighed, his voice was suppressed and hoarse, "I'm going to register my marriage with Milan, and then go to Japan to settle down. I'm sorry, I came back this time to tell you about it, but I still don't know how to say it."

"..."

I listened, but I couldn't understand it. My mind was buzzing like thunder, and I felt like I had fallen into a deep ditch. I struggled and couldn't even breathe. I heard my own voice revealing a shrill despair: "Mochi, I don't understand what you're talking about, I really don't understand...what are you talking about..."

Geng Mochi looked at me, lowered his head in a disguised manner, and stared at his toes, as if talking to his toes: "I know, I can't get your forgiveness for anything I say, but I have no choice, I can only do this. Really , as long as there is a little way, I will not come to this step... Except for Jinyi, you are the one I am most sorry in my life." He trembled his lips, and his voice was low, but it was enough to tear me apart. His mouth opened and closed, and the words he read were like spells, "Kaoer, hate me, curse me, you can do whatever you want, I... I can't help it... I'm going back to Shanghai tomorrow, I'm sorry. "

I stared at him blankly, my dull brain thinking about how to react, scold him, beat him, or kill him?I really don't know how to deal with this ruthless and ruthless man. My heart was bouncing up and down just now, and it was torn together in an instant. I can almost feel the blood gushing out from the bottom of my heart. There was a burst of sweet and fishy smell.

Maybe in the next second, I will spit out a mouthful of blood, and I will die in front of him!I was panting, I couldn't breathe, his face kept shaking and overlapping in front of my eyes, and I couldn't see him clearly at all.

"What's wrong with you, Kao'er?" He might be frightened by my appearance, so he hurried over to help me.

I shook off his hand, moaned and gasped, "Don't touch me! Geng Mochi, do you believe that I will kill you? I will really kill you. Now, immediately, you will disappear from my sight. Don’t listen to a word of my explanation! You, you..." I staggered, the sky and the earth spun, I was shaking all over, there was no warmth in my body, and my teeth chattered from the cold, "Listen, I don't I will forgive you, and I will definitely die with you, whether it is going to heaven or hell... You go now, go right away, or I will die in front of you, I will not be able to control myself, you go!"

"Okay, I'll go, you can calm down. Don't do stupid things, I don't deserve you." He turned and walked towards the hall, panicked, as if I was a plague, and he was afraid that he would not be able to dodge in time.

I stood by the coffee table and couldn't move. I watched him leave. When he held the doorknob, I asked in a hoarse voice: "Why, you have to give me a reason, right?"

He stood at the door with his back to me, his body stiff, and he kept that posture for a long time without moving.

It was very quiet all around, so quiet that it seemed as if we could hear each other's breathing.

"Because of Yesha."

"Because of who?" When I heard this name, I felt like a lifetime away.

He turned around slowly, and finally agreed to meet my eyes, "I'm sorry, Kaoer, I can't help it... Listen to me, Milan has something in his hand that may be bad for Yesha. She threatened me that if I don't follow She registered her marriage, and she announced those things to the public. I talked with her for a long time, including giving her a blank check for the amount to fill in. I promised to sell the two properties in Shanghai, the private villa in France, and the yacht in New Zealand. I gave it to her, and even promised to transfer 40% of the shares under my name to her. I can give her anything, and I can give up anything, as long as she is willing to let Yesha go...but she just refuses to compromise and has already given it to me. Issued an ultimatum..."

"Wait, you said that Milan has something in his hand, which is not good for Yesha, so she threatened you?" I interrupted him, the sudden blow made me unable to react, my chest was so tight that I couldn't breathe, " What is it that makes you have nothing to do with her?"

"I'm sorry, I can't tell you too much. Anyway, what she has in her hand is enough to ruin Yesha's reputation. I don't care, but Yesha...she..."

"She's dead!" I reminded him.

"That's right, it's because she died that I had to do my best to protect her reputation. The dead also have dignity, not to mention that we were husband and wife after all. I owe her too much, and I can't make up for it in this life. , so no matter what, I must protect her, even if I risk everything I have, I will not hesitate!"

When he said this, there was a decisive coldness on his face. I looked at him, and my body shook even more. I wiped my face, and my hands were full of tears.I couldn't understand it at all, I really couldn't understand it, the whole person was like a fool, and asked him tremblingly: "You, you don't hesitate to take everything of yourself for a dead person, even abandoning the woman who loves you deeply, what are you doing?" What kind of logic is this, the living don’t save the dead? The dead have dignity, but I don’t?”

"Kao'er! Please understand my position!"

"What's your position? Yesha is dead. I'm still alive. You can see clearly that I'm still alive! You're not afraid that I will die if you save Yesha. Do you think I'm invulnerable? You look like this For me, how do you let me live?" As if I suddenly found an exit, I burst into tears, "Geng Mochi, you are noble and great, and you and Yesha are deeply in love, but how can you trample on my self-esteem like this! Milan made it clear that she was challenging me. She registered her marriage with you just to demonstrate to me, to show that she has won me. She has always wanted to win me. You jumped into such an obvious trap with your eyes open. Where! Even if you register with Jin Yi, I have nothing to say, but you are with Milan! You are with Milan!"

Geng Mochi stood at the door with his hands down, nodding his head, "Yes, I asked for it. In order to get revenge on you, I pulled Milan on to make that April Fool's joke with you. In fact, I regretted it at that time. Looking at Qi Shuli I regretted taking you out of the wedding scene, so I kept procrastinating and refusing to register as a legal couple with Milan. I even had a showdown with her. As long as this matter can be settled, I can give her a lot of money, Who knew that she was too greedy, and asked around for my will when I was seriously ill... She probably guessed that I didn't write her name on the will, so she pestered me endlessly, chasing me to Shanghai every day, I didn't know her Where did I get those manuscripts? If they fall into her hands, I can only be slaughtered by her. She will hold a press conference in Shanghai in three days. If I don’t go back to Shanghai to register with her before then, she will announce the manuscripts to the media. manuscript……"

"What manuscript?"

He hesitated and said nothing.

Every time this issue comes up, he keeps silent, which shows that he has a strong sense of protection for Yesha.

"LOVE series? Are those series really not written by Yesha?" I was actually skeptical when I saw that post on the Internet last time, but now I am even more convinced, "You were threatened by Milan for this matter. Want to register with her?"

He might be a little tired from standing, so he sat on a small sofa by the door.

His silence was an acquiescence.

I stood by the sofa, with my back to the French windows in the living room, the cold wind poured in, I just felt cold, it was as cold as hell everywhere, I breathed the cold air with difficulty, and looked straight at the hall The man at the place felt a surge of pain in his heart. It was so painful, so painful that I was in a trance, as if I was on the verge of death. At this moment, I only had despair.

"Geng Mochi, you are a very smart person, why are you so confused about this matter? There is no eternal secret in this world, and paper can't hold fire! Since those songs were not written by Yesha, you should openly announce them to the world. Well, isn’t concealment and deception more shameless than stealing the song itself? You can still be an umbrella for Yesha underground, if you are not here in the future, the truth will still surface sooner or later! Why can’t you figure it out?” At this point, I'm still dying, trying to convince him.

Unexpectedly, he didn't listen at all, and argued hard, "It's not that I can't figure it out, but I can only do this. I can't help but watch Yesha die and be insulted by the world. I am her husband." , I didn’t give her happiness during my lifetime, and after she died, was it wrong for me to leave her innocent? If the person involved is Qi Shujie, can you ignore it?”

"Don't mention this person to me!" I went crazy as soon as I heard the name, and shouted out of control, "I don't care about him, I don't care whether he is humiliated or not after he's dead, I'm crazy! Husband, cheating on his wife and letting her suffer such humiliation, I hate him too late, and I will sacrifice everything for him? Even if he is dug out and whipped to death, it is none of my business!"

"Bai Kao'er! Can you leave some virtue for the deceased?" Geng Mochi snapped.

These words hurt my heart more and more, I pointed at myself, tears rolled down, "Goodness? I was abandoned by my husband, and now I am abandoned by you, and you still talk about goodness with me? Geng Mochi, I am fine Self-restraint, I can’t keep smiling after being hurt by you again and again! Let me make it clear that Yesha’s reputation is your reputation. You are husband and wife and partners. One writes music and the other performs. Recognized as a model couple of Qin Se and Ming, the LOVE series is your joint work. If Ye Sha loses her reputation, you will not be able to escape, so you are willing to marry such a nasty woman as Milan in order to preserve your reputation for a while. You are so cowardly! You know I didn't know that you would make Milan even more powerful, she grabbed your handle, and you will be threatened by her for the rest of your life..."

Geng Mochi didn't take it seriously, "I won't live long, I'm going to die anyway, I'll give her whatever she wants, as long as she's willing to let Yesha go. I'm cowardly or guilty, I caused it I have to take responsibility for today's situation. Kao'er, you can look down on me, you can scold me, I won't say anything about you..."

"What about my death? If I die in front of you now, will you still marry Milan?"

"Kao'er! It's enough for Milan to threaten me, why are you doing the same?"

"I'm just like her. Don't forget that I have had a friendship with her for more than ten years. Do you understand that like attracts like?" When I said this, my mind was not very clear, and my heart seemed to be roasted on the fire. , my sanity has disappeared, I pointed to the artificial lake outside the living room terrace, "I can jump in right now and die for you to see, she can threaten you, I can do the same! I want to see whether you save the living or save the Dead man, if I die too, then your merits and virtues will be consummated!"

Geng Mochi didn't notice my shattered rationality at all, he just thought I was speaking angrily, and stood up impatiently, "Is there any point in saying these words? Kao'er, you are not an unreasonable person."

"I've never been reasonable. Don't try to reason with women. Women are inherently unreasonable! That's why a woman falls in love with a man indiscriminately. She is determined and becomes a brainless idiot! But you sanctimonious men, Dressed in the cloak of benevolence and morality, deceiving and hurting women into a moving Qiong Yao drama. Just say Yesha, you treated her badly when she was alive and let her go to a dead end, but you protect her when she is dead Come, this is very meaningful? If you knew this, why didn't you treat her better when she was alive? If you die, you can reflect on it, and I will die for you now!"

Geng Mochi completely lost the patience to persuade me, and went to the door again to pull the door.

He completely ignored my hysteria.

The moment he opened the door, I turned around and ran towards the terrace without even thinking about it. On the side of the water, the design of this house is very unique. Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room is a long log terrace that extends all the way to the lake. It is very pleasant to bask in the sun or fish on the terrace when the weather is good on weekdays. It is also very beautiful to see the rain and mist on the lake through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room on rainy days. I like this house very much. During the few days when Geng Mochi returned to Star City, I basically They all stayed here and asked for leave to accompany him. I only went to change clothes every day at Yalanju, my own residence opposite.

When Geng Mochi opened the door and went out, I had already jumped into the icy lake. At that moment, I didn’t think about anything, and my mind went blank. Although many people say that death requires courage, but in my opinion, living requires more courage. There is nothing more sad than Desperate!I don't know what else I can do other than jump into the lake. Could it be that I am alone guarding his empty house and waiting for him to come back. If he doesn't come back, I will cry until I die, and when he comes back, I will cry and beg him to kneel down for him?Don't most wives like to stage such a drama?

No, this is not my style.

To be honest, the feeling of drowning is not pleasant. Water poured in from all directions. The moment I fell into the water, I choked on water, and my ears, nose and eyes were all filled with water.I instinctively paddled my arms and legs in the water, but I couldn't swim, and my whole body sank like a weight. At that moment, I couldn't say that I didn't have fear. People have an instinctive fear of death, but even if it was fear, it was already gone. It was too late, because I felt more and more suffocated as I sank, my lungs seemed to be squeezed to the point of exploding, my chest was so tight that I couldn't breathe, and I soon lost consciousness.

In fact, it cannot be said that I have no consciousness. I can feel the darkness and tranquility around me, as well as the coldness.

There is the sound of gurgling water in my ears.

Slowly, the darkness became deeper and deeper, and people became more and more ethereal. The discomfort of drowning became less intense, as if I had stopped struggling and was floating in the water.After being in a trance for half my life, I sighed and started a new breath at the bottom of the water, bubbling bubbles like a fish, and opened my eyes at the same time...

It was like a vague dream in front of me, it must be a dream, a strange light suddenly appeared at the end of the darkness, I actually saw two people floating on the other side of the water, a man and a woman, both with snow-white faces, so white that there was no trace of blood , the man is undoubtedly Qi Shujie, his face is facing me, the woman has very long hair, covering most of her face like seaweed, she is wearing a long green dress floating in the water, her legs are slender, her arms are naturally Paddling, like a graceful water plant.

They looked at me from the depths of the water, whispering to each other from time to time, as if discussing something.

I tried my best to swim towards them, but Qi Shujie pulled Yesha to swim in the opposite direction. They were no longer human beings, but two underwater creatures, just like aquatic plants, fish and shrimps that are ubiquitous at the bottom of the water. I don't know if they have souls and perceptions, but I know that I can never enter their world, and even if I really die, I will never be able to get close to them.

(End of this chapter)