If you can love like this

Chapter 57

No matter what my future fate is, I must see him. After seeing him, I will live peacefully from now on, or die peacefully.

I was hospitalized again.Not long after Geng Mochi went to Japan, my choked lungs were reinfected by a cold. I had a persistent high fever, then a cough and respiratory failure. I was hospitalized for a month before I was released.At this time, the year is coming to an end, and my parents called from my hometown, asking me to go home to celebrate the New Year no matter what. My mother choked up on the phone and said, "Pingping, we can hardly remember what you look like." But I entered the house on the front foot, and Qi Shuli followed me on the back foot. He called me and said that he was also coming, and wished the second elder a new year.

When I answered the phone, I was shopping with my sister in a big newly opened mall. I thought he was joking, cursed "You are sick" and hung up the phone.Unexpectedly, when my sister and I stepped into the house with big bags and small bags, Qi Shuli was sitting in the living room talking happily with his parents. When he saw me coming in, this gentleman stood up politely and nodded to me. Son!"

In the next few days, he frequently came in and out of my house, giving gifts and making homely routines. He looked like the prospective son-in-law of the Bai family. In addition, he had a big scene, got in and out of luxury cars, and was accompanied by bodyguards everywhere. The most luxurious hotel in the small town can eat tens of thousands of eyes in one meal without blinking. Its style is absolutely at its peak in this closed small town. The neighbors in the neighborhood are all guessing that the boss of the Bai family has caught some big money, such a big posture!

"Don't you think you're going too far?" I couldn't bear it anymore, and stopped Qi Shuli when I walked out of the hotel after dinner, "Do you think I will accept you if you do this?"

"You are so lucky to have such parents and family!" Qi Shuli looked at the sky and answered irrelevantly.

"You just push your feet!"

"Do you know, I haven't felt at home for a long time," Qi Shuli still looked up at the sky, and answered irrelevant questions, "Being with your family, I am so touched that I want to cry. After drifting abroad for so many years, I thought I There will never be such a warm feeling again, Kao’er, don’t be ignorant of your blessings.”

I ignored him.

But I underestimated this guy's patience. No matter where I went in those days, he always followed me. Leaving early and returning late, he is busier than going to work. Qi Shuli is not only a super follower, but also has an important task to pay the bills.But he seldom participated in our chats, but sat patiently and listened silently.He didn't make a sound, but I knew he was very interested in my past, but my cronies and friends didn't shy away from suspicion, and revealed everything.I secretly read novels in class, blatantly read out the love letter I wrote to the teacher while reading composition in class, played tricks with my puppy boyfriend under the nose of the principal, and sneaked into the office before the final exam to steal papers and distribute them to the classmates... I It was so extraordinary that my plaything and despondency became a heroic deed under their embellishment. Qi Shuli admired this very much. On the way back that day, he smiled and said: "You are so naughty, I never thought you would have such a glorious life." history."

I squinted at him and said nothing.

"It's very similar to my sister Xiaojing," Qi Shuli said suddenly, "She's just like you, always causing the teacher to come to the house to complain."

I squinted at him again, he still can't forget his little Jing!
"What a coincidence, Geng Mochi also has such a younger sister, who was also adopted." I suddenly thought of Annie, and joked, "Maybe she is your missing Xiao Jing."

"Really? There is such a possibility." Qi Shuli drove the car with a careless expression on his face.After finishing, he said: "Don't go out to eat and drink tomorrow, I will take you to a place I haven't been to for a long time."

"Where?"

"You'll know then."

I have lived in this small city for more than [-] years, so I should be familiar with it, but I have never been to the place he took me to. In the urban-rural junction area, there is an endless vegetable garden, and the fresh smell of soil and vegetables blows my face. Come, a very rustic wilderness atmosphere.Qi Shuli led me straight forward with a calm expression.I don't understand how he brought me to such a country place, is he going to take me to visit someone?Sure enough, he stopped on a hillside full of wild chrysanthemums. I looked around and found a few bungalows with mud walls and red tiles in front of me. The sweet-scented osmanthus tree has a natural taste, and the corner without shade is covered with red peppers. A wrinkled old woman is using rice soup to swell the sheets in a large wooden basin.

"I was born here and grew up here." Qi Shuli said.

I stared at him in surprise, wondering why Qi Shujie hadn't brought me here before, I always thought that their family had always lived in the city.How many things did Qi Shujie keep from me?
"Why, didn't Ajie bring you here?" Qi Shuli noticed the change in my face.

"How could he bring me to this kind of place, here is his past, he would rather take his past into the grave than let me know."

"He... must have a hard time, don't blame him."

Qi Shuli never forgets to protect his brother.And the old woman heard our conversation, raised her head, recognized Qi Shuli at a glance, and quickly dropped the work in her hand and came straight over.

Coming out of the old house, Qi Shu continued to take me to relax with still more courtesy.We walked straight along the ridge of the field and climbed a mountain. After crossing the mountain and passing through a dense jungle, it suddenly became clear to me. What kind of place is this? There are wild grasses that can't be seen at a glance, and small flowers everywhere. mountain breeze.

"How is it, beautiful?"

"Where is this place? I have lived in this city for more than [-] years, and I don't know there is such a place?"

"This is a valley, haven't you noticed?" Qi Shuli walked into the knee-high grass. I know that kind of grass. The locals call it thatch firewood. When there is no coal fire or gas, people use it as fuel to cook water and cook. .That kind of grass blades can grow up to half a person's height, and the leaf saw is very sharp. If you are not careful, you will scratch your hand. It is winter now, and the thatch is all yellow.

"This is called Immortal Valley. I heard from the old people that an old fairy once lived here, and there is a fairy cave in front of it. It is said that the old fairy has cultivated in this valley for thousands of years, and every time he practices the exercises, there will be strong winds. Now this old It is not clear whether the god is still there, but it is strange that there is a strong wind blowing in this valley all year round. Even if the leaves on the other side of the mountain are not moving, the wind is still blowing here, and there are thin flower seeds in the wind. It’s hard to get it out if you blow it into your eyes, and you always have to rub it until your eyes are full of tears. It is said that this is because the old god misses his hometown..."

I was dumbfounded.

"I spent most of my childhood and youth in this valley," Qi Shuli said as he walked, feeling that he had fallen into a long memory. Playing in the valley, Xiaojing is the most mischievous, always hiding in the deep grass for us to find her... We never found her, every time she was bitten by the mosquitoes in the grass and stood up by herself..."

Wait, my heart started to stir, Xiaojing?valley?Seems like someone has brought up this topic with me! "It's so windy here..." I stopped and looked at Qi Shuli's back thoughtfully.

"It's very big." Qi Shuli didn't stop, and said to himself like a dream, "For so many years, the wind here has been blowing in my heart, and it never stops. The relationship between Ajie and Xiaojing The shadow is always looming in the wind... I remember that Xiao Jing was very beautiful at that time, and she always wore a hat every time she came to the valley. We told her many times that the wind in the valley could not wear a hat, but she refused to listen ..."

I widened my eyes, felt the blood rushing to my head, and my heartbeat suddenly accelerated, hat?wind?

"But Xiao Jing is very smart. She sewed a rubber band under the hat herself, so that it would not be easily blown away by the wind when she was wearing it. Don't mention how beautiful she is when she wears that hat, like an angel... But One day, the rubber band on her hat suddenly broke, and a gust of wind blew over, and the straw hat that Xiao Jing regarded as her life flew away. She cried desperately, and Ajie and I chased the hat over a mountain, but still couldn't catch up. Xiaojing was sad for half a year, and then we found out that the hat was left to her by her biological parents..."

I couldn't move anymore, the wind in the valley made me unable to open my eyes, I covered my chest, for fear that my beating heart would break through my chest, I forced myself to take a deep breath, try to keep calm as much as possible, and repeated in my heart over and over again, there would be no Such a coincidence, never, this kind of coincidence only exists in novels and movies!

"Since then, Xiaojing has become unhappy. Of course, this may also be due to her growing up. We never brought her to this valley again for fear of her being sad, but she secretly kept it from us. Come on, still hopelessly looking for the impossible hat, several times she has not returned home after dark, it was Ajie who carried her out of the valley, and every time she carried her back home, she Already asleep, hands and legs are covered with bloodstains from blades of grass, one by one, it's particularly shocking..."

"That straw hat has a wide brim," I said, following Anne's words, "with a pretty pink bow on it... the bow keeps fading, but the hat keeps getting darker and darker, beige at first, It gradually turns yellow beige, and when it is lost, it is almost light brown..."

Qi Shuli turned around like an electric shock, and stared at me, the muscles on his face twitched, "How do you know? Have you seen that hat? Or have you seen Xiao Jing?"

"Oh, that's right. I've read an article written by Shujie, which is similar to prose, so... I guess the hat he wrote in the article should be about this one." I made up nonsense, I was so nervous that my palms were sweating.

"Really?" Qi Shuli looked at me suspiciously.

"Of course it's true, don't you think I'm Xiaojing?" I glared at him.

"Yes, how could you be Xiaojing?" He finally gave up the idea of ​​continuing to ask, and turned his gaze to the woods far away in the valley, "Things that are lost can never be found, Xiaojing is like that hat. I can't find it anymore, and I even doubted whether she is still in this world..."

"Don't talk nonsense, of course in this world," I interrupted him resolutely, "she must be somewhere you can't see, living a life you can't imagine."

Qi Shuli nodded, "I hope she can live well, she is a poor child, God should not be too harsh on her." He looked up at the sky, his eyes were deep, I suddenly liked his expression, so sad, yet so sad With the radiance of humanity, he has feelings, and he is so obsessed with his loved ones, his coldness is not born with him.

When we left the valley and returned to the old house, the sun had already set, and the two old osmanthus trees in the courtyard were strangely peaceful and serene under the setting sun.I stared at the two sweet-scented osmanthus trees and felt overwhelmed. Anne also said that there were two sweet-scented osmanthus trees in front of the house she lived in when she was a child. The beautiful girl wandering around playing games, the girl named Annie who looks like an angel, she is Xiaojing!

When I got home, I felt very tired, and my stomach was extremely uncomfortable from eating, drinking and having fun in the past few days.I didn't want to stay at home anymore, so I told my parents that I wanted to go back to Star City.My parents wanted to stay with me for a few more days, so I used the excuse that the radio station was urging me to go back.Qi Shuli didn't say anything when he heard it from the side, but he came to my house early the next morning in a suit and leather shoes, and said to my parents solemnly: "Uncle and aunt, I have nothing else to do today, and I will leave tomorrow. I went back with Kaoer, and there is something I want to ask the elders for their opinion before leaving."

"What's the matter?" Dad asked with a smile.

"I want to marry Kao'er, I propose marriage to the second elder..."

I went back to Star City alone.Qi Shuli left before me and was scolded by me.He proposed marriage to my parents, I immediately turned my face, Qi Shuli lost all face, and slammed the door without looking back. When he was leaving, he gave me a hard look and didn't say a word, but that look Staring at me straight hair.Now that I think about it, I feel a little regretful about throwing his face. No matter what, he is a person of status. Even if he refuses to agree, he shouldn't be let down in front of his parents. I have a vague feeling that Qi Shuli will not let me off lightly this time.

I went back to Yalan Residence anxiously, the door of the adjacent building near the water was closed, and there was no movement, so I immediately felt relieved, wondering if he could still eat me up.In the evening, I received a call from Gao Peng, saying that his photography exhibition was about to open, and he invited me to be a guest, and I readily agreed.Two weeks later, the exhibition was held as scheduled. Unfortunately, I happened to have a program that day and couldn’t leave, so I couldn’t attend the opening ceremony. However, I had already bought a lot of tickets from Gao Peng and gave them to my colleagues. I hope they all go join in.

Gao Peng was also giving away tickets to the people around him, even Qi Shuli, I asked him why, Gao Peng said it was a neighbor, of course he had to give it away.He also said that he would not go on the opening day. I asked him what he would do if he did not go to the photo exhibition held by him. He said he had no courage, but he had already entrusted a few good buddies to help with the entertainment.He was like this, deeply rooted in inferiority complex, not as free and easy as he appeared on the outside, and he became more and more timid as he got to the back, and in the end even the arrangement of the exhibition hall was helped by those buddies.

On the day of the opening, everything was normal. I was busy in the stage until very late before I got off work. I contacted Gao Peng to ask him about the situation of the photography exhibition, but he couldn’t get through the phone. He must be afraid that the photography exhibition would not be successful. Smoked a cigarette in the corner.But the fact is that the photography exhibition was an unprecedented success and caused a sensation. The sensation was not the exhibition itself, but a piece of work on display. It was a portrait of a human body. He is a celebrity in this province and a well-known host of a certain radio station.

The next day, newspapers and the Internet were all over the place, all reporting the shocking nudity incident on the front page. I only found out when I went to work the next day, and all my colleagues looked at me with strange eyes. When I understood When I came here, it was too late. I called Gao Peng like crazy. Gao Peng was more crazy than me. He said that the layout of the exhibition hall was entrusted to his buddies. It came out and was kept alone, but when the work was transported to the exhibition hall, it was moved there by mistake...

I scolded my face and said, "You are insane. You actually exhibited such a private thing. Didn't you agree at the time that I would keep it for old age? Who told you to take it out?"

"I'm sorry..." Gao Peng couldn't say anything other than "I'm sorry".

In fact, that work is not considered nude at all from an artistic point of view. When I took this photo, I turned my back to the camera, only showing a side face, with my hands naturally on my chest, and it was a bust. The photo was developed. After I came out, I went to see it once. It was very beautiful, and I didn't think it was too erotic.But after all, I have a special status, at least I can be regarded as a half-public figure. As soon as the incident happened, I knew very clearly that my life would be rewritten from then on.Sure enough, I was suspended from the radio station that day and ordered to go home and write a self-criticism.The head of the station, Cui, was ashen-faced at the meeting. This time he didn't protect me, and he couldn't, because I "ruined" the reputation of the station.

(End of this chapter)