If you can love like this

Chapter 72

"Did I give her less money?" Geng Mochi became indignant as soon as he said this, "Since I got married, she has taken tens of millions of money from me, not including the house I gave her , cars, jewelry, etc., as my wife, I can give her more belongings, but this woman is too vicious to take my money..."

"How about it?"

"..." Geng Mochi looked at me, seemingly unable to speak.

But I suddenly remembered that when I went to see him in Japan two years ago, Qi Shuli told me that Milan and a Japanese assistant of Geng Mochi got together. She used her husband's money to support "Little Japan", that's why Geng Mochi said that she used the money in an improper way, thus cutting off her source of income.Even though Geng Mochi has no feelings for her, the two are husband and wife after all, and Geng Mochi is a person of status. Milan cuckolded him obviously to embarrass him, to discredit him, and to be ridiculed by others, what a vicious woman!
"Don't mention the unhappy things, I just want you to be well now." I held his hand, feeling very distressed, this man has already entered hell and suffered torture before he died.I really feel for him.

Geng Mochi held my hand in the palm of his hand, stroked it, and whispered: "Do you know what I regret the most in my life? Marrying her! This is the most unforgivable mistake in my life, and now I have received retribution ...This woman is more greedy than I imagined, she is waiting for me to die now, so that she can take my property..."

"Give her the things she wants." I advised him.

Geng Mochi didn't say a word, just looked at me silently for a while, his eyes were gentle and desolate, my heart was filled with soreness, and I was almost on the verge of tears.He sighed, sat me on his lap, and rubbed my hair.

Thin and dense kisses fell on my lips and neck, obviously restrained, but enough to make me forget myself lightly, I hugged his neck tightly, and slowly responded to him.

The fragrance of flowers in the room became stronger and more refreshing.

Maybe it was my intuition, I opened my eyes subconsciously, the curtains were open, and I saw a person standing on the balcony of the opposite bedroom at a glance, it was Qi Shuli, with a cigarette in his hand, watching this side condescendingly.The distance is a bit far, and he is upstairs, so I can't see his expression clearly, but I still feel the chill in his eyes, and I look at the living room here unobstructed.

He said that he acquiesced in allowing me to stay by Geng Mochi's side because of his tolerance, and now the lie was exposed immediately, this man may be tolerant, but emotionally it is impossible to be tolerant, he doesn't hate Geng Mochi, he hates me!

Although I tried my best to avoid it, I still couldn’t avoid going to the house next door. Geng Mochi wanted me to accompany him back to New Zealand to spend Christmas with his mother, but the passport was with Qi Shuli. When I moved out in a hurry, I left many things in his place. side.I can't ask him for it directly, lest he think we are going to fly away.I decided to go get it myself.

Checking the time, Geng Mochi was not at home, Qi Shuli had also gone to work, and I swayed to the next door.His new servant knew me, and I briefly explained the situation to her, and she let me upstairs.

I rummaged through the study first, but couldn’t find it. Then I found the bedroom, bedside table, dresser, and carefully rummaged through every drawer. When I was looking for it, I felt like a thief, even though I had lived in this room for two years.

At this time, Qi Shuli must not show up, otherwise he really thinks I'm here to steal something.However, there is such a coincidence in the world. When I didn't find my passport in the drawer of the dressing table and raised my head annoyed, I suddenly found a person walking in the mirror, wearing a neat suit, standing wobbly. behind me.

Why does this man always like to suddenly appear behind me, sooner or later I will be frightened by him and have a heart attack.

"What are you looking for?" He looked at me in the mirror, with a faint smile on his face.

I turned around in embarrassment, "Here, I, I'm looking for... a passport..."

"You're finally here. I thought you'd never come into this room again." His eyes were blurred and he smelled of alcohol, as if he had just returned from a social gathering.Men who drink alcohol are very dangerous, I have to withdraw quickly.But he grabbed my arm, dragged it into his arms, and hugged me without any explanation, "Don't go, Kao'er, don't go, I miss you..."

I pushed him away hard, "You, you drank too much!"

"I didn't drink much, this little wine is nothing!" He grabbed me tightly, stretched out his hand to touch my face, but his eyes were sad, "If you have him, leave me aside, regardless of my feelings, in front of my face Make out with him, do you know how uncomfortable I am, Kaoer, I am really uncomfortable, I can't sleep every night, thinking of him taking my place, I can't wait to set fire to these two houses... "

"You really drank too much!" I pulled his hand away, but he held my face and kissed me violently. I kicked and hit me, and finally I was pushed onto the bed by him. He closed the curtain and started Unbutton your suit.

"No, Frank, you can't mess around, we've already broken up..." I said as I shrank towards the head of the bed, but he took off his suit jacket and pressed him over. No matter how much I begged for mercy, he just wouldn't let go.Although I have lived with him for two years, my body and mind have never been united with him.After I returned to Geng Mochi's side, my body and mind no longer belonged to him, and now I can't accept being close to him even more, the pain in my body is very clear, and his passion is so passionate that he easily occupies all of me.

I was crying all the time. I didn't cry so hard when I coughed up blood in his arms, as if I was torn apart. The gratitude and shame I had for this man were all ruined at this moment.

When the tide goes out, the beach is always in a mess.I feel like I am a corpse lying on the beach, exposed to the sun, no one to bury it, just waiting for the seabirds to come and peck at it bit by bit.

He gently wiped my body and dressed me, then held me tightly in his arms and kissed my forehead, "I'm sorry, Kao'er, I'm going crazy for a while, no matter how much I persuade myself Yes, I was very scared after you told me those words that night. You said that even if Geng Mochi died, you would not come back to me. No, Kaoer, you can't stop my thoughts like this... "

I cried and broke free from him, jumped out of bed, and ran downstairs.

He didn't chase down, didn't even call me.

Fortunately, Geng Mochi went out, I had enough time to adjust my emotions, I locked myself in the room and cried for a long time.

In the evening, I received a text message from him, just three words: "I'm sorry."

I did not reply to him, but directly deleted his number and pulled it into the blacklist.It's time to get over it, and this fruitless entanglement will only make each other more embarrassing and embarrassing. I have to move out of this house after returning from New Zealand.

The next morning, Qi Shuli sent his assistant David to deliver the passport.

Geng Mochi went in without knowing it, and asked David to convey his thanks, but I sat on the sofa with a dark face and didn't say a word.In the afternoon, Geng Mochi suddenly asked me to go out with him for a walk.We took a quick look at the flowers and turned to Kerry Park (Kerry Park) in the north of the city.It is said to be a park, but in fact there is only a piece of green space and a few benches, but the view is extremely wide.

"I don't know why, but I like this city very much, even though I've only been here for a few months." Geng Mochi lit a cigarette, and lightly exhaled.

"I like it here too."

"I know." He stretched out his arms to embrace me, staring straight ahead at Mount Rainier, "I really want to sleep here...so I want to see this city again before I leave, I have already booked a flight Air ticket to New Zealand, leave in two days."

I said "hmm" and rested my head on his shoulder.

Geng Mochi obviously had something on his mind, so he said slowly and hesitantly: "Kao'er, I've already taken a look at the cemetery at the Lake View Cemetery. The scenery there is beautiful. Standing on the hillside, you can see the lake area. At night, the lights will be very bright."

I looked up at him, and my vision was suddenly covered by a mist of tears.

He even prepared the cemetery?
Geng Mochi also looked at me, very calm, "Listen to me, this day will come eventually, so I have to arrange my own funeral, you have to promise me to live a good life, don't miss me too much, if you have a bad life , I will not be peaceful if I sleep underground."

"Ink Pond!"

"You must be wondering why I chose the cemetery in Seattle, because you are here. Whenever night falls, my cemetery can see the lights of the Lake District, so I will feel that I am not too far away from you. I can see you, you are happy, or you are sad, I can see it, so Kaoer, you must make yourself happy, even if it is for me."

"Then you promise me one thing first, and then I can promise you."

"You said."

"No matter where your cemetery is, please leave me a place next to it. When I have to leave one day, I can go there to find you. We have no hope in this life. I don't know if there will be a next life. I just hope to have your company in that unknown world, even if I quarrel every day, I will be very satisfied."

Geng Mochi looked at me and didn't say anything for a while.

"You promise me, and I promise you."

"Okay, I promise you, I will reserve a place for you next to the cemetery. But you have to promise me that before you finally lie down in it, you must live well and not do stupid things. If you give up on yourself, be sad and decadent... "

"You won't let me go even if you're a ghost, right?"

"Correct!"

"You're such a scoundrel, but I love you, Mochi."

"You love you too, idiot!" Geng Mochi kissed my cheek and asked softly, "Christmas is coming, do you want a present?"

There was a burst of sweetness in my heart, but I said: "That depends on whether you are willing to give it or not. I don't want to make fun of myself."

"Yes, of course!" He was clearly prepared, and he took out a small purple-red velvet box from his trouser pocket and handed it to me, "Open it and have a look, do you like it?"

I hesitated to take the box and looked at it.

"Open it and have a look, don't worry, it's not a bomb."

The moment the box was opened, a dazzling light made me tremble. Although I vaguely guessed it, I was so amazed that I couldn't speak when I saw it.In fact, it is a diamond ring, a very retro style, quite satisfactory, but because the particles are huge, it is quite heavy in the palm of the hand. It is not that he has not given me gifts before, and they are all valuable things, but he has never given them. The ring, maybe he, like me, knows what the ring means in his heart.

It's not that he can't afford to send it, but he doesn't know in what capacity to send it.

And I don't know in what capacity to accept it.

I took the ring in my palm and rubbed it lightly, feeling sad, "Why did you give me this, it's very expensive, right?"

"Kauer, this is the most formal form I can think of. I once missed a chance to put a ring on your hands. After I missed it, I knew that such an opportunity would never come again. That April Fool's Day joke ruined it. I lost our happiness that was within our fingertips, and I put myself in a place of eternal doom. I have no way to give you another legitimate wedding. I can only give you this ring. In my heart, you are the most cherished wife in my life. .”

I shook my head, as if something was stuck in my heart, very sad, "Mochi, these are not important anymore, really not important."

"But it is important to me. It has almost become a knot in my heart. Kaoer. I have done many things that I am sorry for you. This is the thing I am most guilty of. If you don't wear this ring I can't let go!"

"The ink pool..."

"Come, let's swear now." He held my hand and stared at me affectionately, "Miss Bai Kaoer, now I ask you, are you willing to marry this Mr. Geng Mochi in front of you, and marry him before God?" As one body, love him, comfort him, respect him, protect him as you love yourself, whether he is sick or healthy, rich or poor, you will always be loyal to him until the end of this world, will you?"

I choked up and couldn't speak.

"Do you want to?"

"I, I will."

"I am willing too, very, very willing!" He solemnly put the ring on my ring finger, leaned over and kissed the back of my hand lightly.The throbbing at that moment was indescribable, and I was trembling almost uncontrollably. He raised his head, and there were tears in his eyes, but a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "Now, you are my wife, and the law does not recognize it. God admits that we are each other's irreplaceable spouses in your heart and mine, and that is enough."

"Mochi!" I threw myself into his arms, weeping uncontrollably, "You fool, without this ring you are irreplaceable in my heart, you know I don't care about these things..."

He hugged me tightly, stroked my disheveled hair, and sighed deeply, "Kauer, whether you care or not, this is the only thing I can give you. This is the diamond I sent someone to select from South Africa, please invite a famous teacher It was specially polished, take a look again, have you noticed that this diamond is glowing with blue light?"

I took the ring to the sun, and it was true, the strange light was shining blue, cold and mysterious, as if it came from a distant planet in the universe.

But no matter how rare things are, they are not as precious as this person in front of him.

All I want is to be with him.

"Do you know the name of this diamond?" he asked.

"It has a name? What's it called?"

"Tears of the Goddess."

"The tears of the goddess?" I was surprised.

"Yes, this kind of diamond is very rare. According to legend, there lived a beautiful goddess in a certain forest in South Africa. She fell in love with a brave hunter, but the hunter later betrayed her. The goddess was so sad that she cried all night. Cry, where she cries, there are always diamonds falling all over the ground. It turns out that this goddess has some kind of mysterious power. When she cries, her tears will turn into diamonds. But the hunter who betrayed her is secretly in the place where she cries. After picking up diamonds, the goddess realized that the hunter did it on purpose. In a rage, she stabbed the hunter to death, and then gouged out her own eyes, so that she would never cry again. Without tears, there would be no blue. diamonds, and no one will deceive her again..."

I was stunned, "What a poignant story!"

"Yes, I heard about this story many years ago, and I also knew that there was such a diamond. It took more than two years to find it in South Africa."

"More than two years?" I opened my mouth wide in surprise.

"That's right, I didn't go to Japan two years ago. I knew I was going to leave this world sooner or later, so I wanted to give you something as a souvenir, but unfortunately I couldn't find it at that time. I didn't get the exact news until the beginning of the year, so I spent a lot of money to buy it. Come down and ask a famous teacher to cut and polish it, and I have traveled thousands of miles from Japan to Seattle, and I want to give you this diamond."

I tremblingly said: "Geng Mochi, how can I forget you with your appearance!"

"So you don't have to worry about me being too far away from you. If you have me in your heart, I will always be by your side!" Geng Mochi clasped fingers with me and sighed softly, "This trip to New Zealand may be our last trip."

However, the trip to New Zealand did not take place in the end, because Milan came to Seattle.

My first fight with Milan was at a coffee shop in Seattle.Originally, I sincerely wanted to talk to her. Geng Mochi's condition is already like this. I hope she can let this man who has been suffering all his life go quietly in the end. Don't quarrel. I won't argue with her and send Geng Mochi away quietly. , she can do whatever she wants.Besides, is it interesting to blackmail a sick man with the past?But I underestimated the resentment in Milan's heart. Her unreasonableness is worse than that of two years ago. She is already crazy, even more crazy than me back then. Geng Mochi die well!
"I just don't let him die well, and forced me into what I am today. Why should I let him die well?!"

(End of this chapter)