If you can love like this

Chapter 83

"Please go back, I can tell you very clearly that I will never forgive you in this life, maybe you are unintentional, but at the critical moment, I can see that your humanity is so indifferent. What's the reason for appearing in front of me? Go back and marry your bride, it's a good match, a natural pair, I don't bother to care about it, you just marry her, you will know what life is worse than death!"

After speaking, I strode towards the elevator, not wanting to look back.

"Geng Mochi has returned to China." He said behind his back.

On the day Yingzhu's ashes were brought back to Korea by her parents, it was raining heavily. Gao Peng and I lay on the glass curtain wall and watched the plane take off into the sky, break through the rain and fog and disappear into the gray sky.

So farewell?

In such a hurry, I didn't even have a last word of advice, Yingzhu!
"The love of my life is over. You don't have to worry about me. I know what I'm going to do. In the past, you asked me to bravely find my own love and hope. In Tibet, Dolma gave me The hope of rebirth. Later I met Yingzhu, she gave me love. Now that I lost them, I also lost love and hope. So I have to look for it again, even if it is hard, I have to look for it, otherwise I won't live a day."

Gao Peng returned to the apartment and started to pack his luggage. He asked me to help him deal with the aftermath of the company. He said that he was tired of this world of disputes, just as the world was tired of him.

"Where are you going?" I stood by and looked at him helplessly, without any idea.

He replied: "Tibet."

As he spoke, he opened his collar and took out a pendant to show me, "There are Yingzhu's ashes inside. I promised her that I would take her to Tibet. I can't break my word."

"Then where can I find you in the future?"

He said: "Don't look for it. No matter where I am in the world, I will remember you. It's better to miss you when we meet. Kaoer, if missing you is painful, you can forget me. Forget Yingzhu and me." , that would be better for you..."

I shook my head again and again, "You know it's impossible, it's all my fault."

"Kao'er." His voice seemed to come from the chest, buzzing, "I am most afraid of you like this, and self-blame will make you unhappy for the rest of your life. I want you to be happy, and Yingzhu also wants to, so for us , you must live happily, strong, and healthy. You must also find your love and hope, and you will find it, and we will all find it!"

After leaving Gao Peng’s apartment, I didn’t go home, but sat on a bench by the roadside in the community and looked up at the deep night sky alone, letting tears flow down my cheeks like a river.I took out the "Goddess' Tears" from my pocket, it shone brightly under the street lamp, it was so dazzling that it was not like a mortal thing, but it was this diamond that made Yingzhu pay the price of her life.This is an ominous object, even if it was sent by Geng Mochi, I can't keep it by my side, I'm afraid to see it, and my heart will ache when I see it.

I raised my hand and threw the diamond ring towards the side of the street. Like a shooting star across the night sky, the diamond ring fell silently into the flower garden by the side of the street. I turned my face away and tried my best not to look over there.

"How can you just throw away such a valuable thing?"

It is him again!
Why is there always him when I'm down?
I didn't respond, nor looked back, when he was air.He sat beside me generously, with his palms spread out, it was the diamond ring.Out of the corner of my eye, I saw his car parked on the side of the road.He looked at the diamond ring and seemed to be talking to himself: "If you let him know that you throw away the things he gave, he will make trouble for you."

As he spoke, he took my hand and put the diamond ring back into my palm.

"Some things can't be lost. Once lost, they can never be found again."

"You go."

He didn't answer, and said to himself: "I canceled my wedding with Annie."

"That's your business, it has nothing to do with me!"

"Don't associate with that Chen Jinsen, he is not a good guy."

"You are not a good thing, and you are not qualified to talk about others."

"If you don't listen to me, sooner or later you will regret it."

"you go!"

He turned his face to look at me, "I really didn't mean it, and you didn't make it clear on the phone."

"You go! Go now!"

He got up, looked at me condescendingly for a while, shook his head, and walked towards the Mercedes-Benz on the side of the street. The driver quickly got out of the car and opened the door for him, and he got into the car domineeringly.

I saw him again two days later, at a company auction.

He and Chen Jinsen confronted each other for the first time, competing for the acquisition right of Gao Peng Company.

The atmosphere at the scene was once tense.

Finally he gave up, surrendering the easy prey to his opponent.Although Chen Jinsen won, his face turned green, because the price was far beyond his budget, and a company heavily indebted was not worth the price at all.Qi Shuli made it clear that he was trying to argue with him.When I left the venue, I clearly saw him smiling cunningly at Chen Jinsen.

What happened next surprised me and the employees of the company.

Chen Jinsen turned his back on him. He seized a loophole in the contract and sent a lawyer to negotiate with us. He could take over the company, but he refused to accept the debt. In other words, we had to repay the huge debt owed by the company ourselves.When we protested, the lawyer sent by Chen Jinsen put a smile on his face and said arrogantly: "Sorry, if you think this is unfair, you can solve it through legal channels."

He knew that at this time, we would not be able to afford the money to file a lawsuit.

I don't believe that this is Chen Jinsen's original intention. He is such a humble person, it is impossible for him to keep his promises. He must have his own difficulties. I decided to ask him for a face-to-face interview.

But before I asked him out, he took the initiative to ask me out.We met at the revolving restaurant of a top building in Futian. As soon as we entered, we knew that this place was beyond the reach of ordinary people. It was full of luxury and a good atmosphere.It was in the evening, and the entire Huaqiang North was almost in sight outside the window, with tall buildings lined with red dust, and in the distance, it was dark and the world was vast.Even if it is Qionglou Yuyu, it can only be extraordinarily lonely overlooking all living beings.

He smiled and poured red wine for me. The dishes were ordered by him himself. They were exquisite and attractive.He didn't seem to know the purpose of my coming to see him at all (he is so smart, how could he not know?), he seemed to be chatting with me casually, and he said that he was almost running out of food. Didn't lean on the subject either.

I was preoccupied, and the more anxious I was, the deeper the smile on his face became.

At this moment, I vaguely felt that this man, like the scheming Qi Shuli, was not a kind person. He deliberately teased me. I have learned such tricks from Qi Shuli many times. Why should I be afraid of it?
Sure enough, after dinner, while drinking tea in the private room, he began to show his cards.He took out a black velvet box calmly, without looking at the contents, he knew that it was extremely luxurious. When he opened it, it was a brilliant diamond, like the brightest star in the sky, shining under the light With the most beautiful light in the world.

I heard him say in English: "Would you marry me, please? (Marry me, okay?)"

When autumn comes to Xingcheng, it is rainy and rainy. I stayed in Xingcheng for four or five days, and the rain never stopped.This reminds me of the rainy season in Seattle, which is so endless. Now that I think about it, it seems like a previous life.

A few days after the water side posted a "for sale" notice, the deal was finally made.It is impossible not to sell it, otherwise the huge debt of the company cannot be repaid.I'm really sorry Gao Peng.Even though he had already obtained his consent, he still felt very uncomfortable. He felt that he was really useless. He couldn't handle such a small matter well. Wouldn't everything be settled by marrying Chen Jinsen?But I can't!

This man is really a powerful character. After rejecting his marriage proposal, on the surface he did not turn against me, and he was still as handsome as ever, but when he turned around, he asked the lawyer to inform us that if we did not repay the debt, they would abandon the company. Operate and let it run its course.None of the company's employees are willing to leave. They all followed Gao Peng in the world and have a deep affection for the company. Especially Yingzhu's death made them even more reluctant to leave.After collective discussion, we still have to compromise and repay the debt, otherwise the company will definitely cease to exist. It is all the painstaking efforts of everyone for several years of entrepreneurship.

I went back to Star City with a department manager of the company. He dealt with the sale on the water side, and I dealt with Gao Peng’s vehicles and other properties. After the house was sold at the reserve price, I didn’t know who the buyer was, and I didn’t want to know. , silently packed Gao Peng's collection, packed it, and was busy for two full days.

In the evening, I fell asleep exhaustedly on the sofa in the living room. I had a dream. I dreamed that Yingzhu was running fast on the snow-capped field. I woke up for a long time, and her hearty laughter still echoed in my ears.I suddenly remembered that today is Yingzhu's "[-]" death day, so I hurried outside and bought bundles of ghost papers.At night, I took the ghost paper and burned it on the terrace. No matter how the security guard knocked on the door to warn me, I just ignored it. If I wanted to save Yingzhu's soul, no one could stop me.

It was already very late at night, and I was still sitting on a small bench on the terrace, putting ghost papers one by one into the brazier, and the dancing flames shone on my face, warming my heart, just like Yingzhu once comforted.Although I have no more tears to shed, I still want to cry. A fresh life was wiped out like this. I have never missed Yingzhu so much, even her fist.

Suddenly, there was a sound of opening the door in the hallway of the living room. Before I could understand what was going on, the door was opened.Someone came in, it must be the security guard, I didn't even bother to watch and continue to burn the paper, I don't believe they can do anything to me.

With a bang, the chandelier in the living room was turned on. I had only turned on a small light, but the sudden strong light made me unable to open my eyes.I rubbed my eyes and looked outside. It wasn't a security guard who came in, but a man with a suitcase, looking at me, a crazy woman with gray hair on the balcony, in surprise.

The other party gradually approached, I raised my face, and watched greedily, I couldn't believe it was so clear and true, as if it was imprinted on my heart, I felt that he had lost a lot of weight, only the high protruding cheekbones remained. Bone, dark eyes.For 2 minutes, we stared at each other like idiots, and neither of us spoke.

"Who... are you burning paper money for?" He put down his suitcase and walked towards the terrace step by step.

Geng Mochi!I called him from the bottom of my heart, it was really him!At the most heart-piercing moment, I burst into tears and tried my best not to let myself make any sound, "Geng Mochi, Geng Mochi..." It seemed that as long as I shouted desperately from the bottom of my heart, the person in front of me would not Disappeared and never will be.

After a while, he said, "Kao'er, it's me." He paused slightly, as if smiling, "I'm not dead yet, what paper money are you burning for me?"

I trembled like a tree swaying in the wind and rain, I didn't dare to look into his eyes, my heart constricted one after another, and I could feel the gurgling blood gushing out from the bottom of my heart.I thought I would never see him again in my lifetime, but today I realized how naive it was. Even if I saw him again, what can we change?Everything from the past has been turned into ashes, what else can he and I have?
"Don't burn it, I have enough money."

He came to me and looked down at me, who was dying in the firelight.Then squatted down and got closer to the fire, he was on the other side of the fire, and I was on this side of the fire, the two faces were so close to each other, the familiar breath rushed towards them, but it felt so far away, so close and far away. in this way.

"Is that you, foolish crab? (Is that you, stupid crab?)"

he asked over the fire.

(End of this chapter)