If you can love like this

Chapter 88

I seem to have experienced another life, joy or sorrow, the years fade away in an instant in my chaotic memory, when I wake up and see the sunlight coming in through the window, I feel like a lifetime away.

On the way back the next day, I received a call on the way that Geng Mochi had developed an illness and was admitted to the hospital.When we arrived at the hospital, the attending physician told us, "Please prepare for the worst, we have really tried our best."

I howled.No matter how much Qi Shuli persuaded me, he couldn't persuade me. His gallstones seemed to be showing signs of attack again, and he kept holding his chest. Later, it might be because the pain was too severe, so he went home alone, leaving two people with me.I chased them all away and wept until dawn alone in the corridor outside the ward.

Geng Mochi didn't wake up until the next afternoon.I still can't see him, doctors come and go, doing various tests on him.His nanny also came over at this time, and asked about the cause of the attack. The nanny said that it was his wife who made trouble.

"His wife? Milan?" I was shocked. Milan is back?

"Yes."

"What's wrong with her?"

The nanny shook her head and said, "I don't know, I just heard they were arguing about the will."

Undoubtedly, Milan wanted to force Geng Mochi to amend his will before he died, and Geng Mochi must still have the original condition. He must first dissolve the marriage relationship before he can preserve her interests in the will. The two did not back down, and Geng Mochi was stimulated and admitted No wonder.

I guess the reason for Milan's refusal to give in is that not only money is needed for her, but Mrs. Geng's status is also extremely important to her. This is the capital for her to be a decent person in the second half of her life. Me, that's why she decided not to dissolve the marriage relationship with Geng Mochi. The tug-of-war between the two of them has reached a fever pitch as Geng Mochi's condition worsened. No matter who wins or loses, this tragedy is already doomed.

At night, I can finally enter the intensive care unit to see Geng Mochi.He was lying motionless on the hospital bed, with an oxygen tube inserted into his nasal cavity, and an infusion bottle hung on a shelf beside the bed.

His face was very calm, and when he saw me, he struggled to squeeze out a smile, "You go, I'm fine."

I know he doesn't want me to see him in such pain.

I was reluctant to leave, and threw myself on the edge of the bed, holding his hand with the needle inserted and gently rubbing it.It is these hands, which I have touched countless times, are still so slender, but because they are too thin, the bones of the knuckles are shockingly abrupt.

"Don't let me leave you, and don't embarrass yourself, nothing is important anymore, really, those are external things, let go, what's wrong with letting yourself relax?" I put his hand against my face and said .

He looked at me helplessly, and sighed long and sadly, "Kauer, you don't understand, I just want to be able to lie down in that cemetery in Seattle free, and I don't want to keep my relationship with her even when I die." Marriage relationship, so that in the next life, I will be able to search for you in the sea of ​​people without any entanglements. I find you, and then we can be together justifiably... Even if there is no next life, the bad debt between me and her should be settled in this life, as long as She is willing to agree to a divorce, and I will make proper arrangements for her future life. I can guarantee that she will have no worries about food and clothing in the next life, but she refuses to give up. She said that even if I become a ghost, she will still be Mrs. Geng..."

The more he spoke, the more excited he became, his chest heaved violently, and he was breathing heavily.

I hurriedly stopped him from continuing, "Mochi, don't talk, I understand your heart, but your body is already like this, why bother with her!"

"Isn't life just a breath? Kao'er!" He looked at me sadly.

I choked up and couldn't answer.

After leaving the ward, I found Qi Shuli sitting on a bench against the wall in the corridor, with his head down, wondering what he was thinking, his face full of tiredness.I walked up to him and stood beside him for a while before he realized and looked up at me, "How is he?"

"I just fell asleep, but I've stabilized for the time being."

Qi Shuli looked at me and frowned, he hesitated to say: "I have bad news, I don't know if I should tell you."

"What... what news?" I shrunk instinctively, what could be worse than now?
He looked at me with sadness and helplessness in his eyes.

When I saw him like this, I became anxious, "What's the matter? Tell me quickly!"

He sighed, "Milan is going to hold a press conference to announce the original author of the LOVE series."

"..."

Milan is crazy!She must be crazy!She also thought that Geng Mochi didn't die fast enough, and she wanted to take his last breath.When Qi Shuli told me about this, I couldn't say anything except crying.Qi Shuli told me not to worry, he said he would handle this matter well, I knew his background, so I grabbed him and said, "Don't do anything stupid, it's messy enough now, let me talk to her..."

Qi Shuli was noncommittal, and just told me to leave it alone, and he would figure out a way.As a result, the matter was over, and Annie also came to add to the chaos. She suddenly proposed to move out, which caught us all by surprise.

Qi Shuli was heartbroken, "Could it be that everything we have done is superfluous to you?" At that time, in the living room near the water tower, facing her brother's questioning, Annie just replied: "I don't want to be a burden to you."

"No one treats you as a burden. Your brother's condition is very unstable these days, so he has ignored you. Could this be the reason why you abandoned us?" Qi Shuli's voice was trembling.

Annie couldn't see her brother, but she still had a bit of unbearable expression after all.

She fell into a long silence, these days she rarely visited Geng Mochi in the hospital.And I heard from the nanny that she often went out by car alone, where she went, and who she went to see, no one knew.Qi Shuli wanted to ask for clarification, but she turned her face away and groped her way upstairs without saying a word, and closed the bedroom door heavily.Qi Shuli and I looked at each other, an ominous feeling came over our hearts, and when we looked around the magnificent living room, there was a kind of depression and gloom that was about to come.

I still blame Annie's capriciousness in my heart. Does she know how painful and difficult her brother is struggling on the death line, and often falls into a coma, and the time of coma is getting longer and longer, even though Qi Shuli sent people from Shanghai and Beijing? The best cardiac surgeons were invited to observe and test him 24 hours a day, but without those instruments and tubes, he would not be able to live for a minute.Every day, I lie on the glass window of the ward, watching him rely on the machine to maintain his fragile life, and watching the different numbers constantly displayed by the various instruments beside the bed, my tears gushed out, blurred tears In the light, his face is far away and strange, saying what a lifetime, a lifetime is so long, is he giving up, or I can't hold on, and now the pendulum of time has suddenly stopped, if this is the so-called "eternity", I would rather not !
But I can't hate him, because he is really a poor person. The existence of life is just a dull curve flickering on the appearance for him now. The real world is actually far away from him, but he doesn't realize it. Do you know that Milan is going to hold a press conference?Does he know that Annie is leaving us?
He doesn't know anything, I only wish he didn't!
He fell into a coma that day. I watched him through the glass window of the intensive care unit, and my heart felt like a knife.Milan came suddenly, I didn't look for her, she fell down, probably to see if Geng Mochi died.In fact, she has been watching me for a long time. My sad and helpless appearance should make her feel very happy. If she wants to be happy, I would rather die in front of her than be disturbed and tortured by her when Geng Mochi is at this point , I know that the person she really wants to attack is me, but she borrowed Geng Mochi's knife.

"None of us got him, we all lost, didn't we?" She said lightly, that face was so unfamiliar that I couldn't believe that the woman standing in front of me was Milan.

"Why did you come here?" I asked in a trance.

"I'm his wife, who will come if I don't come?" At this time, she remembered that she was his wife.

I can only beg: "Let him go, he's already like this, do you insist that he die without regret?"

"I heard that Geng Mochi left all his property to you." Milan didn't answer my words at all, and didn't look at me, looking at her husband with a self-deprecating sneer, "He really loves you to the bottom of his bones, you just sleep with him , but slept on an astronomical amount of property."

"Milan! Are you enough? Anyway, it's a couple, even if you don't love him, you can't put him to death, right?"

"How do you know I don't love him? Do you think you are the only one who knows love? If I tell you that I love him no less than you, do you believe it? Do you believe it?!" Milan yelled, and started Hysterical, "No one believes me, everyone regards me as a slut who only knows money. Since I am already a slut in your eyes, is it necessary to set up a chastity memorial archway for myself?"

"Do you believe in retribution?" I suddenly asked.

Milan was taken aback, not understanding why I suddenly asked this question.

"I believe it." I said looking at her.

The corner of Milan's mouth twitched, thinking about how to counter me.During the stalemate, a nurse suddenly ran over and said to me out of breath, "Miss Bai, hurry up, Director Qi has been sent to the emergency room..."

There was a buzzing in my head, and the surrounding voices could no longer be heard.The whole person seemed to be stupid, and he didn't even have the strength to turn his head away.I only heard my heart beating wildly, and I was so dizzy that I was about to fall.

"Retribution is coming!" Milan smiled.

Qi Shuli's gallstones made him pass out from the pain. These days, he has been enduring the pain, clutching his chest all day long and unable to speak, and was finally forced to be admitted to the hospital.The hospital organized a strong team of experts to consult Qi Shuli, but everyone's expression was very strange, evasive, and when they saw me, they always smiled and said: "Miss Bai, don't worry, Director Qi's illness is not a problem. , it’s just a minor operation, it’ll be fine once it’s done.”

"Then why don't you do it?"

"Do it now, do it now..."

I always get the same answer.

Well now, both men are in the hospital.They are really destined, they have been neighbors for several years in the spring of the other side, also in Japan, and later in Seattle, the two are still neighbors, and now they are even in the hospital together, one upstairs and one downstairs.And as if it was an appointment, Geng Mochi woke up just after Qi Shuli's operation was completed.

He looked very weak, unable to speak, and had oxygen tubes in his nostrils.I couldn't go in and see him, but I stood at the side of the glass and waved to him. He saw it, as if he was resurrected from the dead, and there was a shooting star in his eyes. He looked at me vaguely, and his smile was like a flower. The ground slowly blooms at the corner of the mouth.

I put my face against the glass and smiled at him the same way.

I don't want to cry, I just want him to remember my smile.

But my body was trembling violently, I felt that I could no longer bear all this, I couldn't speak, I just bit my lips desperately and smiled at him, as if this was the only way to suppress the pain in my heart.

He saw the strength of perseverance in my face, relying on this strength, he miraculously broke free from the clutches of death.After two weeks, he was able to get out of bed and walk around, and he was able to bask in the sun in the garden.

And Qi Shuli gradually recovered after the operation. These two former rivals often bask in the sun together, laughing and chatting.I seldom participated in their conversations, and they didn't seem to welcome them, and they would change the subject when they saw me passing by.

"It's best for women not to listen to what men say." Qi Shuli deliberately angered me.

I laughed, "Hey, since when did your relationship get so good, are you going to ask for help?"

Geng Mochi said, "That's exactly what I meant."

"We even have the same blood type. It's absolutely fine to ask for help." Qi Shuli looked at me with a smile, his eyes flickered, and a trace of imperceptible sadness flashed across his eyes, "How about you as a witness?"

"I'm not going to do it." I turned my head and walked away, and there were hearty laughter from two men behind me.The winter sun makes the world very warm. Although the sun is shining, why do I feel dark?Is it because of the sadness that flashed in Qi Shuli's eyes just now?Or is this dazed daylight making me feel that everything is not real?
In the blink of an eye, when New Year's Day came, Qi Shuli proposed to go home for the holiday, and Geng Mochi agreed very much. "It's more comfortable to die at home than to die in a hospital." He said inexplicably.

Before going home, I was worried that Annie's attitude would irritate Geng Mochi. He didn't know that Annie was going to move out. Every time I asked her why she didn't come to the hospital, I always said that she went to Shanghai for an eye check. .But to my surprise, Annie's attitude was very calm when she saw Geng Mochi, and she was also very calm towards Qi Shuli, as if nothing had happened.But the matter of Milan cannot be hidden. Even if we don’t tell him, Geng Mochi’s assistant will tell him. Besides, this is not a trivial matter. Whether it is in the market or the media, there has been a lot of discussion about who made the LOVE series. Milan is holding a press conference at this time. The reception will naturally attract widespread attention, and she will never let go of this good opportunity to show off, and no one can stop her.

Sure enough, Geng Mochi still found out about this, unexpectedly, he appeared very "calm".But I was very apprehensive, and tentatively asked him what he planned to do, and he answered irrelevantly: "I want to go to Sunset Villa to stay for a few days."

I didn't even dare to ask "why", his overly calm expression scared me.

Two days later, Geng Mochi took Annie and I to Sunset Villa after a long absence. We had just left when Qi Shuli returned to the United States because the company in the United States was waiting for him to deal with it.

It was already noon when we arrived at the villa, the temperature plummeted, the sky was dark, and the dark clouds were so low that it seemed that the sky was about to collapse at any time.The north wind howled all the way, rolling towards the person, and blowing on the face, it felt like a knife.Although I was wearing a coat, I was still shivering from the cold.The weather forecast says there will be snow today, but I don't know if it's true.

Because the light was too dark, the sunset villa turned on the lights early.I haven't been here for a few years, the house looks older, the living room is as spacious as a palace, and the furniture is old, it feels like a museum when you walk in.Fortunately, there was still a fire in the fireplace, so it felt very warm.

For lunch, everyone didn't have much appetite, and many of the dishes that Aunt Yang worked so hard for didn't touch their chopsticks.In the night, there was a sudden heavy snowfall. Mochi stood in front of the bedroom window, looking at the crabapple tree in the back garden whose branches were bent by the heavy snow. What was he thinking about.The window was open, and the wind and snow rolled into the room. I was going to close the window but he stopped me, "Don't close it, let me watch my father..."

"Father?"

"Yes." Geng Mochi pointed to the crabapple tree and said, "Did you see that tree? My father was buried under the tree."

In the evening, Geng Mochi told me the story of his parents for the first time. His father Geng Xianzhi was born in an old bureaucratic family in Shanghai. During the "Cultural Revolution", Geng's family was greatly impacted, and Prophet Geng was sent to a remote tea farm in Hunan, which was next to Sunset Villa.This villa was originally the ancestral property of an old local intellectual. Later, the family was overthrown, and the villa was used as a headquarters by the "Cultural Revolution" rebels.Prophet Geng was imprisoned in the basement of the villa after a criticism. At the same time, two other people were imprisoned in the basement. One was Xia Muye, who was also sent down from Shanghai, and the other was Mr. Shen Fang, the owner of the villa. His daughter, Shen Chulian, was fined to cook for the rebels, and also delivered meals to the "criminals" in the basement. Naturally, she got to know Geng Xianzhi and Xia Muye, and the three young people became good friends who talked about everything.

(End of this chapter)