about love

Chapter 56 Uneasy
Zhou Shi stepped out of the elevator, and the entire corridor was pitch black and empty.Only the studio at the end is dimly lit, like a candle, hazy.She took a deep breath, pushed open the door, and Ning Fei sat on the table by the window, her slender legs slumped casually, her eyes looking out of the window, her whole body was like a condensed statue, without saying a word.There are piles of wine bottles underfoot, and there is a strong smell of smoke in the air.

Rows of candles are lit on the table in the middle, arranged in the character of "people", stretching down long, like two people, leaning on each other and supporting each other, but there is always an insurmountable distance between them.In the dead of night, the remaining fire has been exhausted, it should have been the time when the song came to an end.

Ning Fei turned to look at her in a daze, but still didn't speak.Zhou Shi sighed, pulled him and said, "Go back, it's cold here." I didn't know what it was like, shocked and helpless.Ning Fei shook his head, shook her off, and threw her a bottle of wine.Zhou Shi took it in his hand, his tentacles were cold, the ice-like liquid slid down his throat, and his head ached.Such a night, such a person, such a situation, she didn't know what to say, only silence.

The candles on the table gradually dimmed, and many of them had already been extinguished. After watching for a long time, my eyes were blurred, and there seemed to be tears.He asked, "Do you still think I'm infatuated with you?" Zhou shook his head and said with difficulty, "Now I believe it's not." What is a lasting infatuation, is it love?She had never thought about such a profound question.

She decided to admit that she couldn't go on like this: "Ning Fei, liking me caused you so much pain. I have no choice but to hope that you can come out by yourself. As long as you figure it out, no matter how big the matter is, it will eventually be calm. Some things , after a while, it will not be so unbearable, and time will be indifferent to everything. In fact, I can't do anything, and I can't do anything. I can only hope that you will do well, do what you should do at your age, and Live every day." Such a young man, cold, melancholy, rational, infatuated, forbearing, and handsome, is really hard to refuse.If she hadn't met Wei Qing so early, she might have fallen in love with him.

He said lightly: "Maybe. I've been thinking tonight, maybe I shouldn't deliberately approach you, it will be better. But when your figure appeared in front of me, I suddenly realized that everything was worth it. I don't Knowing how to describe the feelings in my heart, I am afraid that once I open my mouth, it will disappear like a dream, and even my memory will no longer exist. I have been terrified and afraid—there—” he stroked his throat, “like a snake It is also entangled in breathing, it is difficult to pour out, only to become more and more silent."

It was the first time he spoke so many words, presenting himself naked in front of her, emotional and bleak.

Zhou Shi turned her head and looked at the ground, her heart was pounding. Such deep and strong emotions made her breathless, and she dared not look directly at it, so she had to avoid it.She had never felt so guilty and uneasy, and said timidly: "Ning Fei, I can only say—I am very sorry, I have nothing to say except this. If possible, I hope that it is me who suffers like this, not you."

Ning Fei sighed lightly: "No, it's not pain, it's not torture, it's my own willingness, and I don't regret it. I haven't forgotten, I've never laughed so much when I'm with you. So happy, it's nothing But I'm sorry. It's my own thing to like you. If I can, I don't want to say it out and embarrass you, but I'm not good enough. I overestimate my self-control and underestimate your charm too much. "

Such a young boy, because he loves someone wholeheartedly, is in such a desolate state of mind that even the wind outside the window sighs.

When he said this, Zhou became more and more uneasy: "Ning Fei—I——" She couldn't continue, and turned her head to watch the last light of the fire disappear bit by bit in the silent night, and the darkness gradually approached, bit by bit devour.She felt sad in her heart, for this young man who liked her in front of her, his persistence was touching.How lucky she was to be favored by him, but how unfortunate she was to make him so sad.

After an unknown amount of time, Zhou Shi broke the silence: "It's cold and dark, I really have to go back." Pulling him up, he said in a deep voice, "Tomorrow is another day." In the darkness, her hand was on the Gently rubbing against his bare skin, it was soft and warm, reminding him of a hot spring in a deep mountain, where the bubbling water was bubbling with hot air.

He pressed his lips and kissed it down, the strength was shocking, like fireworks going off in an instant, there was a kind of desperate loneliness, it seemed that everything would go away eventually.In the dark, he couldn't see clearly, and he didn't have a good grasp of the strength. He only knew how to linger around his lips. He didn't know how to kiss.

Zhou didn't struggle, she didn't think it was a kiss at all, but more like a prank, so jerky, bumping her nose repeatedly, she had no other thoughts except embarrassment.It wasn't until he tasted blood in his mouth that he cried out in pain.His teeth bit her lip.

Ning Fei turned his head and asked, "Aren't you angry?" Zhou Shi said his words carefully: "No, I forgive your rudeness, because today is the first day of the New Year." stay.His strength just now made her feel dangerous.She said, "It's late at night and I'm leaving. How about you?" She was still worried.

But Ning Fei said: "I hope you will never forgive me." There was an indelible weakness in her voice, because she didn't care.Zhou Shi paused, and then said: "I hope you will go down with me." Ning Fei continued to fiddle with the silver lighter, and the light yellow flame flickered, warming people's hearts instantly, but it could not break through the boundless darkness for a long time Only then said: "Half an hour, I will leave in half an hour." He needs someone to heal his pain.

Zhou Shi frowned and looked at him, the phone rang, it was Wei Qing, she had been here for too long.She hung up the phone and nodded: "Okay, I will call you in half an hour. I'm leaving." After thinking for a while, she took out a greeting card from her bag and handed it to him with both hands: "Happy New Year, learning progress. "These two words of congratulations, which were nothing new, were gently placed in the palm of his hand, and he pushed the door and left.This New Year's card was originally intended to be sent to my little nephew far away.

Ning Fei opened it, and cheerful music sounded: "Happy New Year, Happy New Year, I wish you all a Happy New Year..." Such a night seemed even quieter.He changed his posture, leaned against the window, lit a cigarette but never smoked, watched the fiery red light turn on and off, the ash slowly fell on the ground, and there was a smell at the tip of his nose that lingered for a long time.In less than half an hour, the cigarette in his hand was burned out, and he got up to leave.

When I came out, there was light snow in the night sky, and the sky and the earth were so quiet that I looked at all living beings without saying a word.

As soon as Zhou Shi stepped out of the elevator, he saw Wei Qing standing outside the glass door, with his back to her, his back was so tall and straight, but also so lonely, his heart suddenly ached.Why is it that just such a posture makes her breathless and unbearable.Wei Qing heard the sound, turned around to see her, and stretched out his hand from afar: "Are you okay?" The voice seemed calm, but he unconsciously breathed a sigh of relief.Zhou Shi nodded: "Well, it's okay." He hugged him tightly, his arms were full of cold air, and he didn't know how long he stood outside.

Wei Qing came out with her in his arms, his face turned cold, he raised his head and said, "It's snowing." The first snow this year came long after.Zhou Shi stretched out his hand: "No." He didn't feel anything.He didn't speak, but kissed her on the cheek: "Go back." With Jing Ningfei making such a fuss, both of them seemed to have something on their minds.Wei Qing didn't ask her what she said, and Zhou was not in the mood to say it either. He rested his chin on his arm and looked out the window blankly.

Back at the residence, Wei Qing took off his coat and poured her a cup of hot tea. Under the bright light, he realized that the wound on the corner of her lip had turned purple, which was obviously caused by a tooth bite. The body sat on the sofa, but he didn't ask aggressively as usual.

Zhou Shi didn't know it yet, seeing him looking at him all the time, he asked, "What's wrong?" Wei Qing gently rubbed the corners of his eyes, "I don't know why, but I suddenly feel very tired and have no strength at all." Zhou Shi looked at him with concern. Looking at him, she put her hand on his forehead: "Didn't you catch a cold? Do you have a fever?"

He fell headfirst on the sofa: "It's okay, just sleep on it." Zhou Shi shook him, "If you want to sleep in bed, you must have caught a cold from standing outside." Pulling him up, he carefully unbuttoned him.He pressed her hand, and asked for a while, "Is there anything you want to say?" Zhou Shi shook his head, "No, I'll talk tomorrow if I have something to say. I got up from the bed in the middle of the night, sleepy and tired, and I'm going to sleep." He hugged Wei Qing's waist and lay down obediently.

Wei Qing listened to her even and steady breathing, resting his hands on his head, never feeling sleepy.Is it true that once you start to love, you are so suspicious.His finger brushed her lower lip lightly, it was slightly bruised, tooth marks could be seen faintly, and there were more than one wound.Don't know how to kiss to make it like this!His heart was full of mixed feelings, sour and heavy.Is it time to test them?

I have to admit that he is not only jealous, but also anxious.

In his sleep, Zhou Shi turned over and rolled to the side, as if he was moving away from him.Wei Qing grabbed her, pressed her tightly on his chest, and said in a low voice: "You are so obedient when you are asleep, but why do you cause trouble so much?" He has always been narrow-minded, and he doesn't know how to monopolize everything about her.

In the morning, when Zhou woke up and washed himself in the mirror, he saw bruises on the corners of his lips, and he suddenly woke up. Wei Qing must have found out last night—oh, what to do, he must be angry!No wonder I went to work without even saying hello.I wanted to call to explain, but it's better to say this in person.Restless, can't wait for him to get off work, hurried to his company.

Standing at the door, she suddenly became timid again. Since she made such a fuss at the banquet last time, it is estimated that everyone in the whole "Yunma" knows about it.Although it has been half a year, I still can't hold back when I think of it.People who passed by saw her, stopped suddenly, stared at her, and said for a long time: "Zhou—yes—" They were very surprised, and even more curious was whether she was really the boss's fiancee as rumored by the outside world.

In fact, she will soon be a wife.

Zhou Shi felt quite embarrassed, forced a smile, and bit the bullet and came in.Feeling that everyone's eyes were on her, she pretended to be calm and walked to Wei Qing's office without squinting.Meeting Yang Wei who came out to greet her, he raised his eyebrows and said with a smile, "Oh! Zhou Shi, why are you free today?"

Seeing that she still had the same attitude as before, Zhou Shi felt relieved, and hurriedly pulled her to ask in a low voice: "Is Wei Qing here?" Yang Wei looked at her with a half-smile: "You can really hide it without revealing any traces. "Zhou Shi smiled and said: "Sister Yang, I know I was wrong. Didn't they deliberately hide it from you—is he there?" Who?" Zhou Shi glared at her: "Sister Yang, I'm so anxious that you still bully me!" Yang Wei asked, "What happened? I thought you never showed up since that night."

Zhou Shi said sullenly: "There was a quarrel, he must be so angry that he is about to vomit blood—" Yang Wei nodded her forehead: "If we cause trouble, let us suffer along with it! In only one morning, he has already scolded a manager, two A supervisor, pity our subordinates, we are so scared that we are walking on thin ice." Zhou Shi stuck out his tongue: "Sister Yang, am I here to help you solve your problems?"

Yang Wei said angrily: "You treat yourself as the great compassionate Guanyin Bodhisattva who saves the suffering and the suffering!" Then he said, "Go to his office by yourself. He is in the meeting room. Early in the morning, he was in a bad mood and his face was scary. Very good. I thought he was sick." Zhou Shi nodded quickly, gave her a polite smile, opened the door and went in, and sat on the sofa properly.

Yang Wei came in with a drink, saw her uneasy expression, and comforted her: "Little couples don't quarrel, the bedside quarrels are at the end of the bed, the more noisy the better, the relationship is better, there is nothing to worry about, look at your scared look , really embarrassing us women."

Zhou Shi finally met someone who could talk, and said: "Sister Yang, sometimes I feel very uneasy, and I always feel that I don't understand him. I am still a student, but he is already the president of a company. There is such a big difference. I don't know what I'm busy with, the longer we get along, the less confident I become..."

Yang Wei sighed: "When two people are together, there are such problems, and they always have to get used to each other slowly. Take me for example, my husband is a soldier, with a rigorous style and first-class character, but his ideas and living habits are completely different. Especially angry What's amazing is that he never gets angry with me. When I lost my temper, he stopped talking, and no matter how much I quarreled, he was indifferent. For this reason, I didn't know how wronged I was, thinking that he didn't I don’t care about me. Later, I found out why. He said that when two people quarreled, one of them must stay awake, so as not to make things worse. I was relieved. You see, because of such a small incident, there was almost no divorce at that time Therefore, when two people are together, communication is the most important thing. Only by speaking out can you know what the other person is thinking. You say that no matter how much you have a good understanding, you can’t read minds! There is nothing he should know, the fact is that he doesn’t know at all .”

Zhou Shi nodded silently.Yang Wei patted her on the head and said: "I think you have premarital phobia! Should you get married too? In fact, there is no need to think so much, there are differences between people, haven't you heard a sentence? Marriage needs more It’s about business. Don’t worry, the longer you get along, the better you will be. If you want to be together, you still have a lot to learn, and you’ll know when the time comes. You’re still young, so you might be angry, and you’re always trying to win , in fact, be patient when you should be patient, and bow your head when you should bow your head. Roubi is just right for you. In married life, the most important thing is to retreat. If you take a step back, I will take a step back, and everything will be fine!"

Hearing that, Zhou was suddenly enlightened. Since her mother passed away, no one has said such words to her again. None of the classmates around her are married, so who knows her troubles.Although Wei's mother loves her, she can't think of this.Zhou Shi looked at her gratefully: "Thank you, Sister Yang!" It felt like listening to Jun's words was better than reading for ten years.The reason why she rejects married life is largely because of fear.The two are not married yet, and there have been so many disputes. After getting married, they get along day and night. I don't know how many things there are!
Yang Wei looked at the time: "It's time for Mr. Wei to come out, you can talk about it, there is nothing you can't solve." Zhou Shi nodded, jumped up and sent her out, thinking about how to explain to him.

Wei Qing was stunned when he came in and saw her.Zhou Shi hurriedly said flatteringly, "Are you tired? I made soup for you, do you want to drink it?" He took out the thermal box from the bag, always looking for an excuse.Wei Qing glanced at her and said expressionlessly, "I'm at work now, why are you here?"

Full of enthusiasm, a pot of cold water poured down on his head, and he was a little bit shocked.Zhou Shi said aggrievedly: "I know I'm at work, but they came to see you specially, so you're like this?" Not only did she not express it at all, but she also looked at her impatiently.Seeing that he was silent, she shrugged and asked, "Are you still angry?" Wei Qing asked back, "Why am I angry?"

Zhou Shi bit his lips subconsciously: "Wei Qing, don't be sullen, just listen to my explanation—" Wei Qing finally put down the pen in his hand, and looked up at her: "Then what's going on?" Zhou Shi saw him He stared blankly with terrifying eyes, and said in a panic: "Ningfei drank a lot of wine last night, and then rushed forward on impulse, and he bled as soon as he came up—like being raped by a two-year-old child with long teeth. Like a bite—"

Wei Qing looked at her with raised eyebrows, didn't speak, and didn't know if he believed her.Zhou was a little anxious: "Wei Qing, I have always regarded him as my younger brother. He looked so pitiful yesterday, alone, as if his parents were divorced on New Year's Day...Wei Qing, are you still here?" Are you angry?" Wei Qing irritatedly dropped the document in his hand and turned to look out the window.

Zhou Shi was about to cry: "Wei Qing, if you have something to say, just say it. If you don't say it, I don't know why you are angry!" Why did he keep silent and looked at her fiercely.Wei Qing took a deep breath, turned around, looked into her eyes and asked, "Are you still willing to marry me?"

Zhou Shi didn't know why he suddenly mentioned marriage, he was frightened, and stammered: "Of course - didn't we agree to get married as soon as I graduate?" Wei Qing's eyes flashed: "If I do it now Are you going to get married?" Zhou Shi timidly approached him, pulled his clothes and said, "Are you angry because of the marriage?"

Wei Qing looked at her in frustration: "Don't you know that I also worry, feel anxious, feel jealous, and feel uneasy?" Zhou thought for a while and asked, "Why? I thought it was because of Ning Fei. , I really have nothing to do with him, and I made it clear—"

Wei Qing interrupted her: "I just ask you, are you willing to get married?" Zhou Shi lowered his head, choked up and said: "Wei Qing, if I do something wrong, I will change it, don't scare me like this , Woo-woo--" He looked really scary, his face was pale, and his eyes were fixed on her.

Wei Qing sighed: "Zhou Shi, do you still remember what I said when we got engaged? I promised your father that I would love you, take care of you, and treat you well. I have never forgotten what I said. I I know that you are just 21 years old and have many other thoughts. But since you will marry me sooner or later, why are you unwilling to mention marriage? Is it because you have no confidence in me or in yourself? Or are you still waiting A more suitable candidate?"

Zhou Shi's face changed when he heard this, he calmed down slowly, and said seriously: "Wei Qing, I don't know that I don't want to get married so early, which makes you have so many thoughts. Do you think I'm eating from the bowl and looking at the pot?" The kind of person you want? Although I never said that I would not marry unless you were the only one, but I even gave myself to you, so what doubts do you have?"

She felt sad because he thought of her that way, so she couldn't help sobbing and said: "Maybe some people think that having sex doesn't mean anything, but I was educated traditionally, and I never think that way, I'm not a casual girl. Mom has always said that if he loves you, he will be willing to wait until the day you get married. But I violated it, and even though I was uneasy, I still believed in you. You actually said something like this—” She turned her head away, tears filled her eyes Still couldn't help it, it quietly dripped on the arm.

Wei Qing wiped away her teardrops, and said softly: "I didn't know that having sex before marriage would put such a heavy psychological burden on you." Zhou Shi whimpered and said, "I know that I'm going to get married anyway, but in fact No, so I still worry." Parents' education is deeply ingrained, and it is difficult to change it in a short time.She once vowed to her mother that she would never do it, but she didn't do it.

People in love are so delicate and sensitive, so easily suspicious.

Wei Qing stroked her hair and coaxed: "Okay, don't cry, just say it. Don't worry, I won't let you down." Wiped her tears and pulled her out.Zhou Shi followed behind foolishly until he got into the car and asked sullenly: "You don't go to work, where are you taking me?"

Wei Qing stared straight ahead: "Of course it's to the Civil Affairs Bureau."

(End of this chapter)