I loved you so deeply

Chapter 37 A Dilemma (4)
Pang Lei held his father's hand and cried, shaking his head desperately: "Dad, I don't hate, I don't hate."

The old man waved his hand and continued: "But there are many helplessness in this life... The history and honor of our old family must not be lost. If you don't do it, someone must do it. I believe that in the end, you will always be grateful to me. Now that you have done it, it is worthwhile for me to support my old bones until now, and I have nothing to tell you. You will remember what you have taught you over the years, and you and Ruigu will support each other when you grow old. And don't worry."

The old man let out a breath slowly, as if he had accomplished a major event in his life.

"I have dealt with the sea all my life. I originally thought that after I left, you would find a suitable weather to scatter my ashes, but until now, I can't control my own life and death. You remember that after I was buried, you would put your mother away from me. Take it from my hometown, and I will put it with her."

Pang Lei squatted in front of the hospital bed, tightly holding hands with his old father, as if making a promise: "Dad, I remember, I remember everything."

"As for him." Grandpa Pang's eyes fell on Pang Zheng standing in front of the hospital bed, and he sighed again, "I don't want to worry anymore, I'll leave it to you."

More and more people gathered outside the door, the old man patted the side of the bed to signal Pang Zheng to sit over, and told Pang Lei: "You take Rui Gu out first, I have something to say to him."

"dad……"

The old man insisted: "Go out, there are more things to deal with outside than here, this is what our father and father said alone, we can't tell others, I have him by my side, that's enough."

Pang Lei gave Pang Zheng a worried look, and led his wife away step by step. In front of the door of the ward, he gave the old man another deep look as if he was nostalgic.

The door opened and closed, Pang Zheng sat beside the old man, and finally had the opportunity to bow his head and call him softly: "Grandpa."

"Hey." The old man replied weakly, looking at Pang Zheng with compassion in his eyes, "Grandpa is old and useless, and he can no longer carry you on his shoulders to play awe-inspiring like before."

The little grandson in front of him had already grown into a man who was completely different from what he remembered, the old man sighed.

"I still remember how you were when you were a child, when you were pestering your grandma to make meatballs for you. At that time, you were only this tall." Grandpa next made a gesture with his hands and smiled gratifiedly, "Your grandma loves you so much." , I don't want you to go to the island with your father to suffer, so when I keep you by my side, I often think... Is this a good thing or a bad thing for you...

"I haven't been by your father's side often since I was a child. I have always been not very responsible for the child. I am afraid that I will raise you badly and become a rotten seedling in the future. I am also afraid that I will wrong you if I treat you too hard. I have finally hoped for you as an adult, and I am thinking about you getting married and starting a business in the future. All the elders in the world have the same heart for their children. I treat you this way, and your father does the same. Don't always get angry with him.

"You have to remember what I told you before, and read it out from time to time."

"I remember everything." Pang Zheng held his grandfather's hand, his voice suppressed, "I haven't forgotten anything."

Don't be afraid in the face of danger, the road is poor and the ambition is saved.

After fame and wealth, ideals are willing to gallop.

Don't be proud of your achievements, always reflect on things.

Behave the same as you say and do what you say.

The old man who raised him by his side since he was a child has more emotions for him than his own father.He taught himself to be a human being, taught himself to look at this society more peacefully and calmly, and taught himself to get rid of the arrogance and hostility that were tainted in his boyhood. He was like a strict teacher, and even an elder who raised him with his own hands. In front of him getting weaker and weaker, but he was powerless and could only witness his death with his own eyes. That feeling was more uncomfortable than anything else.

Pang Zheng didn't dare to cry in front of the old man, and he couldn't cry, so he could only coax him with red eyes like he did when he coaxed himself: "Grandpa..."

"You just need to remember these words. Grandpa has no other requirements for you. As long as you are healthy and safe, now that your business is starting up, you have to live a safe and secure life with your daughter-in-law. Jin Jin is a good wife, I can tell that she treats you well, if you have children in the future, you will not only be a husband, but also take on the responsibility of being a father."

Speaking of this, the old man thought of a person belatedly. He looked around the room, but he still didn't see the person he wanted to see.

Pang Zheng was filled with guilt, he just lowered his head and didn't speak for a while.

The old man closed his eyes helplessly.

"Your boy must have caused some trouble again, which made people unhappy." His voice was weak, and he tended to calm down gradually. Seeing this, Pang Zheng wanted to put on the breathing mask for him to let him slow down, but was caught The old man stopped.

The old man firmly grasped Pang Zheng's hand, and moved his mouth: "It's fine...you're fine with your parents, and Jinjin...you're an adult, you have to take good care of them..."

"I know...I know..." Pang Zheng casually agreed, looking at his grandfather helplessly, with dazed and painful eyes.

Those hands were thin and dry, covered with age spots, and slowly began to lose their warmth.

Grandpa's pupils were out of focus, and he only let out a long and weak breathing sound on the hospital bed.

The people outside the ward stood quietly aside, waiting quietly.

After dozens of seconds, maybe a few minutes, I finally heard Pang Zheng's cry of pain in the ward, the voice was suppressed with great sadness, and it was extremely low and hoarse.

All the people in military uniform at the scene took off their hats and saluted in the direction of the ward. Pang Lei closed his eyes in pain. He knew that his father, the old man who had made countless contributions throughout his life as a soldier, was in this silent night. Bid farewell to my brilliant and hard life, and die forever.

Grandpa Pang's farewell ceremony was held grandly and solemnly. The whole process was not only professionally organized, but also the former subordinates of old men from all walks of life came to express their condolences.

In the farewell hall, Pang Lei and his wife stood in the front row and bowed their thanks one by one. On the left stood Pang Zheng and Gu Jin, both of whom were dressed in black.

It seems that after the death of a relative, people will grow faster. Gu Jin remembered how her father died many years ago. Back then, she was held by her mother like this, numbly bowing to everyone who came to shake hands. .

She didn't expect that such a scene would repeat itself in her life again.The person who was smiling and chatting with me last month was lying in a cold coffin at this moment.

She regretted that she hadn't been able to see the old man for the last time, but she couldn't express anything, only silently bowed her head in mourning to express her apology.The pain of regret and annoyance lingered in my heart, making my nose sore for no reason.

Pang Zheng was by her side, without saying a word, accepting all this calmly.

He was wearing a black sweater and a black coat, standing there tall, with a lonely and lonely back.

After the farewell ceremony, it was the burial ceremony. According to common sense, the old man should be buried in Beijing's Babaoshan Cemetery, but Pang Lei said that the old man will not make a name for himself all his life.

The cemetery was bought by Pang Zheng for the old man. It is in the outskirts of City B. According to Feng Shui, it is backed by green hills and surrounded by a live spring, which is crystal clear and clean. It is a good place.

As the old saying goes, don't look back when the elderly are buried in the soil, and their relatives should go forward all the way so that the dead can rest in peace.

Pang Lei and his wife walked in the front, Pang Zheng followed behind, and some of the relatives of the Pang family were behind. They all walked forward quietly, and as they walked, Pang Zheng suddenly stopped and turned back abruptly. head.

Gu Jin stood at the back of the crowd, with her head bowed, the wind blew her hair and it brushed her face disheveled, which made people feel even more pity.

He strode over and took her hand through the crowd.

Mrs. Pang scolded him: "Pang Zheng! Tell you not to look back, why are you so crazy?"

Being reprimanded loudly, Pang Zheng didn't seem to have heard of it, so he held her tightly with one hand to feel at ease.Gu Jin followed him, walking in the car, walking, she suddenly said softly to him: "I'm sorry."

This sentence contains many meanings.

Pang Zheng's back stopped for a moment, and then he held her hand even tighter.

(End of this chapter)