I loved you so deeply

Chapter 40 Separation (2)
Mrs. Pang persuaded him to go with him. When Pang Zheng heard such words, he didn't express his opinion, and he didn't say whether to go or not. He always kept silent against his mother.The one who knows his son best is Lao Tzu, and it was Pang Lei who finally spoke. Anyway, City B is a place where he has lived for so many years. Many old friends and old roots are there. Besides, Sheng Heng still has so many employees relying on him for food. Since he If you insist on not leaving, then it is better to leave him here alone to reflect.

It is the best time for a man, and in his first year, and now he is single, half-dead every day, Mrs. Pang has a thousand thoughts in her heart, but she can't talk about it. In the end, she can only tell Pang Zhengqian. gone.

Pang Zheng was alone in City B, and began to concentrate on leading the people under his command to do business and invest in projects. First, he revitalized the half-dead Sino-Ocean Company by signing two large export orders one after another. All the Hualuxe Lanwan real estate projects in operation were put into the market, and Sheng Heng's net worth increased greatly in a short time, and the name Pang Zheng became even more popular in this small circle.

After tea and dinner, whenever the children inside and outside the courtyard mentioned Pang Zheng, their first reaction would be, oh, isn't that the big side who fought so desperately in No. [-] courtyard back then?After finishing speaking, I just smacked my lips and sighed. I heard that he seems to be divorced now and has been single. I have two cousins, and my family has been trying to introduce him.

Song Fanghuai, Chen Zhanbei and the others also secretly inquired with Pang Zheng when no one was around, hey, are you and Gu Jin really divorced?
At that time, Pang Zheng's face was as heavy as water, and when he asked coldly who told you, he blocked everyone back.

Brother and others with discerning eyes could see it immediately, well, it was Gu Jin who dumped him, and he couldn't get over this hurdle in his heart.Every day from eight to five in the morning, apart from the necessary social gatherings, Pang Zheng's life is as regular as a white-collar worker.

It's mid-June, the temperature is gradually warming up, and the days are starting to grow slowly.

That day, Chen Zhanbei brought the food and wine packed by the hotel cook, called Song Fanghuai, and went to his house to catch him off guard, thinking about drinking a big drink, and comforting the bitter side government.

Unexpectedly, when he went upstairs and entered the door, he found that he was sitting cross-legged on the floor of the balcony watering the flowers.

Under the setting sun, he was wearing gray home clothes, lowered his head, and carefully wiped the water from the leaves with a towel.I don't know what kind of flower it is. The white flower buds are in a green cover, ready to bud.

That flower was bought for ten yuan when Gu Jin took him to the morning market. Every morning at five o'clock, the old lady would set up a small bench in the morning market to sell these flowers and plants grown by herself.

At that time, her forehead was hot, and she squatted on the ground and chatted with the old lady for a long time, pointing to this question, picking up that to have a look, the old lady kindly told her a lot of flower gardening techniques, her typical left ear goes in and the right ear goes out, buy He came back with three or four pots, but he remembered it.

Unexpectedly, the flower that had been cold all winter, thought it was about to die, actually gave birth to a bone in this early summer.

Chen Zhanbei bumped into Song Fanghuai and muttered in a low voice: "It is said that married people tend to change their temperament drastically. I don't think he has a personality problem now, and his spirit seems to be abnormal."

Song Fanghuai looked around at the furnishings in the room, and nodded in agreement: "It's a little abnormal."

The three brothers drank a lot of wine that day, and after Chen Zhanbei emptied the two bottles he stole from his father's wine cabinet, Pang Zheng went to the wine cabinet at home to get two bottles of special wine for aging. fell down on the sofa.

Chen Zhanbei put his arms around Song Fanghuai's feet, and talked to him with his tongue: "Hey, do you still remember the wine we drank together before he got married? At that time, the grandson also drank a lot, so I couldn't persuade him Wait, what was he thinking at that time, he was not willing to get married, he was forced to do nothing by his family, he rejected Gu Jin from the bottom of his heart, and used alcohol to relieve his worries, now, look..."

Song Fanghuai raised his head and glanced at Pang Zheng who was on the sofa. His eyes were closed, apparently he had passed out from drinking.

"Now he is also drinking to relieve his worries."

"That's right..." Chen Zhanbei sighed, "How can this person change so much? He has just been with Gu Jin for a few years, and now he looks the same as when Bai Ziqing left. At that time, he also It's not that painful."

Song Fanghuai kicked him, and Chen Zhanbei knew he had slipped his words, so he just fell to the ground and didn't speak.

For a moment, there was only the heavy breathing of the three people in the room, and there was silence.

At night, because of the burnt alcohol, Pang Zheng's voice was dry and hoarse, and he muttered something subconsciously. After talking for a long time, no one responded to him, only a heavy and annoying snoring sound, he suddenly opened his eyes, and the feeling of loss gradually emerged in his heart come out.

He walked around Chen Zhanbei and Song Fanghuai who were on the ground, took a cigarette and went to the balcony, sat on the beauty couch and started to be in a daze. body.

In a flash, Gu Jin had been gone for three months.

At first when she left, he was not used to it. He wished he could stay outside until dawn before coming back. He would sleep under the quilt when he entered the house, thinking about nothing, but he couldn't fall asleep when he closed his eyes.

He remembered sleeping with her in his arms once, maybe because he caught a cold, his throat was itchy at night, and he wanted to cough uncontrollably. Between her chest and her head, she might have sensed the violent vibration in his chest, and she woke up instantly.

At that time, Gu Jin rubbed his eyes in a daze and asked him, are you sick?He said it was okay, and wanted to put her to sleep, but who knew that she got up from the bed and went to the medicine box outside with her bare feet to get medicine. he.

At that time, Pang Zheng took the medicine and lay under the bed, thinking, it's nice to have a daughter-in-law at home.

When he couldn't sleep, he wandered around the house, trying to find any proof that she still existed.

Before leaving, she didn't take some of her clothes and kept them packed in the cloakroom. Pang Zheng took out one by one and rearranged them one by one, and put them on the other side of his closet, as well as Gu Jin's clothes in the shoe cabinet. Hate to the sky, like nails, one pair, one pair, it is easy to think of her sharp mouth.

There are post-it notes she scribbled on in the study, one of which is pasted on the computer, the creases at the corners are a bit old, it should have been scribbled over and over again.He tore it off and looked at it, and there was a pumpkin grimace drawn on it, with the words "Pang Zheng is a bastard" viciously written on it, with three exclamation points at the end.

Pang Zheng laughed when he saw the awkward font, and carefully glued it back.

There are still traces of her life in this house, so warm, with traces of Gu Jin's unique personality, but it was not until he called her name out of his voice just now but no one responded, that Pang Zheng came to his senses. Jin, it's really not by his side anymore.

After drinking that wine with Chen Zhanbei and Song Fanghuai, the politics seemed to have changed a bit.

He is no longer as closed off as he was before, and occasionally he will get together with a few little brothers who rarely get together to play cards and talk nonsense. In his spare weekends, he will fly to Beijing to spend a few days with his parents, and get acquainted for work or personal reasons. make friends.

That day, a cooperative company invited him to dinner and specially chose Chen Zhanbei's clubhouse. Pang Zheng sat there for a while and felt really tired, so he found an excuse to leave first. As soon as he walked out the door, he saw Yin Bailu.

Yin Bailu has lost a lot of weight. She has no makeup and is clean. She is very different from the charming public relations director before. She wears a ponytail, wears a simple shirt and light blue jeans, takes off her high heels, and wears a pair of white sneakers on her feet. .

Pang Zheng was very surprised. Ever since the incident at Bai Ziqing's house, he had never seen her, and he hadn't heard from her recently.

Yin Bailu took two steps forward, and asked him straight to the point: "Do you have any news about Gu Jin?"

She asked seriously, Pang Zheng panicked, raised his eyebrows and asked, "No, what's the matter?"

Yin Bailu's eyes dimmed. She kicked his wheel and said dully, "Do you have time? Let's chat."

Putting aside Bai Ziqing's relationship, Pang Zheng and Yin Bailu had a lot of dealings with Yin Bailu because of her work before. , she has also suffered and been wronged in this line of work.

He didn't have a bad impression of her, and he was familiar enough, so he didn't talk nonsense, and drove directly to an empty and quiet place suitable for chatting.

After getting out of the car, Yin Bailu leaned on the hood in a daze, while Pang Zheng waited for her while smoking a cigarette, and he was not in a hurry. When he finished half of his cigarette, she reached out and asked him to ask for one and put it between her lips.

Holding the cigarette between the pale and slender fingers, he skillfully shook the lighter to light it up, as if he were an old hand.

After taking a puff of cigarettes for a long time, Yin Bailu said in a low voice: "I went to her house to look for her a few times before, but she was not there, and she didn't answer the phone calls. I didn't know she was gone until I went back to the company after finishing my stepfather's funeral. Yes, I asked Fu Anchang, HR, and a few colleagues who are close to her, and they all said they didn't know."

She rubbed her nose and lowered her head: "I called her mother once, and Aunt Feng also said that she was not there. I was afraid that Aunt Feng would think too much, so I didn't dare to say more. Knowing what to say when I find her, I just want to know if she is okay, and I feel extremely ashamed and flustered."

"Pang Zheng—" Yin Bailu called his name in a low voice, "Have you looked for her?"

"I've looked for it." Pang Zheng said indifferently, and leaned against her in front of the car, "but I didn't find it either."

She had made up her mind not to be disturbed or discovered, so he would not look for her and set her free.

Yin Bailu took a few more puffs of cigarette, and stamped out the end of the cigarette with his foot.Pang Zheng glanced at her and felt that she was in a bad state, so he asked a lot: "How are you and Chen Zhanbei...how are you?"

"What's the matter, it's yellow." Yin Bailu moved his eyelashes, and said in a nonchalant tone, "His mother wants to give me 300 million yuan, let me go as far as I want, and said that if I continue to be with him, Let me never get mixed up in the public relations industry."

Pang Zheng asked her, "Did you take the money?"

Yin Bailu let out a sneer from his nose: "I'm short of money, and I'm cheap, but I don't want to lose my face for that little money. She went to Maobai to find me in the morning, and Qian Qifeng dismissed me in the afternoon." , the people standing outside watching the fun were all the little girls I brought out under my hands before, so I simply resigned. This job is not easy to mix, and I have enough of it. Let his mother give me this opportunity to do something else It's not a bad thing either."

Chen Zhanbei's mother is a well-known strong woman in the circle, and she never got along with his father all her life. Pang Zheng guessed Yin Bailu's difficulties.

"Then Chen Zhanbei didn't look for you either?"

"I've looked for it. At first, he stood downstairs in my house and waited. He waited so long. He wouldn't leave until I went back. Later, he was beaten up by the family and lay in the hospital for a few days. When it subsided, I took advantage of it." In the past few days, I moved out and found another house outside, and no one knew where it was except my mother. He changed his mobile phone number, and he never came again." Yin Bailu laughed at himself, scratching his hair, "Pang Zheng , In fact, I know how much I am, and I never thought about marrying into the Chen family as a young mistress. At the beginning when I was with him, I really felt that he was very kind to me, but later it might be a little floating. I want it A little too much. He wants to give it to me, but he has a lot of helplessness. Since it is so difficult, I will be decisive and leave his sight. After a long time like this, everything will pass, and he will forget me. "

She said it in a chic and natural way, as if she didn't feel uncomfortable at all: "In my heart, young masters like you should marry the kind of well-matched girls. You don't have to be pretty, but you must have temperament and self-cultivation. , the family situation is similar to yours, so this kind of marriage relationship is fair and can continue to survive, right?"

He was in a dilemma. He wanted to comfort Yin Bailu, but also wanted to help Chen Zhanbei. It took him a long time to squeeze out a sentence: "Yin Bailu, many things... are not as simple as you think. Sometimes they are not only out of emotion. , and the responsibility, the responsibility that he has carried since he was born in the mother's womb."

Yin Bailu didn't seem to hear, and shook his head: "Do you know, actually your marriage with Gu Jin is very unfair."

Pang Zheng was silent for a long time, and asked, "What do you mean?"

She lowered her eyes: "Any responsibility is based on feelings. You men always like to use this banner to deceive yourself. In a sense, it's not so much that Gu Jin agreed to marry you, it's better to say that you are You chose her, and she paid much more affection than you from the beginning. In such an unequal marriage relationship, the man always occupies the dominant position. Don’t say it’s fair, it’s actually unfair from the beginning. From you and From the moment Gu Jin proposed to get married, you put your feelings into it. It's just a gradual change from less to more. People like you will never obey certain rules, and you always say that there are many. There is nothing you can do about it, but in the end, the ones you hurt are those who love you willingly."

"Me too." Yin Bailu sighed slightly, "Pang Zheng, you and I, we are the ones who hurt Gu Jin."

Yin Bailu can always tell the truth in one word. This kind of woman seems to have seen through the world of mortals after living in the world. She is clearly a newcomer to the world. What she does and what she says are even better than these men who have been in the world for many years. resolute.

At night, a night plane roared past overhead, and the two of them looked up together.

The lights on the plane flickered.

The wind blew Yin Bailu's hair. She looked up at the plane and said to herself, "Gu Jin is gone."

Pang Zheng said, "I know."

Yin Bailu then asked: "Then will she come back?"

Pang Zheng remembered what Gu Jin said when he parted from him at the airport, and his Adam's apple rolled: "Yes, definitely."

There was a quiet and silent atmosphere in the air, and Pang Zheng kept replaying Gu Jin's appearance in her mind, she said: "Pang Zheng, I really look forward to starting a new life without you, and I will not resist anyone who may encounter problems along the way. Forget your chance."

She said goodbye in the most indifferent and cruel way, and told him how much he had gone too far in the previous days with such angry words.

The plane gradually moved out of sight, and the sound of the wind whistled in my ears, heralding the coming of a storm tonight.

Yin Bailu brushed the hair off his face, his voice gradually became blurred in the wind.

She said, "Pang Zheng, I really hope that you and Jin Jin can have a long, long future."

That kind of future may be something she has been pursuing all her life, but she can't get it.

(End of this chapter)