I loved you so deeply

Chapter 46 Life and Death (6)
"Thank you for dispelling the idea of ​​'handling her'." The sun was too dazzling, and Pang Zheng was wearing sunglasses, so he couldn't see his eyes clearly, but he spoke in a calm tone, "Thank you for taking care of her along the way."

Let her stand in front of him safe and sound.

The afternoon sun is gradually slanting to the west, and the whistle of the ship is sounding, indicating that the destination is coming.Lei Xi went down to steer the boat to the shore, and Pang Zheng went to put the rope to build the ladder. He jumped down first, and then pulled them ashore one by one, Sana, the professor and his wife, Hu Peng, Lei Xi, and finally Gu Jin.

He held her hand and pulled her ashore, and when she got ashore, she quickly let him go.

The boat stopped at a safe haven, and it took a three-kilometer walk to reach the Cape of Good Hope in the true sense.Along the way, in order to save energy, everyone seldom spoke.

It was already 04:30 in the afternoon when we finally reached the summit.

Standing there, they can see the rumored most famous old lighthouse and the spectacular sight of the continuous confluence and beating of the polar currents.Some people say that the reason why the Cape of Good Hope is the Cape of Good Hope is because bypassing it will bring good luck.

Because there is no suitable hotel here, Lei Xi and the others plan to set up a tent and camp. After this night, they will take a speedboat tomorrow to gather scenery. This stop is over.

Bored at night, everyone sat together in twos and threes to relieve boredom, because there were more side officials in the team, and the atmosphere suddenly became lively. He sat and chatted with Lei Xi and Hu Peng, and talked about Beijing ten or twenty years ago. Declining stocks, talk about the way to identify the course at sea, the world is far and wide, what is far away.

Sana asked Gu Jin to help braid her hair because she washed her hair on the boat.The two girls were behind the tent, sheltered from the sea wind, and Gu Jin neatly tied Sana's hair with colored rope.

Sana looked at the three men chatting over there, and turned her head to look at Gu Jin with bright eyes. Because of her skin color, her pupils were particularly dark.

"Jin Jin, you like that Mr. Pang, right?"

Gu Jin was taken aback: "Why do you say that?"

Sana's Chinese is not very standard and speaks very slowly.

"Hegel said that a woman promotes all spiritual life and real life as love, and she can find vitality in love. If love is gone, she will be extinguished like a flame blown by a wind. Jinjin, It was like this when I first saw you."

Sana remembered seeing Gu Jin one night.

She woke up alone on many nights when others fell asleep quietly. She stood outside the tent and looked at the sky, blowing the wind, looking up at the vast sky, and then closed her eyes. In those eyes, there was no grass growing, and there was a boundless wasteland.

She is missing someone dearly, but doesn't have any expectations for her future life.

Sana happily returned to the tent with her braids on her head.I don't know when the people dispersed, and the surroundings were quiet. In the entire vast world, only the sound of waves beating against the rocks could be heard.

Gu Jin brushed her teeth and washed her face outside with the little water left, and sneaked into her small tent lightly. She let her hair loose, took off her top, and wanted to change into a looser one.

She had just taken off her half sleeve when suddenly a person entered from outside the tent.

The moonlit night was pitch black, Gu Jin panicked, and before she could scream, the man's delicate kiss fell down.He pressed her upper body, which was only wearing a piece of underwear, and kept biting her earlobes and neck with his lips.

An eager and longing kiss, with Gu Jin's most familiar breath.

He put his hand on her smooth and white back, and whispered her name, over and over again, full of hints.

Gu Jin tightly grasped the hand on the edge of the tent out of fear, and then let go of it.

She remembered what Sana said when she said good night to her just now, she said: "When he comes, your flame that was blown by the wind will be rekindled."

The night wind was howling, the waves were rushing, and the tent was constantly blowing, making clear and eager sounds.

Everything happened unexpectedly and unexpectedly.

In the darkness of night, the luster on her body is mysterious, holy, and bewitching.

It seems that she is soft everywhere, with her inherent smell, and it goes straight to the limbs.She was still struggling, her face was flushed, and her hair was disheveled, like a defeated lion.

Pang Zheng grabbed her two arms with his hands, but she twisted and avoided, her hair was tangled up on the wrist watch on his left hand, and she forcibly pulled a dozen strands of hair down, and she burst into tears in pain.Pang Zheng felt distressed, and let go of her slightly, but she hit him more vigorously, her eyes were red, as if wishing him to die.

It was as if he held his breath in his heart, waiting for this chance to vent.

She stopped struggling and didn't hit him anymore, her arms were unconsciously wrapped around his neck, her nose was red, her eyes were dazed, like a child.

Pang Zheng slowed down his movements, and leaned over to kiss her again.

First the eyes, the tip of the nose, the lips, and all the way down, like a very tender lover.

He really, misses her so much.

In the nearly two hundred days and nights when she left him, every time he woke up from his sleep at night and found that there was no one beside his pillow, it was far more uncomfortable than being a young boy when he was single.

In the dream, Gu Jinjiao was soft-tempered, happy and angry, he could even close his eyes and recall every detail of being with her.He knows what she likes, what she resists, and every inch of her body.

But, she wasn't there, and he didn't know where she was.

As if possessed by a demon, from then on, all women became meaningless in his eyes.He sometimes scolds such a worthless self, as if he has hanged himself on her all his life, but after scolding, he hates and thinks about it, and in the end he still has to lift the quilt and get out of bed and go to the bathroom to take a shower .

He still remembered how he ignored her when he got married.

When she moved into his house, he thought she was troublesome, and he frowned as she put all his things into his closet, deliberately ignoring the expression on her face.

Up to now, he is not even willing to throw away the leftover bottle of bath liquid she used at home.

At that time, I was such a jerk.

Therefore, no one could understand Pang Zheng's feelings at the moment when he saw her sitting under the street lamp safe and sound.He suppressed his agitation, excitement, and at the same time resentment at the faint smile on her face.

She still had a good time without him, how could he balance it.

At two o'clock in the morning, the night wind gradually subsided.

An extreme dripping and joyful, exhausting and gluttonous.

The woman's low sobbing also stopped, and Gu Jin curled up on the blanket of the tent, seemingly extremely tired.Her underwear and jeans were thrown around in a mess, and there was an ambiguous and anxious smell in the confined space.

Pang Zheng wiped his shoulders with his hands. There were two rows of deep tooth marks on it, and blood was still oozing out. He scolded her bitterly: "Dogs?"

Gu Jin didn't speak, just curled up tightly and breathed weakly.

Pang Zheng leaned over and rubbed the tip of her nose provocatively.Gu Jin opened his eyes, a pair of eyes were round and pitch black.

Pang Zheng licked the corner of his mouth and smiled, bit her earlobe, and said something that made her face burn.

Gu Jin turned her back to him indifferently, not caring at all that she was naked.Pang Zheng heard her scolding herself calmly.

She really hated him.He was in a good mood, and regardless of her resistance, he took out a loose half-sleeved dress and put it on crookedly for her, took a cigarette and went outside the tent to smoke.

She was still lying there, soundless.Pang Zheng thought for a while, afraid that the wind would blow in the smoke and choke her, so he raised his hand to zip up the tent again.

It seemed that the breath that had been suffocating in his chest had finally dissipated. The waves kept beating against the rocks, and the moist and cool sea breeze blew, refreshing him. Pang Zheng was wearing his gray sportswear during the day, barefoot, and was lazily sitting on the sandy ground. superior.

He smoked casually, squinting his eyes and thinking, the Cape of Good Hope is really a good place.

Raising his hand, he realized under the dim moonlight that there were long bloodstains on the back of his hand, which were all scratched by Gu Jin just now, and it hurt hotly when blown by the wind.He smiled helplessly, touched it with the other hand, and then suddenly suppressed his smile.

There are more than a dozen thin hairs hanging on his wrist.

It was pulled out during the tearing and tearing with her just now. The jet-black hair was wrapped in the middle of the silver watch strap, and it was connected to the root of the hair.Pang Zheng squinted his eyes, put the cigarette in his lips, and began to smoke it with his right hand.

He untied them carefully and patiently, one by one, for fear of breaking them.The strands of hair were hidden among the tiny screws, at the junction of the two chains, it was not difficult to imagine how painful it was when she struggled.

Finally, it's all unraveled.

Pang Zheng twisted the handful of hair between his fingers, and the wind blew by, making people feel itchy.

He knew that she had seen the watch, but she just pretended not to see it, pretended not to know it.

That weekend, he changed the soil for the pot of jasmine that was about to bloom at home. After the change, he planned to go out to the company. The two drawers in the cloakroom were a bit old, and the slides were worn. When pulling the upper drawer, the lower drawer would also be brought out. .

Two tiers of drawers, the upper one for his watch, cufflinks and tie clips, the lower one for her necklace and rings.

He never touched her things, let alone turned them carefully. He pushed the drawer back, but it couldn't be pushed, as if it was stuck by something, he reached in again, and touched into a small box.

Dark green, printed with the crown and ROLEX (Rolex) classic words.

Suddenly, Pang Zheng opened the box, and there was this black submersible and a small beige card inside.A pumpkin grimace was painted on the face of the card with poor drawing skills, resembling Gu Jin's arrogant appearance, and "Happy Birthday" was written under the grimace.

happy Birthday.

He suddenly thought of her performance on the night of his birthday.

She took off the bulky sweater she was wearing and dressed up to attend. She was not used to such bare dresses, but she still pretended to be calm. She snatched the paper bag from him and hid it nervously. She stood with him in a dark room , She gave herself completely to him.

He thought it was her birthday present.

He could even imagine her sneakily stuffing it here, she was too embarrassed to give it away, and couldn't find the right time, so she could only put it here angrily, so that it would never see the light of day.Maybe, she thought she could wait until his next birthday.

Pang Zheng couldn't describe his mood at that moment, as if he was punched hard by someone, as if someone strangled his neck and couldn't breathe.He lowered his eyes and stroked the bright and dark dial, and suddenly realized that during the many days and nights when the two of them lived together in this room, she had probably always been like that, silent, silent, but also deeply affectionate.

Submariner... Submariner...

She knew that he was familiar with water, was passionate about the sea, and even gave such ingenious gifts.

After a cigarette was burned out, Pang Zheng crushed out the cigarette butt, opened the tent, and got in again.Not knowing if Gu Jin was awake or asleep, he wrapped her tightly with a blanket.

"Gu Jin?"

She didn't speak.

Pang Zheng rubbed his nose with his hands, which was his habitual action when he was embarrassed or didn't know how to speak. He bent down and stroked her hair with his hands, and said softly, "I'm sorry."

Gu Jin closed his eyes.

Countless words choked on his lips, and Pang Zheng couldn't speak, and he was embarrassed to speak.He thought for a while, and finally said to her: "Tomorrow morning, Lei Xi and I will take a speedboat to Mount Dakama to take pictures. If it is not dangerous, I will take you to see it when I come back."

Dakama Peak stands on the boundary between the cold and warm waters of the Pacific Ocean and the Indian Ocean.

Gu Jin opened his eyes.

Pang Zheng smiled, he knew what she was thinking: "Don't worry about me."

"Who's worried about you?" Gu Jin closed her eyes, covered her face with a blanket, and said angrily, "It's better to die."

Pang Zheng sighed, and stopped talking, and stroked her thick hair with his hands over and over again, his movements were gentle, as if to atone for himself.

The next day was sunny.

Gu Jin woke up amidst the bright sunlight and the sound of the waves. People kept walking outside the tent. She rubbed her eyes and bent over to go out.

Hu Peng and the others were standing at the foot of a relatively low hillside, seeing off Lei Xi and Pang Zheng.The two of them got the speedboat they didn't know where, and they were wearing life jackets. The bright colors of the life jackets were eye-catching for no reason.

Professor Zhang held the boat bolts for them, and kept telling them: "It's sunny today, and there won't be any big storms in the morning, but you must be careful. Once you get close and find a murderous wave, come back immediately. Don't take chances."

Lacey nodded and agreed, "Don't worry."

Pang Zheng sat in the driver's seat of the speedboat, raised one arm, and slightly bent two fingers, saying goodbye to the people on board.

Wearing sunglasses, white clothes and an orange life jacket, he smiled and waved to her.

Gu Jin stood far away on the hillside, barefoot, she remembered what he said to her a few hours ago, he said: "If it's not dangerous, I'll show you when I come back."

In the east wind in the morning, the wind direction flag behind the speedboat fluttered gently in the wind, spraying black exhaust and driving away.

Gu Jin followed Sana, Hu Peng and the others to pack up the tent, had a simple breakfast, and was silent all the time. She quietly waited for the speedboat to come back.

At noon, the sun was slanting to the west, and the dark clouds gradually covered the sunlight.

The number of tourists coming to the Cape of Good Hope began to decrease, and they were all starting to go back.

Gu Jin stood on the edge of the cliff, raised his head and asked, "Is it going to rain?"

Sana shook her head, and Hu Peng's face became very ugly: "The forecast said that it was heavy rain, and it would only last for an hour."

Gu Jin's hands and feet were cold: "Then will something happen to them?"

No one spoke, it was as quiet as death.

"I hope you come back safely." As soon as the words fell, the sky-shattering thunder crashed down.

The strong wind mixed with raindrops swept across the land at the southern tip of Africa. Gu Jin was dragged and hid under a house, with gray mist in front of her eyes.

After an unknown period of time, the rain stopped and the sun came out again.

A figure slowly appeared on the shore.

In a brown-red coat, Lacey was walking slowly towards them step by step.

Gu Jin broke free from Sana's hand, ran over like crazy, and looked at Lei Xi expectantly: "Where is Pang Zheng?"

Lacey's beard was dripping, and she was drenched, and her forearms were covered in blood from the rope.

He looked deeply at Gu Jin and looked around at the crowd. He didn't know whether it was because of the cold or panic, his muscular body was trembling all over: "The boat capsized when we encountered a murderous wave. He and I...were separated."

There was a bang in Gu Jin's head, and he ran forward without looking back.

She cried out to the calm sea after the storm, and she rushed into the overflowing waves, screaming heartbreakingly: "Pang—zheng—"

Gu Jin felt that her whole body was light, and her eardrums and chest cavity seemed to be sealed due to the pressure. She couldn't hear any sound, and couldn't breathe fresh air.

She was sinking in a daze, her hands desperately paddling forward, without end.

That kind of bone-chilling feeling brought back gradually before her eyes the days when she was a child on the island.

She was hugged by her father and supported her waist. She first stood on the beach, and then slowly walked in. Gradually, the water covered her legs, her waist, and then her neck. Then, she floated on the water, and someone Said in her ear: "Jin Jin, don't be afraid, I'm here."

She plunged into the sea with all her might, seagulls flew in the sky, and the salty seawater rushed into her nostrils. She jumped out of the water and coquettishly discussed with her father: "Dad, I don't want to learn to swim anymore, can we stop swimming? "

"No, how can my Gu Yongming's daughter not know how to swim? Dad is a navy man, and he was born to conquer the sea."

"Then...then you support me, don't let go?"

"Okay, Dad is here, I guarantee you are okay, let's try again, and we'll be home for dinner in a while."

Little Gu Jin tied two croissant braids, clung to her father tightly.

She stood on the bank, hesitating to move forward, and gradually many uncles in white military uniforms came to the bank, and they shook her little hands, encouraging her kindly.

Dad was wearing a blue and white sea soul shirt, and he also looked at her tenderly and lovingly.

The two shofar braids flickered, and gradually ran away from my father's sight.

Gu Yongming told her, you don't think of the sea as your enemy, you imagine it as your friend, in its arms, it can carry you to many places, don't panic.

She got into the water, and little Gu Jin became the most free and happy fish on Nanwang Island.

She loves to swim and has a talent inherited from her father in her bones.She is with the sea every day, and the pebbles and shells on the beach are her best toys in childhood. She once thought that she would live on Namwang Island for the rest of her life.

(End of this chapter)