Indus so hurt

Chapter 16 Chapter three (5)
I just chased after her and cried, half of her leaving, and the other half of her still wearing my favorite checkered shirt.Although my grandma said that I am too tall to wear that dress, I have known the term "fashionable" since I was a child, and I know that I look good when I wear that little shirt as a tights.

That day, only Mo Fan and I were left together.He looked at me, I looked at him, and wept together, crying until the sky and the earth turned pale, the sun and the moon dimmed.

Many years later, my grandma would babble about that day when six-year-old Mo Fan and eight-year-old me cried so hard because Xi Lan left.

However, now I will insist that I am crying for my plaid shirt.Mo Fan, who has entered puberty, insisted that he was crying because Xi Lan took away his only pair of sneakers.

In fact, sometimes, some words can only be regarded as sophistry, to cover up the heartache that I don't want others to know.

And I knew from the moment Xi Lan was taken away that there would never be another child like Xi Lan sitting on the small bench next to Mo Fan, listening to me.

I say one, they believe one, I say two, they believe two.I said that the hen is bigger than the earth, and the weasel is the mother of the Siberian tiger, and they will nod their heads like chickens pecking at rice, as a decree.There will never be such a pair of small hands that can be held by me. If I go east, she will go east. If I go west, she will go west. They will never say no to me.

Thinking of this, I subconsciously looked at my hand, and now it landed empty in front of me.Only the smell of disinfectant in the hospital bypassed my palm and dissipated far away, scattered between Mai Le's slightly furrowed brows, like pain, covering the time called youth.

I covered the quilt for Mai Le and said, then I will go first.If there's nothing wrong with Baichu, I'll come back to see you.Then, I thought for a while, as if explaining, and as if talking to myself, I bit my lip and said, I am really worried about him.I want to chop him up, for a woman, to make myself a ghost.

Mai Le smiled and said, how about you just confess your love tonight?Tell him how much you like him.Hey, Mo Chun, love is such a thing, being passive may not bring you happiness, and being active may not bring you unhappiness.

Ji Rongge also whispered something in my ear, a voice that is neither yin nor yang, yes, what a good time to dig a wall, you let that kid prepare for the wedding, and then on the day of the ceremony, you poison the bride to death, and then you It can justifiably be replaced.How cool!

22 Do you know?I like you, I put you whole in my heart!
Not as Ji Rongge wished.

That night, I did not go to the hospital to look after Xi Lan.

I am most afraid that others will play a parting scene for me in front of me. Every time I see such a scene on TV, my eyes will cry as red as a peony flower, not to mention that this male lead is still the one I like.I worry that when the time comes, I will not be able to distinguish whether my tears are for their lingering and faithful relationship, or for my own bad luck that cannot be loved.

That night, Baichu's phone number kept jumping on the screen of my mobile phone. Fortunately, I had turned it to silent, so I didn't encounter gang fights in the dormitory.In fact, there will be no gang fights. Mai Le is in the hospital, Huang Xiaoshi did not return to the dormitory tonight, and the other two girls don't know where to go tonight.Only me and Qin Lan looked at each other from a distance.

The light from the phone screen shines on my pillow, and I look sideways at the name, bouncing, bouncing, bouncing back and forth.There is a taste of immortality.

I wonder if Baichu's attachment at this time is the same as my attachment to liking him?

Or, Bai Chu and I are really similar people, the kind of people who are out-and-out and immortal.It's just that he is as expensive as silk, and I am as cheap as cattail grass.

At this time, does he want to vent his sorrows with me?I still seem to be quite important to him, and it makes him call me like this without sleep.However, is his only purpose of making the phone call just to express his sadness about losing Xilan?
In this world, at the same time and in different places, are there still girls like me who have been acting as forgetfulness grass and flower of interpretation for those boys they like so much?

However, to make grass also needs sunlight, otherwise it will wither; to make flowers, I don’t want to just be Xieyu flowers, but to be Bingdi lotus.Baichu's phone number finally disappeared in the early morning whiteness, and I also fell into a sleepy dream.

In the dream, Baichu's eyebrows and eyes were so clear, as if she could touch her.

He stood in front of me, tall and thin, like a tree full of flowers, with a bright and piercing smile, he cut my heart like a blade at the moment of sight, and then carved his name vertically and horizontally, with that stroke Winding among the fine lines of my heart, they blended into one, so my heart fell into his name.So, I cried, but he still smiled so brightly.His hand brushed across my delicate forehead, and the curve of his lips was extremely thin, but with a kind of natural bewitchment, he smiled and said, Mo Chun, why are you called Chun?

Yes, Baichu, I don't want to be called Mo Chun either.

If I can be called Xi Lan, I think I can make you look at me more.I didn't live so comfortably, so carelessly, so carelessly, and so strong as you imagined.In fact, I am more meticulous, sensitive, and easily panicked than that girl named Xilan.If I hadn't been burdened with so many worries and pressures in life, if I didn't need to stand in front of Mo Fan as a wall to protect me from the wind and rain, then I would still speak softly, act like a baby, and smile with my mouth clenched , as shy as the dog's tail flower that cannot withstand the cold wind.I know all of these.

However, I have my life, so I have to be strong.

If such strength makes you think that it is a thick wall and makes you use it as a place to pour out your troubles and thoughts, so that you don't care about my feelings, then I would rather quickly Weathered, weathered into a pile of soft sand, buried you in my body, and then let posterity engrave words on the soft sand of this tomb: Mo Chun's Baichu!

When I woke up from this pile of messy dreams, I found that it was already daylight.

I think I should go to see Mai Le, if she is fine, I will take her out of the hospital, stew her little hen every day, mend her body so that there is no trace of wound, and she will always be as complete and complete as before. The stinky fart McLe.

While I was messing around with my hair, I called Qin Lan, who was in the same dormitory, and asked her to help me and Mai Le answer the roll call in class.

Although Qin Lan was hit in the head by Mai Le pushing the door a few days ago, she still agreed.Then, she poked her cucumber-shaped head mysteriously and asked me, I heard that Mai Le was hospitalized, what happened to her?
I didn't even roll my eyes, so I responded lightly and said, when this woman was leading the dance, she twisted off the stage and broke her butt into four pieces.

Seeing that there was nothing to inquire about, Qin Lan packed up her textbooks and rushed out of the dormitory. Before leaving, she blinked her eyes and said, "Greetings for me to the girl whose buttocks fell into four petals."After finishing speaking, I seemed to think of something, and continued to make up. By the way, Mo Chun, I heard people say that you have been in love with a handsome guy who drives a BMW recently?

I snorted twice, looked at Qin Lan's thin and delicate face, and said, Qin Lan, you won't have to worry about finding a job after graduation, it's really good to be a paparazzi.

Qin Lan curled her lips and said, I won't talk to you, a dishonest woman, you are not sincere at all.The sisters want to help you break the barrier of love, not to mention pull it down!After speaking, he slipped out of the dormitory and ran to the dining room.

After I tidied myself up, I left the dormitory, wondering where to buy breakfast for Mai Le.

When I went downstairs, I ran into Huang Xiaoshi. She looked at me and asked, I heard that Mai Le was hospitalized, what's the matter?

I opened my mouth and closed it again.I said, it's nothing, I just fell off while leading the dance at the bar and hurt my butt.

Huang Xiaoshi looked at me incredulously, the corners of her beautiful eyes drooped slightly, and said, oh, but I heard Mr. Qiu said that others said that Mai Le bled a lot at that time...

My heart trembled slightly.President Qiu?Could it be that Huang Xiaoshi is really with him...

Seeing my pensive expression, Huang Xiaoshi realized that she was only in a hurry to know the truth, and said the words without thinking. She smiled and said, oh, I'm not familiar with Mr. Qiu, it's just...

I bowed my head and said, Mai Le is fine, don't worry.I'm going to buy her breakfast and send it over.

When I left, Huang Xiaoshi asked, Mo Chun, do you and Mai Le both hate me?I'm sorry, please forgive me.After you are estranged from me, I don't even have any friends.Mo Chun, I am Huang Xiaoshi, a friend of you and Mai Le, not your enemy!Speaking of this, her voice was trembling.

I stopped hesitantly, Huang Xiaoshi's voice made me unbearable, I said, don't think too much, this girl Mai Le is also fascinated for a moment, thinking that her first love is lost in your hands, that's why she said Like this, she will soon forget it.Don't worry, I'll tell her.

Huang Xiaoshi wiped her eyes and said, then, Mo Chun, take good care of Mai Le.Actually, I really want to see her too.I am very worried about her.When Huang Xiaoshi said the following words, her voice almost fell into her throat, which made me feel uncomfortable.

I looked at her, smiled gratefully, tilted my head, and said, I'm going, you go back and have a good rest.Myle and I will be back for you!After I finished speaking, I was worried that I would be sad again, so I hurried downstairs.

As a result, as soon as we got downstairs, we saw Bai Chu standing downstairs in our apartment. His lake blue shirt set off his quiet eyes, which looked very clear.At this moment, this man was like a rising tide, overflowing the sandy beach of my heart.

He saw me, shrugged his shoulders, and smiled lightly, as if relieved of a heavy burden.I thought he would talk about Xi Lan's condition and other topics that made me dizzy, but he said, seeing you here makes me feel relieved.I couldn't find you last night. I was very worried. I thought something happened to you, so I called Mai Le. She said you went to find me, so I became more worried and looked for you everywhere.Come to school early this morning... It's good that you are here.

After speaking, he coughed lightly and covered his mouth with his hand.Those slender fingers were like flowers blooming on my face, which made me throb with joy, but I couldn't hide my soreness.

He said, it's good that you are here.There is an unbearable tenderness in her eyes.

I thought, how did I fall in love with this man?

On that winter day, he smiled brightly, with black eyes and eyebrows, gentle nose, a charming arc on the corner of his lips when he smiled, and a pair of charming hands under the cashmere coat.In this way, without any warning, my mood was completely messed up, and the melody of spring was dialed out in the middle of winter.

His name is Bai Chu.

Bai and Chu.They are all words I like very much.

So, can he be my favorite person so unreasonably?
What's the matter with you, Mo Chun?Bai Chu looked at me in a daze and asked.

I shook my head and said, nothing.

Bai Chu smiled and said, I don't worry if I know you're fine, so I'll go back.

Turn around after speaking.

The back is like a knife, carved into my pupils.

I suddenly realized that some words, if they have been held back for five or six years, did not lead to some practical changes, they should be said out loud, instead of teasing each other like this Some ambiguous melodies.What's more, I suddenly discovered that I would most likely lose the man in front of me the moment he turned around.Think about it, what if Xi Lan dies and he dies for love again?
So, I suddenly called out his name, and I said, Baichu.

He turned around, looked at me with slightly bloodshot but still quiet eyes, and asked calmly, what's wrong?
I turned my face up, thinking of nothing, not looking at anything, I just said to myself, just like Hu Weile said bravely and fearlessly, Baichu, do you know?I like you, I put you whole in my heart!
Baichu's eyebrows furrowed slightly, and then gently spread out, the expression on his face was still peaceful.He stroked my brow lightly with his hand, and said, why are you still as self-willed as a child at such a big age?

Is this sentence a rejection?He understands my heart, but he is unwilling to accept it.

Therefore, I shouted anxiously, am I not a child, okay?At least I am older than Xilan.How am I inferior to her?Because of you, I learned to draw, and because of you, I pretended to be very good.Now, she will leave this world at any time, I just want to know if I can take her place in your heart.This appearance, is willful?Then you tell me, you tell me, what is not self-willed?What is maturity?

Baichu frowned tightly, and he said, I don't want to discuss this issue with you.I called you last night to tell you that Xi Lan's critical illness was suddenly lifted...

My heart suddenly ached after hearing his words.I looked at him with stubborn and cold eyes.I asked him, holding his arm tightly and asking him, is it that my existence is to hear you tell Xilan's critical illness when you are sad, and then cry with you; when you are happy, to hear you tell Xilan? Blue's getting better, and then laughing with you? !I will always be attached to your love, and will always be just your trash basket, wastebasket!

Baichu looked at me, with broken heartache in his eyes, but he still turned around pretending to be calm, and said, Mo Chun, I don't want you to define the relationship between me and you like this...

I looked at him in pain, how would that be defined?I was originally a worthless person!Now, I confess my love, I am even more worthless!It's just, Baichu, I've liked you since I was 14 years old, do you know that?If you knew, why did you turn a blind eye to me like this?If you don't know, why are you being so nice to me? !Give me the illusion, give me hope!You can reject my feelings, but you can't ignore my feelings!
Baichu's brows were tightly frowned, and her eyes were full of pain.He said, Mo Chun!I don't want you to continue this topic!You don't say any more!

After speaking, he turned around.

(End of this chapter)