Qingcheng I

Chapter 16

So God, will you forgive me for the mistakes I made when I was 13 years old?

Finally, I handed over the love letter that Ye Ling gave to Gu Lang to Gu Lang.

It's just my handwriting.

Saying goodbye to Ye Ling that afternoon, I felt like a thief, stealing her trust and her happiness.In the end, I was determined to hand over this love letter to Gu Lang.

However, without anyone knowing it, I copied Ye Ling's love letter, which was probably the humblest wish of a 13-year-old girl—reviewing Ye Ling's confession, as if I was confessing to him, Gu Lang, I like you.

Alas, Lao Ai taught me to practice calligraphy since I was a child. Is it possible that it is for today, when I can't meet him in the most beautiful way, to meet him with the most beautiful handwriting?
I copied Ye Ling's words verbatim, and I told myself that I was just beautifying this love letter. Anyway, Ye Ling's handwriting is not beautiful, so I just treat it as my friend doing her a favour.

However, at the end of the letter, in the end, I did not leave the name "Ye Ling".Of course, no one's name was left behind either.

I'm still selfish.

Ye Ling anxiously waited for Gu Lang's reply, the more nervous she was, the more sinful I would be.

Hainan Island comforted Ye Ling, if you could fix Gu Lang with a love letter, he would have been dealt with countless times.Now that you've chased her, let's go to the bottom of the boat, don't pretend to be a bitter woman here, the most annoying thing is that you girls want to get it, but you still have to pretend to be uneasy.

What Hainan Island said made Ye Ling blush like chicken blood. However, the revolution has not yet succeeded, and comrades still need to work hard.This is true.

In the following days, every letter Ye Ling wrote to Gu Lang was handed over to me.

And I copied every love letter, put Ye Ling's letter deep under the schoolbag, and handed my re-copied ones to Gu Lang.Many times, when Gu Lang was not in class, I handed the letter to the female version of Crayon Shin-chan and asked her to pass it on for me.

Gu Lang accepted the love letter in a nonchalant manner. In my eyes at the time, I thought it was a kind of acquiescence. Only later did I know that he wanted to decline, but he didn't want to hurt the self-esteem of the owner of the love letter.

That was the clearest period of time in my memory. Every time I handed him a love letter, I saw his smiling expression and the faint corners of his lips.Sometimes he wanted to say something, but he froze when he opened his mouth, so he could only say, uh, the words are beautiful.

His words fell into my mouth like a berry, stained with honey cheese, sweet to the toes.Thinking about it now, what he hesitated to say should be, let me or the person who wrote the love letter give up, because it is really useless and boring.And I took it as encouragement.

During those days, copying love letters became my extracurricular homework.

My mother watched the small lamp on my desk shining outside the door every night, and she was very moved. She often made me some supper to add nutrition or something, and Lao Ai also saw it from the weak back of my desk. The shadow of a talented woman from Tsinghua University and Peking University.If they knew that I was busy copying love letters to boys, they would probably destroy my heart.

However, Ye Ling and I have some differences in aesthetics. She likes Gu Lang's hair, and the love letter says "on the basketball court, they are scattered in the sun, like the silhouette of years"; she likes Gu Lang's eyes , said in the love letter, "Every time I see it, I always feel like a lake full of stars, which will pour into the sky at any time"... But my aesthetic view is different. I think Gu Lang's most touching thing is his smile. And his legs are quite long, and his butt seems to be quite upturned... Hu Dongduo said, I have the potential to become a fan girl since I was a child, and once encouraged me to write BL novels, saying that he would dominate the world of rotten girls, dominate the world, and last forever.

Speaking of which, because of the difference in vision, when copying love letters, I would always criticize Ye Ling's thoughts while daydreaming about the places that attracted me to Gu Lang.Therefore, Ye Ling's love letters are often copied in a mess by me.

For example, she said, "I like to look at your eyes the most. They are like a dark bottomless abyss, which makes people's hearts fall."But at that time, I felt that I liked Gu Lang's nose more, it was so tall, so I made the love letter into "I like to see your nose the most, they are like a dark bottomless abyss, which makes people's heart fall ".

I don't know if Gu Lang was breathless after watching it. Whose nostrils are so big, like a bottomless abyss, and so dark, it must be full of nose hairs.

After a while, there was still no response from Gu Lang.

Ye Ling was in a gloomy mood.I'm also very sad. I think it's because I didn't sign my name, which caused Gu Lang to never hear back?Would he accept it when he knew it was a love letter from the little beauty Ye Ling?
Huba said, forget it, Ye Ling, he is not your cup of tea.No. [-] Middle School has a vast territory, and there are many male students in a big place, so you can look at other things.

Hainan Island sat down on the rostrum and said, don't listen to Huba!Look how promising he is!Without any perseverance, throw it in the Anti-Japanese War era, let alone eight years, before the eight days are up, you will defect to the enemy and betray the country!Then he looked at Ye Ling and said, Gu Helang is not illiterate, right?In case you wrote so many love letters, he is simply illiterate and can't help it.

I was in a hurry, blushed and had a thick neck, and said, nonsense!Gu Lang is the first in the whole grade!Top students are not like what you said!

Hainan Island turned to look at me, a narrow smile flashed in its long and bright eyes, Tudou, what are you in a hurry for!I said Gu Lang, stepped on your tail?You don't like Gu Lang the same as Ye Ling, do you?

I was in a hurry and said, no.

IQ at age 13.There is no silver 300 taels here.

"Yinzi" was finally discovered by Hainan Island. It was a week before the final exam. He went back to school to contact his classmates so that others could help him during the exam.

Jiang Kemeng laughed so hard behind him that his jaw almost dislocated, and expressed that he was willing to help him tide over the difficulties, but he still couldn't help complaining that he didn't study hard and dragged the class down.

Hainan Island was tired of dealing with Jiang Kemeng, so he just sat in my seat.At that time, we didn’t have a popular saying about the right to privacy. Hainan Island was probably just boring for a while, so I fiddled with my schoolbag on the left and looked at my homework on the right.

The thick stack of letters that Ye Ling wrote to Gu Lang appeared in front of his eyes.

After school that day, he called me aside alone, and handed me the thick stack of letters, with cold eyes and an expression of disbelief on his face.

I snatched the letters in surprise, my face turned pale, and this matter finally came to light.

Hainan Island looked at me with sharp eyes, his brows were tightly frowned, his Adam's apple trembled, he didn't know what to say, he was silent for a long time before he opened his mouth, Tianya, Ye Ling...is your friend, isn't she?

I dare not look at him, my heart is so empty, but I want to make a big noise, who told you to touch my schoolbag!After I finished speaking, I ran away.

Hainan Island grabbed me and pushed me to the wall like a little mouse. He forced me over with his whole body. He said, Ai Tianya, why are you doing this!I thought you were just a child, but how could you do this to your friend!

How do I know I will be like this?I hate myself for that too!But I still did it!I'm selfish... I started to cry sadly, but I didn't know how to explain to him that I didn't do it on purpose, I value my relationship with Ye Ling, and I'm not as bad as he imagined.I know that the most loyal boys in Hainan Island hate people who don't have enough friends.

Hainan Island pulled away my hand that wiped my tears, and he said, you didn't give the letter to Gu Lang, did you?

You lied to Ye Ling, right?
You like to lie to your friends, don't you?

You don't consider us your friends at all, do you?
He went from "I to Ye Ling" to "I to them".

I shook my head and cried, and said, no... After saying these three words, I don't know how to say it.

I want to say that I am not a person who looks like a child but has the heart of a witch.The three of you are very important to me, because of Ye Ling, I feel warm; because of you, no one bullies me anymore; because of Huba, our life is much more fun.Because of you three, I am no longer alone, bullied, or isolated.You all mean a lot to me.I didn't lie to you, and I don't know how I did such a thing... So many words, I don't know how to tell Hainan Island.

In the end, I cried and said: I also like Gu Lang.

Hainan Island stayed for a while.He kept saying that I was like a child, and then treated me like a child. He didn't expect that I would like someone so much that I couldn't help it, to the point where I did such an inexplicable and hateful thing to Ye Ling.

He took a deep breath and cursed fiercely, why didn't I think of this!
That day, on the edge of the playground, Hainan Island was leaning against the wall, smoking a cigarette all the time, listening to me crying and telling him the whole thing.The smoke ring spread over his young face, he probably forgave me, he stopped calling me Tianya, but called me Tudou, he said, Tudou, what do you mean, you copied a love letter to Gu Lang again?

I nodded and looked at him blankly.

He looked at me like a child who couldn't eat candy, smiled wryly, and said, but you didn't write your name on it, right?

I nodded again.

He looked up at the sky, his eyes were like shattered glass, and murmured, Potato, do you know that it is hard to be cheated by your friends and calculated to hurt you?

I thought of the innocent Ye Ling, and cried again.

He looked down at me, leaned over, stretched out his hand, rubbed my hair, looked at me very seriously, and said, potatoes, let's stop here!Let's not let girl Ye Ling know, otherwise she will suffer to death.

I nodded desperately, tears streaming down my face.

Hainan Island looked at me, smiled, and said, you are more of a urinal than Huba, Ye Ling should be crying, unlucky boy, for having such a friend as you.

I know, he was joking, but my heart felt as if it had been thrown into the boiling oil, suffering endlessly.

At this point, things should be resolved satisfactorily, right?Hainan Island impassionedly blamed me for insulting my friend, and I also tearfully confessed my deception to Ye Ling.

However, in the world, isn't there still the word "exquisite"?

What is the best?Hainan Island and I are a perfect couple!

Because after a long time, the best in Hainan Island asked me about the best potatoes, are you particularly unwilling?

My best man shook his head and nodded again.

After a long while, the best in Hainan Island said, how about I give you a chance to confess to Gu Lang, and Huba and I will cover for you.Just this one chance, if he chooses you, then God is short-sighted and Ye Lingming is not good; if he doesn't choose you, you won't feel that my brother and I have strangled your young girl's heart.We kept everything from Ye Ling.

I, who was still ashamed just now, unexpectedly nodded my head!
Every time I think back to this superb scene, I always have the urge to travel back, and go back and beat up the self who was crying like rain just now and then smiled, beating me out of shape.

Hu Dongduo once said that because we are all good children, God will forgive our mistakes.

So God, will you forgive me for the mistakes I made when I was 13 years old?

The kind of mistake you make again and again.

(End of this chapter)